Chapter 259: Odd Memories (Part 1)
Shera Rigen's perspective
My mind is a bit hurt at this moment. From what I remember, we had disappeared in front of Col. Cawess and his men. Somehow after that, we got to a strange place and met up with a woman. She claimed herself to be Katia - the Goddess that all of our world's people worship.
My husband got into an argument with her, then somehow it went wrong. After that incident, I can't remember what had happened to us.
"Haaahhhh... haaahhhh...". - All of sudden, I felt a cold wind passing me
I open up my eyes, with the feeling like I've just woken up after years. I can see that there's something like the darkness, it's covering me. After a few seconds, I realize that is very big on top of us, its shadow is covering us.
"Urrrghhh...". - I tried to get up, but failed. "Ahhhhh...". - Also tried to overturn myself, but also faced that outcome. "John... Reimi... urrrghhh...".
I can feel the pain in my head, not just in my head but in my entire body. My head hurts, my chest hurts, my neck hurts, so do the other parts. Holding that mysterious pain only makes my entire body paralyzed. I can't move, but at least can roll my eyeballs.
I know I can't do anything, that's why I do my best on looking around. I can say that the place I am lying in is a forest or something, in the middle of the forest, I think. Hmmmm... the sun hasn't come up yet. The sky is still dark... I can't see the moon from this angle, it's quite bad.
While staying on the ground, heavy breathings can be heard around me. It means my husband and Reimi are nearby, they are still with me. I'm glad when I'm not the only one here. But now I want to do something to get the three of us to somewhere safe.
The ground is cold, so do the winds when they fly across us in every second. If we stay here more longer, we'll die because of having the cold.
"Urrrrrgggghhhh...!". - I tried to move my body, but failed. "Haaahhhh... haaahhhh... John...". "Huh...?". - I accidentally rolled my eyes to the left side, and saw something that I couldn't believe
I see groups of trees surrounding the area where I'm looking at. But the oddness is these trees look like treehouses, and the interiors looked from the outside seem to have lights. No way, right? Tree houses in the middle of a forest, how? It's unbelievable. But now I only have that choice.
"Please... save us... save us...". - Luckily, I managed to utter some words. "Anyone, anyone out there... please". - Although my voice was small and weak, I hope that someone would be able to hear it to save us
"Save us... please save us...". "Haaahhhh... haaahhhh... please come and save us...". - Now I must try hard to do that, I must say as loud as possible to save all of us
"Please... save us!". - I managed to say out loud a word, I was so glad
"Please... save us...". - I kept saying without stopping. "Please... save us... save us...".
"Eh, oy raeh nihtemos?". (Hey, you heard something?). - All of sudden, I heard a strange language voice sounding near me. "Iaw iaw iaw... I es nihtemos". (Wait wait wait... I see something). - Then I heard incoming footsteps getting closer to us
"Namuh...?". (Humans...?). - A black person, who seemed to be a woman showed up in my vision. "Roper iht t ht draug, on!". (Report this to the guards, now!). - She yelled at someone, maybe to call out people to save us
"Hey, are you alright...?!". - Finally, she spoke our native language - Englis when she crouched down to check on me. "Hey, can you hear me?!". - I'm sorry, but I'm too tired and I can't keep my eyes open anymore
"Ihs, deen rom em of iht". (Shit, needs more men for this). - She ran to somewhere nearby, as if to check on others. "Hey, can you hear me, girl?". "You over there too, can you... wait, this is...".
My consciousness is getting blurrier than before. Although I'm about to faint, I'm glad to know that we seem to have returned to our previous world. I just hope John and Reimi are alright.
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Eh...? I'm quite surprised when my eyes open once again. Although the view is a bit blurred, I can tell that I'm seeing a roof of a house.
I feel that I'm lying on a wooden bed, it's warm and has a comfortable bedsheet. I'm at someone's house or something....? Wait a minute, we were paralyzed on the ground previously!
I must find John and Reimi!
"Urrrghhh...!". - I suddenly got up, and the outcome made my body feel sore, exhausted
"My Highness?!". - All of sudden, Reimi's voice came out and I realized it came out right in front of me
"My Lord, my Lord!". - She left her seat, then yelled for John. "You're still tired, please don't move too suddenly". - Reimi returned to aid me to get up from the bed
When Reimi is helping me, a figure comes into the room and comes to me. Needless to say, that's my husband - John. Somehow he can be seen wearing a US Marine green uniform. John approaches me and starts assisting me.
"It's good when you woke up, Shera!". - He got me up gently. "Just slowly...". - With my husband's help, I managed to get up on the bed
I'm glad to see John and Reimi are alright. However, the costumes they are wearing and a meal bowl left on Reimi's seat are confusing me. This can be explained that the villagers of a village saved us. But giving food for us and even letting us stay here, isn't this too odd to be considered?
"John, where's this place...?". - I weakly asked my husband
"Urrrghhh...!". - All of sudden, the inside of my head felt like to be shocked. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!". - The pain is like a big slam from a hammer to my head, I held my head tightly and tried to endure the pain
"Urrrrrgggghhhhhhh...!!!". - All of sudden, loads of strange memories suddenly came into my head, the pain later went away slowly
"Hey, are you alright!?". - My husband came to me, he held me as if to comfort me. "Shera, you feel okay now?".
"Nod... nod...". - I feel that my face is sweating, now I'm quite tired after getting the pain
"Tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku?". (Sir Rigen, your wife's woken up?). - A strange woman's voice came out, it sounded from the door. "Tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku?". (Is there something wrong? She's hurt?). - I managed to look at the door
I can tell that is a woman, she stands by the door's frame and asks John. She is white, and very beautiful... hmmm. She wears a costume that looks like to be made of leaves, her head has a laurel wreath made of leaves.
That's what I guess. The woman has blonde long hair, her eyes are blue... but light. Hmmm... I can't see her face fully, due to the lack of light in the door's area. But at least, she has a peaceful face.
"Tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku". (We'll handle it ourselves, sorry for disturbing you). - John replied to the woman in that same strange language, I wonder what were they saying earlier
"Nod...". "Tuku tuku tuku". (I'm going to prepare for her a meal, please wait). - She nodded to John, then walked away from the room
I look at the door, trying to find out who she is. However, Reimi is checking on my head. My servant is worried about me more than I thought, despite we have many arguments. I think I should treat her in another way.
Of course, I can't hand my husband to her.
"All of us went through the same thing, my Lord". - Reimi opened talking to my husband. "I had a terrible headache earlier, now Her Highness also got one".
"Are you okay now, Shera?". - John held my hands, he made the pain go away
"Nod nod...". - I must ask my husband. "Where the hell are we, John?". - I looked around the room, its material only has woods, but seems to have been constructed for a very long time
"We've returned to our world, Shera, this is Zaira village". - We've returned to the old world...? I'm glad to know it
But Zaira village...? Isn't it a village of the elves that my husband used to tell me about? Why did we get here?
"Tuku tuku tuku tuku tuku". (Her meal's ready). - The house owner spoke up from outside, as if to announce to us something
"Reimi, go out and tell her we will come out later". - John glanced at my servant then asked her to go outside
"Understood". - Reimi left the room after that
When the door is closed, the room only has both of us to be together. My husband pats my head as if to ask me if my pain has finally gone away or not. To answer him, I just nod then look at him. My husband gets closer to me silently.
"Hey, you know... this moment is not so fit". - I blushed, looking away as my husband intended to kiss me
"Just a few seconds of intimating, Shera...". "Kiss...". - He kissed me slowly, then hugged me tightly
"Kiss... ummm...". - I tried to feel his kiss, I also wrapped my husband as well. "Ahhh...". - Oh no, my husband is going far by grabbing my breasts to please his mind
"Please hold yourself back...". - I gently pulled my husband away a bit. "We're in someone's house, not ours... and this time they're still awake, we can't disturb 'em".
John is a bit disappointed or something. I hold his hand and slowly get up, I smile to make my husband happy. Hmmmm... maybe I should kiss him. I slowly go with him to the door, then I get close to the wall to intimate.
"Kiss...". - I grabbed John's nape and started kissing him. "Ummm... please don't, we're going quite far". - He kept squeezing my breasts when we were kissing. "Ummm...". - Now we feel quite hot after kissing each other
"My Highness, my Lord, she's waiting for both of you". - Suddenly, Reimi's voice came out from the other side of the door
"We'll be there later". - I announced it to my servant. "Please hold back...". - I got out of my husband slowly, I blushed a lot when he was grabbing my waist
"I'm sorry...". - John apologized to me, then got his hands off. "I will help you". - Both of us slowly stepped out of the door with our hands holding together
We come out and see a room that seems to be a living room or something. Reimi is sitting on a wooden dining table, waiting for us to join. We walk there and take the seats slowly. I can see some meal bowls on the table, quite simple and delicious.
"Please wait for me, my Highness". - Reimi got off her seat then headed back to the bedroom to take her bowl
I later look around the room and that woman's figure appears before me. That blonde woman bows to me, so do I and that's how we greet each other in that moment. The woman doesn't say anything. She just sits on the side which is opposite to me.
"Thank you for saving us earlier, Miss". - I thanked her, bowing toward her
"Tuku tuku tuku tuku". (Please drink the water first). - She handed me a cup of water
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I look inside. The cup has a glowing green liquid of water, I just feel that the color is quite odd. That's why I'm hesitated to drink this thing.
"Just drink it, Shera, it's harmless". - Huh, John?
"But...".
"We're in a village of the elves, this holy water helps you to understand what they say, so does it when you communicate with them".
"Oh, okay...". "Drinks... drinks... drinks... drinks...". - Then I slowly drank the water till the cup was fully drained
My husband takes the cup away. I look at that blonde girl, I slowly gaze at her.
"Thank you, for saving us".
"No no no, I didn't do that, someone else in the village did". - She raised her palm out, saying she didn't save us. "By the way, this is the first time we've ever met each other... I'm a half-elf...". - A crossbred woman...? So she's a child bred from a human with an elf. "Please call me Yura, this is my house".
"I'm Shera Rigen, please call me Shera, Ms. Yura".
"Yura is enough". "Giggles...". - She put her hand on her chin, giggling slowly
"By the way, this is my husband - John". - I held my husband's hand, introducing him to Yura. "Thank you very much for letting us stay in your house, Yura".
The half-elf named Yura, huh? I remember her through the stories that my husband used to tell me. She is a prophet of village of Zaira, her special ability helped her to predict the bad outcome of the summoning ceremony. Simple to say, this elf woman indirectly saved my Warsaw homeland from the disaster.
I hope the one who is before me, is the real Yura... not someone who shares name.
Reimi later comes out from the bedroom. She takes the seat after a bow to apologize. Now the three of us have finally sat at the dining table, we're hungry. The dishes seem to be simple when there's no meat on the dishes.
I only see things like vegetables, potatoes, corn and other vegetation things on the bowls. The food in the bowls is quite simple to me.
By the way, Yura seems to be quite slim. Maybe eating that simple way has made this elf girl have that slim body.
"I've made the meals for all of you, please enjoy them". - She raised her open palm to the dishes on the dining table. "This time is quite late, the dawn is going to come up in the next three hours". "Please have a nice sleep after having the meal, everyone, we found you collapsed at the village's entrance".
"Thanks...".
The three of us slowly grab the eating tools on the table, then start eating. The atmosphere in the room is quite silent at this moment. Looking around, we can only see lamps and candles lighting up the house. Yura is sitting there, waiting for us to finish the meals that she made.
"It's quite complicated if we head straight to the point right now". - While we were eating, Yura said something. "Please continue eating, I'm sorry if I had disturbed you".
"Someone wants to see us?". - John asked Yura while enjoying the meal
"Yeah, but I'll longer the time, you guys need to be full and have rest first before doing anything else". - Yura later glanced at a door in the room
I peek a bit, I can be sure that door leads outside of the girl's house. The elf woman slowly gets off her seat and then approaches there. She looks out of the window for seconds. Then pulls down a curtain which seems to be made of vines, to cover the room's inside parts.
"Nothing, please keep eating, people". - She returned to her seat normally. "All of you must be tired, I'll clean up the dishes, you three go to bed".
We don't say anything but focus on eating. Right now, the dishes are half finished, we'll finish them very soon. All of sudden, my husband leaves the eating tools and his bowl there. He has just finished eating half of it.
"I'm sorry, I can't eat more".
"It's alright, I understand". - Yura nodded. "Please, Sir Rigen, stay here for a while, can't you?". - She suddenly asked my husband to stay
"I'll be waiting for both of 'em to finish then I go". - John kept sitting on his seat tightly
"Nod...". - Yura nodded again, then she stared at my husband for no reason. "Can you answer me some questions, Sir Rigen...?".
"What do you need?".
"When we found you... we only saw the three of you". - She looked at us with some suspicion. "Where are your subordinates, Sir? The three of you collapsed at the village's entrance, we couldn't find your subordinates".
This question is quite difficult for us to answer. Sarah and Hatano are dead right now. Hearing the sad things being re-mentioned makes the three of us very sad. John just keeps silent after hearing the question from Yura.
"What's wrong...?". - She sensed our sad faces, but seems to haven't found out anything yet
"Th-".
"They're not here with us, we parted ways to go somewhere else". - My husband stopped me from speaking, then he made out a fake story. "We will reunite when my men finish their things".
"Oh, alright". - Yura believed my husband's fake story. "There, your belongings are there, I don't know where to store 'em exactly". "Sorry, the place I put your bags isn't so clean, but I only know to put them there". - She pointed to a place behind us
All of us look in that direction, then we see our military backpacks placed below a wooden table. There are exactly three backpacks. Strangely that those backpacks have come with us when we vanished.
"I just see it's odd when they also left their bags behind". - Oh no, she may recognize that we were lying. "Your devices are also inside those bags, they don't even need those things to help them at work?".
"Yeah". - We have no way else but to lie with Yura
"How careless those girls are". - Yura didn't suspect our testifies at all, I just wonder if she was just pretending. "Hmmm... lemme do that". - Yura later got up and started collecting the dishes that we had finished
"Let me help you too". - I glanced at Reimi, she came to Yura as she realized I told her to help Yura. "Lady Yura?". - But Yura neglected us, she collected the dishes then headed to the kitchen side
"It's alright, you guys must go to bed to rest". - She put the dishes in the kitchen, then told us to rest. "Wait wait wait, please, just a moment". - Yura left the kitchen, she approached us
"May I ask you something more...? The elder is not in the village, so I have to take his place right now". - Yura seemed to be quite hurried. "Now I have the duty to write out a report to His Majesty, he's on his way to get here".
"Why?". - John asked Yura
"We were all shocked, you know...? You guys went missing for years, then now appeared right in front of the village in sudden...". - What...? For years?
"I don't get it...". - I showed my confusion to Yura
"You don't know anything?". - She was quite bewildered to learn that. "It's a long story if I have to say". - Yura went to the dining table, she tapped on it to ask us to take the seats
The four of us later gather at the dining table. Yura seems to be serious about this issue, her voice hesitates a little bit.
"Ummm... sorry". - She left her seat for no reason. "We shouldn't be tense about this, I'll go grab some water".
I see Yura going to a corner where there is a chest placed on that side. I return to look at my husband and Reimi, being patient to wait for Yura to finish her drinking work.
"We got there just for days but when we return, years have passed...". - Reimi whispered to me, she was confused
"We don't know much about, Reimi, just calm down...".
All of sudden, Yura returns to us after we finish whispering to each other. She holds a wooden plate, then slowly places cups from the plate down to the dining table. After doing it, she puts the plate aside then takes her seat with a cup in her hand.
"Please ease your mind by drinking the water". - Yura told us to drink, then she slowly tasted her water cup
"What is this...? Just a glowing liquid... again?". - Reimi examined the thing inside the cup, then she got confused. "My Highness, look". - She raised the cup toward me, asking me to look inside it
I look inside the cup. The thing I see is a strange blue liquid, glowing beautifully. The water inside the cup is a strange liquid. I can feel the coolness of the water, its freshness and its pureness.
However, drinking it is something that I have to consider carefully.
"John...!". - I got my eyes away from the cup, then spotted my husband drinking the water from his cup. "Hey...! Please spill it out!". - I got to his seat, feeling nervous
"The water's fine, Shera...". - John drank the water while answering me. "I've asked Yura, this drink can help us to relieve... it's good to drink".
"Please tell us about its use before asking us to use it!". - I turned to see Yura, saying loud to her. "Ummm... I'm sorry, I'm sorry... hmmmm...". - I apologized to her after being loud, then I returned to my seat and looked inside my cup its water's surface
"I have to apologize too...". - Yura replied to us. "We people usually drink this thing, maybe you humans are still strange to it, I'm sorry...". - She put her empty cup on the table
"Oh...". - I looked at Reimi, seeing her get surprised while drinking the water. "My mind gets lighter... it's so peaceful". - She commented on the water, then drank it again. "Good good good... ahhh...". - Then my servant glanced at me. "My Highness, drink it, it's very effective to ease your mind...". "Drinks... drinks...".
I later grab my cup then taste the blue water. It's the truth that this glowing water can ease my mind when I drink it. My mind feels so peaceful after drinking it. The sorrow of losing Sarah and Hatano, is now filled with calmness.
I must not drink all of the water, it will be such a waste to consume it. So I put the cup on the table, waiting for another occasion to drink it.
"Where's this thing come from?". - My husband later asked Yura about this magical water's source, I was wondering the same thing
"I'm quite blind about it...". - She tilted her head to the right, feeling a bit difficult to explain to us. "The elder knows to explain this the most, but he is now not in the village so uhh...". - She grazed her hair gently, as if trying to remember something related to the glowing water
"Oh, I remember it now...". "This thing comes from the Land of God, I just know it's somewhere in the far East". - The God's Land...? But it's a fairy location in my knowledge
"That's just a fairy place".
"No, it's real, it exists in real life, Mrs. Rigen". "Elder says that land doesn't show on the map, we have to pass a dense fog to reach that sacred place just to hear words of deity". "Uhh... I mean to worship and receive gifts from the God". "The water is collected from a lake of a construction".
"Is the Goddess there, Lady Yura?". - Reimi was curious, so she asked Yura before I could do it
"Shakes head...". - Really? Only a shake head from her. "The elder said that place only has God's constructions and God's apostles". "They work there, guard there, gift and remind the outsiders the Goddess' presents and words".
"Apostles...? Are they human beings?". - My husband asked Yura, and I could see the rage in his eyes. "Tell me...". - But thanks to the water, John isn't as mad as before
"I don't know exactly... the elder only said those people lived in human forms".
"By the way... we're going too far from the reason we sit here to talk". - Yura slowly exhaled, then started straightening her posture. "It's been three years since the time you went missing, everyone". - Three years?!
All of us get silent after hearing Yura reveal the truth to us. We are shocked, but earlier we heard that we went missing for years, so now we're not so surprised.
"After having your letter, King Ralla had opened the border gate for you to escape from Warsaw to this village... and". "Somehow five of you went missing suddenly, both sides were very shocked too". "Warsaw Army led by King Hoster had rushed the forest to Jung Kingdom's border, that situation was very tense at that moment".
"So...?". - Reimi was quite curious, as if she was worried that our homeland had gone to war against its allies
"No, there's no war at all...". - Yura pleased us by saying nothing wrong had occurred. "So the Warsaw Army had to withdraw after days staying in the border". "Allies of Jung Kingdom and we had searched all the place but couldn't find the five of you, that's it".
"We thought you were dead, so we stopped the search".
"Maybe that's all I can say to you about...". - Yura shortly got off her seat. "It's late, you should go to bed... my parents' room is over there". - She pointed to a room on the left side. "If you want, use the room to stay overnight". - After telling us, Yura looked around and glanced at Reimi
"It's quite uncomfortable if you have to sleep in the chair or on the floor". - This elf girl put her hand on her chin, thinking about something. "Hey... how's about sleeping together with me?".
"Ummm...". - My servant glanced at me, as if to wait for my approval
"Nod".
"Of course, Lady Yura... thanks for your hospitality".
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After the meal time, we went to bed to sleep. John and I used Yura's parents' room to sleep together, while Reimi slept together with Yura.
However, Reimi hasn't gone to sleep yet. She is now standing outside of the room we are in, guarding for us. Honestly if I have to say, Reimi is a very loyal bodyguard of mine. No matter how I mistreat her, she still follows me to protect me.
As long as she doesn't touch my husband, that's enough.
Now my husband and I are in bed, but we don't sleep yet. Maybe I should order my servant to rest. That idea came across my mind when I found I should be more kind to my loyal servant.
"Reimi, open the door". - I spoke up, asking my servant to open the room's door
The room's door is later wide opened, Reimi's figure stands at the door's frame. She stands seriously, waiting for the next orders to be given.
"You've worked hard, Reimi". "You can rest right now...". "By the way, my husband and I want to have comfortable moments together". - I know it's quite mean, but now I'm holding my husband in front of Reimi
I really want to intimate with my husband at this moment to relieve him. I don't know if doing this can make Reimi get jealous or not, but to me, all the best for my husband is more important than her.
"Understood...". - Reimi nodded, then closed the door
Although my servant has gone away, somehow I can still feel her existence from the other side of the door. This makes me feel like as if she is still guarding despite having the order for her to go to rest. Hmmmm... it's quite annoying sometimes to me. But maybe I should speak up one more.
"Reimi, go to bed...!".
There's no reply from the other side of the door... let's say she's gone to Yura's room to have a nice rest. Right now, let's say my husband and I have finally had time to be together comfortably.
I intend to touch my husband, but later I stop. Some strange memories had just crossed my mind in seconds previously. After taking that terrible headache, I strangely have those odd memories, but I feel them are very familiar.
Maybe when I go to sleep completely, I will think about those memories to see what they are about. But right now, I would like to have time to be together with my husband. Hmmmm... I slowly wrap his face with my gentle hand, I cuddle him slowly. I also sniff his scents and enjoy them.
"Shera...". - My husband called me in a low tone. "Hmmm...". - He hugged me tightly, his tired breaths kept flying to my neck. "I wish I could save them, both of 'em... if I could go back in time...". - He hugged me tighter, his mind was full of exhaustion
"John...". - I cuddled my husband, making him comfortable as best as I could. "I understand what you're going through, please... I'll help you to relieve". - Comforting my husband, I slowly stripped off the clothes I was wearing
I don't say anything, I slowly drop my clothes on the floor while staying on the bed alongside my dear husband. Then, I put his hand on my breasts, doing my best to relieve John. But the way I'm doing is not so effective.
"Kiss...!". - I wrapped my husband's nape, then I kissed him deeply. "Ahh... let me help you, feel free to do what you like, please". - While kissing my husband, I slowly pulled down his pants
John's boy is not in a good mood right now. I patiently stroke his boy with one hand, while the other hand, I raise it to expose my hairy armpit part to seduce John. My husband loves to taste my body's scents. Maybe this way can help him to relieve well.
"Licks... licks... licks... licks...". "Slurp... slurp...". - Without saying, my husband pressed his face on my hairy armpit and started licking and sniffing it. "Haaahhhh... haaahhhh... Sarah... Hatano". - I could hear his low sobbing, his breaths while squeezing my breast and tasting my armpit's smell
"I know you're very sad right now, John... but we have to move on". "We can't do anything to save them...".
"Sobs... sobs... sobs... sobs...". - Oh no, he's stopped making love with me and now is sobbing for his losses
I gently hug my husband, then slowly get his face pressed into my breasts to relieve him. I'll be glad to help my husband get over his sadness, it's gonna end soon. His pain will soon be over, and we will start our new days like we used to do before.
Of course, we won't forget Sarah and Hatano although they're dead. At least we should make for them a proper grave, though their bodies aren't here with us. Poor those girls, I hope now both of them can rest in peace and are in the door to heaven.
My husband is now sobbing with his face pressing into my breasts, he uses it to cry like using a pillow. But I will be glad if my husband can be happy after we make love.
Hmmmm... maybe I will lose my sleep today. But I don't have any problems with it. Especially when my husband needs to be happy.
I focus on stroking my husband's little boy, doing my best to get him hard to ready to get relieved. Now his cock hasn't had any moods, so it's still soft and can't get big. Hmmmm... at least I can feel John's hardness getting stronger than before right now, even just a little bit.
"John... please come here". - Then I slowly used my crotch to stroke my husband's little boy, meanwhile I got closer to John, intending to kiss him
"I know you're very sad... please be happy, I understand what you're going through". - I comforted my husband when both of us were sweating, we felt so hot to "sleep" in this room
"Come here...". - I got closer to him, holding his nape gently. "Kiss...". - I kissed my husband, hoping the pain of his losses go away soon when time goes by