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Wash Away Your Sin

Wash Away Your Sin

?: Get up!

Huh...

Young boy: Just a little more come on...

Gerard: Hahahhaha

Young boy: Uwaaaaah

He was kicked down from the cart by a familiar person

Young boy: You laugh after a funny thing happens not before ugh...what's this...mud? Damn you old man...hahh...

*What was the thing l saw...a grave with no name... a saw with blood on it...maybe l killed it? Who am l? I...I am a adventurer, a well known person. Even if l killed someone it must be justified. I am a hero....I am a hero!!!*

Young boy: I am a knight!!!

He got up and opened his arms like he is greeting the moon.

Gerard:.....

Young boy: Huh why are you looking at me like l am a madman? You need some energy in your life come on smile

Gerard looked at him in a puzzled way

Young boy: smile...

Gerard: hahahhahahah...maybe you should work as a fool at this place. We need someone like you.

Gerard had a weak smile.

*It's really dark*

Young boy: Where are we?

A street filled with colorfully painted houses and stores. The light of the lanterns shined bright this night. They were in front of a big building. A wooden building with big windows. He was able to see what was happening inside a young man was carrying beer to the customers he was a bit fat. His bowl cut made him look goofy. He had brown eyes, brown hair and a pale skin. The place looked like a tavern well this must have been one of the reasons why he needed coal. The interior was covered with lamps and candles.

Young boy: So this is the place l will stay huh better than nothing to be honest other than this loud sound coming from inside it is rather cool.

Gerard: It is called music idiot...it looks like John is handling things rather good...hey you remember the plan right?

*The plan?*

Young boy: No? You never talked about a plan?

Gerard: huh....

His genuinely suprised look made everything awkward for the young boy as he was wondering about the plan.

Young boy: l was sleeping...

*And again here l am thinking about how l got myself into this situation. Life is cruel but especially for me. Finding myself in weird situations has became a habit at this point.*

Gerard: l....l...l......l didn't talk all the way just for you to forget everything damn it...just remember don't do something stupid got it and now go to that wooden cabin on the back the water must be warm at this hour.

*Well at least he didn't say youngsters*

Gerard: Youngsters are the same.

*Oh come on...I need to think fast the last think we were talking about was his daughter so this must be something about it...he talked about water and...*

He looked at his body covered in mud

*I need a bath as well...well l dont think l understand anything...lets go...but there is something l need before that.*

Young boy: Did l say something?

His emotionless eyes met the suprised eyes of Gerard.

Gerard: Say what?

Young boy: what did l say...we talked all the way right? What did l say?

Gerard jumped down the cart and stood next to the boy towering over him.

Gerard: You were ok for the first part but after some time you started saying weird things...something about a nameless star.

*Star?*

Young boy: nameless star? Like the ones up there?

He pointed his finger towards the sky pointing at the little balls of light shining among the darkness.

Gerard: Probably...maybe it's a nickname too like the one you have...

*Ughh new things are popping up back and back l am tired of this shit.*

Young boy: bath time for me...and then...

With a childish smile on his face

Young boy: It will be extermination time.

*Yehooo let's go*

He looked around but he wasn't able to see much because the dim light coming from the lanterns placed alongside the road wasn't enough. There was enough space next to the tavern. It looked like a alleyway, big enough to allow a few people to walk next to each other.

*...l don't know why but this place feels scary*

The road was shorter than he expected a few steps and now he was in a garden like place with a wooden cabin inside it.

*Is this like the backyard of the tavern?*

He was able to see the light escaping from the cabin.

*I am lucky it isn't cold out here or l would have turned into a ice cube inside that.*

As he opened the door he was met with an unknown.

*What the he'll is that stone?*

It was a wooden tub that had a red crystal like stone under it.

*Is that the thing that hea....*

This text was taken from Royal Road. Help the author by reading the original version there.

You are a fake

He stopped before entering

*Why....why the hell am l scared*

He was shaking like a deer thst met it's end, like a grass facing the warm winds of August.

Young boy: wha...

He looked around for some time but he already knew he was alone so nothing changed.

It wasn't it's voice it was different this time.

He started taking his armor off starting from his leather boots

*Ughhh look at this smell. I really needed this after all.*

Everything changed when it came to his armor.

*How do you even take this off....lets try the shoulder.*

The plate on his shoulder came out relatively easily. It was had leather belts and buckles that connected it to the chest plate and one they came out it just fell to the wooden ground. Then he did the same with the chest plate and the leather parts and ended the whole thing by taking the chainmail off....

Young boy: Thank you the stars out there without you this dream of mine wouldn't have been possible.

The stars were still mysterious for him but he knew they weren't something to be scared off.

*Ohh so warm...*

The dim light of the candles on the walls covered the entire cabin.

*...it looks really bad*

He looked at his small torso covered in red marks.

*I need something to wear inside the armor or l will branded out there...*

His entire chainmail was branded on his body because of the heat.

So beautiful right?

*Huh....*

He was standing inside a luxurious room. Under the dim light stood a naked girl on her knees.

She was covered in blood up to her elbows

She was holding something

What is it

What is it

What is it

Her whole existence was like burned photo

Her face, her whole body was blurred

So beautiful right?

Yes...

You can see it now right? I am the only one that will love you.

No...

Forget about her you have me now

I can't but l love you as well

He hugged her naked skin. Her heart was beating like a small drum

Thump thump

Thump thump

You are so warm

You too...

She dropped the thing on the ground

Red liquid poured out of it

You should have choked it instead of ripping it apart

Hehe sorry

It's ok...

He kissed her...again...again...again...again

Thump thump

Thump thump thump

Thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump....

Young boy: ggghehee....heeghehee

He launched himself out of the tub landing head first...

Thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump

Young boy: hgheheee.....gh..h...

He couldn't breathe....something was stuck on his throat...

Young boy: Koff! koff!

Something came gushing out of his mouth. Red liquid mixed with blood and in the middle of it.

Thump thump thump

Thump thump thump thump thump thump

A pinkish piece of meat fell the ground

You can see it now right?

An unknown voice

You are a fake

Again again and again

The acidic taste covered his mouth

Again again and again

Blood,sweat and saliva mixed together

Again again and again

Thump thump thump thump thump....

It's rotting

He is rotting

I am rotting

His body contracted as he continued vomiting

His insides fell to the wooden ground one by one

He is infected

I am infected

......

.....

....

...

..

.

His eyes were open

But they refused to see anything

He way lying on the ground

Inside a puddle made from himself

He was feeling it

He was rotting from inside

Everything was falling apart

Everything was leaking pus

They were rejecting him

He lifted his frail body and grabbed his sword

Young boy: l dont want to live...l dont want to suffer with no reason,l dont want this body,l...l am nothing but a corpse.

He wanted everything to end. He preferred a sudden end rather than a unknown suffering. He felt the sharp and cold edge on his throat.

Why

Why why

Why why why

Why why why why

It wasn't moving

Not even an inch

Can't even kill yourself huh...

He heard the unknown voice again

Even if you kill yourself it won't mean anything. You are nothing but a doppelganger after all. Do you even remember who you are?

Am l a hero?

Am l a killer?

Am l a psychopath?

Who am l?

What am l?

Between the planks that made the so called wall a single eye was visible

Eye of a madman

An eye with nothing but malice

Lies

Truth

This eye only believed in what favored him

I am not talking about the lies he fed you

I am talking about you. Who are you

A pair of blank eyes met the eye of the madman

Let me give you something. This isn't just a lie created by it...this is who you were. This is a fractured part but at least you will get the feeling

.......

......

.....

....

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..

.

His body was never his anyways

He wasn't able to move

He wasn't able to breathe

He wasn't able to swallow

He was mutilated

His whole bad was covered in wires, pipes and tubes.

He wasn't breathing

A weird metal box covered in wires, pipes and tubes was connected to his fragile body.

It filled his rotting lung with air and then sucked it away

A metal box that worked as a pump

His heart wasn't beating

A small metal box was stitched to his chest and connected to him with wires and tubes

Thump thump

Thump thump thump

It made a mechanical sound trying to imitate a heartbeat

It was cold

His whole body was contracting

He was naked on this bed

His sight was blurry

The only thing he saw was the while paint on the ceiling

?: Maybe we should call one of the professors he has been shaking for the last 6 hours

??: Leave him be....and don't you try to cover him. We aren't allowed to touch him

?: but...

??: The is no buts...he is the only one left and all the others died because we were slow...

He wasn't able to swallow

All his teeth were pulled and ripped from his mouth and a tube was forced down his throat.

It forced so called food into his body

He had no digestive organs other than his stomach

They were ripped apart from his body and placed inside a metal box.

His belly was open and his intestines were connecting his stomach to the machine

Everything was covered by silk sheets used like curtains

His mouth was stuffed with towel like sheets so that his saliva won't leak out

He was shaking

So cold

??: professor is it the time?

???: yeah...can you leave us alone...l need to tell him something

He waited as they left the room

???: as you know...you are really important...l know you think of this as a torture...l dont even know if you remember or know who l am but just know that you should live till the end.

He felt something wet dripping on his arm

???: l am sorry...l wish everything would have ended with a happy ending...

His sound was accompanied with the weird beeping sound coming from one of the metal boxes wired to him

???: Everything was good at first but as we increased the potency of the therapy you started to change...to be honest you will forget everything tomorrow so l have no reason to tell you all this...l am just trying to get rid of the weight on my chest. You started to lose your memories...little by little you slowly became nothing but a little child...but you never forgot her...l am sorry l can't give you painkillers they can alter the effects of therapy

I don't care

Someone

Kill

Me

???: We continued the therapy every day...l heard your cries every day as you suffered the side effects...l am sorry for everything we did...but science requires sacrifices.

I don't care

Kill

Me

He continued shaking

???: We can't give you anything about your fever as well...for the same reason...l will return later...please live.

Kill

Me

He was alone

He continued staring at the ceiling with his blurred vision

It never changed

It was the same thing every second

He wanted to walk

He wanted to talk

He wanted to hold

His body stopped listening to him long ago

He was too tired

He waited

Waited

Waited

Just for an end

???: l am here for the injection...

Something entered his body from the tubes all over his body.

It burns

It hurts

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

Nearly all the metal boxes started beating at a fast rate

???: Brain is rejecting. Fucking idiots go call her he will die if this continues like this

?: Yes sir.

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

His whole body was shaking from the raw pain he was feeling

Kill me

Kill me

Kill me

???: He is rejecting again if this continues we will be forced to lower the dosage to 15 times the safe limit...

Beautiful voice: Leave us alone.

This was a voice he could never forget. This was the voice of the girl that supported him in his Lowest. The girl that gave him hope. The girl that will save him one day.

Beautiful voice: l am here don't worry...l will never leave you again

She held his shaking hand and kissed it

Beautiful voice: You need to calm down or the plan will lose it's meaning.

It hurts

Beautiful voice: You want to stay with me right? Then be a good boy and calm. Accept the pain, accept the change.

The beeps slowed down over the time

Beautiful voice: Your compatibility is increasing every day.l know you will be the one and when that time comes. You will be with me even in the depths of abyss right?

Tears covered his face as he felt like his body was being torn apart by the thing they were injecting him.

Beautiful voice: l already know your answer don't worry.

He felt her soft lips on his ribcage

He was lying on the wooden ground.

The eye of malice looked deep into his soul and asked his question.

Now tell me who you are? Are you a psychopath or just a victim?