I have had my hernia surgery and now I no longer suffer from the sharp testicle pain I have been living with for years now. The surgery, on the other hand, was interesting. I went under anesthesia for the surgery successfully, which was great! I have had issues with waking up during a surgery in the past, so to remain unconscious was a true blessing…
… or so I thought.
I have covered my sleepwalking earlier I am sure. I had told my esthetician that I had problems with sleepwalking and that I have C-PTSD. Turns out, that is a recipe for the possibility of waking up during my surgery, or in this case, as I am being awakened from my anesthesia there was a possibility of becoming enraged.
I have no memory of this rage, but I did have a neck that hurt badly, which is literally the only reason I was told about my rage. Apparently, it took six staff members to hold me down. As my esthetician reported to me about a week after the surgery, “You started screaming at everyone and you were throwing us around the room. We had to restrain you as you were fighting us. That is why your neck hurts.” After that he told me that if I go under for surgery again, I need to make sure I tell the esthetician that I must wake up slowly. He also said, “I really should have realized this was a possibility after your past experience of waking up during a surgery and your C-PTSD.”
I attempted to get the esthetician to give me a letter explaining the issues in his own words, that I would be able to add it to the packet of appeal I was reconstructing, but unfortunately, it seems that he was unwilling to add that letter for my benefit, likely fearing some kind of malpractice suit. I get it, but that entry could have helped me in my now 8 year fight for social security disability. This is yet another example of how our government is failing us. I should not have to beg for my own medical records. There is no reason this person should have been able to weasel out of writing that letter in fear of a kind of suit, that I wasn’t even thinking about filing.
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My case is not unique, which is the worst thing about how my case is being processed. This is going on all over America. There are homeless people all over the place and they are not making a conscious choice to be in that condition. They are trying their best in a corrupt system that cares nothing about its general populace. Losing my packet, seems like a willful action. The fact that I had a tracking number showing they received it meant nothing to them until I told them I am still planning on appealing and what needs to be done at this point. They started by telling me that my case was closed and I missed the window for appeal. Well yeah, you are the ones who lost it, so that’s bullshit.
The case of my appeal packet being lost, had to be addressed by a manager and no one, not a single person, told me that my packet was lost for over five months. This is a system that is encouraged to deny those funds from the people who paid into them. Eight fucking years. I have lost eight years of my life to this struggle, when it is more than likely that, had they merely given me the funds, I would likely have been working again within a few months of that security.
It makes me sick.
Medical care is something that Americans are unable to freely get on demand. My synesthesia episode was in early April of 2023, I was scanned in August of the same year. I was having brain issues, these seem serious right? I mean, seeing sounds does not seem like a little thing. It took them nearly five months to get my tests done. This was only this fast because I hounded them, I mean, my fucking brain is breaking, that should be a priority issue, at least to me if no one else. After the scan in August, I was told they couldn’t figure out what happened, but my brain seems fine. WTF my guy. I saw sounds! This is not normal, whatever happened, likely worked itself out in the months it took to get the scan.
My hernia caused me a great deal of pain and I know I should have addressed it years ago, but once I got an office job that didn’t require much heavy lifting, it simply no longer seems to be a priority. As the years went on, the hernia caused me pain that I could not handle for much time on my feet, rather I stayed in my bed most of the day, because the pain felt like a person was flicking my ball with each step.
I would have thought that California would have been as good as New Jersey in my healthcare issues, but this wasn’t even remotely the case. Here in Kern County, It took me about a year to get a new eyeglasses prescription and even after I got that prescription, it took me months more because the optometrist couldn’t fill the prescription themselves, but rather I had to go to a different office just to order my glasses. The closest place to do so was 35+ miles away and I have no car.
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In New Jersey, when I needed new glasses, it was about a week for the testing and another two for the prescription to be filled. Although I don’t think that New Jersey had the best system either, as evidenced by the stonewalling of my medical records for my mental health, the shitty paperwork that they keep, and their foot dragging once I made it clear I needed those records. There was also the issue of mental health paperwork not being offered until I found out that I needed them. Things like the medical-1 form that is required to maintain my general assistance and food stamps, this wasn’t offered until I demanded it, and even then, the first office refused to write one out, even though it was a lifeline I required to survive.
There is also the issue with not a single doctor, in CA or NJ, that had told me that we needed to have a mental impairment questionnaire that said very specific things, to qualify for my disability. I said earlier that you should be asking for help immediately once you start showing symptoms, but now I must add, you need to have a mental impairment questionnaire to accompany the paperwork you are giving to the social security administration and specifically a mental impairment questionnaire that has two extreme functional limitations and three moderate or marked limitations. If you do not have this, they are going to deny you, there is no other way to put it.
As of April of 2023
Limited Function: Two
* Understand and remember short and simple instructions
* Carry out short and simple instructions
Seriously Limited Function: Six
* Remember work-like procedures,
* maintain regular attendance & punctuality within customarily strict tolerance,
* sustain ordinary routine without special supervision,
* make simple work related decisions,
* perform at a consistent pace without an unreasonable number or length of rest periods,
* respond appropriately to changes in routine work environment,
Can’t Perform Competently: Nine
* Maintain attention for 2 hour period
* Work in coordination/proximity to others without undue distraction
* Except instructions and respond appropriately to criticism from supervisors
* Get along with coworkers or peers without unduly distracting them or exhibiting behavioral extremes
* Deal with normal work stress
* Interact appropriately with the general public
* Adhere to base standards of neatness and cleanliness
* Travel in an unfamiliar place
* Use public transportation
No Useful Ability: Two
* Complete a normal work/day week without interruptions from psychologically based symptoms
* Maintain socially appropriate behavior
Marked Limitation: Two
* Restriction in activities of daily living
* Difficulty in maintaining concentration persistence or pace
Extremely Limited Ability: Two
* Difficulty in maintaining social functioning
* Episodes of decompensation Within 12-month period each of at least two weeks duration
When I had to validate my general assistance of some cash aid and food stamps, I had to have my psychologist to reaffirm my current disabled state. When he wrote the affirmation he chose to make my expected dates of disability as years 2016-2116, because he was tired of having to continue to justify my state of health. I doubt that they are going to adhere to his estimation and they will be asking me to reaffirm my disability again in 6 months. All of my doctors and therapists are disgusted with the length of time it is taking to qualify me for my full disability. They are frustrated with our system as well.