“Emily, you could’ve gotten a better position at that company.”
I looked into her glistening blue eyes as she smiled, her aura shone brighter.
The emanate pause as we both stared at each other felt longer than it was.
“... You even went as far as getting into my department. You don’t have to keep following me”
Her every move felt majestic even as she flicked her brown hair as it blew and flowed with the soft breeze that blew as if it was an extension of the world in of itself.
“Why? Why do you keep doing this, you could do so much better but yet you still hold back yourself to stay at my side”
Her sky-blue eyes stared at me with anticipation making the evening park sky feel brighter than it was.
A high rush of wind blew past us as she was ready to speak, leaves rustling and the trees shivering along. The wind blew past her words, coming clearer as I stood there.
“Because I love you, Stephan”
I stood there blank-minded, deciding to say the first thing that came to mind.
The first thing on my mind was…
*
As I laid there on my bed. thinking of my distant yet regretful past, I couldn’t help but remember Emily.
Even though I regretted not answering her confession toward me, she never stopped or gave up showing me how much she cared. But I couldn’t accept it, nor do I have the right to.
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I couldn’t bear thinking over thoughts, but my brain wouldn’t move on nor would my heart stop hurting.
Maybe I should take a sick day tomorrow.
*
I lay there restless and sleep-deprived to hear a knock on my door. I felt that if I left them to knock and ring my bell long enough they'd go away, but that dream never came true.
I reluctantly got off the bed
*Rolled off the bed*
Penguin walking toward the door, even telling who it was already just by their persistence and love to annoy me.
I opened the door to hear a worried voice.
“Stephan, are you ok”
My barely open eyes stared at a gleeful Emily shouting in the hallway. I rubbed my eyes as my just-awoken brain tried processing the situation.
“Tone it down, I have neighbors you know”
I said as I walked back inside to flop back down on my bed. But no matter how hard I tried or wanted to ignore her and leave, she held my still-asleep hand and kept asking if I was ok.
The more I wanted to forget the situation, the more she insisted on caring for me. The more, the less, or even the more I tried to lose her interest in me it never faded away.
All I could ask myself was why she chose me, there are better people yet she chose me, A clumsy, hopeless guy.
I wiped my morning eyes and turned back around facing her, now wide awake and thinking somewhat straight.
“Why me, Why do you keep insisting on following me, caring for me, trying to get me to be with you, Why!”
“Beca-...”
“Nothing, it's nothing at all I just wanted to give you this”
She handed me a bag of pills she bought for me and tried walking out the door. I couldn’t stand the sight of her anger nor did I want to be the cause of it. It sank my heart, hurting me every step she took away from me.
I grabbed her arm before she had the chance to slip away. As she looked back at me in shock our eyes connected, her sky-blue eyes met with my chestnut brown eyes as her bright personality equaled mine.
I pulled her closer, hugging her and holding her close as if I was afraid to lose her forever as if I never wanted her to leave in the first place. As if I wanted to protect her from getting drained by me.
“D-Don’t leave…”
She didn’t say a word or even try moving her mouth. She just sank into my arms, warming my soul. Her arms wrapped around my body and came closer to me.