MinJun

I walked over to Juniper and Caleb with Samantha in tow. This didn’t look good at all. Why did the exes have to be here? I looked at Caleb and she straightened himself up and stood directly in front of me.

“Can I help you?” He asked as if he was protecting Juniper.

“No, you can not.” I said to Caleb. I looked at Juniper and she was looking at Samantha, who was still holding onto my arm. “Are you okay?” I asked her.

“Yes, but I’m ready to go.” She glanced back and forth from me to Samantha. I removed Samantha’s hand from my arm and she looked disgusted.

“Are you serious Min Jun?” She asked.

“Yes, he is. Is there a problem?” Juniper asked, stepping towards her. I held her back and turned to Samantha.

“Samantha. You know this is not going to work. I don’t know what games you are playing, but you need to stop.”

“Why do you want to be with her, we have history. You know we do. You can’t deny me!” She said. I felt Juniper jump towards her and I cracked a smile. She was ready to rumble for real.

“I care for her and she cares for me. That’s all that matters.” I responded.

“So that’s how it’s gonna be Juniper?” Caleb stated from behind me. I turned to him and looked at him square in the eyes.

“Yes, that’s how it’s going to be.” I said, smiling slyly, knowing he was defeated. I grabbed Juniper’s hand and held it up for both of them to see and we walked away from the toxic couple.

Even though I was holding Juniper’s hand while walking back towards our table, I still had a funny feeling in my stomach. Why was Juniper talking to him? Why was he holding her hand and why was she allowing him to touch her? I’m sure she was wondering about the same with Samantha following me around like a lost puppy. We needed to have a serious talk to gain some reassurance between us because I don’t think that is the last time we will hear from Samantha and Caleb. They are finding out where we located and just popping up on us. I don’t need to have any doubts festering quietly in our relationship, unfortunately tonight’s actions didn’t help; They just created them.

Juniper

When we got back to the table, Min Jun and I hadn’t spoken about the subject and I didn’t want to bring it up in front of Jin and Mindi. Jin spoke quietly with Min Jun for a sec while I downed a few shots of soju. I wanted to forget what just happened, but then again when I think about it, I didn’t want to forget. My mind started allowed doubt to creep in and questions started forming; Why was he with her? How long had he been with her before he came over to me? Why was she touching him and why did he look flushed? I had scenarios played out in my head before we’ve spoken a word about it. I’m sure Min Jun has had questions as well; Caleb sure knows he has a way of fucking shit up. Why can’t he just leave me the fuck alone?!

Min Jun suggested another place, for which I was down. I didn’t want to stay there anymore because I would get locked up. I wish Chanel was here, wait a minute, no I wouldn’t; then the both of us would be locked up. I just wished she was here so I could unload some shit on her and she wouldn’t judge me about it; she knows I’m just trying to make sense of this shit so I can figure out what to do. I don’t really think Min Jun would judge me, I just don’t want him to look at me as a person who is totally mental. My anxiety made me feel like I’m drowning. I’ll get so wrapped up in the waves, sometimes I forget to breathe and it comes to a point where I explode. I needed to get shit under control; but in order to do so, I needed a release. I need a good cry, a good scream, a good walkabout, and a good fuck. I need to release, emotionally, physically, intellectually and spiritually but technically not in that order.

We decided to kick it at another spot, not far from the studio. The music was hitting just right and we all were having a blast. Min Jun got a few pics with a few fans that were there. I didn’t mind sharing him with them, they help him keep his dream alive. He does it for his fans as they enjoy watching him and he enjoys dancing. Min Jun is so passionate about his dancing, he tells a story when he dances; he really knows how to set the mood. They love to see him because he is really sweet, gorgeous and honest. He loves the fans because they appreciate him for being real and grounded as an idol. On occasion I was asked to join their photos; it seems as though people were loving us as a couple as well as I am not some type of stuck up bitch who is annoyed by his fame. Dancing is his ‘thing’, and it’s something that he’s been trying to make it as a career, so why would I not support him? He supports me in my ‘gaming’ and I should for him.

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Min Jun took my hand and walked me over to a table off to the side, away from everyone. I knew he wanted to talk as much as I wanted to. I had a feeling deep in my gut that this conversation could go in two different ways: It could go well and there would be no questions and a great understanding of what is expected or it could go bad and doubt takes over the conversation and we leave with more questions answers.

MinJun

I pulled Juniper over to a table in the corner away from everyone. I wanted to talk to her as the situation was eating me alive. I needed to know what Caleb said to her. I wanted to know if she was okay. I also needed to explain about Samantha.

“How are you?” I said sitting next to her facing her slightly.

“I’m good. How are you?” She said, looking at me innocently as normal.

“I’m good.” I said sitting next to her, not saying anything but saying so much in my head. She noticed that I was contemplating something serious.

“What’s on your mind? And don’t tell me ‘nothing’ because I can see there is.” She said,

“I do have questions.” I finally said.

“I have questions too.” She said in response. Here we go, I thought. She had every right to have some questions. We got into this relationship quickly, so here we are raw and uncut, trying to figure out who the other person is and how much weight that person may have within the heart.

“I figured you would. Samantha means nothing to me Juniper. I swear.”

“I understand, but she just keeps popping up in places we are. Is this bitch following you?”

“I don’t know but I think she is or she has someone following me. I found out there’s another video also.”

“Are you serious?” She asked. “This bitch is crazy.”

‘She’s unstable, that’s for sure.”

“But why were you with her? She was following you and she had your wrist.” She boldly asked.

“I ran into her outside the restroom. She was standing outside when I came out.” I said looking at her directly. “She was asking me why didn’t I respond back to her about me helping her with her channel. She stressed she wasn’t too happy that other videos had gotten released and gone viral.”

“I bet. Why do you keep satisfying her craziness?” I had been waiting for that question.

“She asked for my help. I didn’t think she would do this. I didn’t think she would want me back, the thought never crossed my mind.” I said.

“I see.” She said. “She sounds just as delusional as Caleb. He was acting as if all that happened between us was a small fight and asking if we could go back to being a couple. He’s psychotic.”

“I have a question that I want to ask, but I don’t want to ask.” I said. Her looks turned serious and she focused in. She was sexy as hell when she got focused. No matter what I was about to say she was willing to take it full blast; she was an honest woman and I wouldn’t want to hurt her in any way.

“Go ahead.”

“Have you ever cheated on anyone?” I asked. I knew my answer, but would she be able to handle my answer. iIt happened after Samantha, I had a moment where I didn’t believe love existed after we broke up. I looked at Juniper getting solemn and relaxed. She was thinking about something truthful and she looked at me.

“Yes, I did.” She spoke openly and honestly. “I cheated on Caleb. It was after the first time he cheated on me.”

“He cheated on you and you stayed with him?” I questioned sarcastically and remembered that I spoke too much. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Yes you did and I deserve it. I was stupid. But yes, I did. But that is not something I do anymore.” She said confidently. I believed her. I felt she wouldn’t destroy what we have. “Let me ask you Min Jun, have you ever?”

I was hesitant but we were letting it all hang out, from this day forward as people who are true to their words, these were those moments for which they ring true.

“Yes, I did. I was in a relationship with someone and I cheated…with Samantha.” I hesitated to tell her but I needed and wanted to be honest with her. She looked at me, shocked a bit. I wasn’t sure how to read her at that moment. I knew a million questions started running into her brain.

“I didn’t expect that.” She said.

“I know.” I said, holding my head down. “I didn’t want to tell you. But I had to, because I always want to be honest with you. I don’t want to be the reason that this relationship doesn’t work.” I said honestly. I looked at her face and she had a calming look upon her face. She seemed tired, I’m sure she had had enough of guys playing games with her heart. I wasn’t playing games, I wanted her to be with me.

“Thank you for being honest. I appreciate that.” She finally said holding my hand. I leaned over and kissed her on her lips. It seemed a bit off but I didn’t want to say anything; we had already dealt with a lot already that night.

Shortly after, we decided to call it a night. I dropped Jin and Mindi off at Jin’s place; he was going to take Mindi home while I took Juniper to her apartment. She said she wanted to stay at her place for the night. I knew she had a lot to process and I didn’t want to make matters worse so I reluctantly agreed. She said she was fine for the night, after seeing Caleb at the bar, she figured he wasn’t going to come by her place since he had his opportunity to speak with her at the club. I watched her go into her apartment building and my heart felt as though it would be the last time I would see her. I knew it wouldn’t, but just the idea that things may change between Juniper and I, scared me greatly. Suddenly, I felt heartbroken.