"Hey Marcus you how much longer till we reach the city?"

"Arcan if we are going at this pace i think from 3 weeks to 2 months. You know how unpredictable it is" Marcus said while yawning

When he turned his back to chat with other people my hand started to go near my sword. I couldn't control it. With my other hand i quickly grabbed my dagger and secretly without anyone noticing stab my hand. I regain control.

What was that? Why am i like this? I need to fight back

I quickly wrap up the wound with a piece of cloth and try to sleep thought the day. When we stop for the day and set up camp nothing interesting happens. Also nothing happens the day after that and the day after that and the day after that and so on. My ability to keep myself in check weakens by the hour. I keep stabbing my arm and other places with needles, sometimes my dagger to keep in control and not go on a rampage and die.

I can't keep going like this i need something. Please i need it. I can't keep long in check i need to find another group of people quickly.

That night while guarding luck struck and i saw a small campfire in the distance, around 4 kilometers away. and as everyone was still awake i started going to the forest Michael asks me

"Hey Arcan where are you heading? You don't look well. All pale like a ghost"

This fucking dwarf like annoying ass gnome. I want to kill him sooooo bad.

"Hey Michael I think i have some stomach problems. I am going a bit far from camp so the smell doesn't reach it okay?"

"Okay. Then i presume you'll be gone for a while right?" Michael says while chugging a beer he somehow got ahold of

"Yup, I'm heading out now. I will probably come back till my night shift" I say while gritting my teeth and restraining my bloodlust

I start running of to the woods, not caring about tripping, branches and other things, only about killing. Letting loose. My eyes start to glow a faint red color, my vision started going all red. All I could think off was killing people, nothing else.

I finally got to where the camp was. I saw 2 tents. And both people sitting near the campfire. They weren't carrying weapons, like they were merchants.

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Perfect. I will kill them so easily i will slit their throats. No i will first gouge their eye galls. Cut off their ears, arms, legs, then end them slowly. they won't die a peaceful death. NO i won't let them die peacefully. THEY WILL SUFFER

I jump out of the bush, quickly pull out the sword from my sheave, then slit the throat of the first person. Who was looking at me. It was a woman with yellow hair and a nice body. Her head hits the ground severed, but i make haste not even looking at the falling head and lunging at the other woman before the can perceive this situation. I manage to hold myself back and not kill the other woman only knocking her out. by hitting my sword handle on her head. This woman was quite tall. And from a look like 20 years old. I quickly tie her up on a chair i found then absorb and consume the dead woman's soul. My eyes return to their normal blue color like nothing happened

Wow i can think clearly now and there was almost 0 pain from absorbing the soul into myself. But I got 0 stat increases. I guess i was quite unlucky or this woman was too weak

*** Achievement unlocked Addiction ***

You can't live without consuming or absorbing souls or you will go mad

Reward: Title Addict. 3 Souls without stats

I guess I know now how to not go mad. But what shall I do with this woman. I guess I'll just kill her quickly.

I pull out my sword and slice off her head, then absorb her soul without consuming it. And start looting the camp. I find some food which i take. A couple pieces of gold i also pocket in my pouch and a small necklace made of gold which i put on beneath my clothes and armor.

"How many souls do i currently have?"

*** The souls held ***

x3 Useless souls

x1 Woman merchant

I think i have enough souls to keep myself sane for 25 days because i can keep myself sane for 5 days i presume

After finishing the looting i clean and sheave my sword and dagger then start heading back to camp slowly. Looking around this dense forest of dead trees. It looks like a place you would see in the demon realm. But it's also so memorizing. While looking at the trees and the ground i don't witness how I mange to come back.

"Hey Arcan you look a lot better, guess you really had stomach problems" Michael says while eating his portion of dinner. A small piece of deer jerky

"Yea. now go to sleep. I will continue my night guard watch" I say while looking around and seeing only Michael awake

"Okay. I trust you. Until morning" Michael says as he finishes the jerky and goes to his tent"

I start standing the night guard. Then when everyone gets up we eat and i go to sleep. We continue travelling for another 3 weeks with no end in sight. Our pace has really slowed down as everyone is hungry and nobody knows i have food and eat it at night while standing guard.

I guess i miss calculated i guess i need to eat a soul every 4 days. Now I'm all out. The woman's soul at least gave me 1 stat in strength. All my group members look weak. I hope they don't die.