I always wondered.

If l will ever have wings

If l will ever become perfect.

If l will ever become complete.

After some time l stopped thinking.

I stopped questioning after some time.

I wore a fake persona as a mask.

It was better than being empty.

Even if it was just role-playing.

I wanted to feel normal without questioning anything.

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The alluring voice was singing a song.

What was this song...no this wasn't a song but a requiem.

He was stopped on his path by this voice that embodied beauty and elegance.

Young boy:...huh..what is this?

Tears fell from his eyes as he heard the mysterious requiem. He wasn't sad, he wasn't angry...the tears held no meaning at least for him...

Young boy: Ragnal...do you hear something....forget it talk to the guards on my behalf.

He continued in his path. His small steps became faster and faster with each step. He was running behind the gentle voice. His arms were swinging like they were dislocated, his eyes were blank as the only think he needed at that moment was his ears. Like a fish swimming against the current. He wanted to meet the owner of this voice. He felt like his whole body was getting controlled by this requiem. This requiem was able to calm his entire brain that was overwhelmed by the whole situation and was refusing to think or use logic at all. Ragnal was running behind him as well. He was shouting something but to who? His blinded eyes saw nothing in front of him. He felt like his whole world was like a ocean. He was nothing but a fishing boat fighting the waves only to be their slave. The guards near the gate stood on their ground letting him enter the city. He turned around and shouted.

Young boy: l will find you later Ragnal!

Ragnal's answer was cold and late as usual. But his anger was hidden under his answer.

Ragnal: That's my line dumbass...

He was running inside the city like a rabid dog. He was feeling like magma was pumping through his body, his whole body was burning. He was feeling intoxicated.

?: Look where you are going bitch!

?: Hey what the fuck?

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He found himself infront of a huge building and without any rest he threw himself in. Barging into rooms one by one He was running around the building. Even himself had no idea why he was doing this. Room after room his ears were searching for the beautiful voice. After a long search and entering weird rooms with multiple people inside them he was in the middle of a long corridor. In front of him stood multiple heavily armored guards. They were there probably because of all the chaos he was causing inside the building. The lifted their swords and spears as the boy launched towards them.

*do something...fucking do something*

His adrenaline fulled body jumped right before entering the range of their spears and swords launching all of them towards the door behind the guards back and this was the first time his vision became clear probably because of this life threatening situation he has got himself into. The door opened as they crushed into it and then.

*WoW*

He was floating in the air. His eyes were locked to the chandelier covered in gold hanging over the people down there. His eyes wondered around the room. It was filled with people wearing elegant clothes and drinking wine while sitting on their tables. This place was definitely a restaurant by all means. He floated less than a second but everything felt more than minute. His brain numbed by the beautiful voice and carried him all the way here with no care at all was returning back to normal. As his body spinned in the air his eyes locked into the guards rolling down the stairs. His body slowed down as he lost his momentum ans started falling down.

*Shit shit shit shit*

Before he landed head first into the ground his eyes met someone. She was playing piano while singing a sad requiem from a lost culture. The requiem of the language that never existed. And as he fell down and landed next to her everything went dark.

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She used to sing me a lullaby whenever l had trouble sleeping.

Her voice was angelic

I always sneaked out of my room and climbed to hers.

Climbing was easy for me.

I always knocked on her window and she never kept me waiting.

I was lucky that she was staying alone in that room.

She was always kind towards me unlike others.

Her bed was too small to fit both of us properly so we always cuddled until the sun rose.

She was the best pillow l have ever had.

She wasn't one of the flat ones that never supports you.

She wasn't like the hard ones that pushes you away every time you tried something.

She wasn't like the cheap ones that always had a foul mouth.

She was the pillow l always wanted.

She was my soft and high quality pillow.

She always smelled like flowers.

She loved them and l liked helping her water them as well.

It was sad she never witnessed her own creations.

She was always in pain but she never stopped smiling.

I couldn't have just waited while doing nothing.

I was ready to sacrifice anything.

And everything l would get my hands on.

She always told me that l shouldn't risk myself for her.

How can l hold myself from helping her?

She is my creator.

She is my god.

She is the one that named me.

She is the one that gave me my emotions back.

She is colorful.

She is the only colorful person l met in this monochrome that had colors this shiny.

I want her to use me.

Just one sentence is enough.

Just ask me to save you.

It's my fate to be used.

It's my fate to be a weapon.

It's my fate to be a slave.

It's my fate to be a monster.

I was never a human from the start.

Please....

Use me instead of loving me without asking for something in return.

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Blood trickled down his face as he stood up.Everyone was looking at him with bloodshot as they started cursing and throwing their glasses at him.Their face filled with rage as this small figure fell from the sky and caused the beautiful requiem to stop.The boy stood there for a few second with his face covered in blood from the blood leaking from his head.The glasses shattered on his head and armor as the guards that fell down the stairs unlike the boy came with their weapons lifted.The boy continued looking around with empty eyes.The beautiful girl wearing a pink dress caught his eye.She was standing on his right sitting on a wooden chair with her hands resting on the piano she was playing before the boy fell from the sky.She had a ponytail orange hair. She quickly got up from her chair and rushed to the boy.

*l don't want think*

She stood between the boy and the guards.Her ponytail swayed left and right as she stood there panting.Her swinging pony tail revealed her sweaty back.Her dress was one of the ones that had a low cut back.She spreaded her arms as if she was trying to protect him like a mother bird.

Stolen from Royal Road, this story should be reported if encountered on Amazon.

*Why am l even here?Why did l lose my memories?Who am l supposed to trust?Can l even trust myself?No no no!They aren't me!How can they expect me to trust that weird guys l have never heard or met before.How can they expect me to believe in things they showed me?Maybe they are fake,maybe they are just lies created by them to use me?How did l even get here?I felt like my whole body moved on it's own.What was that feeling of nostalgia and how can l even question the feeling of nostalgia itself?Maybe it's a lie as well.Maybe it is a way for then to move me from place to place.Why did they showe me that weird things?They don't even add up with each other.Maybe they are trying to weaken me...maybe they want to use me like a puppet.I don't even know what they are.Maybe l should just leave everything behind...what if l escape?I can probably pickpocket some money and pay someone to take me away from this hell hole...but then what?Do l even have a skill or an ability that l can use to earn money?I have nothing to keep myself alive other than this sword...*

Girl: He is with me...l called him here.

Guard number one: But miss Yela....

Girl: Are you questioning me...and how can you act rude towards my guest huh?

She shouted towards one of the guards.Her angelic goddess like soft voice covered the whole room as she took a step forward and slapped the man.

Girl: Know your place...

She turned towards the crown and bowed in a elegant style.

*l am tired of having this weight on my shoulder...l wish l could just leave everything behind...who am l?Let's assume l really am a killer...no let's say l really am a monster...someone's status can be different from other people's eyes...it must be justified...the light of hope isn't something they showed me so it can't be fake...l am a cool knight...l have a chivalrous soul, everything l did must have a reason behind it....l am sure*

Girl: l am sorry everyone but l need to leave early today...thank you for listening to my song.

*Everything must be fake...they are both creations of my mind l am sure of it. Then what am l? Why did l even lose my memories? Wait maybe he is right...they are like alter personalities after all. That would explain how it felt like a fewer dream when l ran all the way here. But why this doesn't explain why the madman called the monster a liar...*

The boys looked at the crowd with a disturbed face as they looked at him with eyes filled with anger. The boy was a delusional person. His whole existence was a delusion itself. The boys hands met each other as his right gripped the left stabbing it's nails into it. The boy was stressed the boy was in fear. The harder he tried to refuse thinking and questioning the more he found himself questioning his existence. He looked around stressed and scared as his nails dug into his skin. His blood fell to the ground as his scared eyes met the girls face. She was walking towards him with a childish smile on her face. She had two long bangs on both sides of her face. Her green eyes filled with amusement stared at the boys scared eyes. She looked at him with her pink lips covered in a light colored lipstick, a cute smile appeared on her face as she walked up to him smiling. She had a innocent face that most people would call childish, she had a small and button like nose. Her thin and beautiful eyebrows gave her a weird expression that the boys wasn't familiar with. She opened her pink lips and talked with a seductive voice...a voice filled with love.

Girl: l found you...my star.

The boys hand was quickly grabbed and pulled towards the stairs. She looked back and smiled to him before continuing to run while holding the boys hand. Before long they were outside the building. She let go of his hand and took a few steps forward before opening her arms and turning around smiling

Girl: You are like a star on my darkest night...hey you will be my inspiration got it?

She lifted her left and and poked the boys cheek before taking a step back and clasping her hands behind her back.

*huh*

The boy looked at her with his mouth halfway open and with a suprised expression.

Girl: Wow you look really bad...well if you become my inspiration for my next song l might as well heal you and take you on a date what do you say? Look you can't just go on a date with a cute girl like me everyday you know. This is the chance of your life.

*Date?*

Boy looked at her shocked for a while before asking her a question.

Young boy: What is a date?

The girl looked at him with a annoyed face and sighed before talking.

Girl: Is this a rhetorical question? And l don't care you are coming with me...before that...

She lifted her hand and touched the boys face before whispering a incantation.

Girl: may the light that gave birth to life shall restore it too.

A green light covered the entire street as the boys wounds healed up in an instant. The girl put her hand on her waist and smiled filled with pride.

Girl: Really cool right? Not many people can use magic and especially a healing magic this strong....what is it? Why are you looking at me like that did you fall in love or something like that? Well you know what they say some people are bound by the silver string of fate. You look really unique and l love it . You are different than the animals that walk around and so the same things everyday.

She pointed at a man sitting on a wooden bench right outside a dessert shop. He had a cardboard bag on his lap filled with chestnuts covered in chocolate. He was focused at his food....so much that you could say that he was living in his own world.

Girl: You are really silent...well let me tell you why l called him an animal. To be honest slave would have been a better term but whatever as you can see he is eating his breakfast or the thing he calls breakfast. I see him everyday and everyday he is buying the same thing. Then he is going to the adventurer guild to work in his little office handling the bounties of the monster and changing them according to the daily reports and inflation. Aww what a simple guy he is. Then he returns to his place at the slums of this city and takes the trash out every day before cooking himself a simple dish like boiled potatoes or just a simple soup. You know what l mean right? I hate people that are scared to try new things, l hate people that can't even make simple choices in their life....but you are different. No sane person would jump down from 2 floors above. Why are you staying silent l feel like that certain politician from lulush.

Young boy:...You talk so much that l started feeling weird...normally l am the one that takes that role...you are cool you know...

The boy had a weird smile on his face. His body was filled with different feelings that he never felt before.

Young boy: Hey that magic...how do you do it? It looks cool so l was curious...

The girl looked at him with a smug before leaning towards him and whispering to his ear.

Girl: It takes years...but l would gladly teach you everything if we meet again but...it won't be free cutie...

Her lips touched his earlobe as she whispered. She pulled back after finishing her sentence and then started walking away.

*huh where is she going?*

Girl: You can't have a date without eating desserts together....hmmm what about crepe? They it's really popular around here. Have you ever eaten crepe? No? Well you don't look like you are from here where did you come from? Well we can talk once we get a seat. Oh l forgot to tell you what crepe is. It's like a really sweet and soft dough with chocolate and fresh fruits inside it. They have alcohol versions as well where they add a liquor like sauce inside it...well l dont like it why would you add something bitter into something sweet? Ughh l can't understand that weird guys...hey why are you staying silent again? Don't tell me you hate girls that talk to much. I didn't expect you to be one of them

She looked at him with a disappointment face as he looked at her blushing and shaking his head left and right profusely.

Young boy: It's not that...l find you cute...but don't you think you are going a little fas....

The girl grabbed his hands and started pulling him.

Girl: Awwww you are so cute when you blush if you continue like this l might fall for you...

She continued pulling him as she started running towards the crepe stand. After a few minutes they were standing in the middle of a wide street filled with stores and stands. She turned back and smiled to the boys before leaving him alone in the middle of the crowd.

*There she goes...well l might as well find a place to sit*

He wondered in the middle of the crowd until he saw a wooden bench in front of a statue. He sat on it and waited the girl to find her. The crowd was overwhelming especially for him.

Girl: Hey...you found a spot for us huh that's cool and here is your crepe l and them add a lot of chocolate to it since you look like you are starving to death. Hey why are you looking at it like that l am sure you can finish it...l mean you should be able to if you try hard enough.

This wasn't a crepe...no this wasn't even a food this was a mountain of torn apart dead bodies of fruits with their blood of chocolate covering them.

Young boy: Miss have some mercy on me l dont want to dishonore the lives of all that strawberries that sacrificed their life...

His defense wasn't strong enough to protect him as she stuffed the huge crepe in his mouth.

Girl: Wow l didn't expect you to take it all in at the same time...hey why are you getting purple? Hey hey hey don't you die on me idiot!

She shook his whole body as he slowly turned purple but with the help of a miracle he swallowed it at the last second.

Girl: Wahoo here you go did you like it? Oh you didn't have time to savor the taste right? Well too bad maybe you will be lucky next time...

Young boy: You nearly killed me and that is the only thing you are going to say?

The girl looked at him with her classic smile and leaned towards his face.

Girl: You have some on your cheek...

*waaaahh*

The girls tongue touched the boys cheek as she licked the chocolate on his cheek. The sweet feeling turning the boys face completely red.

Girl: What a klutz you are.....you lost all your memories right?

After seeing the boys reaction she continued speaking.

Girl: l used a magic again when l licked the chocolate off...you are really mysterious no wonder you are this colorful in this monochrome world...

Young boy: Huh?

This words reminded him of something

Girl: what should my new songs name be....what about the scout of love? Or the day a star fell down? Maybe it should be greedy child or honey....you are full of possibilities yet none of it is certain...hey what do you think l should name my new song?

Young boy: Well...what about..hmmm...light of hope?

Girl: Light of hope?...no no no this name doesn't suit you at all...oh l found it, it will be called the one hated by gods. Sounds cool and epic right? Of course it sounds epic l named it after all...ohh..

The girls stared at his face with blind eyes for a while.

Girl: l haven't told you my name right? I am sorry l was focused on different things so l completely forgot about it....it's Elaine...my name is Elaine...you don't have to tell me yours l already know you don't even remember it...it's really classic right? Well it's not like l love it...but l don't hate it either.

The boy shook his head.

Young boy: I think it's beautiful...not that l understand much from names...

Elaine took a bite from her crepe. Her eyes wondered around and saw something she never knew she needed until she saw it.

Elaine: Let's take a photo together

Elaine stuffed her crepe in her mouth before taking the boys hand.

Elaine: Let's go come on

*what is the photo she is talking about*

Elaine took him in front of a young boy that was holding a small metal box with a crystal on top of it in his hand. She handed the boys some coins before looking back at the boy.

Elaine: Let's take a cute pose come here...don't be shy grab my waist..yeah just like that now bring that lips of yours here...

*huh lips?*

She pulled the boy from his neck and right at that moment...

Elaine: Hey...how does it feel to kiss someone...don't look at me suprised like that a human should their life to the fullest without worrying about anything...now tell me how does it feel?

*hot*

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Young boy:...l feel like l am about to melt...

Elaine looked at him with a smug for a while before whispering to him.

Elaine: Don't forget this feeling...this melting feeling.

The action itself was a meaningless act but the person that did it changed everything about it. Once their lips departed with each other his body was shaking in a weird feeling. A feeling he hasn't felt before.

Elaine quickly rushed to the boys as a weird piece of paper came out of the metal box.

Elaine: Aww you look really cute..look at this shocked face of yours...ohh

Her eyes locked into something other than the boys face for the first time.

Elaine: l need to leave...but don't worry l will come back just wait here for a while.

She rushed into the crowd while holding the thing she called photo in her hand.

*Leave?*

The boy ran after her, following her inside the crowd but after a while he got lost himself.

*where is she? Where is she!....here she is*

He saw Elaine walking into a small alleyway and ran after her.

*A little girl?*

It was a dead end and at the end of the alleyway a little girl was sitting on her knees crying. He wasn't able to see the little girls face because the houses were cutting of the light but she was surely crying.

Young boy:...Hey little girl...have you seen a cute redhead?....are you ok?

The little girl looked at her with her bloodshot eyes before saying a small sentence.

Little girl: You took my kidney...

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The boy took a step back in shock but he was too late. The girl was just a step away from him and all of a sudden a huge hole appeared on his lower abdomen as the little girl stood there holding a kidney

Young boy: aaaa...a...aaaaararhhhhhaaaa!!

The boy fell on his knees before someone whispered to his ear from behind.

?:You took my liver...

Another hole appeared as he fell to his right shouting profusely as the guy that whispered behind him showed the boy his liver he just ripped out. The boy crawled away and took his sword out while on the ground but he saw something he shouldn't have seen, a familiar figure no something was different about her.

Elaine?: Did you forget our promise? I did my part and showed you everything you asked for...you told me you loved me...you would become my everything if l asked for it.

Elaine? took a few steps forward and lifted the boys chin just to look into his eyes. Her eyes were filled with obsession as she stood there towering over the near dead boy as he lay on the ground his rotting organs falling out.

Elaine?: You said you would be my star...you promised me you would be there for me until everything ends...you said you would only think about me, talk to me, love me, hate me...you said l would be your everything like how you were my everything...

The man that ripped the boys liver gave Elaine? A purple flower. She held the flower and examined it before sniffing it.

Elaine?: Don't you remember our flower...the flower that saved us and the stars...the flower that showed us the beauty behind humanity...

She threw the flower on the boys body before leaning down licking his lower lip before sucking it. Blood gushed out of the boys mouth. She savored the taste of his blood and licked her own lips before letting go of him.

Elaine?: Think of this as a warning...l will collect you the next time we meet...you will never leave me again...

Elaine's body changed all of a sudden and a muscular figure stood before him...it was the madman. He turned to the boy and smiled with his brown eyes filled with madness.

Young boy:...l will kill you..

The boys body was launched forward in an instant and before anyone can even react the man that ripped his liver was decapitated. The boy...no what was left of the boy stood there. He wasn't a human at this point. His body was living on the instincts and before long he dashed again. His feet dug into the ground breaking the stone ground and pushed his body towards the little girl before kicking her head. The blood covered the whole alleyway as her head exploded. The boy looked at the madman and before he could even move He was thrown back by some kind of shockwave.

Young boy:...huh...wh...uhh.......

His torso had a huge hole in the middle of it and before the boy could even get up everything became cold and then it all became dark.

?: It looks like you can't go on any longer...let me take control of it...we can't die here right partner?

He was getting swallowed by a thick dark shadow when he saw a face he has never seen. A young boy was looking at him. His long grey hair was covering his cute face but something was visible...his eyes filled with emotions. He was happy...no he was sad. His expression was one that he couldn't read, it was one he hasn't felt until this moment of his life. The obsession in his eyes was something nothing could clean or excuse it was pure madness. He wanted to say something but nothing came out of his mouth as he got swallowed by the darkness.

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The corpse of the boy stood up from the ground and launched the the madman in a animalistic way. His fingers dug into the ground as he moved forward but before he can reach the madman he instantly turned into Elaine. Elaine? Was standing there in her beautiful dress and before he could rip her respiratory track she whispered something without even looking at him. She talked in a language that never existed. Weird words formed in the sky. The white shiny words shined upon the corpse going full speed towards it's end.

Elaine?:...l warned you.

It was just a sparkle..... The boys skin melted as the small sparkle touched him. His insides melted as his whole body caught fire. There was nothing left of him as he fell to the ground as a piece of charcoal shaped like a human.