Hi,

So, the kickstarter didn't go through which is a bummer, but I'm new to the platform and not great at self promotion so that wasn't entirely unexpected. Would I have liked it to succeed? Yes, very much yes. Would I have felt better if it at least got closer to the goal even if it didn't fund? Also yes.

Am I upset about it to the point of not wanting to write? No.

I was pretty stressed when it was happening, but a certain relief of tension kicked in when it finished even though it wasn't the result I wanted. So if that were all that was going on in my life I'd probably need a week or two off then be fine and trying to figure out what to do differently for the next try.

The thing is that despite working as much as I do, I can't afford an apartment on my own where I currently live and at years end my brother is moving out which means I have to or I'll have to move back in with family who aren't actually much cheaper to live with but significantly more stressful. Like my hair was falling out from stress living with them stressful. They aren't bad people... just a lot to deal with. A situation which will not be improved by my having to try and find a new job on top of everything else and losing one of my side hustles because the area is a dead zone for rideshare. And yes, there are reasons that I'm not considering moving out of state at present despite better prices. A big one being family medical issues.

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Things could get better by years end, more apartments should become available after new years and might be somewhat cheaper. Until something improves though, I've hit a wall in terms of stress. So honestly things aren't okay, but I'm not an unexpected level of not okay for the situation. I'll make sure to touch base occasionally but I'm probably going to be down until February, depending on how the situation unfolds.

Big thank you to everyone who stopped in to back the kickstarter or just send me messages of encouragement lately. I do appreciate everyone's support.

-ESJ