After the meeting with Asher, the moment the door closed behind us, Loki glowered at Alistair, who turned around to face me.

“You owe me, little lamb.” The older brother smirked, leaving me somewhat flustered.

He was just as handsome as the twins.

Do I really ever get a break?

Though I didn’t mind it. He was a good person. That much, I was sure of. Though I didn’t know why he wanted to help me.

There was no reason for him to. Unless I somehow caught on his good side when we spoke. Maybe he found me interesting enough to keep.

“Hah… I don’t know why you keep helping me, but I’ll pay it back one day.” I assured him.

Oh… if he only knew how I would pay him back.

“Look forward to it.” Alistair chuckled before gazing at Loki.

There he bowed his head, waving goodbye. My prince was still steaming by the time his older brother took his leave. We watched Alistair walk away before Loki gazed at me. He appeared confused and conflicted.

“Did he…” my vampire trailed off.

It triggered me to scowl at the troubled prince.

How dare… you think, I willfully would allow anyone else to touch me so easily!

“No. You should know that idiotic prince.” I snapped slightly at him, trying to hide my hostility.

We were in public, and in front of Rem’s biological child. I couldn’t afford to lose my cool as much as I usually did when we were alone. The moment those words left me, I saw him sigh in relief.

He… really…

Before I could even finish that thought, Oswald came for my throat.

“So… You and Alistair are close?” the twin asked, intrigued by the fresh development.

I took a step back from him before facing him head-on. This one wouldn’t play me to his tune. No, if anything, I would. He was looking for any reason to mistrust me more than he already did. And I would give it to him, just like he wanted.

Although, I would also put a spin on it. All to keep him on his toes.

“No… but I want to be, for obvious reasons.” I smirked.

For a moment, Oswald seemed utterly surprised before the same smile I had on my lips rose on his. He enjoyed my answer.

“You’re fucking crazy.” He noted, leaving me feeling fulfilled.

“Yep, get used to it warlock.” I snickered a bit.

Poor Leo seemed utterly confused by the entire event. The twins hadn’t told him anything. If they did, he would surely tell his mother. If Rem ever knew the enemy was here, well, I would be in trouble.

“Am I missing something?” the pup tilted his bewildered.

The moment Leo said that. Loki came from behind me, drawing me up by my chin. Before I knew it, he planted his lips on mine. He was insane. Utterly crazy. Leo and servants were around. Instinctively I pulled away, causing me almost to trip and fall in the motion.

“L-Loki! What are you thinking?!?” I stuttered, gazing around, and covering my lips.

My heart felt like it was in my throat. His cheeks were pink. He placed a hand on his hip, looking at me like I was the weird one.

“You just called yourself a whore in there, you know? Even stuff that happens behind closed doors fly like rumors!” Loki chided.

It caused me to fume.

How… why… is he saying these things even though we were in public?! Endure… compartmentalize… keep it inside.

“I don’t care what people think of me.” I scuffed, trying to stop this.

Even though Oswald and Leo were still there. We were in front of the throne room, too. Everything became secondary in my thoughts. Soon…

“I do,” Loki said in a serious tone.

In an instant, I felt my brain flood. It was almost as if my wires were crossed.

He has no shame.

It didn’t matter that there were prying eyes. In his eyes, I was all that mattered, and I couldn’t handle that.

“Y-you don’t count!” I squealed before storming away.

How could he do this?!? Here out of all places!

My heart couldn’t follow.

Why make it known that you care?

He was a stupid, idiotic fool.

Don’t you care about the consequences? About loving me as a monster. No… He… doesn’t love me. He can’t! But he does…

There was no way to explain this emotion and affection he kept rolling my way.

Why does it have to be so sweet?

I wanted to turn around and kiss him, but I refrained from doing so.

Maybe… If I’m a normal human. If I could be one. Why? Why did I have to be a reincarnated deity? Fuck! Why couldn’t I love freely without fearing what it would do?

It hurt too much. I was about to break. If I stopped, I would crumble. That was unacceptable to me. I was a goddess. I couldn’t break over a boy. But I did.

Why… am I a monster?

There I walked off.

“Oi! Where are you going?” Loki questioned, running to catch me.

I wasn’t stopping, though. I couldn’t. Even though the food was the farthest thing from my mind. It was the only excuse I could come up with.

“I’m hungry, and I want to eat. You kept me from eating all day!” I pointed out, keeping my pace.

But there was no outrunning a vampire. In an instant, he closed the gap between us, grabbing onto my hand for the second time today in public.

“Fine, come. Let’s go,” Loki suddenly tugged me along.

He really was something else. Oswald and Leo quickly joined us, while I couldn’t help myself. The real me was showing, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Though Loki didn’t mind it.

No, he wanted it. He aimed for everyone to know who I was exactly. And who I had eyes for.

“I can walk by myself!” I yelped at his treatment.

But he didn’t let go. No, he held to me tighter. I…

“I don’t want you to,” Loki announced, leaving me flustered and defeated.

There was nothing I could do to get away from him. And I didn’t want to. Defeated, I allowed the vampire to lead me to the Café where we ate and bought food for the night. My cheeks felt like they would fall off at any moment, though.

The entire way there, I gazed at Loki’s broad back. It was the first time I was alone with the three boys. Though luckily, they let me speak about other things. I was silent most of the time. Well, until Leo left for the night.

That was when Oswald drilled me on my approach to Alistair. I told him everything that I knew about his older brother. Though most of it he already suspected. Loki had to, but it was hard to say with Alistair destined to kill him and all.

Though that was all thrown into question. I confessed that the book’s readings weren’t always precise, though something about this one seemed off. We were missing critical information. After all, Edna had only warned us about the day when everything occurred.

The reading itself was so vague. How would Alistair kill Loki? Usually, the book would be more precise. But that was according to my father, who saw my mother use me once or twice. From what I had learned, Alistair wasn’t the man we were looking for.

That much was for sure. Though it was also a given that he would be involved somehow. He was probably a tool for it. A sad fate, and one that I wouldn’t allow. If anyone knew how, it felt to be an instrument for others.

It was I. Referring to the older brother as a means to an end made me revel in irritation. The thought of anyone being a tool was unforgivable in my eyes. Though it was undeniable.

Had my mother been hiding something from me? From everyone? Surely, my visions aren’t this vague.

Usually, there was a way, a reason, how the person met their end. I couldn’t tell the boys that, but I told them about what I suspected. There was no way to know anymore who would be the one behind Loki’s death fate.

Unless I used her grimoire and gave the incantation to one of them. Perhaps there was more to Loki’s death than she wanted us to know. Maybe the coven handled Alistair’s change. I needed to place a protective spell on him, but doing that would be almost impossible.

By the time we finished discussing everything, it was nighttime. No one came to watch us since Oswald would have caught them if they had. While he was around, we didn’t have to worry about being under surveillance.

I guess that was why he was targeted first. His connection to the soul cairn made him too powerful. At least we were safe while he was around. Well, from magical spells. Anyone could try to eavesdrop on us.

Though in such a crowd, it was hard to know who was talking unless we were close to one another. After discussing everything that had happened, we walked home. However, when we got to the castle, Emma was waiting for Oswald outside.

She was in her normal clothes since it was after hours. Zoe was nowhere to be seen. The moment she spotted him. It was almost like Oz was struck by lightning. Taking a deep breath, she walked over before stopping in front of him.

It surprised me how she didn’t say a word to me, not her full focus was on him. And I had never seen her be so focused on a task while I was around. Usually, she would flaunt me, but she was serious.

Zephier quickly hopped from her summoner and onto Emma’s shoulder. Oz gazed away from his maid while she refused to move aside.

“If you’re going to ignore me. That’s fine. I guess you know who I am.” Emma stared at the warlock.

The atmosphere felt heavy and confusing. To where I felt like I should just walk away. After all, this wasn’t my problem. Though I was the one who caused this rift. I was the one who outed Emma as the enemy.

This would be something I destroyed. It could’ve been beautiful if it wasn’t because of me. If our kind didn’t exist.

“Emma… I…” Oswald trailed off, not knowing how to feel.

Even though he had the entire day to think, it hadn’t been enough to sort his thoughts. I was about to walk away from the scene that played out in front of me. But Loki grabbed onto my hand, preventing me from doing so.

I gazed at him, confused about why he was holding me here. My prince’s eyes weren’t on me, though. They were on his brother and Emma. What came next from her would glue my eyes onto her.

“It is funny. You were the one who said it did not matter what we were! But here you are backtracking. Typical. I should’ve known to not be swayed by the words of a boy.” Emma called out to Oswald.

Those were ones I never heard of. But seemed similar to what Loki had said. The way she spoke…

Would that have been me if Loki rejected me? No. I would’ve destroyed the castle and taken him with me.

“I warned you that you would hate me the moment you knew me. And if it’s too hard for you to look at me. Then you should fire me, Oswald.” She pointed out, gazing towards Zephier.

The little cat had nuzzled into her hair. If his familiar was anything like Eli, then Oswald’s genuine emotions…

“I don’t want you to leave, Emma,” he sighed, gazing at the girl whose eyes glossed.

She was trying not to cry. The last time I ever felt tears was when I was confronting Loki. I guess these boys had their way with us. Zoe was the only one who had an admirer that hadn’t made her cry.

In fact, they appeared to be friends more than anything else. A sweet wolf who would slowly win her heart. Too bad that one won’t last either. We all knew this was how it would end. But we hoped for something better.

I couldn’t allow that to happen.

If I hope… If I wish… I could taint Loki.

It was almost as if time had stopped for a moment while a memory played in my mind. One where I couldn’t make out who were the ones speaking, but someone was holding me in their hand. Voices I didn’t recognize erupted.

The surrounding figures were only bright bodies. Nothing to identify them. Nothing but their names.

A god wishing is repulsive. Fenrir, you should’ve known this is how a wish maker ends. A god snickered.

Please don’t… I won’t try to destroy it again. Please, let him go. The one named Fenrir pleaded.

Oh, Fenrir, why are you pleading for your lover’s life? Are you sure you’re the god of war? Another made fun of the desperate god.

It’s okay, my love. I love you. Always will. A gentle voice said, causing the one named Fenrir to break into a sob.

No… I love you too. Please let him go! Fenrir sounded so desperate.

His voice made my heartache.

Touching… Another spoke, leaving an awful feeling within me.

Even though none of them could hear me. I think I was pleading with them to stop. But I was in a voiceless shell. No one wanted to hear me.

Valdios! Fenrir called out to his love.

A loud slashing sound came before a body fell onto the floor.

No!!!!! I’ll… fucking kill you! I’ll destroy all of you! Fenrir shrieked at the others before wailing loudly.

Ah, if you only would’ve shown that spark when he could still be saved. You should’ve learned that we just take. We rule and we dominate. But now, you’ll be alone forever. A god who was next to the one holding me snickered.

They say gods can only love once. I wonder if it’s true. Will you be my experiment Fenrir?

The memory ended as time began.

What did I just…?

I couldn’t understand it. Though… I…

“Then… don’t ignore me. If you don’t mind, I have a job. One I came here to do and I intend to do it right.” The witch announced, placing Zephier on the floor before walking away.

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“Emma, wait!” Oswald reached for her.

He grabbed onto her arm. She gazed at him with hurtful eyes before yanking her arm away.

“Oz… I’ll see you later.” Loki interrupted the two, who gazed at us.

Emma’s eyes appeared to gloss before she gazed down at the floor. I destroyed more than I realized. That memory was from Rem’s past life. I was there when Valdios was struck down. He was Alijah’s past life.

Before I knew it, Loki tugged away from me from there. Emma and Oswald both stayed behind. My prince led me back to the room, where he let me go by the bed. He placed the food we had bought for later on the desk.

In his eyes, there was still irritation from earlier. All that was in my mind, though, was that memory. It was a blurry one. Yet I was there. I felt how the god held onto my covers. The pain of being unheard.

The grief of watching others hurt themselves. Even though I didn’t understand death. I could hear the pain in Fenrir’s voice. The agony he was in when he saw the love of his life struck down. Eli slid into the bed with me before warping his body around mine.

Unaware of my feelings, Loki went to look for something in the cabinets. Yet his familiar prevented me from moving from where I was. Before I knew it, my prince threw a package on the bed.

He undid his shirt while I gazed at the box he had thrown on it. I recognized it from the first night I came here. They were the little toys he had gotten for me. Well, he had gotten to tease me with it.

Pushing down the emotions that were trying to swell out of me, I focused on the vampire’s intentions.

“W-what are y-you p-planning?” I stumbled to gather my thoughts.

The memory was harder to shake than the other ones that I had experienced before. Though I had to focus on what was currently happening. I didn’t know what he planned to do with those things.

However, based on the way he was looking at me. I could tell he wasn’t planning on letting me go tonight. In fact, he would soon erase that memory along with my sanity.

“Me? Hm... Nothing, but fun sweets.” He smiled, dropping his shirt onto the floor.

His blue purplish orbs had me trapped in them. Though the snake that held me in place was probably the culprit on why I didn’t run or fight. Or so I wanted to blame it on him. But it was the memory that had shaken me.

I had a little spunk left in me today.

“And what did I do to deserve this fun?” I asked, gazing back at the unopened package of toys.

My voice trembled. I was tired. Though my worries would soon be prevalent.

He… wouldn’t dare. Right? No… This is the crazy one. He would… dare.

“Well, I didn’t appreciate Alistair’s save and you calling yourself a whore to my grandfather.” Loki chided before climbing onto the bed with me.

A second later, my back was on the bed. He trailed his hands up my dress to remove my underwear. I didn’t mind his action toward me, but his words were another matter. Slowly, the feelings left by that blur of a memory faded.

All the while, Loki filled my mind with him.

You really are…

“Well… would you have rather Asher bitten me?” I scuffed, feeling better than before.

My vampire scowled, pressing my arms into the bed.

“Fuck no… Like I would’ve allowed that. You’re mine.” He hissed, taking his hands off me before undoing my dress.

“Keke… I would’ve eaten him whole.” Eli snickered.

I rolled my eyes at the two.

“You don’t own me.” I huffed, trying to keep the strong front.

In response, the vampire chuckled, lowering my dress to expose my chest. He grabbed onto my neck before flashing his fangs at me.

“Keep telling yourself that, sweets,” Loki huffed, brushing his lips on my neck.

The sensation of his soft members caressing my skin caused me to shiver in anticipation. Though that didn’t stop my mouth from running.

More… make me forget who I’m while I’m in your arms. Make me into a normal girl.

“Yep… you’re brain dead,” I sneered, urging him on.

A second later, my vampire drew away from my neck, gazing at me with an expression I hadn’t seen. He wanted to dominate me.

Me… a goddess. What a joke.

One that I welcomed wholeheartedly.

“Oi… You should think before you speak, sweets. I’m going to fuck the living shit out of you tonight.” Loki warned, gazing at the toys on the bed.

I want you to, silly vampire.

He thought he was the dominant one when in reality, I…

“Oh? You are? Isn’t it the other way around?” I teased, not caring about what he would do to me.

We had already done everything in the book. But I would soon find out he would spice me up in ways I never expected.

“Oh… Baby girl, I’m going to show you.” Loki licked his bottom lip.

Eli suddenly bound my hands together, snickering. He already knew about Loki’s plans. Once my dress was off me, I lay on the bed with a bra alone. Eli quickly slid his head under it to pull it off my breast, while Loki opened the box and dropped the pink toys on the bed.

“To be honest. I never thought I would use these, but I kind of want to see if they make you squirm.” Loki smirked, placing his attention on me.

“That isn’t how I see it.” I challenged, triggering him to raise his eyebrows in surprise.

Well, he appeared to enjoy himself, at least. Eli’s grip on me wasn’t loosening, though. Loki grabbed onto the small oval-shaped toy before licking it. The playful vampire was too much.

“Hm… I made a mess of you earlier, didn’t I?” he teased.

Eli warped his body around my legs before separating them. The sudden jerk caused me to gasp as the snake lifted his head that was on my chest, taking the bra with him.

When did he…?

I couldn’t finish that, though, before Loki licked me in my vulva. A yelp left my lips, triggering me to gaze down at him. The sneaky snake had taken my attention away from his summoner. I couldn’t let him win.

“I-If I r-remember it… You crumbled the moment I said your name.” I tried to hold my mewls from coming out.

It was difficult because he had no intention of letting me stay within reason. His tongue lapped my sensitive bell before suddenly sucking on it. A loud whine left me, triggering my body to shudder.

He took the opportunity to slip the toy into me before turning it on with a button in his hands. A sudden yelp released from my lips when he continued to lick my sensitive bell. It was almost as if he was playing with it.

In an instant, it pushed aside the memory as my desire to hold him took hold. I wanted to hold on to his white silvery locks and pull on them. But with Eli holding me so tightly, it was impossible. Instead, Loki’s name left my lips.

But instead of slowing down, he pressed the button again to increase the intensity of the toy. Pulling away from my groin, he licked his lips temptingly. He was enjoying every reaction I was having.

“Hah… Hot, Vivi.” Loki murmured under his breath, eyeing me down like sweet candy.

With a soft sigh, he unbuckled his pants before releasing his heat from its confines. I couldn’t help but mewl thanks to the vibrations the little device was sending through me. Though it was nowhere near enough.

If my hands were free, I would drag his pretty little head into my…

Without letting me finish a simple thought, he turned off the device that was attached to a string. He pulled it out, placing it against my other…. Before he had taken me in every way there was. But it had been almost a week since he used...

“Wait...” I started, only to stop when I saw his smile.

It was caring. I knew I would be fine in his hands.

“Don’t worry, sweetheart. I won’t hurt you,” Loki simpered, pushing the little toy in me again.

The sudden sensation caused me to gasp, trying to remove my hands from Eli’s grip. But he wouldn’t budge. It wasn’t even on, but the feeling was odd to me. Instead of letting me go, Loki caged me under him before smirking.

I flinched the moment he pressed his heat against my vulva. Even though it was off, the sensation that was about to surge would be something completely new to me. I got jittery because of it.

“W-wait…” I repeated, attempting to get my grasp on the situation.

But this vampire wouldn’t let me. He slowly pushed himself into me.

“I still haven’t heard a stop or no,” he breathed into my ear before licking the nape of my neck.

Shivers ran down my spine when he filled me to the brim. A loud mewl left my lips before he stole them with his. For a while he feverously kissed me, allowing me to adjust to the new sensations.

Though the way his tongue caressed me while he ground himself into me was driving me insane. And the way his bare skin felt on mine... Before I knew it, Eli let my arms go, allowing me to wrap them around Loki's head.

There I coiled my fingers in his hair. All my previous worries were gone until when he turned on the little device. In an instant, I felt the vibrations again, causing me to squeal when he separated himself from my lips.

“I’m not like Oswald, Vivian,” Loki murmured into my ear.

Is that why… you made me watch your brother struggle to accept Emma? All because you wanted me to know that you don’t have those doubts. What a foolish vampire! Why… are you so insistent on getting to a place where I would never let go?

A god can only love once… The voice of the other divine echoed within me.

Shit.

Even though we hadn’t voiced our emotions. We both knew how we felt about one another. It would only be a ticking clock until one of us broke. And that wouldn’t be me. Pants left his lips when he tugged away from my ear.

For a moment, I could see how bright his eyes glowed. It was almost as if I were watching the blue sky in them. A second later, he leaned into my neck as his fangs sunk into my skin. The blaze that had been quelled through the day relit.

Of course, he sucked blood from me, too. Unable to help myself any longer, I bucked my hips in search of more. I felt a smirk form on his lips, triggering me to whimper his name.

“You want me that much, Vivi?” Loki licked where he had bitten before facing me.

His orbs were full of desire. Launching myself into him, I lapped his lips with my tongue. I didn’t care that the taste of iron still was fresh. He instantly let me in with ease. For a quick moment, I explored his mouth, indulging myself with him.

I trailed his hair with my fingertips, enjoying the feeling it left on my skin. His fangs brushed against my soft member as I played with him.

“Shut up and do me already,” I whined after pulling away slightly, still reserving some of my spunk.

His smile became more defined before suddenly moving. A second later, the intensity of the toy became higher. Another yelp came from me as my back arched. Everything felt so intense that I could barely keep up.

The vibration in combination with his thrust was too much. He felt them too, prompting him to moan more frequently than usual. Eli’s soft and cool skin left me aching, while Loki’s hot skin made me lose it.

If everyone saw me as a slut. I was a happy one while it was him holding me. I mewled uncontrollably, responding to his touch. It wasn’t the venom anymore. The little toy, even though it sent me over the edge, was nothing compared to his heat.

Everything was just as intense for him when a loud moan left his lips, finding his release within me. That was the tipping point. My body convulsed under him while he unloaded into me. A soft chuckle left his lips when he kissed me.

Even though my mind was in bliss, I responded with the same passion he showed me. I hadn’t even noticed when his wings erupted. He was beautiful in every sense of the word. His soul and appearance were both out of this world.

As well as his mind, for anyone to find affection for a monster like me.

Gods… can only love once… Fuck it! I’ll love him. And only him then. Even if I can’t take him with me. We don’t need to be heartless beings!

I kissed him feverishly before drawing away and calling his name. Even though I could never say what I felt, I could show him. I wanted to make it so. When I was gone, he would remember me even in his future relationships.

Is this how Fenrir felt when he reincarnated Valdios? No… he was selfless. I’m the complete opposite.

I wanted to dominate Loki. He was meant to be mine. Yet I wouldn’t allow him to drag me down. He would weaken me if I allowed it. But I lost that fight. He was already making me into a brittle mess.

I had become so idiotic in making decisions surrounding him. In response, he simpered, rubbing his nose against mine.

“You complete me, Vivi,” Loki murmured, before continuing to wash my world away.

That night, my vampire held me as he wanted. I allowed him to. Eli was on me as well. Both showed me the affection I wanted. Everything of mine was theirs. These two souls that merged into one owned my heart.

I didn’t even realize when I fell asleep. But it would be one of those days where I wished I would have stayed awake. I found myself surrounded by the gods of old. I didn’t recognize any of their faces.

But the dread that filled me when one approached me was overwhelming. This god had cold eyes. I would call them dead. His expression was one of malice and mischief. I had never seen such malevolence come from someone before.

Not even from Lilith, who was a psychopathic murderer. He had deep black hair that waved in the wind while his amber eyes studied me. I didn’t know what was happening or where I was. The space seemed empty apart from the floor we stood on.

I couldn’t recognize it.

“Did you think we wouldn’t find you, little book?” The dreadful God announced.

I froze where I was.

Is this a dream?

It had to be. I remained silent, peering around the gods to see all of them staring at me. None of them had the deep blue eyes the exiled ones did.

The living gods? Is this a memory? Or… a warning?

“You can remain quiet if you wish. I’ll just use this boy as leverage.” The god huffed as some of them yanked out Loki.

My eyes widened in shock, watching them drop my heart onto the floor. They bound his hands behind his back. Eli was nowhere to be seen. My prince appeared to be a bloody mess. One that I couldn’t bear to look at.

It hurt to do so.

Is this what the gods will do if I ever care for anyone? Was this what they did to Fenrir’s love?

“Stop…” I muttered, unable to process completely what was happening.

They continued as if they hadn’t heard me.

“Now little book, have you forgotten who your master is? You even dared to hide from me.” The heartless god declared, standing up from the throne-like chair.

He walked towards the battered Loki, snatching him by his hair. Yanking him up from the floor, I could see how much bigger these gods were compared to us. They were titans…

Is that their original form?

They were probably three to five meters in height.

“Please… don’t hurt him!” I begged them, feeling brittle.

With Loki in their hands, it was like my heart was bleeding. They wouldn’t care, though. The god grimaced upon hearing my plea for my heart’s life.

“Books… don’t have voices.” The god snapped his fingers.

The motion caused a gash to appear on my neck. Instantly, he severed my vocal cords, triggering me to grip my neck. It didn’t hurt. At that moment, Loki got some self-awareness from the beating he had endured.

“Vivian!” he yelled.

Upon hearing his voice, I gazed up to see the god slam my prince onto the floor. It knocked the air out of him.

“Shut up, mortal.” The god scowled at him before returning his deathly gaze to me.

I wanted to destroy him. Yet my body would not move. No, it was covered in these red markings while my blood-drenched a white dress I had on.

“Tools… have no need for a voice. And surely… they don’t need to love either.” He continued pulling my prince back up.

No words would leave me. Dread filled me in ways I never thought possible.

“This boy escaped death once. But I’ll claim his soul now.” The god announced, smirking.

His words caused me to stand up only for another god to grab onto my hair, dragging me from my feet to the air.

“Vivi… It’s okay. I…” before Loki could finish his sentence, the horrific god stabbed his hand into my prince’s chest before ripping his heart out.

The shock caused tears to swell out of my eyes. I couldn’t even scream. No noise came from me, even though my mouth was wide open. The god dropped his limp body on the floor before walking toward me.

Once in front of me, he dropped my prince’s heart on the floor. Instinctively, I gazed down at it before he grabbed my face with the hand he had used to kill my love. The blood seeped into my skin.

I couldn’t focus on anything else but the dead heart on the floor. Even though I couldn’t see it through the giant’s hand, I could see it. My body trembled, not in fear, but pure fury.

“You’ll always be alone. And used.” The god declared as I smirked.

If this world was one where Loki was no longer around, then. I reached for my bleeding neck, only to jolt awake soon after. It had been a dream. Although it had felt so real. Luckily, I hadn’t jolted up, but my sudden gasp caused Loki to grumble next to me.

For the first time, ever since I stopped reliving my past life. I had my first nightmare. One I could remember, fully. The venom that was still in my body from when he bit me made my body warm.

But it wouldn’t influence what I wanted to do next. I softly turned around. Loki’s arms were around me, but I wanted to face him. Even though the room was dark, and I could barely see him, I could feel Eli wake up because of my movements.

He had been loosely coiled around my legs. Though now he gently slithered up my body. Ignoring his advances, I reached for Loki’s face. The first thing I meet with was his curls before softly tracing my fingertips to his warm skin.

A soft groan came from his lips as I found them with my touch. Before I knew it, I tugged myself to meet with them. The warmth that radiated from them and into me was unordinary. Unable to help myself, I climbed on top of him.

Eli slithered past my back as I gave Loki a wake-up call. I kissed him feverously, awaking him from his sleep. Luckily, he responded the same way as I did. He didn’t know why I was acting this way, but he didn’t need it.

All he knew was that I needed his affection, and he would gladly give it to me. Even if it disturbed his sleep. For a while, we made out while I tried to situate myself in the fact he was still alive.

When I finally separated from his lips, he chuckled a bit, trailing his fingers down my cheeks.

“What did I do to deserve this?” Loki breathed.

The sight below me was one to behold. Luckily, my eyes had adjusted to the dark. I could see his outline so well that I…

“I… had a nightmare,” I whispered, trailing my hands down his pecs.

Loki licked his lips when Eli coiled around my waist. I needed to keep this heart beating at all costs. I would never break this bond. If the gods wanted me, then they surely would need him alive.

I’m sorry… You’ll always be connected to me. It’s the only way…

“Vivi…” Loki began, worried about my expression.

Unlike me, he could see me clearly. I guess I seemed like I wanted to cry, but I wouldn’t allow him to finish that thought. Instead of letting him finish, I reached down to his heat. The moment my fingertips touched him, he choked on his words.

It was up and ready for me. Thankfully, men usually were in the morning hours.

“Vi…” He breathed while he was in my grasp.

His eyes shimmered somewhat, allowing me to know he was there. I couldn’t tell him what I dreamt about. After all, knowing his stupid cocky attitude, he would push it aside like it was nothing to worry about.

But I knew better. I knew that once I saved him. I had to leave him.

Yes, go far away for your safety.

If that dream was a warning, I would never allow it to come to fruition. The gods would never kill him, and they would never take me. Before he could utter a word, I pressed him against my entrance.

“Wait, Vivi…” Loki tried to speak.

I shoved him in either way. After all, he didn’t wait for me last night either. And at the peak of dawn, I wouldn’t be patient. My soft whine left my lips from the sudden sensation of him filling me.

His hands clamped down on my hips as a soft groan left his lips.

“No… I just want to fuck you until the point I don’t remember who I am anymore.” I huffed, swaying my hips at a fast pace.

A moan left Loki’s lips while mewls left mine. I couldn’t remember if he said anything else, but I lost myself in the pleasure that was ruling my body. His warmth was all that mattered that I didn’t realize when my body shimmered as well.

With the soft glow, I could see Loki’s expressions even clearer than before. His thrust mixed with my movement, bringing us both to bliss. Before I knew it, Loki’s grip on my hips tightened before he slammed himself into me.

A low moan came from him while I mewled loudly. The explosion within me caused me to go along, too. I locked my eyes on the ceiling above. Blurry memories emerged.

Edna… I’m scared.

Of what may that be?

The gods… what will I do if they find us?

They won’t find us, little one.

How can you be sure?

As long as you’re bound to a mortal. They can’t spot you with their divine eyes.

What if I… am not bonded? I don’t think anyone would bind their souls with me.

Silly, you don’t need to worry about that. I’ll make sure I find someone willing.

Edna… Why… does it sound like you won’t be around?

You… Did you just bring that up to find out what I’m planning?

Did it work?

My… the years have made you get a little too clever, Vivian.

Why aren’t you sharing with me? I fear my power’s corrupting you, Edna.

There are things you won’t understand. But don’t worry. My child, I’ll always be with you.

For a moment, I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I gazed down at Loki, who was panting heavily.

What… was that?

I couldn’t think long on it since my beloved souls wouldn’t allow me to.

“Keke… Vivi’s always the best.” Eli snickered, coiling around my chest and back.

Nuzzling his face on my cheek, he spread his wings widely. It was one of the first times I had ever seen them so large. For a moment I rested my head on Eli, while Loki growled.

“Shut up,” my prince huffed, annoyed at an untold conversation the two were having.

Loki sat up slightly before licking my breast and fondling the other one. His warmth once again washed away the coldness that had set into my body. The way his fangs brushed up my skin caused me to shiver.

“Keke… I’m just being truthful. Or should I say something you’ve been wanting to say for a while now?” The snake teased his other half, tightening his grip on me.

These two were too much. Loki’s lips curved upward in a smirk. He was about to go off on the snake. Even though it intrigued me what they were talking about. Part of me just wanted them to…

“Both of you shut up and give me more,” I demanded, pushing my prince back down onto the bed.

For a vampire, he surely allowed me to do anything I wanted. Though this time, I went down with him, clashing my lips with his. From there, we made love until the alarm finally gave us a reason to separate.

Well, briefly. In the bathroom, we filled each other’s beings until the point where I almost lost myself. But I didn’t. Not even when we got ready when he asked me about my dream. I quickly brushed it off as one of the many others I had told him about.

The memories I couldn’t remember. Though, it probably had to do with Fenrir’s moment in my mind. Somehow, my mind had reenacted the entire event. Though, of course, it was more geared toward me.

It was the first nightmare I ever had like that, though. And it also reminded me of the moments I had with Loki were precious. Though all that would change was that I would kiss him more. That I would find my way through his clothes whenever I could.

I wanted to make sure I would remember every little part of him.

So, the gods can only love once.

Then, this love would last my mortal lifetime. He would complete me in ways I never thought I would ever want to be filled. Though, of course, I wouldn’t allow him to know that. No, that was my guilty pleasure.

One that I would take to my grave. Lilith once told me that gods loved in the weirdest ways. And this was mine.