I found myself discovered by the boy I had grown to care for. With my cover blown, I thought the only way out of this was to reveal my intentions and take both my links captive. After all, there was no point in staying if I was their enemy.

And in his eyes, I surely was nothing more than the cause of the destruction of his family.

“So, what if I am?” Loki crossed his arms, unimpressed by my assessment of him.

I scowled, not reading his expression. Nor did I want to. It scared me. How I wished I could read his mind, though. Then I would know what he had planned by taking me to this forsaken park.

A trap? An assault?

I had no way of knowing what was happening. Surely, it was not to chatter. He was not stupid enough to let the girl who Rem searched escape. Though I did not want to.

“You have a death wish.” I huffed, trying to seem tough and invulnerable.

Sadly, I felt completely the opposite. I wished it would have lasted a little while longer. Not the sex, just the days I spent with Loki when he thought I was a regular mortal. The way he treated me like something brittle.

All the tasty treats he gave me. It did not matter. It was all over now. Surely, the hate would come to his eyes soon enough. For a moment, I saw it. My words brought the pain I caused out.

“Maybe… I mean, I did fuck with the being that caused my family to crumble.” Loki smirked without an ounce of fear in his eyes.

I could not help but glare back at him.

Is that anger or hate?

I could not tell them apart anymore. However, I would not collapse in front of him as he desired. No, I would not show an ounce of weakness to him. After all, I was unshakable and unbreakable. But... I was more brittle than I thought.

I was shaking and breaking.

“Yet even though you caused that. You also earnestly ran in between me and those shadow beasts. Why?” he asked in a soft tone.

The question that I dreaded left the vampire's lips. He seemed tired of the roundabout. I planted my feet firmly on the ground to stop myself from trembling. Enough time passed for me to figure out an answer for it, though it was not the best.

“Don’t think yourself too highly. If they took you, then it would’ve created problems for me,” I answered, hoping Loki would believe every word.

After all, what I said was true, but it was not the reason I ran to him in desperation. Dad would have saved him in my stead from the beast. But I was not thinking rationally. The thought of him getting hurt any further made me lose it.

This emotion that grew within me was utterly useless.

Why… do I have to care for him when he won’t feel the same?

Like now, my heart ached to remember every kiss we shared the previous day. The one earlier, too. Every one of them was without an ounce of genuine emotion from him.

Right?

Loki chuckled, shaking his head. It only pissed me off. He always acted like he knew everything. Though he read me. What I felt was like he could pick up on it. A skill I had not developed as well.

“What’s so funny?” I growled.

He licked his lips, smirked like he had figured me out.

“It just makes no sense. Why were you shaking in your shoes, sweety? If you were just ready to save me. Then why were you so terrified?” Loki continued to prod.

I found myself in a pinch.

Shit, I never thought you’d try to follow up on the previous question. Think, Vivian!

He had fully noticed that it filled me with dread yesterday. Even so, I faced the beasts, trying to protect him. That was not a lie. My voice and posture all betrayed me. I did not want to answer him why I was terrified, because it would surely come back to bite me.

There was no point in Loki knowing that the thought of him being taken or harmed scared me. That I was shaking in my shoes because I knew I was about to trade my freedom for his life.

So stupid. I’m so foolish.

No matter how I answered it. Knowing him, it would lead to a more precise question. Eventually, he would find out.

I need to end this. But how?

“I…” I began, only to bite my tongue, unable to come up with anything to respond.

I need more time.

Everything was too chaotic for me to think straight. And my body still burned in ways I struggled to suppress. I could have told Loki the truth, but then that would have placed my heart on the platter for his picking.

Something, I would not allow that. It was already shattering from the fear of where this would end up. I had to keep myself together. Though my silence on the matter was an answer by itself. The less he knew about everything, the better it would be.

My stance, though, seemed to annoy the prince. He wanted me to speak. There was no way he would figure me out otherwise.

“If you are what Remi says, you are. Then why the fuck would you be terrified of the shadow of the gods when you’re a god?! Answer me, Vivian! Or should I say the book of life?!” Loki finally showed his resentment towards me in his voice.

I felt a sting in my chest. Even though I knew it was coming. Even though I knew. My heart ached more than I thought it would.

I…

This monster… I remembered Rem's words as if they had happened today.

The only thing I could do was clench my hands into fists, trying to bottle my emotions. But it was getting harder. Part of me wanted to break free. I wanted to yell, to cry, to fight the image in Loki's eyes. But I would be nothing else than a monster.

An abomination who caused the death of his nuclear family. I gazed away from Loki, wondering if there was nothing else to do to salvage this. There was not a part of me that wanted to take the twins away from their home.

But part of me wondered if it was time to destroy everything and take them prisoners.

Is there any point in speaking anymore?

I was not good at this, but there was a problem with that plan. The twins were not pushovers either.

“Start speaking, Vivian. I fucked you because I owed you a save. If that’s what has your tongue-tied, then…” Loki trailed off, clicking his tongue at the end.

His eyes flickered, almost as if he did not mean to say that. Eli hissed at him, too. I felt a snap in my heart at those words. Memories of what happened last night flowed through my mind again.

I remembered every kiss. Every movement... Everything we shared. When he fed me water when my throat was dry from all my mewling from his touch. When I climbed onto him in a daze and…

All of that was done without an ounce of love from him, right? Is that what he meant by that? Fuck! I did everything I wanted without thinking about what he felt. Without caring about the now. Yes… am a monster.

I had been Loki’s first, and it was nothing more than a normal fuck. Something he had tried to avoid. Something I stole because of my selfish desire to save him. I ruined everything.

His family, his purity… All gone because of my selfishness. With my twisted love, I was worth shit. All of it was an act. I was a facade.

Why am I disappointed by his words? Why do they stab me harder than anything else I’ve ever felt? Did somewhere in my heart hope he did everything with love? Fool… love isn’t for me. It won’t ever be for me.

At least I got to feel something I thought I would never feel before. Lilith was right, though. No one would ever love me. I had to make him hate me more. That way, I did not have to hold back.

Be the monster that I was meant to be. That was the part I had to play. And perhaps then, after I subdued the twins... Maybe I could get him to fuck me for the fun of it. After all, I would be his captor.

That sounded like a splendid plan.

Vivian, you’ve outdone yourself this time.

Or so I wanted to think.

“Hah!? Tongue-tied? Give me a break! You think that would affect me?” I snickered.

It was hard to hide the pain.

Fuck! My chest hurts… It hurts so much yet… Fight the emotion! Destroy it! This is never meant for me!

“You fucked me because you owed me for saving you?” I broke out in a fit of laughter soon after those words left my mouth.

Loki had made it easy. This was gold. Pure luxurious gold. A new one, Loki, was utterly hilarious, but it also pissed me the fuck off. Show him no pain, just anger, and frustration.

You know nothing of me. Rem knows nothing of me! No one knows me!

Yet they did... I was an abomination.

“If that was the case, then you should’ve just let me suffer the entire fucking time! Imprudent mortal!” I suddenly screeched, leaving me almost without breath to spare.

My voice was still hoarse from yesterday, and my scream just made it a hundred times worse. I stood against the strongest vampire who ever lived in this era. Usually, royal vampires had a death range of two meters.

But Loki’s… death range was normally six meters. It grew depending on the quality of blood he fed off. Within that range, vampires could control blood within a living body with ease. It was limited, though, and they could be overwhelmed.

But who would run into instant death willingly? While Loki could not kill me because of our bond, he could destroy my limbs, or worse. But that would only cover the control he had over blood itself.

He had another, more worrisome thing to be aware of. I still remembered when he said he could make me into a blob of flesh if he wanted. Or even create a tumor. Truly horrific. But the true extent of it was worse.

Loki’s blood magic was something more concerning than his blood control ability. With it, he could create blood from thin air to use as a weapon. Basically, he could transform the environment into one covered in blood, allowing him to have a further range than other vampires.

The cages created the day before to capture those shadow beasts while his brother recovered. That was a fraction of what he could do, but blood magic was also hard to control. One slight miss of concentration and someone nearby might have died instantly.

Though such power drained him to use it. Most vampires carried a blood pack around to refill their power. This also applied to Loki but tenth fold since he would have to drink more to keep his magic going.

However, the previous night he had his fill of my divine blood, making him a complete menace. I could feel the magical energy radiate from him, even if he did not have any spell active. He truly was the first vampire to have magic in thousands of years.

This prince was a magnificent being, and probably my death. Though that did not matter. This mortal stood against the strongest being who ever existed. I had inherited my divine power from my ancient soul.

It had both destruction and creation properties, along with the power to predict future events. But that one was beyond my control. It was thought a binding incantation was required for it to activate.

However, that would also bind my will to the user. I would become their slave and it would render me harmless to the castor in a matter of seconds. That incantation had been in my childhood home, within my mother's grimoire. Or at least, my father thought.

He hoped I would inherit it once I turned off age. But in the hurry to escape Rem, Nene forgot about it. She left it in the destroyed home where it was recovered by the half-breed. My only saving grace was that it was sealed with my magic.

Though it did not matter since I would probably never see it, anyway. What was worse was that if I were to use more than a fraction of my power. It would surely alert the living gods of my presence, making life more difficult than it already was.

Thanks to that too, I had a weak understanding of where my true power laid. At all times I used less than a fraction, but even then, could be too destructive if I was not wearing my brooch. In the end, though, Loki and I were harmless to each other.

If I wanted, I could rip his limbs while he could do the same to me. Anything was fair if it was not deadly for our bond. But I could never do that to him. If only I had not fallen for him. My emotions were cascading out of control, making me irrational.

I never wanted it to come to this. No, I wanted to save him and leave him to a normal mortal life. I should have been more careful. It was never supposed to get like this, and for that, I would be eternally regretful.

“You all think you know me when, in reality, you mortals know nothing about me!” I screamed, feeling the rage and sadness that I tried to hide.

It was all spilling. I should have stayed quiet, yet it hurt. The pain was too much.

Why do Loki's words hurt so much? Why does my heart ache so much? I thought I killed it long ago!

I probably was playing right into his hands, but I did not care. In the end, nothing would matter. I would destroy this city and take him and his brother, Oswald, with me if I had to. Even though I wished I did not have to.

“Everyone just sees me as a fucking abomination!” Everything was slipping out of me.

Is it fair to be seen that way even though I never wanted to be? All I wanted was to live a normal life with Nene! Why do I have to be this god?!

I grabbed my brooch, ready to tear it off.

But what if I hurt him?

That thought alone caused a throb in my heart, tightening my grip on the small accessory.

I can’t be weak. So, what if he gets hurt!? He doesn’t give a shit about me! I need to be better! To be more!

I needed to live because that was what Nene wanted. Even so… I…

“I’m an abomination that doesn’t deserve to fucking roam the world like I am! Even so, I want to live, and no one will take that from me!” I scoffed, feeling liberated by what everything that spilled out.

It was the first I had ever worded everything out since that day six years ago. I had never allowed my feelings to go wild like this. All I had to do was rip this brooch off and take him before he did anything to damage me.

But in this range, surely, I would... I did not know what expression I had on my face, but surely it was nothing pleasant to see. Probably seemed like a crazy person. Yet Loki's gaze was anything but hateful.

Is he looking down on me? Pity?! I don’t need it! How dare he?!

“All you people do is hate me for what I am! I bet you feel disgusted by what you allowed to touch you last night! Are you filled with regret?! Is that it?! Pitiful!" I laughed maniacally, unable to stop my emotions anymore.

Ah… I don’t want to stop them. See me for who I am. Hate me… Detest me so I can put this to rest. Stop looking at me like that! I… I’m a monster! Why isn’t there hate in your eyes? Why are you looking at me like I was a normal human being breaking down in front of you?

No! Hate me!

“Your parents are only two of the casualties that were caused because I exist! Does that disgust you, Loki?!” I continued to rant, triggering the vampire's blue purplish orbs softened, and his expression relaxed.

He saw me for who I was. And it was something I did not expect.

Why… are you… Stop!

“Vivian,” Loki called my name out softly, before taking a step towards me.

I was having none of it.

How dare you take a step towards me! I’m a monster! You should step away! Running away! Calling for backup! Anything but walking towards me unarmed.

He was in no battle pose, nor did I feel any magic spikes from him. His approach, though, caused me to go haywire. He was undermining my authority. No, he was ignoring the danger I posed.

Why?!

“Shut up and stay away from me! You’ve got nothing to say to me pathetic mortal! The only reason I’m here is that I’m bound to you for life! Because you’re destined to die! You’re nothing to me! Nothing but a fucking link to this world!” I continued to screech, taking a step back from him.

My chest finally felt empty. I did not mean a word about him not meaning anything to me. He meant something, even though I did not want him to. I cared for him, but I could not love him or anyone else.

This emotion was nothing but a burden.

“Nothing to me…” I whimpered, feeling teardrops falling from my stinging eyes.

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Eh? Why? I…

I reached towards my cheeks.

When was the last time I ever cried like this? I thought they had dried for pain. Why... have they returned for him!? You… make me something I’m not!

“Vivi…” Loki simpered, noticing my tears.

His blue, purplish orbs softened to me even more.

No! Don’t look at me like that! I’m a fucking monster!

I snapped, ripping the brooch from my dress, throwing it onto the floor towards the side. Loki’s eyes followed it before dragging them back into me.

“Don’t look at me like that!” I snarled, triggering my body to glow brightly.

It caused Loki to stop in his tracks. The surprise in his gaze was all I needed.

Yes... I’m not a normal girl. I’m dangerous. A monster.

“All I did for you was a fucking lie! I… am a fucking monster, just like the woman who raised you said I was!” I continued on my rant.

Yet the tears would not stop. My voice seemed broken, too. It was hard to piece together.

Why… did it hurt so much? Mortal feelings… This heart, I wish I could rip it out. How could a boy make me feel like this?! It has only been two weeks! Why did I care so much if he hated me or not?

Nothing made sense anymore.

“I don’t deserve to be on this earth! Yet I don’t fucking care! I’ll live because I want to! Even if I’m hated the entire time, I’m breathing! Even if I have to kill everything that stands in my way!” I screeched, allowing an energy blast.

All I could do was hope he would see he was out of his league against me. This was all a bravado though. I was shattering. Noticing the ring that should have shocked me long ago, I reached for it, throwing it at him with all my might, only for him to catch it.

At last, I did not have super strength.

“That stupid thing would never have worked on me because I see you less than trash! The only reason you aren’t dead right now after what we did... The only reason is that I’ll die without you!” I snarled, causing Loki to sigh.

Picking up my brooch from the floor that had fallen close to him, he turned to me again.

“Are you done trying to look ferocious, Vivi?” my vampire asked, without an ounce of fear in his eyes.

It shocked me.

Eh? What? I’m sure I look nothing like a normal human being. Why… isn’t he afraid? Why am I still crying? Has to be of anger, surely.

Frustration over the boy, who would not gaze at me with hateful eyes. Something had to change, and what he said only threw me back even more.

“What?” I mumbled, unable to believe the words that reached my ears.

It had to be an insult, if anything else.

“How dare you?! I’m a fucking goddess!” I snapped at Loki’s stupidity before he suddenly closed the gap between us.

Wha—

That thought would not finish before he placed the brooch on my dress. It essentially shut off my powers to a point. A second later, I was on his shoulder like a rag doll. Again, I was utterly shocked.

This mortal was not normal, either. Something was wrong with his mind.

“Look. I can’t have you shining brighter than the fucking sun here, Vivian. You’ll attract unwanted attention.” Loki sighed, holding me on his shoulder.

Why do you do this to me?!

I felt myself snap again.

What the fuck is up with this boy? Why is my chest squeezing for you even now?

He had no respect or care for what I was. And that allured me even more.

“Let me go or I’ll rip your limbs!” I demanded, hitting him from behind with my fist.

It barely caused him to care, though.

“Oh? Do it then.” Loki urged me.

I froze.

“W-what?” I stuttered to say.

Loki chuckled.

“Rip my limbs from me. I’m not scared of you, sweetheart.” Loki tested me, suddenly lifting me in the air like I was plush.

I was so light in his hands. It was almost unfair.

Why...

I was too confused to even think anymore. He was not normal.

“Are you out of your mind?!?” I continued with my fake hostility.

Though for the first time, I was finally forced to see his expression. And it was a gentle smile on his lips. His eyes were gazing at me like I was a normal girl. He was not okay in the head at all. There had to be brain damage.

“If only you could see through my eyes, Vivi.” Loki breathed, holding me up in the sky like I was a stuffed doll.

“A goddess, you say. A monster? No, you’re nothing like that. Your voice betrays you. Your expression betrays you. Everything about you betrays your hateful words.” He smiled, dazzling me.

You’re killing me. Nothing but poison!

I gazed at him like he had lost his mind because he had. Surely, he had gone mad.

Did my blood cause some type of brain damage in him?

“Are you insane?!” I muttered, annoyed at my treatment.

Loki seemed immune to anything I threw at him. He shook his head, suddenly pulling me down with him onto the bench where I left the food he brought for me. I found myself glued to his lap when he held me close.

My arms were against his chest, prying precious space between him and me.

Why… I showed you everything. My true form has to be terrifying, right? Why did he have me on his lap like I am some mortal girl?

“Vivi, you’re nothing more than a terrified little girl. One that was thrust into this world.” Loki declared.

I was not about to fall for his trick, though. He had to be trying to delay me until Rem came to save him. Or perhaps Oz.

What’s that twin doing, anyway? Surely, Loki told him everything, right?

He could not have possibly come here to face me on his own.

“You know nothing of me! Let me go!” I growled.

He held me in place with one hand, using the other to whip the trail of tears on my cheeks with his thumb. It was so warm.

Unfair! You’re utterly unfair.

“You said everything was a lie? I doubt that, Vivi. I heard the way you told those beasts to not touch me when you were terrified yesterday. You were like a lioness protecting her mate and cubs.” He started.

I grasped onto his shirt, feeling attacked.

I’m not…

“And the way you kissed me back before I left to face them wasn’t fake, either. A lot of the things you said weren’t lies.” Loki continued.

I shook my head in disbelief.

This boy…

My eyes twitched because of the stupidity of his words. Before I knew it, I had raised my hand and sent it down harder than I had ever done. It ended up with a loud slap across his cheek. He seemed stunned by it.

“Shut up! I’ll kill everyone you love if you keep going!” I huffed, feeling brittle.

A trail of blood dripped from the corner of his lip. He had not braced for it, allowing me to inflict the damage I wanted, much like the girl in the bathroom. Only that this vampire could have broken my hand if he wanted.

He licked his lips, turning back to face me. His expression was one of annoyance. Then again, who would not be annoyed after being hit so ruthlessly?

“Even though I have Lycan blood in me. You’re wilder than me or any female I’ve ever seen.” Loki growled, grabbing me by the back of my head.

A second later, he pulled my lips onto his. My eyes flew open, not expecting the kiss at all. When his tongue glided against my bottom lip, my mouth opened instinctively, allowing him further access.

A burning sensation rose within me once again. The taste of iron glazed my taste buds from the caress of his soft tongue. It was not like sensation ever left me, but the moment he touched me it sent me into a frenzy.

I found myself in this vampire’s grip once again. His bite was worse than I thought. A chuckle left him, tugging away with this arrogant expression on his face. A thin string of saliva still connected us.

“You won’t hurt a single fly when I’m done with you.” The vampire murmured.

I felt another snap happen within me. This man was insane. He needed a new brain or something. Cutting the small connection away, I tried to pry myself away from him, but he did not let me. His hold on me was too strong to escape.

“Are you fucking insane?! Let me go!” I yelled, trying my hardest to pull away.

Yet it was hard to fight off the same sensation from yesterday. Luckily, it was less overwhelming. My efforts to move away from the vampire boy were in vain. It was like trying to move a boulder. He was not going anywhere.

Instead, he yanked me towards his chest. I fell hostage to him yet again.

Damn it! Stop it!

He probably was trying to make me lower my guard down. All so Rem would swoop in and capture me. However, the warmth continued to grow sensation, leaving me to realize his venom was still present.

I did not think it would have lasted so long. Then again, he bit me multiple times. This was something I would not allow him to know that easily.

“I won’t let you go. I already told you. You’re mine, sweetheart.” Loki smirked, leaving me with only one conclusion.

This brother was the insane one. One who did not value his life or care for it enough to know what was good for him. It was that, or he did not know what he was talking about.

“You’re missing some brain cells then! Loki, let me go!” I snarled, not letting up.

Though he had calmed my heart somewhat. Even if I would not admit it. His words were reaching me. Something so disgraceful. My will to fight him was dying and there was no telling what would happen when it was gone.

“No, I’ll do to you what the woman that raised me did to the craziest Lycan ever.” Loki declared, leaving me completely dumbfounded.

He truly was delusional, but I hoped he would do to me what Rem accomplished with Alijah. Multiple people had written into books their story. All explaining how her love changed the most broken Lycan that existed.

But that required love. Her devotion to Alijah even crossed the celestial plains. That was something no one would ever feel for me. Something I did not want to feel myself. It was impossible.

Utterly ridiculous. It’ll cause us both agony.

“What the fuck are you talking about?” I growled, trying to worm my way out.

Loki would not let me. Instead, he released my head, allowing me to face him. His words were making me feel conflicted. Even so, I would not allow him to know. He would never know my feelings for him.

For his good. After all, god’s love was more wicked than anything else. I learned that when it killed Edna.

Ah... Wait… did my love kill my mother? No… did it?

“I’ll make you fall for me, Vivi,” Loki smirked.

I narrowed my eyes, snickering, unable to believe his words. This boy was utterly crazy. Crazier than Lilith herself, and that was something to say. She was the worst mass murderer I ever knew. Even so, she was one of the most important people in my life.

One that would willingly dive into danger for me.

Would you?

“You crazy fucking sadist! Let go of me!” I snapped, hoping he would finally let me go.

But it seemed no matter what verbal abuse I used; he was not budging. No, it urged him further. He grabbed onto one of my hands with his free one, raising it to his lips.

“Be nice or I’ll bite you.” Loki threatened, showing his fangs for a moment before brushing his lips against my hand.

I whimpered because of it.

You wouldn’t dare! Then again, you're nuts.

“Don’t.” I yelped, toning it down.

Loki noticed something in my voice. My wary was more than just another bite to come from him. Any touch from him was sending electric shocks through my body. The same itch from yesterday was building slowly thanks to the release he offered me.

“Are you still hungry for more?” Loki smirked, kissing my hand.

I did not know what face I had on anymore. Just sitting on his lap was making me jittery.

“S-shut u-up! I need nothing!” I growled, not wanting him to get the wrong idea.

A soft hum left his lips before he repositioned me, leaving me straddling him. Eli coiled around us protectively after growing a few sizes. He was as big as a carriage.

“That told me everything I need to know.” Loki grinned, pleased by the turn of events.

Eli pushed me closer to Loki from behind. Yet I was having none of it this time. He would not swoon me. My mind was clearer than this morning. I had to...

“You know nothing.” I defended myself.

However, my body shivered at his touch. He chuckled, sliding the hand that was on my hips down to my bum. Everywhere he touched was so warm that it caused me to gasp. His other one guided my chin to face him again.

He seemed like he had figured out the world, and it annoyed me.

“I bit you a few times yesterday. So, it’s normal you’re still feeling some effects. You were also so wet this morning that I slipped in without even touching you.” Loki informed me with a smug expression on his face.

I scowled at him.

This is all a plan for something, isn’t it?

I was growing tired of it all. If they were going to ambush me, then...

“What are you playing at, Loki?!” I snapped, trying to hold my shyness at bay.

Rolling his eyes, he squeezed my bum with his hand again. It triggered me to growl at him angrily. Even though I craved his touch. I did not want it to distract me. Wearing this dress was a mistake.

“Oh, what do you mean?” Loki snickered playfully, suddenly pulling me into a surprise kiss, thinking I would melt like I usually did.

Only this time, I chomp down on his bottom lip hard enough to break the skin. Tugging away from me, a curse left his lips before licking the blood off his lip for the second time today. I was having none of it anymore.

The feeling would not control me.

I’m Vivian, the feared goddess of... What the fuck am I? All I was ever meant to be was a book. A fucking piece of a shit tool with the power to see the future.

“I grow tired of your games.” I scoffed, trying to seem tough.

Again, his eyes rolled, this time a seriously annoyed expression was on his face. It was not like before. This time, he seemed intent on getting back at me for my rough handling of his affection.

“Okay. If that’s how you’ll be.” Loki breathed, suddenly pushing my chest against his with the hand that was on my bum.

It was now on my back. He used the other to clear my hair away from the side that faced his face. After pulling down the collar of my dress, he exposed the skin of my neck. He…

I fucked up.

“I wanted to be nice, but it seems you only respond to power.” He growled, sinking his teeth into my neck slightly.

Instantly, I felt the burning sensation get worse. It was like it set ablaze inside me as his venom found his way into my brain quicker thanks to where he bit me.

“No!” I whimpered, feeling my energy drain because of his bite.

Soon my thoughts would be a mess, too. Loki licked the blood off my neck.

“Where’s everyone?!?” I tried to stay strong.

Not answering me, he continued to clean my neck. His hand traveled up my thighs, into my dress, and onto the stockings that covered my underwear. Pulling away from my neck, he smirked.

“I don’t know what you’re thinking, but it’s only you and me here. And right now, you’ll ride me like you did last night. If you want pleasure, that is.” Loki declared his intentions, ripping my lining with his fingers with ease.

I struggled to find cold air to breathe because of the sensation that was consuming me.

“Where are they?!” I hissed, not wanting to lose myself.

But every time I tried to fight it. It only made it worse. This was hardly the place to do something like this, too. Even if we were alone. Unlike him, my hearing was normal and so was my vision. Although it blurred a bit because of the effects of his venom.

I had no way of knowing if someone was coming. Loki could, but vampire hearing was not as good as Lycan either. They could hear anything within seventy meters if they concentrated or so.

Lycans could hear up to a kilometer away if they focused.

“You were expecting an attack or something? Sweetheart, I didn’t tell anyone about you. Or that we’re here. No one’s going to come as long as you don’t shine like a fucking star again.” Loki informed, rubbing me down there with his thumb.

I whimpered, becoming jittery. Even though it should have been numb from everything we did the previous day, I was so sensitive to his touch. I could not help but worm in pleasure. My hips bucked by themselves.

Though I was not as lightheaded as yesterday. My brain was still intact, even though the venom was in my system again. Loki's bite was shorter than the ones before, too. So, perhaps that was why I still was sound. But soon…

Gripping onto his shirt, I felt him slip my underwear to expose me to him. My dress covered us from the world that surrounded us. Especially when he exposed himself soon after moving my undies out of the way.

He lifted me with one of his hands slightly. This was so he could line himself with me. It left me with an opening for my payback. I did not have the will to run away from Loki anymore. But I did want to show him I would not bend to his will.

When the vampire placed one of those plastic sheets on his heat, I took the opportunity and moment of clarity to undo his shirt. Of course, this was much to his pleasure. Tracing my hands on his chest, I peeled the shirt away from his shoulders.

He slowly lowered me to his prepared member, triggering me to whimper when I felt him press against me. It gave way with ease, causing me to mewl and lean on him. A soft sigh left him too, feeling my walls tightly against him.

It felt so perfect. Like the fit of a lifetime. I quickly bit onto my lip lightly, bucking my hips forward. It caused him to groan a bit because of the sudden tightness around his flesh. Loki's heat was about halfway into me when I planted my lips on the side of his neck.

There I trailed kisses down it eventually ending on his shoulder. Once there, a smirk rose on my lips before I suddenly bit into his flesh. It filled my mouth with blood, causing him to groan, tugging me away by my hair.

I held myself up, barely with my hands on his shoulders. The sight of blood dripping from the wound satisfied me in ways I could not quite comprehend yet. This vampire did not know what he was getting himself into.

“My payback for biting me again.” I licked my lips, tasting the sense of iron that filled my taste buds.

Unlike his bite, mine was not as pleasurable. Unable to help it, I smirked at Loki. He scowled, grabbing me by my hips. A second later, he rammed himself into me, causing me to yelp slightly in pain.

It was nothing compared to what I made him feel, but that was also nothing that he could not heal with his magic. It almost felt like he was merging into me. His tip was rubbing my cervix. It at least that was how it felt like.

“Oh, you… little bitch, I’ll make sure you can’t walk straight tomorrow.” Loki hissed, annoyed by my retaliation, sitting up from the bench, using Eli as a wall for my back.

A role the little sly snake was glad to play, snickering at what I did to Loki.

“Try me,” I huffed, not wanting to show the same affection.

Loki smirked playfully at my words, licking my lips at any remaining blood that was on them. His wound was already healed. Though the blood remained on his skin.

“Try you? Okay then.” He locked his hands on my hips.

My legs were held up by Eli’s floating body, that wrapped around me. His summoner came closer to my ear, kissing close to it.

“Sweetheart, scream all you want. No one’s around to hear you.” Loki murmured before suddenly slamming himself in and out of me at a rough pace.

It was the wildest he had ever gone with me, and it caused me to see the stars in pleasure. Though there was slight pain too. That was only at first, though. Soon after, his venom took control of my body and mind.

I grabbed onto his shirt forcefully. It annoyed me, but my voice betrayed me, allowing him to know how much I was feeling it. It was unfair because he was hitting every place right to make me squirm in his arms.

My mewls of pleasure were music for his ears. That was when his wings suddenly sprouted in the excitement of it all. It seemed that there was no one around to see what was happening in this flower field.

Even so, it scared me to be found like this. For someone to come in and hear me like this. To see me like this. Even though my dress covered our intimates. I did not want anyone other than him to know this side of me.

The rough pounding Loki was doing made me yelp, kissing the entrance to my womb with his tip. However, what caused me to lose it was his expression towards the entire thing. He was enjoying every minute of the act.

His cheeks were rosy and his eyes only showed a desire for me. I admired his pants and expressions more than the sex. They were more filling than the feeling he was carving into me with each thrust into my core.

The same weird feeling from this morning formed in my lower region. A knot was tightening, warning of my imminent release. Every push glided into me so easily, feeling something drip down my bum.

“Fuck! I could get addicted to this.” Loki cursed, causing my heart to throb.

I did not know if he meant me or the act itself. Suddenly heartache filled me up too, as it was mixed with the pleasant feeling that he had been inducing in me.

Will you do this with someone else? Of course, you would… You don’t care for me alone.

I was nothing but his enemy. Even though I knew I wanted him for myself. For him to not touch anyone as he did to me. I grabbed onto Loki’s undone blouse, pulling him to meet my lips.

His tongue gladly roamed to intertwine with mine. It was a war of dominance. The vampire eventually won, leaving him to memorize my mouth with his tongue. With his hands busy holding my hips while Eli supported my back, I was in bliss.

The slippery snake's face got closer towards us before gazing towards the side. It was almost as if he had heard something. Separating from the kiss for air, Loki thrust himself deeply before a slight groan came from his lips.

He released into the plastic within me, only to send me over the edge as well. Falling back onto the bench behind us, he held me close to him, allowing my body to twitch on him from my release.

I rode off my high with him in me. It was blissful. Yet…

“Not enough.” I panted, clinging to Loki before grinding myself into him.

He nervously chuckled, peeling me away to stop me for a moment. He was not ready to continue just yet.

“I know, Vivi, don’t worry. I won’t leave you until you’re satisfied again if you’re nice, that is.” Loki hummed, kissing me lightly before glancing towards the same side Eli did.

It left me to follow his gaze, too.

Did he hear something? But… I want his attention on me!

A soft pout left me, triggering my vampire quickly to return. Kissing me lightly on my cheek, I felt him pull out of me, leaving me empty with an unquenchable desire for him. However, this time was different.

My mind was a tad clearer than yesterday. Tying off the used plastic, he placed it in an extra bag he brought before opening another one. I gazed at the bag he used as a trashcan. I guess the release had made me mellower than earlier.

“Why did you throw that into the bag when there’s a good trashcan next to us?” I asked, oblivious to Loki’s reasoning.

He shrugged, rubbing himself against my entrance, already prepared for the next round. He slowly was lining himself again with me, teasing me a bit too. It felt good, though.

“Because I know how crazy people are. And I don’t want any bastards running around because of me.” Loki informed, pressing against my entrance again.

"Do you mean children?" I asked, almost in a mumble.

He shrugged, gazing to the side again.

"Yeah, I don't want any of those. For the time being." Loki answered, pushing his tip into my walls.

A soft mewl left me gazing at him, curious about how anyone would use that. After all, no penetration happened.

How would a girl get pregnant...?

That was something Lilith had not taught me since it was not something I ever would have done.

"And how would someone use a used rubber for that?" I mumbled, getting jittery.

His lips turned into a soft smile. That beauty mark on his bottom lip was making me want to kiss him again.

Ah... I’m losing my mind already. His clothes need to come off! I want to mark him. So, no one else will.

"Oi, you’re more innocent than I thought." Loki chuckled, grabbing onto my hips, pushing himself all the way in.

Another mewl left me, leaving me leaning on him. Licking his neck, a soft sigh left his lips.

"They can use the cum in them to make a child, even if I don't want it. So…" he trailed off.

A second later, the rubber that was inside the bag combusted into flames. The sudden shock cause Loki to gaze towards burning rubber. I placed my hands on his shoulders, trailing kisses down his neck.

Fuck everything…

"Then don't use them.” I bucked my hips forward, wanting to feel the ecstasy again.

The surprised vampire held onto my hips, preventing me from moving too fast.

"What?" Loki breathed.

I licked his Adam’s apple, continuing to ride him at a slow pace. Soft whines left my lips too.

"My womb is frozen. So, fuck me already!" I mewled, not concentrating on what I was saying more than my movements.

Letting go of my hips, he gazed at me, bewildered by what I meant. But it was not long before he realized it.

"Oh... fuck. Vivi, don't tell that to any other man." Loki huffed.

His hands roamed to my face, pulling me into a sweet kiss. One that I responded to in the same kind. My tongue played with his. Though, this time I won the dominance battle, allowing me to roam his mouth.

Even though it should have scared me, the sensation of his sharp fangs on my soft appendage did not feel unpleasant. Tugging away from the kiss for precious air, he chuckled slightly out of breath, too.

“Hey... I knew you could be a good girl if you wanted to be.” The vampire's remark caused me to growl.

But thanks to the effects that were on my body. I could not care much about his words rather than the way he made me feel. A reward soon found my ears when an earnest moan left his lips. I continued to my up and down movements on him.

Though, his voice caused me to kiss him eagerly again. Merging into him, perhaps, was not do bad. Especially when he responded the same way. I indulged myself in Loki, leaving little space for anything else.

Even though he saw the real me, I was still being held by him like I was a normal girl. Nothing of what I expected happened either. He told no one about me. Instead, he held me again until I was more myself.

I did not remember when we made it back to the room, either. It was one of those things that my brain did not care to remember. Though it ended up being another passionate day with the insatiable vampire.

However, I found myself more aware of myself in the night than I had been in the morning. Hunger for food was the only thing that broke our passionate moment. Leaving me only to find something to eat, I lay on the bed regretting the choices I made.

My legs seemed to be jelly-like, as he threatened to do. I also found the ring that I threw at him on my finger once again. He intended me to stay with him, but his reasoning still was unknown to me.

I did not know if he wanted to use me to curve his future or for something else. But for now, I would stay as his maid. Even though I did not know how long that would last. If only it could be forever.