CHAPTER 36: MY FEAR
My Fear
| closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. Lucien arrived much faster than | anticipated and | wasn't
able to clean up anything. | was still naked
under the covers and the bed was a mess for obvious reasons.
| heard the sound of the door opening and then closing. Lucien is probably standing in this room right
now. What should | do...should | wake up? Or
should | continue pretending that I'm asleep?
| heard his soft footsteps as he approached the bed and soon the bed creaked a little under his weight
as he sat down on the side of the bed.
“Wake up, Natalia,” he whispered into my ear before kissing my temple. What was it that | sensed in his
voice? Worry...and perhaps a little anger?
“Lucien...?” | spoke his name in a drowsy whisper as | pretended that | had just woken up.
“How are you feeling? Edward called me late last night to tell me that you were sick. | was going to
come over right away but he insisted that you
needed to rest up first,” Lucien asked me as his warm hand slowly stroked my head. This was so
comforting and at the same time it made me feel so
guilty.
Instead of lying to him about my sickness or confessing the truth to him about my emotional breakdown
and the reason for my spat with Edward, |
decided to remain as truthful as possible by telling him about my disturbing nightmare. After all, the
nightmare did make me feel sort of ill.
“To be honest, I've been having a strange nightmare lately and because of that | haven't been sleeping
well...” | started to explain to him.
“Do you want to tell me about your dream?” Lucien asked gently. If Natalia is having nightmares on
repeat it might be linked to her fear. Perhaps |
should get a skilled psychiatrist to help her? Lucien thought to himself silently.
| began to describe my dream of being lost in the middle of a dark forest in the rain to Lucien. He
listened intently and expressed his sympathies for
me. He showed no indication that he is familiar with an event where | went missing or got lost in a
forest. So, as | half expected, the event in my dream
probably did not occur in real life after all.
“Could it be your fear of the forest and the wilderness that is plaguing your dreams?” Lucien suggested
after hearing me out.
“Perhaps. | don’t remember why | hate being in the wild so much though.
Nothing like the event in the dream happened to me before, right?” I had to ask just to make sure.
“I don’t recall anything. You’re a city girl after all. Why would you get lost in a forest? I mean, we do
have a pretty large
garden in the family compound, but it clearly does not resemble a forest,” Lucien was firm in his
answer. He really seemed like
he couldn’t believe that I could ever get lost in a forest given that I never headed out to one in the first
place. I guess he is
right. I have to start letting go of my fears.
“I guess you're right. I’m truly sorry for worrying you,” I apologized for causing him trouble once again
and for not being able
to tell him the whole truth. This is the property of Nô-velDrama.Org.
“Rest up here and please come home at once. I will arrange some sessions with an outstanding doctor
who can consult you
regarding your nightmares. You look tired, you need to sleep better,” Lucien said to close the
conversation before getting up
from the bed. Glancing back once at me on the way to the door, he looked like he was about to say
something. However, in the
end, Lucien left without uttering another word.
Phew! That was close. Lucien is right, I need to rest up now...
Edward was sitting on the sofa in the living room sipping tea when Lucien walked out of Natalia’s room.
“Lucien, good morning. How’s Natalia?” Edward asked after greeting his brother.
“She’s doing well. Thanks to you for taking such good care of your niece,” Lucien replied smoothly.
“I’m glad to here that she’s feeling better. I’ll take her back home later,” Edward volunteered.
“There’s no need to trouble you. Reiner will drive her back,” Lucien stated in a flat voice leaving no
room for negotiations.
Edward bit his tongue.
“Reiner. Help Natalia clean up when she gets home. I feel like she has been a bit dirtied...” Lucien’s
deep voice instructed
Reiner. Then he left.
Did Lucien pick up on what happened between Natalia and I? Judging from his reactions, he is slightly
suspicious but not yet
sure. I’m sure Reiner has not reported anything of the sort either. Lucien would never believe that
Reiner is in league with me
which is probably the last saving grace in all this. We all have to take extra care from now on.
In the back seat of his luxurious Rolls-Royce, Lucien was trying to get a hold on what just happened as
he stared at the passing
scenery. Something is bothering Natalia for sure. She looked tired, weak and sleep deprived which
means that the story about
her nightmare was most likely true. That can be fixed with some counselling. What was much more
concerning was the smell of
a man on Natalia’s skin that I sensed when I kissed her temple. The room smelled weakly of sex as
well. It could be my
imagination but there must have been a man in Natalia’s room up until recently.
It is still groundless speculation at this point. After all, Reiner had nothing to report regarding this topic.
The possibility of Reiner
colluding with Edward to keep this from me is very slim, although, still there. Over thinking this is not
going to lead me
anywhere. I left Edward with a warning already; let’s see if he heeds that warning well. My only fear is a
change of heart on
Natalia’s part regarding the person she loves, which is very unlikely. As long as Natalia doesn’t love
anyone besides me, I
couldn’t give two fucks...
--To be continued..