Congratulations!

You have died!

That was what greeted me right after I succeeded killing myself. Normally people wouldn't be necessarily happy about being congratulated on a succeessful death, but I certainly am beyond happy. For one not only did I finally free myself from a lot of expectations, but that blue screen can only signify *that* and with *that* I meant being rewarded with possibly some otherworldly power like videogame powers and with it must follow a reincarnation, right?

Anyway let's take a step back so that I can explain my situation. My name is Matt or what has been my name up to this precise moment. I managed to live for 17 years on Earth as someone that never really stood out from the million other humans on the planet. During my childhood I noticed that something about myself didn't really feel *right*.

When I asked my parents if everything is fine with me, they would always just answer that I am a healthy little boy. Even if I felt that statement to be my problem, I didn't confront my parents after all they ought to now what is wrong with me, right?

Weeks then months went by until puberty really kicked in and that was when I really knew what my problem was. At that point it was simple to notice that my more girly behaviour must have had some deeper roots than just my immediate friendbase, which till then had been only girls.

When I asked my parents again, if I really am a boy, they started with a big lecture about my body and that I will be a man one day. Obviously that still left me reluctant to accept, in fact I knew I didn't want to be a man. So it came to no surprise that my conservative educated father completely flipped out and started 'educating' me to accept the correct mindset. My mother would stand by his side and started praying, hoping to remove the demon that is possessing me.

Yes, that was the point I just shut off and repressed any feelings that could be associated with my gender. I would then do my best to fulfill my role as a man, never again talking about my feelings with another person, which is also the reason for many of my failed relationships.

From there on I just drifted by and doing the minimum that is expected from me. Luckily I found happiness in books and cartoons. They opened my eyes to worlds that were completely different to my own with people more understanding. Adventure, Fantasy, Action; it just sucked me in and through them I even managed to find people that enjoyed these stories as much as I did.

Over the years I dived deeper and sought out more stuff and enjoyed videogames, comics/manga and anime to its fullest. Of course I hid my socially rejected hobbies from others to not stand out.

Everything somehow seemed to work out until that annoying feeling came back and it didn't stop. I would slowly start feeling more and more uncomfortable with myself and even started having suicidal thoughts. Obviously there was no one that I could really confide in.

Everyone of my 'friends' were more like acquaintances that either had similar hobbies or were kids of my parents friends and talking about 'feelings' is totally not manly. I knew my parents wouldn't understand me and I certainly didn't would to be rejected by them, even if I had to suffer for it. After my 3rd failed relationship that ended with the words: "I never really get the feeling that I am talking with the real Matt." I was sure that I can no longer go on.

It may sound ridiculous, but at that point I really wished to be in another world in a body more suitable to me. No one to tell me what is expected from me, left do to what I really want to experience. I knew I won't have that option with my current life and went with a drastic measure: Suicide.

So for that reason I found myself grabbing the sharpest knife in the kitchen and ramming it, from below my ribcage upwards, into my heart. It hurt like hell, but instead of crying from the pain I left the world with a happy smile on my face.

It's not like I didn't know there were other options, but I really stopped caring about anything at that point. Explaining myself to my parents would just have been a bother, the school would have ostracized me and I am pretty sure I had no acquaintances left that would have supported me. Troublesome.

So here I have been floating in complete darkness as some kind of glowing white ball for what felt like years. At first I assumed that to be by punishment for committing suicide and just started counting, but that got boring really once you reach a million. Therefore I decided to explore this mysterious world.

No matter what I did, I couldn't really tell if I was moving or not as it as was practically impossible to tell in a world that is completly void of anything except the color black. So I waited and waited and started thinking. Should I have done something different? Yes I should have sought out support from others, people that might have understood my problems. Would have people supported me? Certainly. I could have gone to a therapist. I could have gone for hormonal treatment. But in state of depression I just labeled everything as too troublesome and lived on as I had been.

So with time slowly I came to accept my death and waited for a chance to live another life. Incidentally I uttered the following words: "I wish I could just reincarnate." Not even a second later and suddenly the very first blue screen greeted me.

Congratulations!

You have died!

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Configuring new character sheet....

Done. Please proceed with the character creation. World: - Time: - Body: - Special Options: -

This is unbelievable. If I didn't know for a fact that my suicide attempt left me to die for real, I would have questioned whether this is real. Now I am pretty sure this must be some form of karma to compensate me for my last life. Of course I jumped right into it and looked at all the options and alone the world list was gigantic. From random generated worlds filled with mana, ki, qi, chakra to videogame and anime worlds; the list just went on and on without an end. I had to really think this one through now, if I plan to live for more than 17 years. First of all I ignored all worlds that I either didn't recognize or I knew almost nothing about. Then I removed all worlds whose threat level is way too high, like many of the zombie apocalypse worlds. After that I had to decide on between 11 different worlds and decided on worlds that I read fanfictions about. My reason for that is actually pretty simple. I am hoping to recreate abilities that were used on them and use their perspective on certain characters to my advantage. Which left me with the following: Naruto, Harry Potter, One Piece and the xanxias Coiling Dragon and I Shall Seal the Heavens.

To be honest I decided against the cultivation stories as I did plan to be reborn female, which only spells trouble in those worlds. Harry Potter also disappeared from the list as Pureblood society seemed to favor males by a lot. After that I removed One Piece for only one reason: I wanted to get an ability to travel to different worlds. I may now not be able to visit all these fantastic worlds, but once I can travel to another world that would be a totally different story. And with that I choose the Naruto world obviously during the peaceful time the maincast lived in. So with I fully concentrate on those options as at the moment I don't really have any hands to use. Somehow being a glowing ball is more inconvenient that I first assumed.

Please proceed with the character creation. World: Narutoverse Time: Peace Time Body: - Special Options: -

For a body there are not many suitable options. I have to choose between all the random civilian families or decide between the two clan heiress. Therefore I took the option for Hinata Hyuga, the Hyuga Heiress. My reasons are pretty simple. If I reincarnate into the Narutoverse I obviously want to somehow turn into a ninja, or shinobi as they call themselves, and want to be a capable one at that. Civilian families have a distinct disadvantage, or atleast as it is often said and implied in the story. They lack the higher chakra amount and inherinted bloodline powers of the clan families. That leaves me with Ino Yamanaka, the Yamanaka Heir and Hinata Hyuga. Between the Yamanaka family and Hyuuga family I went for the Hyugas, because of their bloodline: the Byakugan. The Byakugan is said to grant the user almost perfect 360° vision as well as allow the user to perceive the chakra and its pathway of others. Seeing chakra took a higher priority for me than learning limited mind techniques, since I plan to experiment with it. It's a shame that I couldn't create a custom body...

Please proceed with the character creation. World: Narutoverse Time: Peace Time Body: Hinata Hyuga Special Options: -

Special Options... Larger chakra reserves, perfect chakra control, double chakra nature, triple chakra nature, ... This is getting way out of hand. There are even options to inherit multiple bloodline powers.

Let's focus for a moment. What I don't want is to turn into some kind of freak show and attract too much attention, especially not unwanted attention of mad scientists. As a result I may want to choose something more undetectable. In the end I went with something completly unrecognizable by the locals and voted for my trusty blue screens: Gamer Option. It apparently quantifies my body and its energy into numbers, accessible for me. Unfortunately it does not include stuff like instant learning from skillbooks, different dimensions to grind in, an infinite inventory and access to energy types that my body did not have from the beginning (e.g. Mana).

Please proceed with the character creation. World: Narutoverse Time: Peace Time Body: Hinata Hyuga Special Options: Gamer Interface

Creating character...

Title unlocked! Hyuga Heiress

Title unlocked! Reincarnated Soul

Oh! So many shiny titles! Hopefully they provide some kind of power boost while equpped. Can't wait to look at my status screen. Maybe I will even get another boost.

The Rabbit Goddess heard your pleas and turned you into her champion! Champion of the Rabbit Goddess

Wait! What is this?! Rabbit Goddess? Like as in Kaguya Otsutsuki the mad woman that tries to bring peace to humanity by robbing them of their free will? I don't want to be her champion! Please something is wrong with the system!

Everything will be alright~ :)

Did that blue screen just make fun of me?!

Transfering conciousness...

NO! Please wait! Return! NOOOOooooooo.....