Oh my goodness you guys it has been so long!
I am going to be completely honest, depression hits sometimes but never really as hard and never really as long, the temptation of suicide is gone, and I am able to appreciate friends and find the balance of having support without making them a dumping ground. I really am doing a lot better and I've figured some things out in my life. I guess I was bored today and wanted to reread my rants and oh my goodness, that was a roller coaster of emotions. I was not in a really good place and I just wanted to give you guys an update that I am doing okay! I am on the right medication and am currently seeing a therapist who helps me out a lot. I am doing a lot better than (from what I've read and experienced) what I was feeling back then.
I know the COVID19 virus has hit hard and fast and it's kind of thrown life for a loop. Schools have been made online, social distancing has been implemented, heck, I just helped host a wedding in my backyard on Friday. Even though it has been pretty hard, I will say that honestly, it's kinda helped my mental health. As you all are very much aware, I have/had a really low self esteem and I didn't like my self, like, at all. When talking to my therapist about this, she said that even though it may suck and be hard, this is the time where I have to face myself and where I can figure myself out. That has helped me so much. I have made a lot of progress and honestly, I feel a lot happier. I am doing a lot better and I have taken the drivers seat with Depression sitting in the back.
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Back to me reading my rants again, I just want to say thank you for everyone who's commented and tried to help me out. As I've looked back, I realize that I've used a lot of your guy's advice to get to where I am now, even if I didn't realize it at first. You guys are so amazing and I can't even begin to say thank you for your willingness to help a struggling girl and show a path to bring her back to safety. I really appreciate it and I have faith in humanity that people really do care and want to help others who are struggling. Thank you so much.
This will be my last entry/chapter of the rantings of the broken. I may be struggling, but I don't feel so broken anymore. After reading everything, I just wanted to let the people who have been following these rants know that I am okay and have been living life. I hope everyone is doing okay with life despite its challenges and this closes the Ranting of the Broken.