Login-
In computer security, logging in (or logging on, signing in, or signing on) is the process by which an individual gains access to a computer system or program by identifying and authenticating themselves.
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The drops of rain landed heavily above my head. As I walked through the sidewalk, I felt the cold flowing through my body. My body temperature was dropping and I was getting dizzy. It was almost like I was dying slowly due to excessive bleeding. And when I touched the back of my head, there were some blood leaks. I don’t know how I was bleeding but the back of my head became warm quickly. But because it was just a small leak, I didn’t really care. I just wanted to move forward and acted like the happiest man alive. I walked like a drunk man and I was happy just like one. I started laughing. I thought I was crazy for a second. I started laughing like a crazy man for no reason. I just wanted to believe that this world has fallen due to an apocalypse and I am the only person alive in this world. I was desperate for something like that to actually happen. I was just tired of living my life now. I couldn’t find any purpose in living anymore. I don’t know what to chase. I have no goals, dreams, hope, no nothing. I was a walking corpse.
After walking soullessly for half a mile or two, I was almost at my house. When I take shortcuts, there is a small sidewalk that is between 2 lakes. When I took that route today, I saw a bench. I took 3 more steps and slowly sat down. The raindrops that fell on my head stopped. The trees above me covered me. When I looked up, the leaves were waving as if they were dancing sadly. It was like a slow waltz. The sound of leaves scratching each other made me comfortable. I relaxed for a bit and sat back. I closed my eyes and felt yearningness. It's like I lost some memories. There was an emptiness that took a place in my heart. I felt tears coming out of my eyes.
I wondered why my life was like this. When did it turn so pathetic? When did it turn into a life where my motto was ‘Just trying to survive daily’? I know that I used to have a dream. A dream where I would chase in order to live a happy life. But I can’t remember them anymore. Maybe I just forgot them but it feels like someone just erased it. Or maybe I should explain it like someone stole my happiness. I feel like my dreams, hopes, everything was just taken away from me.
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When I opened my eyes again, I was surrounded by the never ending darkness. I was so confused. I thought I was dreaming for a second. I tried pinching and poking myself but I still didn’t wake up. I soon realized that I wasn’t dreaming. The weird feeling where you can’t control your own body didn’t exist. I started moving forward until I found a desk. On top of it, there was a monitor, keyboard, and a mouse. It was a typical set up for gaming. When I sat in front of the desk, the monitor turned on and it showed a screen. It was the login tab for GTI SMP. It’s been a long time ever since I saw this tab. I thought that maybe the absence of this game was the reason why I felt so depressed. As if all of my soul and dream just fell into that world. After staring at the screen for a few minutes, I begin typing. I typed my username and password for my login information. After taking a deep breath full of hope and concern, I pressed enter. When I did, an unexpected message was waiting for me.
[Username not found.]
I was confused with fear. I wondered if my account was deleted or if there were any errors. I wished that it was just an error and it would be fixed. But looking at the login fail screen, I felt some sort of relief for some reason. I felt… Freedom. I was less attached to that game now. If it is true that my account is actually deleted, maybe I could rest and move on. Now that I really think of it, the hope that Peace told me might’ve been what kept me from moving on. He has hope that the game is coming back. That made me wait with desperation. If this is a chance for me to move on and continue with my life, it might be better. But then, another message popped up from the screen.
[Your ‘Avatar’ has been killed. Forgotten memories are being collected. They will be recovered soon.]
After looking at the message, I was confused. I didn’t understand anything the message said. What does it mean by my avatar? And what are the forgotten memories? As I continued to wander around with the unanswerable questions that were given, I received a notification from my phone. It was from Peace.
- Peace: I hope you like your gift. Good luck with your new life.
Right as I finished reading his messages, I woke up. I was on the bench again and it was still raining. I stood up quickly and rushed down the street. When I turned back for a split second I saw a guy around my age, standing in the rain with an umbrella. He had a suit on. He also had white hair with some weak curls on it. I couldn’t really see his face but I saw him smiling and waving at me. I had a strong feeling that he was the man I wanted to find. Peace. But I turned around and ran to my house.