CHAPTER: 5

Introduction arc

Enduring Part 1

Part: 1

Since I was a baby I was already aware of my surroundings. But I lack neither intelligence nor logic behind all the questions I think of. When I first open my eyes, I saw a woman who was smiling at me. I might not know her but there are some bonds between me and her. I observe my surroundings but only the woman was there as she was carrying me with her two hands gently, smiling with joy written in her face.

Something tells me there was someone missing, it tells me there should be other person besides the woman and me.

Its been days since I was born, yet only the woman and me is always together inside the crumbling house. every steps the woman made, made the floor creaking with sounds. While I, only look at the same direction which was the ceiling.

I can't turn my head since I was still a new born.

Only with the woman's help that I can see the surroundings. Yet, I only saw was broken furniture’s around the house and the windows shut down, as if the person inside was hiding something or someone.

Our days were peaceful. The woman always smile, it was a mesmerizing smile, a blissfully enchanting smile.

The woman has a brown hair, brown eyes and a smoothly and white tone skin. She's carrying me with care, like I was a valuable items that needs to be careful when around.

"You remind me of your father, little one"

The woman speaks as he looks at me, with a hint of sadness behind that smile of hers. And her eyes, as if she is looking a very far away and reminiscent some past events happened in her life. She's looking at me as if she reminded me of someone. Her looks tells me that person was a very important to her.

But, why is she sad? I still have no idea who is that woman is. But, as if some kind of rope is attached to me to her, telling me she was very important to me.

Who is she?

She kept playing with me, giving me wooden toys to play with. As curious as I am, I play with my toys happily. I was still unable to crawl as I was sitting in one place that the woman stationed me. I didn’t move in my spot, as I somehow understood this woman is carrying a huge burden and I don't want to cause unnecessary troubles. But when I think of the woman's burden, I feel heavy all of a sudden and my heart beats faster.

Another days has passed. As usual, I was playing with my toys and the woman was in the kitchen when I heard a knocking came from the door. She hurriedly running through the door and opened it. What I saw was three huge men. When compared to the woman's height, it can only reached up to the shoulder of the three huge men.

"Ceres, long time no see I'm here to have fun" (Man no. 1)

The tallest of the three men first spoke.

"Hehe...come on man! how about change your line like 'Ceres, this time I'm going to knock you down' you always said that every time we're here" (Man no. 2)

Said the second tallest.

"haha...I can't help it! When I said it, she looks like a frightened lamb" (Man no. 1)

"You two cut it out, Celes is making a living here, how about show some respect"

Said the smallest whose body was round and fat. He's looking at the woman intently. When I looked at him, I feel dark, as if I'm seeing someone that will devour anything as he pleased.

"Look who's talking! I heard you reserved her for a whole week making her bedridden after, and the worst of all without telling us, you greedy bastard" (Man no. 2)

"Haaa...I can't help, not only Celes is a top beauty, even most of the noble women could not compare and she moans beautifully!" (Man no. 3)

"Hahaha...damn right and she are less expensive than those loose used-up whores in the City" (Man no. 1)

"That's how it is Celes, we three are your partner today" (Man no. 3)

"I bet 4 months without tasting a rod you've been playing yourself" (Man no 2)

"S-sirs, three at the same time is a bit..." (Woman)

The woman said.

I can see she was afraid and hesitant of something. I was perplexed at what they saying. But It somehow irritate me. Looking at the three large man outside the door and their expression towards the woman, seems a bit strange. As if they want something from her. The woman and I was together for many days now but this was the first time I saw other people.

As I see the house, wreaked furniture’s, floors creaking with old, and walls doesn’t enough light can go inside, we don't have anything that this men wants. What is it they wanted? I only found out in the future...

"Don't worry about that! I promise we'll pay triple" (Man no. 2)

"We just got our rewards after the big mission, so we have a plenty of money to spend, ha ha ha" (Man no. 1)

"But..I" (Woman)

She's unable to talk back. I can clearly tell that this woman was a pushover. This was the first time I saw the woman with other expression aside from his usually radiant smile. The expression she's making made me sad and anger towards the three men.

Barging at our house and making the woman sad. How dare they!

But I was powerless and can only look at the woman. What do you expect from a recently born child? I can only glare at them with understandable intent.

" ! " (Man no. 1)

The tallest man seems to be surprised of something. He was looking around and met my gaze. But it was immediately moved and looking again.

"What's the matter with you" (Man no. 2)

The other two men and the woman are looking at the tallest man who was laughing but turned into a serious expression.

"I just felt a murderous present, but I can't pinpoint the location" (Man no. 1)

"Haha.. Must be some villagers who are planning to come here for pleasure but only saw us and hide behind the bushes... Hey bastard out there! You won't get your turn for the next two weeks" (Man no. 2)

Said the second tallest. He was laughing heartily while saying something audaciously outside.

"That might sound to be right. Hahaha..." (Man no. 1)

After the second tallest commented with a hint of humour, the tallest man relaxed his expression and as if the serious expression he's making earlier was just a illusion.

But the woman looked at me, as if hinting me of something. I didn't understand though, as I still lack of common sense. I was just looking at them, sitting at the corner of the house with my toys scattered around me. The short and fat man noticed my gazed at them, he looked at me and smile.

"Just as he said, Celes, we are your customers for two weeks. Think about it. With months of taking a break, you surely don't have enough money to spend for your baby. And that village chief of yours cut your pay in half. Can you even afford your living expenses? " (Man no. 3)

"But I..." (Woman)

The woman was hesitating. She look at me with expression that made me uneasy. Is she worrying something?

"Hahaha...how about in addition of triple payment, well buy your brat toys and clothes" (Man no. 1)

They all looked at me, specially the woman. She is looking at my ragged and loosely clothes and my wooden toys which I suspected to be incomplete, missing their heads of hands. This clothes that I'm wearing was the only clothes that the woman let me worn.

"Y-you promise? " (Woman)

She lowered her head, hiding her face.

"Of course, after all we're your regulars right guys!" (Man no. 3)

He looked at his companion, assuring his statement to them to agree.

"I have no problem to it, after all we struck big this time hahaha...." (Man no. 1)

"Hehe....I don't think I can hold on anymore, do whatever you want" (Man no. 2)

They waited at the woman's answer as her head was still lowered, hiding his face to everyone. She was clearly thinking of something. The three men waiting in anticipation as they didn't mind the woman's stalling.

"I-I'll do it"

She was clearly reluctantly agreeing something as if she was forced to. The three men were filled with joy as they heard the woman's answer.

Why?

She was clearly smiling now.

But why?

Why does that smile look like in pain?

Did the men do something to the woman to force her on something?

Her smile was different than the smile she usually makes. It made my heart ached when I see that smile. Did the men noticed her pained smile? Were they blinded by other desire to enable them to see her pained face. Or were they just after something to her and ignore her pain face.

I was powerless...

The three men, along with the woman walk at the edge of the room. It was the only room that I haven't explored yet. She didn't bring me there to play.

But she opens it...

She opened it for the men. She showed it to others but not me. What was in there? That I didn't know. The three men got in first, while the woman is still outside.

She looked at me for the last time. And she smile.

That was the smile she usually wore. It was an angelic smile that can heals the uncured.

"Little one, I'll be back okay. Stay there and play with your toys"

She enters. And slowly closing the door. She looked at me for the last time with a smile and...

'Click'

I heard something click; it indicates that she locked the door. That was the last sentence that the woman has said.

I was dreaded with anxiety when they got inside. I want to say 'don't go' but my body was not matured enough to be capable to speak.

I curse my powerlessness...

'thud' 'thud' 'thud'

I was in dazed as I was staring at the door that the woman enters along with the three men. I only heard banging came from inside. I was mournful...

Something within me was slowly getting crumbling, turning into dust. I may not know what they doing, but my heart tells me something else. Yet I can't describe it..

I also hear noises. A high pitch sounds came from the woman every now and then. And the men taking while gasping..

"Hahaha....see, see I told you it fit even we double perpetrate it" (?)

"Hey! Removed yours, your making it tighter than already is.. And you too...removed your 'thing' inside her mouth, she can't breathe, we might see a corpse later" (?)

"Come on man, can't you see she's liking it when her three holes perpetrated" (?)

I was hearing the men's conversation, and it made me fuming with anger which I don't understand.

Minutes turned to hour..

I didn't move just as the woman instructed. I didn't remove my gaze towards the door. I still can't express my emotions properly. I also hasn't cry nor I remember crying. It's making my face look stoic to others.

I waited for a long time, until someone came.

They were the three men. And they were shirtless. Looking at their faces I could clearly see them satisfied on something.

They are preparing to leave.

As the men is about to leave. The fat man notice my glance at them, and smile..

"Guys, before we drink, we better buy that little guy clothes and toys as we promised" (Man no. 3)

"Haha...fine, she did satisfy us after all, we better reward her" (Man no. 1)

"'sigh' I feel sorry for the little guy, having a mother like that" (Man no. 2)

"Seriously, even though Cera was quite a lookers, who was an idiot to allow her to get pregnant and run away" (Man no. 1)

"Right! And her debt was ridiculous; it was enough to live leisurely" (Man no. 2)

"Also that old chief was supposed to be her guardian, but he turned her into a money maker" (Man no. 1)

"We can't dwell into their affairs and have you seen how ridiculous strong that old man is?. He'll turn us into minced meat if we take her away" (Man no. 3)

I was perplexed on their conversation. I didn't understand them. They were looking at me with pity and I was irritated by that.

"'Sigh' this world is sure is dark. You cannot live as fulfilling life if you're not strong. While the weak coveted to strong, the strong also coveted to gods" (Man no. 2)

"We also one of those weak who coveted to strong so don't take it heartily" (Man no. 3)

"Yeah, we're just a minor characters that was in a big chessboard controlled by the gods and we can't do anything about it but obey" (Man no. 2)

"They taking lives as if weeding grasses" (Man no. 1)

"Enough with this god talks and who serves who, we're leaving" (Man no. 3)

That was the last thing I've heard from them as they got out of the house, leaving me watching them got out until I didn't see their figures as they shut the door closed. I was again alone...

I looked again at the door the woman entered. She seems to have not come out there. I waited and waited,  and finally she came out. As I saw her, she was ragged, dishevelled hair and messy clothes...

She looked at the surroundings. Yet the light of her eyes was gone, as if she was walking unknowingly. Then she sees me, slowly. Her eyes come to life again and made a light smile.

It pains me when I see her like that, I was powerless and I didn't know why I was thinking of being powerless in the first place when I saw her like that.

She was approaching me...

She was walking limping...

I can only ask why to myself....

I looked at her as she slowly walking towards me. I didn't move on my spot since the woman orders me. As she was getting closer, I can only now see in details of her face.

She was in pain behind that light smile of her..

She was suffering behind the scene....

She the lightly hugs me. I can feel she was weakened by some unknown. Is it the three men weaken her to the point of passing out of exhaustion?  

Yet, this woman is still mustering all of her strength left, exhausted just to give me a weak hug.

"Little one, as long as you are here...I can endure all hardship that they'll throwing at me"

That was she said. I didn't see the expression she was making. And I don't understand she is saying. But I know she was enduring something. Behind that weak hug of hers was a strong resolution.

I can feel she was enduring even before I was here.

"I must endure for now. So long as you received a brighter future.... I don't care if you call me names, I don't care if you don't acknowledge me"

It's making me feel weird all of a sudden. Why is the woman trembling? And what is she saying? Is it for me?, this was the question was still unanswered nor it will be answered in the near future.

"Someday, you will get out of here and it will be that day I will stop enduring. You will forget about me and you will have children of your own and a decent wife that will take care of you"

I feel some emotions surging in me. Some day this woman will be gone, this was my premonition in the future. I will suppress these emotions so that when that time comes it will not affect me greatly. I will let her do whatever she want for now, until the day will come...

She’s carrying me, walking slowly towards the bathroom as she was washing me and herself. We were bathing together since I can remember. But only now I seen many strips of red marks all over her body, as if she was clawed by something of someone and she was in pain when washing her body.

I was confused. How did she get those marks after she and the three men entered 'that' certain room? Did they do something against this woman?

Many of my questions were still unanswered...

I still lack of common sense.

After we're done bathing, it was already night time.

She feeds me with through her breast; this was the only food source I got as long as remember. As I drink my fill I immediately fell asleep.

I was sleeping soundly while the woman embraces me.

As I was sleeping soundly, I was disturbed by weeping sounds. I didn't open my eyes as not to startle the one who was making it.

Why does she weep?

A weep with a mixed with sorrow behind that small noises she was making. Why is it now?

Does she not want me to see her to act like that?

Will she continue to keep pretending to be strong when she was not?

For whose sake as she was pushing herself to the limit and going this far?

For now, I can only do is to hear her weeping. I cursed my powerlessness.

I will endure and close my eyes while pretending to sleep. I will endure, even when droplets of liquid touches my cheeks now and then….

As the weeping stops, I also stop enduring this feeling slowly creeping on me. And feel asleep...

Part 2

Light shine on me that came out of the small hole of the closed window, and fully awaken me on my slumber.

I looked around my surroundings and didn't see the woman. I was panicking since the woman is usually the first person I will see when I open my eyes, yet she was not here this time.

'Knock' 'Knock'

I then heard knocking noises.

This room I was using is near the entrance of the house. Except to the room that the woman didn't allow me to see, there were four rooms I have seen. One is for storing items, the room that the woman and me used and the other two was empty and was used as my playroom.

Since my room is near the house entrance door. The knocking noises is surely came from it. I then heard a hurriedly footsteps inside the house as I hear it coming approaching the door.

I heard a creaking sound. It was the door rusting with old making it produced noises when it was moving. Then I heard..

"Hahaha... We're back" (?)

"Hey man! Your too excited" (?)

"Hahaha... I can't helped it, after all, we did put a lot of effort buying this goods" (?)

"Celes, just as we promised, here..." (?)

As I hear they conversation which I didn't understand. But I recognize their voices by listening to them. They were the men yesterday which caused pain to the woman.

A momentarily silence then...

"Kya..." (Woman)

I was surprised and startled. I heard a shrieking sound coming from the woman and I began to worry. I still can’t enable on making any major movements with this body of mine. I can't do anything...

I can only rely to my sense of hearing and focus to listening to their conversation.

"Hahaha... You like that, it's very expensive you know" (?)

"Yes!" (Woman)

"Hehe..I told you she'll like it" (?)

"You better work hard today to compensate with this items, hahaha..." (?)

"Now then, shall we get to business" (?)

"B-but sir...It's still early morning and I.." (Woman)

As if the man urging the woman to do something made the woman hesitated base on her voice.

"We won't be long, we'll be leaving after" (?)

"Haha.. We currently have a small job this afternoon and this was the only free time we have" (?)

"Y-you won't be long? (Woman)

Now a reassuring voice was heard from the woman.

"Think about it this way, after we're done, you will have a bonding moments with your child throughout the day" (?)

"Hahaha....No need to rush after all this is a very expensive, its more than we can bargain for you know?" (?)

"O-okay I'll do it!" (Woman)

"Hahaha... That's the spirit!" (?)

The woman then immediately replies to the man's sentence. As if afraid to take away the thing that the woman excited upon.

I then heard their footsteps coming towards inside the house. Walking at the room they previously entered yesterday. Even I didn't see them; I knew they were entering that room. The room was the farthest room from my room. By hearing the sound of footsteps, that’s slowly getting farther as the sounds of their footsteps getting dimmer. It also added by my intuition after yesterday's event.

I then heard again the banging noises. And it was much louder than yesterday. I hear their laughing along with the woman's voice...

"haaa..haaa..Ceres you're quite aggressive today" (?)

"She's clearly full of life and vigour today and tighter than usual!" (?)

"She's must be enthusiastic because of the items be buy" (?)

"Ahh.. MORE!!!" (Woman)

"Damn this woman! She can still make movements back and forth even our rods is in her three holes" (?)

"This is why she my favourite prostitute.... Flexibility is the key to pleasure a man" (?)

"Hahaha... Damn right!" (?)

"Hehehe... Also know to clean her ass" (?)

I was perplexed again. The woman this time seems to be excited along the three men. She was clearly happy of what she was doing.

I don't know anymore....

For some reason, I want to shut my eyes to not see her again, and cover my ears as to not hear her happily enthusiastic voice.

But I can't...

Not only I can't reach my ears because of this weak and still developing hands. Even is I was able to do so, I will still lack of strength to pressed my ears enough to completely not hear them.

When I closed my eyes, I only see more of the woman. She was doing something with the three men, which made me unable to comprehend. When I see them when I close my eyes, my chest suddenly stung by unknown substance, grievances also slowly creeping  me when I see the woman happily doing something to them at the same time.

But... Is she really happy when she was doing it with the three men? I now doubt my judgment.

The woman's smile was genuine. When she smiles at me, it was more radiant than the light coming to the windows every morning.

It was real...

Even through the dark times the woman still smile. She smiled all of her problems before I was here. And she endured....

I will also endure, for the woman's sake...

I will share her hardship by enduring.....

By enduring, will the woman's burden will lessen....

She will be gone someday. For her sake I will not complain, I will not desire, I will not show emotions. Emotions will become my weakness and that weakness will cause the woman to worry and burdened.

I was contemplating. The banging suddenly stops. I waited in my room as I didn't move after I wake up. Looking at the ceiling above while my ears.

Then the banging sounds suddenly stops.

Then, I heard the door open, and footsteps follows.

"Man... That was intense, to think she has that kind of side" (?)

"Yah... Damn I can't believe she take our huge thing easily, it feels like yesterday's action was just a joke, we clearly dominated her yesterday, but now, alas..." (?)

"I feel like all my stamina was gone after multiple sessions, can I even complete todays mission? "

I heard them talking something, they voices seem to have mixed of amazement and exhaustion.

"As expected of a mother prostitute, they do anything for their brats and gets lively when given gifts to them" (?)

"Hahaha... To be honest I kind of like this new Celes, let's say we when we get our pay we'll buy that brat of hers a present and it will turned lively again!" (?)

"Yeah! Although this time is a bit fast, it was also very intense" (?)

"Come on let's go, we'll late at the meeting" (?)

They ended their conversation after that then left as I didn't anymore heard them again.

I then heard a footsteps coming this way as it was getting louder and closer...

The door in my room was opened and I saw the woman. Dishevelled hair ragged and exhausted written in her face. Unlike yesterday’s haggard expression after she came out in that room. As I see her this time, she was brimming with happiness as she wore her usual brightly smile...

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Why is she happy about? I then found out...

She didn't said anything as she carried me at the empty room, well it was not empty anymore. I saw lot of new toys, with complete parts and clearly was brand new. I also saw clothes, they were many of them as it was folded and stacked like a tower.

I could see them woman smiling at me.

She let me down as I was now facing my new wooden toys. It has different shape and sizes to each other and some of it was animal figures.

My eyes sparkles, such toys was I dreamed of and they are complete with parts unlike with previous ones. I too was excited after seeing many toys.

"Look little one! Is it nice, those Uncles kept their promised see, see... You don't have to wear that ragged clothes"

Tears started to flow out of the woman’s eyes. Yet she was smiling with joy. This was the first time I seen her like that. Does this woman was happy for my sake? Is it because I unable to show any emotions that she take it for herself and smile with joy for my sake?

She starts undressing me. removing my loosely dirty-white shirt that has small holes at some part.

I now wore my new pair of clothing, the woman smile more brightly than I have ever seen. And she hugs me and said....

"You will get more clothes someday, and when that time comes it will not be from someone else's pocket.. I'll just be in the sideline as I keep watching you. I'll watch you from the shadows; even you might not remember me when that time comes..."

I listened to her. I didn't understand her. But the feelings were passed on me. It was enough for me to know the woman's objective. She might be thinking of leaving me in the future, but I will not forget her.

How can I forget her? She was the first person I seen for the first time of my life.

How could I forget that untainted smile of hers, that smile is so pure it could melt ice away and purify one's heart.

"Soon little one... We will get out of here, but for now we must endure..."

She keeps hugging me and tears won't stop dropping and made my new clothes wet with tears.

This clothes...

I prefer my old clothes. They might my ragged and damage, but it was wash thoroughly by her, living no stains or dirt. But this clothes....

They are new and clean, yes.

But for me....

I feel as if I'm wearing something dirty. It was so dirty that I want to remove it with all of my power. Yet I can't. She was happy then I'm happy. But I was still perplexing about this clothes I'm disgusted to wear. Is it because those men came here was the giver? Or is it that this gifts simply came from a dirty method?  it was so dirty that when I think of it, it made me puke with blood and shred this clothes into pieces.

I will not thinking of this matter any further as it was still unanswered. I will focus what's ahead....

Many days has passed and the three men is still keep coming, bringing gifts with them. And the woman seems happy as they are walking towards the rooms they usually used. And a loud banging starts....

It was also the last time I seen the three men. But other men came, I seen different faces every day. And sometimes I saw three different faces arriving in a different time in a single day.

I have seen all of their expressions and their personalities...

They were Evil and corrupted....

That was the only thing I can describe of them. As the woman take in all the men with a smile always plastered in her faces.

She was always exhausted, yet she still has time to take care of me. It made my heart moved. It also pains me...

She worked hard more than enough..

She suffered more than everyone else..

I always see new red marks all over her body. And this time it was around her neck and small traces of swollen in her right cheeks. It made me burst into anger when I see it. I was powerless to protect her.

But she still smiles brightly.

She smile even hardship befall her.

Even though she was in pain, she smiles just for me. This woman held for too long. Her body is already exhausted.

I know...

She was waiting for a chance. When she thought I was asleep, every night when the midnight comes. Droplets of water starting dropping on my cheeks as she keeps saying 'someday' and 'endure' with a sad voice yet with a mixed of hopefulness. I might not understand those words, but in my heart I know, I know it's meaning.

For now, I try not to be a burden to her, and she too will continue to endure...

Part 3

Another day comes. It's been 43 mornings as I've been counting since I gain consciousness and awareness.

As usual, new men came..

I see two figures behind the door. One was middle aged man and the other one is a youthful male. The most eye catching to me from them was their attire. They wore shining metal suit that covers their entire body, except for the head.

They reminded me of my new humanoid toys, except the have short attached to their waist.

The two men's appearance wore a great resemblance to each other indicating they were related by blood.

"M-my lords" (Woman)

The woman was startled when she saw the two. This was the first time I've her so nervous. She was shaking and starting to sweat.

"Turn this boy into a man; I don't want him to act stupidly in front of his fiancé when 'that' time comes" (Middle aged man)

This middle aged man has the serious personality base on his stiff expression and the tone of his voice. Many men came here, I've seen them all. And the only thing they have in common was they held deep desire to the woman. I could see in their eyes, as if licking the woman using their glares alone.

But this time was different. I feel something in them that is different than the men that came here. As if the previous men I've seen that visited the house was inferior in front of them.

"Father! You said you will bring me to someone to teach me to get stronger!" (Youthful male)

The youth yelped at the middle aged man, he was clearly panicking on something.

"Quite boy! I did say I bring you to someone to get stronger and it was here!" (Middle aged man)

The middle aged man shouted at the youthful male, but I didn't see any anger behind his loud voice, but it was a voice as if it's scolding the youth.

"B-but then..." (Youthful male)

He didn't continue his sentence as he looked at the nervous woman with mixed feelings. I could clearly see a guilt behind those eyes which was the usual looked to then many men I've seen..

"Boy.. I didn't lie about get you stronger. What I mean is we have to make you mentally stronger and when the time comes you can handle your fiancé with care. As a knight, we have to be elegant and gentle men at all time. That is including in bed too. You do not want to be ridiculous when that night comes, do we?" (Middle age man)

The Middle age man has said. His expression softens when he was speaking to the youthful male.

Why do I feel contracted all of the sudden? I just only watch them from the distant, but when I've seen that middle age man giving a gentle yet scolding verbally at the youthful male. It feels my heart sting and new feeling grew into me.

As if I'm missing someone....

Why does it hurt when watching this two men..

Who am I missing...

Why does this feelings surge in me this time...

Why to I feel longing to someone all of a sudden...

Some of these emotions I know of is 'jealousy' but why?

Why am I jealous?

I received too many accumulated questions just looking at the two men.

I will watch for now...

"But father... What about our knight’s creed. About protecting women and children is one of our teachings" (Youthful male)

I could clearly see his hesitation of something. I guess aside from the men that comes here, there are too others that has a good personality and knows how to be reasonable from now and then.

"Hmp... Boy, we must remember that we save our own people, and this 'thing' was not one of those people" (Middle aged man)

Base on the middle age man's way of talking, I could tell he was disdainful of something or someone...

As he looked at the youthful male who was perplexed about what he said and can't utter any voice to reply. The middle aged man sighs and continues....

"My boy. We won't break our creed. I ask you, is there anything written in our creed about whores to be save? Or are there laws about whores to be forbidden to use?" (Middle aged man)

"N-no, but..." (Youthful male)

Before the youth continue, it was interrupted by the middle aged man.

"Enough! I don't want you complaining, this is for your own good. This is the last time will I say it... WHORES ARE NOT HUMANS! They were once humans that turned into animals that will only spread their legs with lust. They look like woman but not at the same time... Am I right? "(Middle aged man)

The youth has now completely unable to utter anymore complaints, as the middle aged man, giving him preaching of something that was insulting as he look at the woman for answer.

"Young master, the great lord is right. We whores have already abandoned our pride, dignity and humanity after selling our bodies to multiple men; we do not deserve to be humans as we only crave for pleasure. So you didn't break any of your creeds since this was not the first time I've given pleasure to a knight. (Woman)

She said those words with a calm expression, she didn't show any reaction to the middle aged man's taunting. And it was too calm is you ask me..

I could see in her eyes. Light vanished; she becomes expressionless... as if someone controlling her remotely while moving along with the youthful male walking in 'that' room.

I didn't remove my gaze at the door. This was my usual routine every day. I could only gaze upon 'that' room. I only hear many noises from the woman and the youthful male.

This was now becoming familiar to me.

I got use to it...

Different men come here. As they accompanied by the woman into that room producing different noises and sounds and made my mind more complicated and contracted. Sometimes I could hear she was hurting, sometimes happy, sometimes surprised and sometimes she wailed loudly.

No one could hear except me the only listener to this wreaked house.

I will not remove my sight towards 'that' door. I will also ignore that piercing gaze that the middle aged has been given me. I need to focus and listen to the sounds.

This is the only thing I could do for now or is it just this is the only thing that I could do?

I waited and waited and finally they come out. The first that come out was the youthful male. She wore with complicated expression written in his face.

This was my first time seeing someone didn't feel happy after coming out in that room..

Suddenly a burst of laughter came out from the Middle aged man...

"Hahaha.... Boy, how do you feel? Oh, right! I should stop calling you boy from now on, hahaha..." (Middle aged man)

"ghr" (Youthful male)

Seeing as the youth grunted and has a complicated expression written in his face. The middle aged man laughed again loudly.

"You should have seen your face now. That was the same face when your damn gramps bring me to a whore house and have my first time with a whore" (Middle aged man)

I listened to their conversation. The middle aged man was still laughing loudly and the youth, slowly lighted his mood and smile and they having their conversation until the woman come out in the room.

Then the laugher stops..

The two men looked at the woman as she was walking towards them.

As she got close enough, she stops then bows. And said...

"Thank you for having me gain privileged of pleasuring the young master's first time, I hope this whore didn't disappointed the young master and come back again" (Woman)

She said it with a monotonous voice.

The two men looked at the woman. The youth male wore again a complicated expression while the middle aged man looked at the woman with disdain, as if he's seeing something not worth seeing but forced to.

"You, woman... How much for the baby.." (Middle aged man)

With just a short sentence, the bowing woman immediately lifted her head with a surprised look.

"M-my lord, M.my baby is not for sale" (Woman)

I could see in the woman's eyes were struck with fear. She fears something. As if her important will be gone in one wrong move.

"Do not worry, I will adopt and take care of him. I could see in his eyes was intelligence behind that eyes and a tendency to be unyielding. He will be great in the future. He has a knight material in him!" (Middle aged man)

He said it with a gentle tone with a mixed of excitement.

But the woman was not moved by it. In fact she was more afraid.

"I-Im really sorry, but my answer is still no...." (Woman)

'Slap'

"Kya!" (Woman)

"Father!" (Youthful man)

"INSOLENT WHORE! do you know what you're talking? I'm giving him a chance to live a comfort life and you a whore want to selfishly reject my offer. Are you mad?" (Middle aged man)

The middle age man suddenly hit the woman in her right cheek, that hit was so strong she was send flying towards my direction and falls unmoving.

I tried to move and reach her.

But was no avail...

I was desperate this time. I tried to crawl, but my legs couldn't exercise more power. Is all I really could do to is look? Looking at the woman while she is in pain?

I then heard footsteps. It was the middle aged man and she was coming towards my direction. But someone is faster than him as it approaches me and hugs me. The woman I thought was unconscious suddenly appeared in front of me. She hugged me gently and silently, she didn't exert any noises. She was just hugging me gently, covering my body with her warmth.

Yet the middle aged man didn't stop walking. I could see that he was more infuriated by the woman's action.

"Y-You, do you really want him to suffered? Are you not thinking of his future? I will execute you immediately if you don't remove your hands on the child" (Middle aged man)

Even though I was angry at him, why do I feel that he has a good intention? Why do I feel that he has right to wronged the woman? But it doesn't change the fact that he hit her. That is enough for me to harbour a hatred and anger against that man.

"Even so... my answer is No!" (Woman)

She shouted at the man with unyielding eyes. Yet I could feel her body is trembling. She was afraid yet she courageously protects me.

"You!" (Middle aged man)

His word is like a roaring wild beast.

But he was halted before he could move another step. The youth suddenly appeared between us. Facing the middle aged man with a serious expression.

"Father, it’s enough already. We can't force anyone to do our bidding that was written in our creed. Even though this place is not appropriate to raised a child, she is still a mother and we must respect that" (Youthful male)

The two stared intently to each other without moving. This youth protected us without thinking of consequences. No... He really did think of the consequence of his action, he just couldn't stand there and watch if such violence action was taken in front of him.  He was a very chivalrous and noble indeed.

it was the first time I've respected a man this high. No... He is the only man that I respected to all of the men I've seen so far..

"Haaa... You really taken the knights creed seriously, it makes me proud of you, but I also worried. Listen to me, you will need it someday..." (Middle aged man)

I've seen the man's face gone softened and removed from anger as he spoke at the youth. If my guess is correct,  he is teaching him some profound knowledge about life he has experienced.

"Not all of the law as right. The knight’s creed was just a basic foundation for all of the knights to follow. When the creed dictates that we should do an action that we thought it is wrong, you must follow what is right for you, that is the knight’s way" (Middle aged man)

"I will father... Then shall we go now?" (Youthful male)

"hahaha... You're really in a hurry to see that cute girl of yours! Fine.."

They have seems to reconcile as the two men are laughing.

As they are about to leave, the middle aged man looked at the woman with disgust and said.

"Remember, a whore is not human, and a human baby is not meant for whores to keep and raised. You don't deserve a human love and he doesn’t deserve a mother whore. It's my job to keep the society clean and prevent someone like you continue to spread. It includes the child. I'll be back with authorities to get him from you. Enjoy while it last" (Middle aged man)

Her grip in me was getting tighter and tighter as the man continues with his bombarded insult at the woman. She trembles more after the last two sentences.

I feel her fear…

It transfers in me...

She was afraid to be alone...

The door closed and silence remained. The woman also stops trembling. But her grip in me didn't soften. It didn't bother me one bit.

We remain still for a long time. Sharing body warmth to me as it also includes her feelings on me.

As if she got enough comfort, she then got up and bring me to the bathroom to wash ourselves. She breastfeed me after that the bath as were in the room which is my playground as she look at me with a smile. Yet that smile was unusual that I still haven't perceived.

We play all day since she hasn't received any guest today...

And that night her wails was stronger than usual, it was so strong it affected me. But I held, I didn't burst my emotions. I will endure...

"I know, I know... I don't deserve you. But 'he' will come to you and take you away from this place. Even he resent me, as long as he has seen you he will change. 'He' might also take me away..."

Part 4

It's been 3 mornings since that eventful day. And as usual men came in the house. This day, the woman received more than 4 men at different time and I could see the light is getting dimmer at the hole in the windows indicates that I was getting dark outside.

As I was playing with my toys, a sudden knock came from the door. And the woman opens it and saw an bald old man.

This old man is the most often to come here. And when the woman and he go inside 'that' room she makes more loud noises than usual.

"Celes, I came for the usual" (Old man)

He was full of life and vigour base on the sounds of his voice. But the woman always wore a indifferent expressionless face when she was in front of this old man.

"Yes"

That was the woman's usual answer.

As she was about to walk the direction of 'that' room her hands suddenly grabbed by the old man.

"The room is too boring now, I prefer we do it in this hall" (Old man)

He smirked at her and made the woman yelp in surprised...

"Please not here!" (Woman)

She pleads for something. She started to cry more than I've seen and heard so far. It pains me as I watching them, when the old man forcefully ripped the clothes off of the woman. She was frightened..

She looked at me with frightened eyes.

Is she frightened after I've seen her naked body?

No, that’s not it; we bathed together so I've seen all.

Buy why?

My answer lies at the old man. He was undressing himself and now fully naked. I could see healed wounds were all over his body and has a muscular body for an old man. He then looks at me and give an evil smile.

"Oh~ it seems like I could hear loud moans than usual. Haha... Boy watched me while I mess with this whore" (Old man)

"Nooo, please I'll do everything, anything, just not here!" (Woman)

She cried loudly and repeatedly pleading at the old man while struggling as he pushed her in the floor and the old man was on top of the woman.

"You'll do anything?" (Old man)

He smirked at the woman.

"Yes yes..," (Woman)

She said it with crazy eyes. She wasn't thinking straight as she keeps repeatedly said one word.

"Then sell that brat to those noble knights" (Old man)

The surroundings turn silent and the woman still processing what the old man said. Then she suddenly wails and cried.

"Please 'hic' anything but that 'hic he's the only thing I got from 'him'" (Woman)

As he sees the woman with disbelieve face, he laughs with joy. He laugh loudly that it vibrates throughout the house.

"Hahaha.. It's too late, I already received the payment, that brat will be gone tomorrow. Even if you beg you won't see your brat again and you will work here forever gahahaha..."

"Y-you’re lying..."

The old man said something to her, and made her face suddenly froze. She turns expressionless.

She repeatedly said the last sentence she had said, again and again.

And the old man was playing with her body. I couldn't bear to watch. I might not know what they're doing, but inside of me I fully know.... I just rejected the idea as it was horrible to imagine.

The old man keeps playing her like a doll without strings. Yet the woman only uttered the same words over again without showing any expression.

I hated myself.

I was powerless...

I was naive...

Is this what they doing inside that room?

You mean to say she is doing this before I was here?

How many men did that one body taken all this years?

Who am I?

Who is she?

I keep asking many questions but no answer was given. It overloads my mind that it made me passed out.

Only leaving only the two individuals was active throughout the night.

I sleep more than the usual. I don't want to see what the expression the woman will make if she has seen me. I might hurt her if I produced a disgusting expression as the memories last night was still fresh in my mind.

Even though I get the feeling that the woman is carrying me hurriedly, as I was bundled with cloth.

I will still closing my eyes.

Even though I feel that she was hyperventilating, as she gasps her breath and hit my face.

I will still close my eyes.

Even though I heard many angry roars, behind the woman as she runs.

I will still close my eyes.

Even though were currently escaping with uncertainty, heading inside the unknown.

I will still close my eyes.

For this woman, I will endure....

To be continuing.....

★★★★★

If you’re asking if this novel was reincarnation. The answer is no.

It will reveal after the ENDURE PARTS.

Haha.. I don't know if the author experience this, but It’s really hard to make multiple plots in a single chapter. So you might receive new chapter after 3-4 days.

I already have ideas on the future scenarios but my English skill is very basic and I lack of complicated words to incorporate or expressing it to make a sentence.

To be honest with you I learned grammars by watching world news like BBC and CNN...

Tell me your thoughts about this chapter.... Thanks