last night was the worst. i didnt even know that part of my head could ache it was so bad. I dreamed of so many sounds i could barely hear and could never find. felt like i was drowning. My head is going slower than usual, i think it is from all the new medicines. i don’t think i can be bothered to edit anything either with the state im in.

Oh that's hilarious she’s high as hell. -𝘈𝘳𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘍𝘰𝘹

if you wanted to know, this is the list of pills i’m on right now. After last nights fiasco, I have no intention of forgetting my medicine again. so i'm writing it here so i don’t forget.

* every morning: 1 x salven sting’s derumine solution for general hair and skin wellness

* every three waking hours: 1 x master mistria’s liquid aerosolvents for pain relief

* inject at ‘meal’ times: 1 x dr. dewell’s Injection of satiety

* Inject every other evening: 1 x mastodon co.’s mana cleansing authentia

* before bed: sleepy red’s inhalant for restful slumber

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a lot of these are things i have to breathe in, and they all smell like death warmed over

i think the worst ones are the injections, i have to manually do the injection myself and if i dont take it soon after i take the skin and hair stuff then the needle takes a bunch of skin with it on the way out.

i was walking along the street earlier and i saw a new bakery open up. it was amazing, the delicious aroma of freshly baked goods wafted through the air, it made my mouth water at the mere thought of eating them. too bad I can’t fucking eat. min’s grand bakery, i think the sign said.

You type like shit when you're high XD, I cannot wait until you see this once you're sobered up. -𝘈𝘳𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘍𝘰𝘹

the pain relief medicine is supposed to last six hours, but I have to take it every three because of the sheer amount of pain i am in. i learnt that the hard way earlier when the slow ache from my stomach kicked in early. I am worried about the pharmacy preventing me from getting them again. I would be so fucked if they think i am buying it to support an addiction or something. they make me feel funny in the head and i dont think i like it very much.

i hate this.

i just want to not hurt.

is that so wrong?