All my life i have been making the wrong choice and everytime i made  those choices i would cancle my ignorance by stating all of it happens for a reason.Everytime i came across a motivational video or thought,i would cringe,they are the stuff i hate most in the world but now i realise that hatred was just a coverup to my recurring jelousy.Jelousy towards those who are succeful,jelousy to those who have it all and jelousy to those who are trying to make something of their life.While i rott and live halfheartedly  for what may be a pointless life.

It really is true what they say "you won't know what you have till you lose it" i pray no one else lives there life like me..

After crying for what may be a few minute but an hour for everyone else i stopped.I regained my conciousness and came back to reality but i kept the act of a coward going.Now and till i leave this place i am nothing more than a coward,which is ironic that i thought of myself that way.Maybe everyone who knows me might have always thought nothing more of me...enough dwelling

i raise my self and sit back on the bed.Around me i can see the nurse,the doctor and the soldier lady.she seems to be around her 30's,much older than me and much more handsome too.The other men seems to have left and has left me in her hands.

I sat on the bed trying to grasp the situation i am in.I was expecting one of them to talk to me but the doctor seems to have lost  intrest in me and was packing the equipments along with the nurse.I looked to my right and i startled "em" she is looking straight at me.I guess she seems to be observing me as i am observing them.Which means i should make the first move

"e..rm whear exactly am i.."

"Camp hawk"

Camp what,she seems to be a lady of few words.Communicating with her is going to be really hard.So far every girl i have come across has a big mouth...

"erm..am i safe here"

"For now"

For now,i see so they still have their suspicion but thats natural.while i was going to ask her my next question the doctor walked towards us and called out to her 

"I am afraid ms.lara,mr.darius over here need some more rest.So if i may kindly ask you for your leave"

"very well"

she got up and walked out,it all happened a bit to fast.the doctor then approched me and put his hands on my shoulders i was startled a bit 

"Calm down mr.darius we are not going to do anything,if i may could you please lay down i need you to be rested"

i did as he asked 

"when will i be able to leave"

i asked him the question,which i should have asked a bit sooner 

"ahh so now you ask...hm well mr darius you will be able to leave tomorrow and thats all i can say for now so don't bother asking anymore.PLease have some rest"

It seems my behaviour is a bit uneven.I am not a natural born liar nor do i have a talent in acting so if i am not careful i might be in big trouble.Already there are a lot of plot holes in my statements.This has become very troublsome indeed. 

the doc gave me some sleeping pills.He was checking my blood rate and noting it down the nurse walked towards my left and  opened  a curtain and there seemed to be another patient in there.How did i not notice that,now that i have a closer look there are two more curtain covers to the front of me.This small information that i did not notice is not a small problem.It means that i am much more of a noob than i thought i was.This small information has had a big blow to my confidence.i was so paralysed with fear i didn't pay attention to my surroundings,the pills start kicking in and i slowly faded from reality.

"wake up-mr dauis.....wake uo.......WAKE UP MR DARIUS"

Fucking hell i had a panic attack .Dammit old man can't you bee a bit more discrete.His shouting scared me to almost pissing my slef.I guess its morning and the day of my release.

"Nice to see you're awake mr.darius.I would continue to let you have you're beauty sleep but your escorts are here"

Huh..Escorts.. i get up from bed and i notice the lady from yesterday is back and this time there are two more people here with her.2 guys,one is well built and looks like a proper soldier he is fairly handsome as well,the other has a smaller stature and with his black hair covering his right eye we can all agree he is an emo.All three are properly armed.

"hai, nice to meet you all"

i bow and greet them,a habit i picked from watching too many anime

"yea whatever get dressed we need to fucking move i have stuff to do as well"

"Please excuse my suboordinates behaviour he has been a bit cranky these few days for obvious reasons..By the way my name is lara, this cranky guys name is dylan and thats mr.emo jeff" giving the guy a punch for his rude statement she started indroducing everyone

shee seems to be much more talkative than yesterday.Well this makes things easier for me.

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"ah..Nice to meet you all again i am darius athene"

"Darius athene is it thats an uncommon name..where are you from mr.D.A.R.I.U.S..darius"

This dylan guy seems to be suspicious of me already.He walks close to me and looks straight into my eyes,he has an intemidating gaze which sends shivers down my spine.should i have lied about my second name.well it dosn't matter now i have to play this off.I back away from him a bit 

"erm...i would prefer if i didn't say" looking down i act scared with tears in my eyes 

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FUCKING CUNT" he smashes his hands on the table next to my bed as he screamed 

"THATS ENOUGH DYLAN...." lara pulls dylan away.If i thought dylans gaze was scary this is another level 

While all of this is happening i met eyes with  emo jeff..his gaze fixed on me.I instinctively look down.

"its alright darius you're safe with us.he is a bit suspicious of new commers"

lara seems to be the only one nice to me.Strange....But i undersand what is happening here.

"thats enough all of you take mr darius out and show him the place he is going to live in from now on.That is if he wants to"

the doc had his say and he was having none of this in his room.After he finished speaking he gave a slight nod with his glasses.without a moments hesitation dylan replied

"ahh fine lets get this over with im tired i need sleep" with his hand on his head and whistling he walked out and emo jeff followed

"well darius we will wait outside.Get dressed,today marks the first day of your new life"

she walked out with a smile on her face.the nurse came up to me and gave me my cloths which has been washed.I wore it and followed them out.

"you're faster than i thought"dylan replied

the second i got out of the room i saw that this building is packed with doctors,nurses and patients.Most of the patients are soldiers which is intriguing 

"come on darius lets go"

lara called out to me while i was observing them.I realised furthur questioning them on this subject  is not ideal.Ths is one of those moments where curiosity kills people.

i got out of the hospital building and i was astonished with what i witnessed..its a whole city full of people for a second i thought i was back to the world i knew.Its unreal,people are walking around naturally with their children,there are others selling food and other commodities and soldiers walking around...this is-

"Amazing right,it took blood sweat and hard work but we got here.Soon we will build the world back to how it was"

"yea so we can blow it up again"

lara seemed optimistic and had a big smile on her face before dylan opened his mouth 

"shut up you pessimistic bastard"

i wouldn't call him that i would call him a realistic bastard,because humanity is too clever for there own good or stupid

walking furthur into the city i become more and more astonished by how free and safe everyone is.Lara explained where everything is but ocassionally ommited some places and i didn't furthur indulge my curiosity.There was even a library in this place and the best of all electricity.Lara explains that when everyone got out from there bunkers and grouped around this place was fully standing and the dam was perfectly functional as well and thats the source of their energy.They just accepted all of this as gods last effort  for mankind.Thats bullshit the more i learn about this the more confusing it gets.This is impossible or is it .......this place makes no sense

After walking around the city we came to the wall.Yes there was a massive fucking wall around the city.I didn't need to ask why there was a wall so i brushed that topic aside.The wall dosn't seem that strong so they are building a stronger one around it.So far its far from complition.They told me to wait outside  the watch tower which is the main base of the militery services in the city.To get to the watch tower we had to go through 2 gates fully manned,i realised escaping from here is going to be harder than i thought.The three of them went in and came out after half an hour.Whatever they were talking about it was serious and i think i know what it is.

Both dylan and emo jeff parted ways with me from the watch tower.Lara remained with me and showed me to my new home.Which was coincidently close to the base.it was a three story building,a bit worn out but considering how the planet is now i must be one of the richest person in the world.

"well this is it this is your new home " She opens the door to my building which was at the top

it was dark,Lara switched the light on and amost immedietly i wished the light was off.the room was dusty and unclean.there was rubbish all over the place.whoever used this place before me was an unclean person.Ateast there were 3 rooms a living room,a bedroom and heven(bathroom) so all was not bad.After checking all the rooms i turned around and face lara

" thanks,thank you very much"

"it's alright we are only here to help those in need...well then ...bye"

"bye"

"oh i almost forgot,here its a welcoming gift"

she handed me a bag with 6 cans of beer.Her face looked of one who was waiting to be invited so-,

"lara do you want to come in and drink with me"

"REALLY....YESS i am so bored these day with all the work and stuff i hadn't got a day to have fun..thank you darius"

"NO..no need to thank me..im more indebted to you"

I did not for get about the role i am playing and so i looked down to the floor and acted embaressed.

I don't know how long we talked to eacother but it was getting dark.We talked about our previous life and how we ended up here.Lara is actully not from here and was from a neigbouring city.she worked as a assistent in a crappy office  and after the war,the community that was built in her city  was destroyed and she was saved by the black hawks.She didn't want to be useless to them so she trained to become a soldier and thats how she got this position.I made up my story as i went along and i had a reason to do that.I told her the same story i told doc but i made it so that she would think i was actually born in liverpool near the camp that was recently destroyed.I told her that  before the war i was a university student in liverpool studying computer science.After we had this talk she decided it was time to leave.

"well darius i had fun tonight.its nice taking to eachother at times like these.ill see you tomorrow"

"me too,i hope we can talk again like this"

before she went she turned around and gave me a kiss on the cheek.She had a flirticious face as she smiled.It must have been all the alcohol....hm

"bye lara" 

i went straight to bed after that and started thinking.To any normal person today was a fantastic day,it would have been the best day of his/her life in a while and i should be happy.Truth is i would have been happy if i didn't already know all of this was fake from the good cop/bad cop resemblence by lara and dylan,the observence from emo jeff ,the signals given by the doc and then finally lara's effort to try and get close to get info on me.It was a beautifully planned play and would have worked perfectly on me if i wasn't such a person who is overly suspicios when it comes to trusting people.Whats more is nothing about this place scientifically any sense how is it that this place is completely un affected while everything around it is waste.Its like something or some one made this place as a safe zone in a game.What about the soldiers why were ther so many injured..why why why...i have all these questions but i have no reason to find the answer to any.I am only staying here to see out winter,after that i am out....but escaping is going to be hard ..ahhhh...think later sleep now.

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"how did everything go lara"

"it went smoothly captain,the guy is just a coward not worth wasting time on"

"GOOD"