So! Tomorrow is the day. The second and final Spark Test. Why am I nervous?

There is absolutely no chance of them finding anything. But what if they do? They won't!!

I don't understand where this is coming from. I have never wanted powers/abilities or whatever it is the Enhanced have that we don't. If they do find anything, depending on the power level, my life would change and not necessarily for the better. If they find a Spark of a high enough power level, they disappear you. No one knows what happens to those people. I guess they are taken somewhere to develop their powers. Its almost worse if they find a weaker power that can't be "Superhero-ed". They add you to the Enhanced registry regardless. So you become subject to all the rules the Enhanced have to follow with none of the benefits.

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Anyway, I have no reason to think they will find anything. There is zero history of Enhanced in my family. Dad is a pretty normal dude and mom...well, when I could get Dad to talk about her, he made no mention of powers.

"So, your mom left when you were a small child?" - I could almost see Therapist Julie's eyes light up when she asked that. That must be it, right!!?? I'm a shitty little asshole because of my mommy issues. I was two at the oldest. I don't remember her at all. I don't even remember her face. Her leaving is the only reason Dad and I aren't at each other's throats. I fuck up a lot. It's why I'm writing this bullshit. He hates that I fuck up a lot. But I think he tries to cut me a break because of our situation. And, every now and then, I catch glimpses of how much it hurt him when she left. So we have developed a weird kind of equilibrium. I have his back and he has mine....even when I steal old timey cars and crash them.

Right! I am going to get some sleep. Maybe I will charge up my...Enhancedment-ness and be surprised tomorrow.

Night, Journal.