I clung onto papa as he carried me home, I lied when I told them I was fine, when in reality I wasn't. I was shaking from fear, I was scared and still in pain. I didn't know what dad planned to do to Dabi but I honestly didn't care at this point. We got to the house and walked inside. I was placed on the sofa and I instantly curled up into a ball.

Shinso and Eri ran over to me when they saw me, questioning me like crazy, asking me if I was ok. I get that they were worried but their questions were pissing me off, I had a headache, I was tired, and I didn't feel like answering a bunch of questions. I groaned and turned on my side, hoping they got the hint. I think they did cause Shinso told Eri I needed some time and father had told them that I was indeed ok.

I laid there with my knees to my chest, sniffling quietly. I felt violated, even if I didn't get touched, his hand prints were now burned into my thigh, and I hated that. I don't know if I will ever wear shorts, a dress, or skirts… it's pants for now on, I don't want anyone knowing about this. I only told my dad and papa because I figured it was important they know. I didn't know what dad was doing to Dabi, but honestly I didn't even care at this point.

I must have fallen asleep at some point because the next thing I knew, Shinso was carrying me to my room. I laid my head on Shinso's shoulder and mumbled, "can you bring Eri to my room please?"

"Why don't you wait till tomorrow? You need sleep," Shinso says, opening the door to my room.

"I wanna apologize for being rude earlier," I explain as he lays me on my bed.

"She understands, father explained it to her," Shinso says, as I sit up.

I sigh, "please Shinso?"

Shinso shakes his head, "in the morning, now get some sleep. " he says, turning off the light and closing the door. I roll my eyes and lay down, falling asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.

I woke up the next morning, all the events rushing back to me, tears fell down my face as I brought my knees to my chest, sniffling softly. I knew I needed to get out of bed, but I couldn't bring myself to move, it was weird, I wanted to move, but my body wouldn't obey.

I heard a knock on the door and I tried to tell them to come in but I couldn't speak…? It was just like when I couldn't make myself get out of bed, it was a real weird feeling, and I didn't know what was going on, but if I told anyone they would think I'm crazy.

They continued to knock and after a few minutes I gave up on trying to speak and hoped they would just come in anyways. Thankfully, they did open the door, and peeked their head in after a few minutes, frowning when they saw me awake, probably because I didn't say they could come in.

"Y/N? Are you ok?" My dad asks, as he sits down on the edge of my bed. I nodded my head, not sure how to tell him what was going on, it felt like all my motivation to even live was gone? It was hard to explain.

My dad nods, probably not believing me, "are you hungry?" I shake my head, I didn't even feel like moving, I highly doubt I could get myself to eat. This really sucked because I wanted to go see Kiri. I missed him greatly, plus I wanted Shinso and Denki to be reunited.

Dad frowns, "alright, but you're gonna have to eat soon. " I just nodded to show him I understood, and he got up, "I'll be back to check on you later, " he said, walking out and closing the door.

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I sighed and laid back down, going back to trying to figure out what was wrong with me, my mind wandered to my thighs, and I felt tears in my eyes, I must have been crying. What's wrong with me? Am I broken? I feel broken. I didn't want to be broken, I wanted to have a purpose in life.

A few hours later, I finally managed to get out of bed and walked to the door, but once I got to the door, I didn't have the motivation needed to put my head on the handle. I groaned and banged my head against the door, wondering what was wrong with me. The only thing I could do was stand there, staring at the door handle?

I didn’t know what was wrong with me so I put all my will into opening the door handle...but I couldn’t? I sighed and just leaned against the wall, closing my eyes, scooting down to the floor. I sat there for what seemed like hours but was probably only a few minutes when there was a knock on the door, “come in,” I mumbled.

Shinso opened the door and walked in, “Y’N?”

“Down here,” I mumble, tiredly.

Shinso looked down and frowned, “what are you doing down there?”

“I went to open the door and lost all motivation, so I just sat down on the floor.”

“What do you mean you lost all motivation?”

“I don’t really know how to explain it.”

“Alright then, anyways why don’t you come down for lunch?”

“I don’t feel like getting up,” I sigh.

“You have to eat something Y/N.”

“Yea, yea, I know,” I groan.

“Come on, if you come down and eat then I’ll ask dad about going to see your friend.”

My face lights up and I close my eyes, slowly standing up. I opened them and grabbed the handle, stopping, “come on Y/N, this is needed if you wanna see Kirishima,” I mumble to myself, as I slowly manage to open the door. I smiled as I managed to open it, and I saw Shinso smile as well, he was probably glad I was going downstairs to eat.

I made my way downstairs with Shinso, not expressing any emotion. It’s not like I didn’t want to express emotion, I just didn’t feel like it? If that makes any sense. I saw Shinso frowning out from the corner of my eye, but I just shrugged it off and sat down at the table.

Dad sat some soup down on the table and smiled, “glad you’re out of your room.”

“Yea ok,” I reply, ladling some soup into my bowl.

“What’s wrong?” papa asks, frowning.

“Nothing,” I shrug, as I slowly began to eat.

Eri tugged on dad’s shirt, “is Y/N ok?”

“Yea she is,” dad says, looking at me, and by the look in his eyes, he was lying so she wouldn’t be upset.

We ate in silence, all you heard was the clinking of silverware, until Shinso broke the silence. “Dad, papa, can Y/N and I go into the woods to this castle we’ve found?”

“A castle?” Eri asks, her eyes lighting up.

“What for?” Dad asks.

“There’s this guy living there with a bunch of his friends that I enjoy talking to, and Shisno here has a friend there too,” I explained softly.

“Oh yea! Sounds fun!” Papa exclaims, causing Eri to giggle.

“We’re coming through, just to make sure y’all stay safe,” dad says.

“You mean I get to see a castle?” Eri asks, excitedly.

I give a small smile, “thanks dad, papa.”

“If it makes you happy then that’s all that matters,” dad says, “we can go tomorrow after breakfast.”

I nodded and stood up after I’d finished eating, “I’m gonna go up to my room to sleep, I’m tired, see y’all in the morning.” I mutter, walking off. I got to my room and laid down, yawning, I fell asleep instantly.