"It is time for us to say goodbye."
I'm watching a living nightmare unfold. Each person says goodbye, each person places a kiss on her forehead and a gentle whisper in her ear.
How can they so easily give up, why are they not letting her body heal. Give her that more time she needs in order to return to us, to me.
I am very aware that I am being instrusive on this private heartbreaking family moment. Alora and Ezra were present, the only person missing was Jace.
I can't seem to make myself leave, yet I can't say goodbye to her, not like they can. I don't even know where to begin.
We weren't official, we were in secret....how can I break her privacy now...of all moments to share our secret affair. I couldn't do that to her, I couldn't take that from her. She would want to share it, and now she can't. It will be as if we never were.
I'll go back to the training headquarters and start on the next program. I'll make it look as if I'm coping, that I have moved on. But inside I'll be dying, I'll be broken for the rest of my life. I'll remain in this room for ever more.
She was helping me heal, I can see it now...she was saving me. She didn't even know. I hadn't shared anything of my past with her.
I don't notice Ezra walk over to me until he is by my side, his voice whispering into my ear.
"Knox...maybe we should give them some privacy." His hand lands upon the tip of my shoulder, my eyes breaking away from my sleeping Josie for the first time in hours.
I should leave...but I can't seem to make my feet move. I have lost all connection between my brain and body.
This is what grief does, I can already feel myself slipping back into that dark void I spent my teenage years in.
Dark memories crash into my mind both myself and my wolf no longer able to confine them into the dark recesses of my brain. Painful memories of my past flood in, swirling with this live memory as I start to sink under the pressure of it all. "There has to be another way." Jaxon growls out, turning to the doctor just as Doctor Abel walks into the room.
His slow movement watched by all as his eyebrows furrow at the sight of us.
"What is going on?"
"Doctor Abel, the alphas have decided to turn off life support."
"No, you can't be serious."
"Doctor Abel, I will remind you that you are here to act in the best interest of the patient and the family..."
"She just needs a little time, Alpha Kaia..." For once I agree with him.
"No Abel, she has already returned to the moon. We need to prepare her body to let the pack mourn. Go ahead doctor." She nods to the other doctor, who moves closer to the machines. My stomach sinks even more as he starts to press a few buttons. Jaxon moves to the side, redialing his phone one last time...his eyes look at mine...complete desperation within them.
This was his triplet, this was his sister. They had all been together from the very moment they just started to exist as small dots...now he was going to have to live the rest of his life without her.novelbin
I was going to have to live the rest of my life without her.
"Jace, get here now! You're a selfish prick, do you know that? I can't believe you aren't here..." Jaxon roars down the phone, breaking the respectful silence that had fallen upon the room.
The doctor moves to Josie's head, his hands preparing to remove the breathing tube in her mouth. I can't believe this is it...I can't believe this is happening.
Bang.
We all turn to look behind us as the door is flung open.
"No wait." Jace commands out.