WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING SHAKING UNDER THE BLANKETS? HELP HER!!!

I scream at myself in my memory. I’m livid. I really want to kill myself. I hate it. I hate how much of a coward I am. Cara is being raped and tortured, she’s suffering, and I’m just hiding.

To make things worse; once he’s done, Cara comes back to her bed and consoles me. She’s comforting me!!! I should be the one taking care of her and treating her wounds, but she’s just smiling while holding the pain!

WHAT IN THE WORLD?!

The terrible experience continues. I see over and over how Cara suffers in my place. Each time they tried to rape me, even if they barely looked my way, Cara would seduce them. And even if they took me too, Cara would do her best to make them cum, so fewer people had sex with me.

It hurts. It hurts a lot.

Why am I not helping her?! Why did I let her do all that for me?! WHY AM I ONLY LOOKING AT HOW THEY BREAK HER BONES WHEN I’M THE ONE WHO MESSED UP?!!!

AHHHHHHHH!!!

Suddenly, I stop seeing my past. I see Miry on the ground convulsing with vomit on her, and her face filled with tears.

I hear the Overseer screaming through the door. Soon many guards arrive and take Miry with them. This time the guards chain me in such a manner I can’t walk. They drag me through the ground to the cage.

Now I see why I didn’t remember. I want to die so badly. BUT I CAN’T.

No matter what. I must find Cara and apologize. I must return everything she did for me. I won’t rest and won’t die until I find her.

When the night comes, I reach the end of my memories with Cara. I don’t remember our escape. It makes me anxious not knowing if she left that place. And with how she was, I wouldn’t be surprised if she stayed and died for my sake.

Ha~. I need to calm down. If she’s dead, I’ll just die too. But if there’s a chance that she’s alive, I need to do my best to save her. No, I’m going to save her no matter what!

Yes, even if I have to kill! Nothing will stop me!

With my newfound determination, I wait for Miry to be okay so we can continue, and she can tell me where Cara is.

While waiting, I continued searching my memories. Many came to my mind, so my mood changed drastically for the last few days. I’d be angry, crying, empty, hysterical, happy, laughing, and so on.

If I had to compare my experiences in life, being with Cara wins by a lot. Even in that awful place, I’d go back and suffer all that just to be with her again. Maybe you think I’m exaggerating, but she was my sun. She is my sun. No wonder I had a terrible life without knowing what happened or why I lived. Without my sun, even my memories disappeared in the darkness and I kept forgetting everything.

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But I made the terrible mistake of letting my sun disappear. I didn’t take care of her.

What if she’s happy and is married? It doesn’t matter. I won’t get in her way. Being friends is more than enough for me. I can even take care of her children! That’d make me happy.

Naturally, if her partner treats her poorly, then I’ll interfere.

She is five years older than me. So she’s twenty-three.

It’s taking so long. I can’t wait!

Finally!

A lot of guards come in. I think everyone came. They chain me with magic and chains. They cover my head and drag me through the ground. The room also has modifications. The wall where they put me has more magic symbols and more mechanisms to hold me in place. And around it, there’s a cage. Miry could easily stay out of the cage, in case I was a monster.

This increase in security makes me mad. Escaping will be harder.

After I’m secured to the wall, inside the cage, the guards leave except for two. One of them is Oliver. Then Miry and the Overseer enter the room.

Miry looks healthy. But she’s holding the Overseer as if she doesn’t want to let him go. Is she tired?

“Hi.”

After hearing my voice, Miry jumps in fright. That was unexpected.

The Overseer guides Miry. He steps back when Miry touches the cage. Still, Miry stays there without reaching out to me.

“What are you waiting for?! Start.”

I glance at the Overseer before looking at Miry.

“Miry, I don’t know what happened to you the other day, but I need your help. I want to know where Cara is. Please, help me find her.”

“Sorry.”

Eh? Why is Miry apologizing?

“Why do you apologize? Don’t tell me you can’t find her?!”

It takes Miry a while to answer. She doesn't react when the Overseer threatens to kill her. It makes me worry.

Maybe I should take her with me and escape together? It’d be great to search for Cara with her help and she won’t have to live in this place.

“I can’t see the past of someone I’m not touching, but I’ll try.”

I see.

“Thank you. Anything that helps me is good.”

Miry stretches her arm. She hesitates; but smiles at me and touches me.

I close my eyes and see the memory of our escape. I confirm that Cara escaped, too. But right after escaping into the woods, towards the back of the orphanage, monsters attacked us. Many girls and boys died during the escape, with most so terrified they didn’t hesitate to make the ones on their side trip.

I feel my heart thumping wildly. I watch even the smallest details. And each time Cara is about to die, I feel as if the attack was coming at me.

YES!!!

About time it happened! I saved Cara! Ahahaha! Yes! Take that disgusting monster!

Cara is safe! We escaped together! There’s hope!

“Miry, where is Cara? What happened?!”

I can’t contain my excitement. This is the best.

“Overseer!”

Miry screams at him, making me open my eyes. I see the Overseer rushing to touch Miry’s hand.

I have no idea what’s the issue. It makes me scared. But if Miry found her and is showing the Overseer where she is so he can help her, then awesome.

“Hahaha. I see. So that’s how it is!”

“What are you talking about? What is like that?”

“I have my answer. I know monsters are born from animals in environments where the worst things happen to people.”