"I wasn't expecting us to go public, I thought you wanted things to be in secret, just like me."novelbin

stealing kisses when others aren't looking..."

"I did, I do. Last night when you walked in you found me having just caught Ezra and Auntie Alora kissing. I thought it was a one time thing but they've been together for years, in secret. I can't, I don't want to be like that, I don't want to spend years in the dark corners, "Red, you're not making any sense." His fingers card through his dark luscious locks, his dreamy eyes holding a level of confusion within them.

"I know I said it would be just sex but.......I want more."

"More?" His voice can hardly hide his surprise. Maybe I should have given him a heads up rather than throw this on him right now. But why wait. "You said yourself last night, I was yours."

"When did I say that?" A small frown forms onto his face.

"Mine...you said, you are mine. Last night when we were together in my room." My voice is becoming slightly shaky, slightly hesteric.

"I got lost in the moment...lost in my desire.." A powerful tightness sweeps across my chest.

"Desire.."

"Fuck, did you see yourself last night Red. I mean every day you are drop dead gorgeous, but last night you were something else...and when others.." "Others?" Words and thoughts are not free flowing at the moment, all I can do is repeat his. I can't believe this, how could I have been so stupid.

"The alphas and betas were eyeing you up. My wolf snapped, he got jealous."

"Your wolf got jealous, that's good... it means he also wants me." I cling onto this new hope, if his wolf wants me then Knox would surely struggle to deny him.

"Of course he wants you, but I can't give you long term, I can't give you marriage and babies...I did say this to you at the beginning, you said you were okay with that, that you just wanted sex."

Yes I remember, I agreed because at the time I wanted him in anyway I could have him.

But speaking to my auntie has been a wake up call, what if he is fooling around with me for years and finds his mate or even worse just decides he doesn't want me anymore. I think I would find that more painful out of the two scenarios.

All those years, those memories...the waiting would have been for nothing.

"Well know I want more." I look up at him, holding his eyes with fierce determination.

"Fuck Red, you can't just thrust this on me. I need time to think about this..."

"To think about what?"

"This...us..."

I take a step back away from him, his words whether intentional or not, feel like a large knife stabbing itself into my heart. If he has to think about this, if being with me openly needs contemplation, then I already know his answer even before he does. "I think...if you need to think about it, then you already know your answer." Truth was a hard pill to swallow sometimes.

"I can't have someone in my life, not how you want it. There's too much at stake..." He takes a step towards me but my hand flings out, protecting me from him...my hand landing on his solid chest. Would being with me really make a difference with his status as the alpha trainer...would people really think less of him for dating an alpha's daughter. I'm not asking for marriage or babies...just to be out in the open. To no longer lie to my family about what we are.

"Red?" That husky masculine voice calls out to me.

"You should just go..."

"What I'm trying to say, you aren't hearing it the way I'm intending it. I have risks...risks in my line of work that would mean you would be put at risk and without a wolf..."

"What? How do you know I don't have a wolf?"

"Your father told me...that's what I'm trying to say, I wouldn't be able to keep you safe." His hand reaches out to swoop me in closer to him, I'm completely gobsmacked that he knew I didn't have a wolf that my body is void of fight, void of movement. It's like my brain is ticking but my muscles are unable to follow its command.