For a moment, I am floating again. I feel like I am on a lazy river, all the pain and all the exhaustion slowly abandoning my body and just flowing into the water. I canāt help but sigh in relief, and I wonder if this truly is it. My brain just clinging to its memories before a literal, immortal monster of a mage erases them forever. Any second now, I would just forget it all and wake up like itās any other day, free from my motivation to continue on, struggling to find something new.
My eyes open slowly, and I see darkness. Darkness that consumes it all, except for the luminous river I am floating on. It feels like it is made of soft stars, or something mystical like that.
Then, when I am ready to just close my eyes again, I hear a voice call me. Female, old and mature, yet still sparkling with energy. Reminds me of my mother in a way, but the pitch is too high, the words too sing songy.
āThat was one dangerous trick you pulled. I wouldnāt do that again if I were you.ā
I try to turn, sinking a little in the river of light and then looking to the side, on the dark shore. Thereās a figure there now, sitting cross legged, wearing a ridiculously large witch hat. Her whole body language is relaxed, and for some reason I simply canāt determine anything else about her. Clothes, colour of the skin, of the eyes, of the hair? Nothing. It's like looking at a gray blotch on the corner of my eyeā¦ wearing a witch hat.
āYou put up a good show, I wonāt deny thatā¦ but is it really worth it if it kills you?ā
I donāt feel comforted by this beingās words. In fact, I feel aggravated.
āWhat do you mean āshowā? I didnāt do this for your entertainment, you know? I was trying to survive!ā
The lack of voices in my mind and the whole extra-corporeal situation are just washing away the shyness from my body, along with all other sensations. I am not bothered by this at all.
āI did what I had to do. If it killed me, wellā¦ I guess thatās bad luck for me!ā
āHave you begun thinking of how this would make others in your life feel?ā
āThere we go again, youāre just like the doctor arenāt you!?ā I frown even harder, splashing some luminous water towards this stranger as I pass by them. In fact, I start swimming just so I remain level with her! Who does she think she is?! āSo you want me to live for others then? Not for myself? Should I continue on a shitty life because if I didnāt, people would be sad!?ā
āWell, yeah.ā Contrary to the doctor, this figure answers without a second of doubt. āThatās what we do. We find reasons to live. If that reason is other people, isnāt that valid?ā
Now it is me who stammers. I canāt really say this being is lying butā¦
āIsnāt it a failure if I donāt find my own reason to live?!ā
āYour reason for living can change any second, it mutates, just like life does. Today you can go on because of your family, tomorrow out of spite. After that, out of love. Who knows!ā I can feel her smile. āAll reasons are valid and they are not worse or better than the other.ā
āI feel like that is an oversimplification of the matter. But I canāt really say youāre wrongā¦?ā
āRuminate on that.ā
ā... Does this mean I am dead?ā
āJust for a moment. Someone will bring you back in a moment, no worries.ā
I keep swimming, floating by the gray figure on the shore. So someone is bringing me back, huh? Itās probably MustafĆ”, she probably didnāt have the guts to finish me off after all.
Wait, what am I talking about? She totally did! She was ready to shoot me dead that last time!
āWhat the Hell does she want from me?ā I snarl a little bit, shaking my head. āShe already has the book. What more can she possibly take from me?!ā
āOh sheās not as mean as youāre making her out to be.ā The gray blotch shrugs.
āMaybe she felt guiltyā¦ā
āNope. Thatās definitely not it, she almost never feels guilt.ā
āYou know her a lotā¦ are you a friend of hers or something?ā
āWas.ā
āAh, right. Weāre in Limbo or something.ā
Thereās a moment of comfortable silence. I donāt feel any hurry to wake up and this person, if a bit annoying, seems chill enough to just hang out with. I could get used to this.
ā... So, you must be the one who wrote the book, huh? Humiko?ā I finally say.
āI was the one who translated it to the Language of the Gods, yes.ā
āWait, so you didnāt write it, you justā¦ translated it into a dead languageā¦?ā
āYes.ā
ā...Why?ā
āItās a good story, it deserves to be told.ā
āThat is not what I asked. Why the Language of the Gods? You know no one reads it!ā
āA tale sticks with its reader much better if it is interactive. If you have to work for it, youāll remember it for much longer. Besides, the world needs to re-learn the Language.ā
āWait, so you know it? The Language of the Gods?ā
āIt took me a long whileā¦ but I mastered it, yes.ā
I look at Humiko, glaring into her unknowable form for a moment as I cross my arms.
āSo I was chosen to translate it. Is there a secret to my bloodline or something that made you choose me?ā
āOh I didnāt choose you. I didnāt choose anyone! All I said was āthis has to be translated by a New Mage, it must be read with fresh eyesā.ā Humiko laughs. āThe fact that you specifically are here? Itās pure coincidence and your own force of will.ā
Well thatās "nice" to hearā¦ I canāt help but feel a little discouraged by that fact. Then again, it is much less stress on my shoulders! I am not chosen by some mystical reason or something, so I can just pass this work to someone else.
For some reason, my mind immediately rejects that fact. I am the one reading the book, I will be the one to translate, and thatās final.
The narrative has been stolen; if detected on Amazon, report the infringement.
āCan I ask more questions?ā I tilt my head to the sideā¦ and the water suddenly stops flowing. The light of the river begins to dim. āA-Ah, I guess thatās a no.ā
āYou get three.ā
āWhatās āThe Place were Everything Startsā?ā
āAsk MustafĆ”.ā Humiko slowly gets on her feet.
āWhat does āAsuā mean, in the Language?ā
āItās a form of showing the importance of something. Like āTheā, but in capital bold letters. Itās not āthe languageā, itās āTHE languageā.ā
āHah! So I wasnāt far offā¦!ā
I can feel the water starting to drain, as if someone had pulled the cork out of a bathtub. Soon enough I am fighting for my life once again, desperately swimming against the growing currents.
āUhm, uhmā¦!ā
āOne more~.ā Humiko looks way too entertained by my suffering. I am starting to hate this woman.
I donāt know what to ask. Well, I know several questions in my mind, but I canāt decide on one while trying to fight out of a damn whirlpool!
āDoes āThakoā really mean āTouchā!?ā
āNope. It means āSurprisingā. It makes things burst out suddenly when activated.ā
āI knew itā¦!ā
The light of the river was completely snuffed. I could still feel the water pushing against me, but I couldnāt see anything anymore. Humikoās voice was still clear, though.
āBe careful of whom you trust, there are forces around you, conspiring. Do not give up knowledge of the book unless you really, really have to!ā
āA-Alrightā¦!ā
āIāll see you again soon! Hopefully not like this!ā
Finally, my body starts to ache again. I canāt fight anymoreā¦ so I just surrender to the tide. It swallows me whole, shaking me like a damn ragdoll.
And then suddenly, just like that, I wake up. I am gasping for air, laying on my ugly pink couch. The lights are on, it must be late at nightā¦ and yet I hear oil sizzling in the kitchen. I smell a burger in the making.
āAre you seriousā¦?ā
Thereās a little hope in my mind that it may be Venus, or anyone else but the mage that killed meā¦ but when I stumble off the couch and into the kitchen, I find no one but MustafĆ” herself, working at the stove and flipping the burger a few times.
I stare in awe for a moment, not of her burger flipping skills but of her absolute audacity. The nerve this woman has is incredible. She even looks me in the eye and, without even flinching, she says.
āThereās only one Mastodonā¢ burger.ā
Still without knowing what to do, struggling with anxiety and indignation, I stare at her for a good few seconds before saying.
āYes. I know that. I was saving it.ā
āToo bad.ā
āToo Bad!? I. You!ā I have to push down the violent instinct rising in my body.
āKill her. Kill her again.ā
āWhy are you still here!? Why are you eating my food!? You tried to kill me!ā My arms swing as I wildly articulate.
āI saved your life after you foolishly tried to replicate a spell youāre too young and weak to manifest.ā MustafĆ” said, focusing once again on the burger. āCan you make some rice?ā
āAnswer. My damn. Questions!ā I reach for her but something stops me from actually grabbing the wizard and shake the hell out of her. āWhy are you here!?ā
āI took a decision.ā
āWhat decision!?ā
āIf you make rice, I will tell you.ā
āIāā I cover my face with both hands for a moment, letting out the air building out in my lungs. āLKAJSDAĆLKSJAKDJFGLGJKASD!!ā
āThatās a new one.ā
āFine! I will make your fucking rice! Canāt you use magic for it though!?ā
āYou donāt know that.ā
āYes I fucking do! You made weapons and explosions with your mind, you can make yourself some rice!ā
āThatās not how magic works.ā
I canāt even argue with that, because I donāt even know if sheās lying now! With anger boiling in my stomach, I walk over to get the water heater working. Once thatās running, I walk back to MustafĆ”.
āThe water is boiling! Now, will you tell me this decision of yours!?ā
āThe knowledge you are coveting is too dangerous. That book you carry is too important. But you will not do the rational thing and let go of it.ā
āAt least she understood that.ā
āSo I will stay with you and oversee your progress. I will teach you.ā
My anger is snuffed in an instant. Wait, really? Iād get to learn from this beast of a mage? Does that mean I could become as powerful as her one day? With her supervision, I will have this thing translated in an instant!
āAre you forgetting how she tried to kill us not too long ago?ā
āYeah. I wouldnāt trust her too much.ā
Humiko trusts her though. Maybe thatās a sign!
ā... What made you decide this? Why wouldnāt you just do that from the start!?ā I say, trying to reignite the flame of my indignation.
āI didnāt want to waste more time than I absolutely have to.ā Oof, getting angry at this woman was incredibly easy, wasnāt it? āYou didnāt show potential until I pushed you to the brink. I had no idea if youād make a good apprentice before that.ā
āT-Thank you?ā
āYouāre welcome. Now, continue with the rice. This burger is almost done.ā
With a heavy sigh, I set up to make the rice. I saltƩ the grains a little bit, add the water and then leave it to cook on the fire. My eyes turn to MustafƔ again, watching her flip the burger a few more times. Those golden eyes of hers are so bright, intense, expressive despite her apparent lack of emotion.
I try to peer a bit more intensely into them, try to guess what she is thinking.
Nothing. Those windows to the soul are locked and covered in thick, lead curtains.
āThat spell you attempted.ā She finally says. āWhere did you learn it?ā
āAh? I-It was the title of the Book.ā
āWas it, nowā¦ā MustafĆ” left the burger on a plate and cut it in half, the thing was a Mastodonā¢ burger after all! It was more than enough for two people, filling the entire plate with beef at first. āWell. Itās a very dangerous spell. Do not cast it ever again.ā
āIt was powerful though, wasnāt it? I have no idea what it does but, it must have been powerful to give you pause!ā I grin, proud of my achievement, but MustafĆ” is quick to cut my pride down.
āIt did not give me pause. I wanted to see what youād do with it.ā
āWell, what does it do? Does it explode like your butterflies do?ā
āIt grants you one object, any object in existence, upon request. The more specific the request, the better quality the object you conjure.ā
āThatāsā¦ wow. Thatās immensely powerful! What did I conjure?ā
āA magical compass.ā
ā...What.ā
āA magical compāā
āYes, I heard you. How did that stop you?!ā
āWhat did you ask for?ā
āSomething to deter you from wanting to kill me.ā
ā...Huh. It certainly worked as intended.ā
āHow so?ā I blinked. āWas it a brainwashing compass or something?ā
āDonāt be stupid.ā She shook her head. āThe rice is burning.ā
āShit!ā
I run to check on the stove and turn off the fire, sighing and serving rice for the two plates. I then go over to the table, moving my computer to the side so MustafĆ” and I have room to eat. Itā¦ still feels strange, having dinner with the woman who tried to kill me a few hours ago.
But I guess weirder things have happened in the world of magic. At least I hope so.
ā... Donāt use that spell again.ā She repeats, before starting to eat.
āWhy not? Itās almost literally a wish!ā I frown, taking a bite of my own burger.
āItās highly inefficient, requires too much energy to be used and function properly, it dispells almost instantly without a constant flux, and using it can take away a year of your life at a minimum.ā
āA whole year!?ā
āThatās what I said.ā
I can feel death clinging to my back all of a sudden. Perfect, now I will be thinking of that tonight.
āOne year less of time. Hah, way to doom yourself.ā
āAlright then, message received. Not using that ever, ever again!ā
āGood.ā She takes another bite off her burger. ā...We will start classes as soon as you put this place in order. It's a dump.ā
āSee? Told you!ā
āY-Yes maāam.ā
With a loud sigh, and after I finish what was left of my half-burger, I get right back up from my chair and walk over to the still open window. The adrenaline is finally dissolving in my system, so nothing is stopping me from breaking down crying out of stress nowā¦ and yet, no tears are flowing this time.
I have a weird feeling. This is a victory, after all!
Maybe, just maybe, today is the start of something goodā¦
ā¦ I need to tell the others.