Hmm...

What?

I'm back? How so? I don't feel any different, nothing has changed either. I still have no body, or any sense of existing. I remember steadily losing myself in the lack of awareness, but now I'm back.

[LISTEN HERE MORTAL, YOU HAVE GREATLY DISAPPOINTED ME.]

I have? I always did my best, I learnt from my mistakes and let go off unnecessary emotions.

My friend, could you explain to me what you mean by that.

[SILENCE FOOL, I AM THE ONE WHO SPEAKS.]

[I THE GOD OF FATE AM NOT YOUR FRIEND NOR WILL I EVER BE.]

[I HAVE BEEN TESTING YOU THROUGHT ENTIRE LIFE, SENDING OBSTACLE AFTER OBSTACLE AT YOU. TRYING TO TEMPER YOU INTO THE IDEAL HUMAN, TO PROVE THAT BY CONSTANTLY FORCING A HUMAN THROUGH HARDSHIPS AND STRUGLES THEY CAN BE CHANGED. OR SO IT WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN, YET YOU REFUSED TO CHANGE, YOU REFUSE TO TAKE ACTION AGAINST THE INJUSTICE OF THE WORLD, YOU SIMPLY WENT ON WITH YOUR LIFE. AS IF NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.]

So you were the one who did that? Well...

I guess there's no more meaning in thinking about that. I'm already dead.

[...]

[SEE! THAT IS WHAT I SPEAK OF. EVEN AFTER LEARNING THE TRUTH YOU TAKE NO MEASURES AGAINST ME. YOU SHOW NO SIGNS OF ANGER OR HOSTILITIES OF ANY SORTS TOWARDS ME.]

Why should I? It will only get in the way of my decisions. Getting angry Never fixes anything. One should instead face the reality and move on with life. If you can do something about it, to make things better.

Good. If not get over it, life isn't over.

[I ALSO KILLED YOU. HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL. NOT ONLY HAVE I TOYED WITH YOUR LIFE, BUT I ALSO CHOOSE TO END YOUR LIFE LIKE THE BUG YOU ARE. NOW, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT?]

That there must be something you further want me to do or do with me. If you had to go through the trouble of torturing me only to later kill me and then have this conversation with to me. That’s the only reasonable and logical explanation for this.

[YOU, AS ALL LIVING BEINGS, HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE THE WORLD YOU LIVE IN. TO MAKE A BETTER TOMOR-]

Excuse me but, will you just get to the point already. All this ambiguity in your speech is really getting on my nerves. You may think you sound mysterious with your loud booming voice and unclear explanations, but it’s just delaying all of this.

[WATCH YOUR TONE MORTAL. I COULD HAVE EASILY KILLED YOU AND-]

Yes, well you did. You just admitted to toying with my life, you also already killed me and there was a reason for all of this. You must obviously want me to do that you cannot personally do, and hence the need me for a middleman. I am necessary for whatever plans you may have and going by this logic, considering that I have already died once and wasted my life’s work, I call the shots, not you. So will you skip the threatening appearances and tell me the reason behind trying to "prove" whatever your point is so that we both can get this over with...

[…]

[…]

[Fine you win old man. Jeez. No one has ever taken that attitude towards me. So firstly, as I already mentioned I am the god of Fate. As you could imply, I see all the possible realities and outcomes within my territory. Now the main reason I made your life into what it was and speak to you now is because I got into an argument with a fellow god.]

[He believes that humans are a chaotic species that brings nothing but destruction. That your race is naturally born to bring ruin, as you all cannot do any good.]

Okay, I thank you for not ‘BOOMING’ your way through your dialogue, but I would have preferred if you started with an apology for killing me instead. It’s just basic manners you know. But ignoring that, why go through the trouble of doing all this only for a petty disagreement?

[You may think this is silly... Well, so do I.]

[Either way I decided I needed a sample, specifically one outside of us gods control. To prevent said fellow from interfering. Fortunately this specific reality revolves around a primal energy or black hole as you call it, which might I add, makes us gods incapable of traveling here.]

[So I manipulated your possible future to result with my desired outcome. With this I would prove that although the human race may be or become vile and greedy, they are more than capable of changing their ways. However you quite honestly proved the opposite, that humans can remain as they are no matter what. This of course put me in a great dilemma.]

How so? Wouldn't I just prove that humans won't necessarily stray of their path just with a little trouble.

[Well, you see. You aren't the first one that I attempted to temper, in fact I already tried dozens of times with other people. It always resulted the same. They either became criminals out of sheer desperation or they just eventually killed themselves.]

[Despite so I refused to give up. I eventually stumble upon you. You were different, you always remained calm and collected. You never let yourself be taken over by anger, and you remained always with your goals on sight. I though I done it, I had found the perfect subject to prove my point.]

Is that so?

[I thought so, but I was wrong. I couldn't change you no matter how hard I tried, you just ignored and kept going on. I tried over and over, but it continually got harder to interfere with you. You learnt from your mistakes and took measures to not repeat them again, I couldn't do much to begin with. Your country is already too stable, no constant conflict or any plague of the sort. They had an acceptable law enforcement, available medicine and doctors, advanced engineering and scientific knowledge, and a functioning government. ]

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[You kept handling yourself better and always remaining aware of your surrounding. Eventually I choose to take drastic measures, but even then it only worked once or twice. Yet you never did anything in particular against anyone or anything. You just reported it to the authorities, took note of all this for future reference and went on your way. So we eventually ended with you as before you died.]

...

[...]

[... *ahem* So anyways, I couldn't prove my point and simply choose to end this mockery.]

...

... Well. I'm not sure what to say.

So. What happens now?

[I... I don't know. I ended yours and every other persons involved life's, yet I never managed to prove anything.]

[I guess... I wasted my and everyone else's time.]

[Ha-ha. Some gods have even started calling me names, making a mockery out of this whole situation. Many have started to call me the God of Hate because of the way I lashed out against you and the other ones. I have even gotten on the bad side of gods who claim fall under the more "noble" side of matters. What a bunch of hypocrites.]

[I guess the real question is what is it that you want to do? I already know what I wil do afterwards.]

Can I get a second chance? This time without you gods interference.

[Why should I? You had your life, some don't even get the chance. Just because I'm a god doesn't mean I can just start handing out a new life to those who didn't get a good life. Besides its not even my job, not to mention that doesn't happen on this reality, all people are simply recycled back. This reality will reject me and my actions here. I would have to get you out of here to a more manageable dimension or something.]

Why not just try, I won't barrage you with complaints of any sort or bring you any trouble later on. Besides don't you think you own this to me? You interfered with my life since before I was born, prevented me from exiting poverty, made this only get worse only to then kill me just because you gave up on yourself.

[You know you aren't the only one right? Its unfair to just give you a second attempt at life and ignore the others and before you say it. I can't do it for the everyone else too. I might be able to get away with a single one, but that's about it.]

Unfair?...

Haha ha aha. When have you ever been fair to any of us? Why us and not someone else. Maybe already criminally involved fellows, instead of bystanders.

Also considering you said this isn't a place were you should be interfering to begin with, you know with the primal black hole thing.

Look I'm not asking for fairness okay, neither will I bother to judge you or condemn you. Just give me a second try at life without your interference.

[Fine, but I will choose yo-]

Don't try to make me do your work, as that's well within the terms of non-interference. Neither should you modify me or try to give me some blessing, curse, power or whatever you wish to call it.

I just want to have a simple life, I don't want power, I don't want women, and neither do I want anything of what you can offer besides a second chance.

[???]

[Why should I listen to YOU. What gives you the right to order me around?]

For starters you probably still want to prove your theory right. So what I will do is find you a subject to test on, and hopefully you will succeed this time.

[Couldn't I just retry using you again to try a second time?]

Honestly, if it didn't work the first time I doubt it'll work a second time. Especially not when I'm currently aware of it and further decide to take pre-emptive measures against you or any other possible danger. If I still can't, well I don't mind dying early. I had a life already.

So in short, you can't do anything else to hurt me. Your options on the other hand are limited, and you still wouldn't want to be wrong. Combining this with the distinct lack of results from your side and my never changing attitude, I might succeed where you have failed.

Just don't interfere with me, don't give anything that might bring trouble later and you don't contact me. I will contact you, how, simple I'll just say out loud that I wish to contact you while I pretend to pray or something..

[... *sigh* Fine, I'll only give you the bare minimum to only properly exit this dimension to a weaker one were your more stable existence won't be overwritten, allowing you to remember as good as you would if you were still alive.]

[Is that good enough for you?]

Is technology as advanced, will I be in same conditions as my previous life? Are the laws of physics or anything else proven in my world working there? Will my knowledge even apply there anymore?

[...]

Well?

[No, no, not always and lastly I can't really say.]

Fine. As long as I get a second chance I will still try to cope with the rest myself.

[Okay... this has taken too long. Are you ready?]

I am.