I wonder... What, the meaning of "The Beginning of The End?"

Is it... A new life?... A new end?

Is it a new beginning? Or a new end?

Something that our eyes and mind get caught.

Some say yes, some say no.

Some accept the new beginning, others don't.

Some accept the end, others don't.

Like, Truth and lies.

There would be those who would accept the truth, rather than believing a lies.

While, there would be those who would accept a lies, rather than believing the truth.

That's how reality works.

That's how the system works.

Not all things would last forever.

Whether weak or strong, mortal or immortal, concept or meta-concept, dream or reality, ECT.

Just like the galaxies.

Even though it lives for billions and billions of years.

Having companies and companion within.

Just like the stars.

They would eventually die and be forgotten.

Like good and evil.

Both concept and meaning may sound different but both are the same.

Good, is manipulative.

Evil, is manipulative.

Both concept are the same.

Both are use advantage.

Not many do nice and good things, because they want something from them.

But they also do it to trick other.

While evil are use to protect those who they love.

Not everyone are good or Evil, they use those concepts to achieve their goal and purpose.

It so rough at this reality, we live in.

Such, bastard's we are.

Such, idiots and tricky we are.

Why do we fuckin judge?

Why do we act or try to show off depending on the situation, and who we hangout.

When Smiling.

It heals those who needs it.

But sometimes, those smile could be fake.

And, even misleading them, into believing into false actions.

That's how stupid, idiot, evil, we are.

We can't say nor promise the things we do.

Love... Why do we even love something that we don't.

Even if we do say and act, it's still the same what we say.

Love is a manipulative, something we can never comprehend and gasp.

Always healing and breaking.

Until the time... Comes... Waiting for the right one.

Sometimes, when thinking about something.

It feels nice.

But, memories, whether good or bad would always appear once again.

I have to survive.

I have survive, yet die at the sametime.

Fate and destiny, would always come back along, no matter how strong you are.

In physically, spiritually, and mentally.

That's why we all have dream to move on and for the better of us.

Even to help those who needs.

Let the dream, may all of creation be with us till the end of our life.

Because wherever we are in life, it would bloom like wings of angel's.

•

My name is Iska Fuyu.

Or so I thought?

Honestly... I don’t remember much?

But for some reason, only my memory I could remember?

But not my name?

Where am I? Who am I?

I don’t know?

But, it make sense... But It doesn't?

Like, it's like... If it makes sense.

I'm confused.

But for some reason...? I have another name?

A... Memory?

A... normal young-kind boy... Who had a normal life.

A Christianity, as well as his parents, who believes in Christ.

But why? Why christianity?

A true christianity?

Is because a god exit?

No, it more like... It knows God exist... That, even I actually do believe in God.

Who knows... There are many ways to share or spread his gospel.

Huh, gospel... Sharing?

More memories flooding in like storm...

An otaku who likes to read, and watch a lot of manga, novel, and anime.

One was where the protagonist had an adventure to capture monster with a ball, and wants to become the champion.

There's another other anime, like the first one, but the difference between it, is that this one has a card, and a small ball that you throw.

While the last main protagonist fought many dangerous beings, in different world, and that change his hair color when he transforms.

Inspirational? It got got "me" Inspired by, to drawing and exercising, and got me watching, and reading more anime, manga, and novel.

Fictional?

What if fictional actually existed.

But in the lowest abyss.

Something that could never reach out reality?

Huh? I always go to my room and watch TV when I get home from school.

When I see anime, I always dream about being reincarnated to another world or have power.

What?

It’s by doing music, small or big talk, street talks, art, and make a video and share it.

I don’t like to fight or be mean, To one to another.

Am I... Remembering?

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When I’m at this world, I think-“Why do people use or to trick other people.”-I don’t get it?

Life.

I sometimes get people that talk behind my back, people that’s back stab me, whether they're friend or not.

Is

I struggle against sin, whether it be flesh or spiritual.

Even mind.

Hard.

I don’t know about love.

Love feel is like bad and good at the same time.

I don’t trust it much.

More memories flooding in...

It all started in 6th grade.

There was this one time in middle school, I fall in love with this girl in class, she had long blonde hair, red eyes, and a thin body.

-"Who is she?'-I thought to myself?

But when I fall in love with her, I thought it was love, but it wasn’t... It was a blind love.

What did I do?

We became friends, we hand fun, we hangout with each other and all.

But it wasn’t like that.

One day, when she ask me out to meet her in a a random place on Friday.

I thought it was a date, but at the sametime, I felt it wasn’t like that at.

So I arrive and waited there, for hours and hours on a bench.

Until the sun went out, as the moon came out.

I had a feeling that this was going to happen.

Iska fuyu: *sigh* "Love is blind... I didn’t even care now."

I sigh once again, this time more tired and annoying, as I took out my phone and check what time it was.

Iska fuyu: (9:50 pm)

It's 9:50 pm, so late, I do not know why I’m still here, so I left and went home feeling dumb

I feel so retarded.

When I got home, I saw one of my parents bible.

I ignore it because to me I felt annoyed and didn't like reading.

Reading books felt so boring and annoyed.

So I walked past it.

But for some reason, I felt something... Something I can't explain?

There was this feeling that I have to read it, it like it's telling me to read the book.

Feeling frustrated, taping the floor with my right foot, while moving my fingers against each other.

I continue debating myself if I should read it or not?

It was like... It felt like it's speaking me

Telling me to read it, open it, and read the first page when I open it.

Iska: (Why are you telling me to read it. Isn't my damn choice? Whether I want to read it or not? Why focusing me into something I don't want?)

Even though I had so many thoughts, I suddenly realize something.

I'm not angry at it?

But to myself?

-(Why is that?)-I ask myself?

It felt nice, it didn’t hurt nor feel strange or anything like that.

What I felt was, peace and sad at the same time, and many other emotions that I'm holding it.

After a few seconds of iska thinking.

He turn around and went to grab the Bible and took it to his room.

Once he enter his room, he felt nervous for some reason.

Iska: *mutter* "Why the fuck? Do I feeling nervous for?"

In my room, I was so nervous or... something else.

Too many emotions I'm feeling right now.

But I quickly shook my head, i didn’t think to much of it and went to my bed.

Once I sat down, staring and holding the Bible.

I stroke it, caresses it around feeling its cover and paper.

So, I grab a random page, and open it, to a random page.

As I open up the page, I look at the page and read it.

-"john 3..."-It landed on John 3.

Not thinking much, I read the whole two page.

While looking and reading at it, it caught my attentions.

But there one that caught my attention the most.

The one who caught my attention was "16," John 3:16.

As he repeat reading and looking at it, over and over again.

Even until his mind, heart, feeling and soul memorize it.

He finally understood.

He understand stand it, but not fully for some reason.

So I got up and head towards my parents where they were at the kitchen, and told them where to start reading.

When they heard him, their expression turn shock and confusion.

But then, their expression return back to normal then into a happy expression.

They were happy that iska finally wanted to learn and change.

So they happily told him to start at "Matthew," the new testament.

And from there on, he started to read all the page, from the beginning to the end.

Till all night.

From there on, On Sunday he goes with his parents and starting to believe in him, telling Christ to help him and confessing his sin to him, believing and have faith in him.

As time past, changing and openings up.

The next day, Monday, school came back, so he went toward his class, finally remembering what happened on Friday.

Even though it been weeks, it still hunts him.

Like fate and destiny following along.

As he walked in the hallway, he felt nervous and all.

I didn't want to go to school.

What is this bitter feelings I have?

But I couldn’t fail, I can’t be sad, I have to be strong.

Remember what I read and all the training I did for the last few weeks.

So I took a really deep breath and open the door, there the girl I thought I like, and her group of friends.

They all look turns their head towards me.

When they saw me.

Suddenly, a burst of laughter was heard.

When I look towards them, they laughing at me, calling me dumb, idiot and all those stuff at my face.

Like it's a normal day.

I was mad, I was sad, I wanted to cry, I wanted to run away.

But what I want the most, is to punch every single one of them.

Oops, sorry it was out of my mind.

Calm down me, calm down.

I control my emotions and walk towards my desk ignoring them.

Even if I did ignore them.

They continue to laugh towards me and saying stuff at me.

But I ignored them still and look outside window.

Thinking to myself.

Iska: (How selfish was I? Why the fuck did i... About this? Why had I fall in love for?... Eh?)

???: “Why are you ignoring me.”

While thinking to myself.

My girlfriend-no, should I even call her my girlfriend?

Enough of useless thoughts.

The girl, came up to me, saying why am I ignoring her, and all.

What? What is she talking about?

As she continues talking, while being annoying, a giggle was heard.

She stop and look at him.

There, I started to giggle a bit at her.

Seeing him like that, her anger sky rocket to the top.

To her, she never seen him act like this, nor seen this type of personality.

But she didn't care anymore, she was already getting mad.

-*slap*-a loud slap was heard.

Iska: (...what? ...Did I? ...Just got slap?)

I glance towards her.

I saw her left hand up, she then smirks and lower her left hand.

Did she just... slap me?

Why did she slap me for?

I was confused? why?

While thinking to himself, She spoke.

Girl: *relax sigh* "Good thing I did that. I finally released my anger."

She stretch.

Girl: "You deserve it, you know."

She grab my chin, looking at my confused-shock expression.

She then smirks.

Girl: "your a bad dog. A bad boy. That's punishment for ignoring me. You damn bastard."

She rub his chin.

Girl: "Do you honestly really think I’ll actually be in love with you? That I'll accept your pathetic love. You sure are one of the stupidest boy I ever met. A simp fucker who would do anything his girl ask."

She smile and let out a evil laugh.

Girl: *sigh* "so stupid. Honestly, do you really think I like you? You know, you should have already noticed I'm cheated."

Hearing that, I remember.

During going to the store or hangout, or even going out with my family.

I seen her with a group of boys, I felt even more angry.

But I hold on.

Seeing me like this, her smile widen more and pull my chin.

Whispering to my ear.

Girl: *whisper* "I remember... NTR... cuckold... you hate those right... how does it feel that I got NTR and cuckold. Not because i didn't want to... but because I wanted to... oh gosh, it felt so good that I might get pregnant by one of them. Wonder who's the father. Him, or him... or you..."

She points at her friends boy one by one.

The poke my left shoulder.

NTR... cuckold... I fuckin hate these... why... this bitch.

Girl: "Once again, I already had a boyfriend way before you. Why would I hang out with you. So boring and showing off like a fuckin pathetic boy. Something that can't even satisfy me... Pfft, more like you never ask me to have sex. Well, its not like you could ever satisfy me. I just use you.“

She pulls his cheeks as she pulls away from his ear.

-“…”-iska stay silent.

All shock what he heard.

Girl: “Hey!? Answer me, you really pissing me off here!!”

Pull his cheeks harder.

Bringing him back.

He quickly pull away from her grip, shaking sideways while rubbing his cheeks.

He finally had enough and spoke out in anger.

But as well as to stay calm.

Iska: “Why would I? A fucker like you? You slap me didn’t you? Well that good, so this is how you really are? A whore bitch, who spread willing to spread her legs to any man?! You finally show your true colors, right?"

Her expression was shock.

But I didn't care and continue speaking.

Iska: "Yeah, your right. I was dumb and all, to date a fucker like you. But now, I don’t even care anymore. Go get fuck by any men and get pregnant. I don't even care what happens to you. You whore, gold digger. You're a complete total stranger to me now. So I don’t care what you do now and then. Just fuck out of my view.“

After releasing and expressing my feelings.

Her body tremble.

Also hearing a small snickers.

Girl: *laughing* “Haha. Oh my... That's so adorable.”

She looks at me.

Straight towards my eyes.

When I look back at her, I was shock.

What the heck?

The girls starting to laugh, her eyes are sharp and focus like a beast.

She looks totally different from the one I knew.

Girl: *heat* "Oh my. That's what I want... Be my slave and see me get cuckold and NTR in front of you."

She holds my cheeks, as her cheeks are red.

Eyes full in heat.

What the fuck happen to her?

Her smile was like evil, something different then normal.

But that's not all, for some reason I could see a wave, like heat wave around her body.

Like some evil aura, coming out of her body making a shape of a demon-like.

My eyes turn sharp.

Is that even real or am I seeing things?

Now that I think about it.

For some reason, I could see thing like that when I woke up today.

It’s strange? Definitely strange?

I didn't want to believe it but it's a possibility.

Iska: (So this how it is? Huh? Demon, who is a pure evil.)

Suddenly, two boy of her group came towards me, without me noticing.

One pull my shirt with his left hand.

Bringing me close to them.

I was surprised, but I didn't care.

Honestly, I don’t care, not even their name.

So, I’ll just call them boy 1 who is Grabbing my shirt, and boy 2 for the other one.

Boy 1, who's holding my shirt.

Has black short hair, and black eyes.

His friend, have black short hair, and blonde eyes.

They both are the same height as me.

Boy 1: “You talk big for a loser huh!? Let’s see if you could do the same to us!?”

I felt exited but hid-(Oh... A fight then?)-i thought to myself.

Boy 2: “Yea let see. If you could survive here with some beating.”

Why... Why are you saying this.

It feels dumb.

Girl: *lewd* “You guys could do anything you want towards him. Make him cry, and submit babes.”

Both: “Sure, I’ll love to do that for you honey.”

-(Ew...)-i felt disgusted.

I saw other demon like aura coming out of their body as well.

Iska: (Why am I seeing them? What the hell am I looking at.)

While thinking about it.

I saw a fist coming towards me to the right.

I quickly dodged, moving my head towards the right, and put my left hand protecting myself.

Boy 2: “Hm? so he want to fight? Let’s do this.”

Boy 1: “Let’s teach him a lesson.”

Iska: (So dumb.)

It looks like we’re going to fight? I’m not that worried since I be exercising, even since I been inspired by watching many anime and seeing people fight.

But, I’m more worried about being suspended from school.

But I could tell that he haven’t fought no one, his hand are slow and movement are sloppy.

Same thing as the other boy.

I look around the classroom, but they were just looking at us not doing anything.

Of course.

Boy 2 try to punch me, but I quickly let go of his arm and kick his stomach.

Stumble behind crashing against the table.

Boy 2 cough

While boy 1 look confused.

But I didn't give him a chance and quickly punch him.

-“Ouch!?”-Boy 1 fell at the my desk and making a big crashing sound.

I was actually surprised that this happened.

Boy 2: “You baster!!”

Boy 2 try to punch me again, but I did the double hand shoulder, like a judo technique, to throw him on top of boy 1.

They didn’t move, they had a pain expression saying-“Ouch.”-i look shock.

Iska: (This, actually the first time I had a fight.) *sigh* "Anyways."

I turn to her.

She had a confused expression, her group also look scare and confused.

But I didn’t care and started talking to her.

With sharp eyes and tone.

Iska: "Now that this is over, please don’t disturb me. I don’t care if you’re a girl or a boy, but if you try to disturb me again, or do anything towards me and my family, I won’t hold back!"

I threatened her by grabbing her shirt with my right hand and pull her towards me, then push her off against the desk, falling and left.

The girl had a worried and frightens expression, and lost balance and fell at the floor on her knee.

Once I left the class, arrived the front school.

I crouch and let out a very deep-exhaust sigh.

Iska: *big sigh* “That was scary, that was my first time doing... Some- ..Ha ..ha”

I look at my hands that's trembling, not just my hand but my legs and my whole body are trembling, and shaking like crazy.

Iska: (I hate it. I don’t like hurting people... But if they do something bad towards me or my loves ones. I have to beat them.)

-*sigh*-As I took a last breath, I left school and went back home and started watching more video, and doing more exercise.

In order to defend myself, and my family, and other people who needs help.

I need to become stronger.

The next day, nothing have happen, the whole class avoided me, and when I look at them they run away from me.

I don’t know why they're avoiding me, but it doesn't matter.

I’ve seen many romance and fantasy novel like this.

People in this world are selfish, they only care about themselves.

Ever since that day, I just eased it from my memory.

I couldn’t recognize her or anybody else since it was in the past.

At age 17, when I was sophomore year in highschool, a pandemic happens, which call [Dark Flu].

It’s a disease that make your body to have fever, fatigue, shivering, vomiting, and that stops the muscles of the body, for the body couldn’t walk nor move around, and that stop you from breathing.

Now that disease has spread around the world, many people have die by it.

When I got the virus, I went sent to the hospital, scare and weak.

Time past, I was in the hospital for mouths, which I don’t remember for how long.

But one day, at the hospital trying to survive.

News hit me, telling me I'll die in 2 days.

When I heard it, I was afraid of dying, but accept it.

When 2 day past I was looking out the window, the clouds became dark, it look like it's about to rain on that day.

I'm tired, so damn tired that I felt my eyes heavy, I couldn’t move any of my body parts, I knew I was going to die today.

So before I was about to close my eyes, I remember all the thing I did in the past.

I had both good and bad memories of it.

Small Tears started falling from his eyes, talking to myself.

Iska: “I'm thankful for the life I had... I'm thankful my lord for being with me even in hard and good time.”

So before I close my eyes, I saw a white figure, I couldn’t gasp it, all bury.

It was interesting, an angel?

But I didn't care, I'm dying either way.

And so, feeling nothing, my eyes close..

When I woke up, I saw a white ceiling, a... space?

Iska eyes toss around, looking up, down, right and left.

But wherever he looks, his sight doesn't focus.

Not thinking straight, always confuse.