Chapter 10 The end that will be the new beginning.

I can't bring myself to love me. So I believe in that promise. But he doesn't love me and he doesn't exist. So I don't need him. I control me and nothing holds me back.

Well I was right about figuring this thing out and I would escape for the most part. Since I was just standing in front of the eiffel tower a minute ago. Now I'm in darkness. There is no one there and a cement ground below me.

I guess this is where atheist go since they don't believe in God and those who believe in nothing. This doesn't seem like a bad place at all. I wouldn't mind having my life end here.

I wonder if I can create something here. Since this is like a blank canvas. So I can think or wish for something and see it. Okay I'll try it. I have nothing to lose and literally nothing.

But before I did I looked down expecting to see my ghoul form. But there was only darkness. I was black mist that had shape. The shape of a human body. But all it was is an outline. I moved my arm to touch my face and the mist of my hand went through my face.

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I took it out and tested my theory about everything being a blank canvas out on my body. I though about my past human form I could bearly remember. Once I looked at myself again I had that body but no clothes on. I then realized I had to make the clothes. So I imagined myself in a blue dress and I had one on.

I experimented with it. I tried out different clothes and body shapes. Then I found one that fit me best. I felt I could be a new person.

I had a similar body, face to my original one. Except I had a clean shaven man's face and no breasts.

I was a man, but I didn't mind in the least. I look and sound so much better. I did enjoy being nothing better than my human and ghoul shape. I wasn't anything. No gender, no sex, no rules, expectations, and no more lies.

This form suited me best and I say myself as a man. But more importantly as someone I could grow to love. I could finally love myself.

I don't right now but I will one day. That's enough for me. How about I change the scenery now.

I want to live my days quietly and how I like. So I picked a nice country place with a house. Maybe someone I can fall in love with nearby.

It's just how I imagined I feel finally at peace. I see a stranger in the cottage nearby. I'm standing on a hill in a t-shirt and shorts. It's a little windy, it's fall weather just not chilly yet. The plants haven't all died yet. You can see a few leaves going brown.

I'm standing on a little hill, I can see a small City. No, it looks more like a village. I can make a life here. The man I say in that cottage looks friendly. I'll go say hi.

Well I'm off living how I want with who I want. I'm a free man and pretty happy with myself. I'll live my life and everybody can live theirs. Well I better get to it. Who knows what happens at the end. And who really cares.