Through the whole day, a person hears countless kinds of voices even if they don’t want to.

Voices that no matter how much you don’t want to hear them, you will still be able to hear it because those people are everywhere towards your destination.

“Hey, have you heard that new idols that just debut?”

The usual talks of people that I grew bored of.

“Hey. This person post some good stuff.”

Countless voices can be heard in a train, a normal occurrence. A day that doesn’t have anything different from the usual day that I experience everywhere.

Sounds that I always hear and voices that was so dull that I got tired of them after hearing those voices for a long time now.

Planning to block out the voices around me, I take out my phone and puts an earphones to my ear.

“Hello…”

As if a bell made a tiny sound to my ears that woke me up from a deep slumber, I stopped putting my earphones on my ear. I immediately look towards the sound where I heard the voice.

Seeing a guy lowering his phone’s volume and taking out his earphones, I saw a girl wearing a mask in a video however as if unsatisfied in that video. The guy exits the video right away.

Hearing a voice that has a different sound for the first time made my curiosity flare up.

Approaching the guy, I tap his shoulder.

“Uhh… who was the one in that video?”

Feeling confused for getting questioned out of nowhere.

“It’s just a random girl that I saw.”

After telling me the girl’s name. I thanked the guy and went back to where I was standing.

Searching her name through my phone, I found out that she’s not popular. Someone who just started from doing her videos, a person that does whatever she wants in the video entertaining those that watches it.

Since that day, every time she goes live in her place, I always joins in. From being the first viewer of her, I was able to listen to her voice that was different from the other people that I always encounter.

Even though she mentions me as she goes on with what she’s doing in her stream, I continued to listen.

“Heeyyyy, are you a bot or something?”

Listening to her, I see that she stopped playing her game and focused in the chat even though I’m the only one in there.

Thinking what to say because she stopped talking, I decided to reply to her.

[I’m not a bot.]

Getting surprised from my reply, she became excited and continued talking as if being glad that the only viewer of hers is not a bot.

“Heyyyy, c’mon talk some more. It’s boring just playing around and talking in the air while my viewer is not saying anything you know.”

I feel exhausted just by listening from her now as she continues to talk while urging me to make a reply to her.

[Forcing your only viewer to reply to you will make that person wants to leave you know?]

“OHHH!!! You replied longer now! And I don’t care! My one and only viewer didn’t leave even when I continued talking right?”

Getting dumbfounded from what she said, I can’t help but make a small smile. She’s weird, she really is.

[I would be grateful if you continue playing now, I’m only here to watch and listen.]

“Boo! That’s so boring, c’mon talk more.”

Feeling something different from talking to her, we kept talking and talking for a long time.

As we continued to talk for a long time. Some people started to get interested in her videos and stream.

Welcoming them, talking to them, thinking that she won’t bother talking to me anymore now that there’s a lot of people that came to watch her, I just continued to listen.

“Heyyy, mr. first bot! Don’t act like I don’t know that you are in the stream right now.”

Even though I stopped talking sometimes and just want to listen to her, she mentions me from time to time to make me talk. For some reason, I felt something in my chest respond every time she mentions me.

[What do you want, bored streamer. Let the old man listen peacefully here.]

“Bah! Old man you say, we talked so long so I’m sure my age is not that different from yours!”

For the first time after a long time, I felt dumbfounded again.

Looking at the chat, her viewers are laughing from what she said. Touching my forehead, I never thought that she will stay like this even when she becomes famous.

[I’m listening here peacefully, stop mentioning my name.]

“Listening listening, bah. You always say that since the time you joined this.”

Acting as if annoyed, she started complaining about me in the chat. Not knowing what to do, I just continued to watch how some people complains about me as well.

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About how even being the first viewer of her and gets a lot of attention, I ignore her.

[You guys, give me a break. I’m only here to listen.]

Replying to them that way, I look at her to see her frowning in the video.

“You always say listen, listen, listen. You said that as well before. Just what is good with my voice?”

Feeling a headache from her questions and their complaints, I started typing what I really came for.

[Your voice is different. I like it, so stop complaining about me and continue playing. The stream is not about your complaints and talk, it’s a gaming stream today.]

Reading what I said aloud in her stream, she slowly goes quiet. And started saying stupid thing about me as she goes back to playing her game.

“... You irresponsible viewer.”

Hearing her say those words even though it was so small that people barely heard it. I sighed while looking at the ceiling as I listen to her complain.

As day pass by, months and years. A day came where she announced something that soured my mood.

“Everyone, I’m very sorry but I will be stopping my stream because I will be focusing in my real life from now on. I am very sorry! I am so glad that you people were with me till this day and I’m so glad that you guys didn’t leave me for a long time.”

Having a mixed feeling, I felt regretful that I won’t be able to listen to her voice again. And for some reason, I felt something in my chest aches.

[Well it would be good if you focus with your life, it’s been 6 years since you started.]

Sending that message, I saw her look sad as she reads what I sent.

“Hehehe, I guess so. Thank you again for watching me mr. first bot!”

Calling me that for the last time, her stream ended.

Looking at the blank screen, I felt empty. A sense of emptiness that I never felt.

“I guess this will bring me back to that dull life.”

Finishing my studies and reaching college was harder than I thought before I was able to hear her. That changed me and felt that it’s not so bad continuing, now I felt that everything feels harder and making me unable to continue them.

For the first time, I found out how much I relied to her, and how I used her as my reason to continue doing everything.

Thinking that something is wrong to me, I went to a district that I rarely go to. Looking at the stores around the street, I entered one of them and chose a seat next to the window.

Ordering a slice of cake and a coffee, I was able to relax and felt that the shop is not that bad.

Feeling my mood slightly improves, I continued to go to the café. Once a week, twice, until I started going there as a regular.

Sitting near the window that I always choose, I still felt empty. Feeling that listening to that girl’s voice after a long time, I went a played one of the songs that she did.

A different voice from the one that I remembered, too different that the bell like ring that I hear from her voice disappeared.

Removing my earphones, I called a waitress to give my order.

Seeing a different girl for the first time, I immediately knew that she’s someone new in the café.

“I’ll my regular order. Just tell the person in the counter that I’m taking the regular order.”

Saying those words, I look outside the window feeling the same emptiness from the first time that I went in here.

“Ok!”

Hearing a bell like voice once again echoes to my ears, I immediately looks back to the girl’s back as she goes to the counter stiffly.

A voice that I never thought that I will ever hear again, it was so unexpected that I felt conflicted whether I just confused her voice to that girl in that stream.

Feeling that conflicting feeling, I resolve myself to do one thing.

As she picks my order, she starts walking towards me. Feeling nervous from what I will ask, I felt my hand become sweaty.

Maybe… just maybe…

Thinking about those, I strengthened my resolve.

Placing my order on the table, she thanked me for ordering.

Hearing her voice again that was too different from everyone else, I lost my reasoning. As she turns around to go back from work, I grabbed her hand.

“Eh?”

For the first time in my life, I was able to find the thing that I’ve been missing.

Just like a passing voice, sometimes it disappears, sometimes it will appear once again. I was able to hear that voice that I wanted to hear for a long time.