I've been figuring how to accumulate enough energy to use in breaking the seal but I seem to have hit a brick wall on that. For some reason my body can't accept any of the scarce energy in the outside world. It was probably inputted as part of the sealing conditions because that energy must be part of what my powers need to work.

That'd mean the first and only time I did manage to use my powers I didn't use any of that energy meaning I probably was already using my soul flame back then which means even back then I was already depleting my life energy.

And since I've become more sensitive to energy I've noticed that all my blood and body part are using the life energy from my soul flame which means that every drop of blood and body part taken from me uses some of my life energy and then for them to regrow meaning I am constantly burning through my life energy almost every waking moment.

"This is bad." I whisper to myself as I let out a sigh. Life looks really bleak for me at his point, if it even had colour for me in the first place.

'Back to the drawing board then.'

Another 20 years later…

I've finally done it, I've found a way to accumulate energy to use to break the seal. I came up with the idea to let my blood and body parts do the accumulating after getting detached from me and thus detached from the seal.

I put in instructions like my thought formation process into my body that whenever it any part of me detaches from the main body it starts to absorb the energy from the energy present in the air since it is already detached from my main body that has the seal on it and can't absorb the energy present in the air and when life energy in that detached part reaches a critical level it uses the rest of the energy to search for me and sends the energy towards my direction and since it has been in contact with my life energy it has some of my energy's similarities that the seal can't determine so the energy gets accepted into my body and I start converting it to pure life energy.

There is just one problem, it is to slow and the ratio requirement isn't helping matters and conversion of the energy is taking way too much out of me.

At this rate it is going to take me a over a thousand years to accumulate enough energy to use to break the seal.

'Hard days are ahead of me but I shall make it to the end.'

60 more years later…

It just keeps getting worse. I went through another soul reincarnation a while ago and I realized I must not go through another if I plan to break the seal because when going through the soul reincarnation I lost control of all that accumulated energy.

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I only managed to hold onto some of the energy with my spirit form and I can't keep doing that every soul reincarnation.

It seems I'd have to hold off soul reincarnation and use some of the accumulated energy to keep my soul and body alive because after going through the last soul reincarnation it popped up in my memories that I should also go through body reincarnation but I've been holding it off as I don't know what would happen if I did it.

There seems to be a side effect of doing that though. It seems the longer I hold off the body reincarnation the more pain accumulates in my body and it is likely that the same thing would happen once I start holding off the soul reincarnation so my situation seems to be only getting worse.

I decided to start doing something I've been putting off for a while now. Ever since the second soul reincarnation I've managed to be able to get my spirit form to connect to my powers and use them but only inside my mind.

I'd start exploring and training with my powers and with the sword as I seem to have a connection with it as I think it's better if I start now because if the pain from all the torture keeps accumulating I wonder how long I can hold on before I stop being able to move from the accumulated pain.

500 years later…

I've been training and exploring with my powers for so long but I think there is still quite a lot to uncover since I don't know what exactly I'm looking for but I'm going to keep at it.

The pain has also been accumulating a lot but and it hurts like hell every waking moment but my tolerance has increased to the pain quite a bit so I think I can still hold on for a while longer.

The warring periods on the outside world seems to have been dropping quite a bit for a while but I don't know what has been happening on the outside world for a long time. I've been trying to develop a technique to connect my senses to the people outside that have some sort of contact with my life energy through any means but that's going to take a lot if work as my work isn't getting easier.

Humanity is still developing new ways to bring me pain and they have even started using me to test some weapons like last week I got shot with some kind of huge arrows. They called them giant crossbows and those hurt quite a bit but what else is new?

'I'm still holding on as there is light at the end of the tunnel, there always is.'

Another 500 years later…

It's quite crazy what I can do with the swords nowadays. I think my connection with the sword is crazy or maybe it just comes naturally from using and training using a sword for over a thousand years.

Nowadays only the fact that I'm getting stronger even while in chains gives me the motivation to keep going as it's gotten so hard to even think under the pain even though the strength is just in my mind.

I also managed to advance on the creation of the sharing of senses technique, it seems to be only a few more years till it's functional. Humanity seems to be advancing well on destroying themselves and causing me more pain along with it.

They've been researching something called firearms and those things explode and they hurt,… a lot. I know because i got to taste gunpowder live and direct. The worst are those bullet things that get stuck in the body and prick like hell from the inside and did I mention how hot they are.

Humanity seems to be constantly getting weaker for them to create toys like this, toys that hurt but toys nevertheless.

I would normally leave a motivating quote for myself but they can't help against the pain anymore if they ever did.