Life is always about uncertainties, but I never thought I will be a despised character in a trashy novel.

Life as an assassin was hard, painful and lonely.

Killing, seeing blood, poisoning and all other crimes I committed made me feel numb to emotions of love.

Now I am a daughter who is dotted by her father, a noble woman who is rich, someone with a high society status, but an unfortunate unrequited love life.

Well, does love life even matter to me? If I don't fall in love with the male lead i can lead a happy life.

Prince Albert Walter, I should avoid him,then I don't think I will suffer like in the original.

God does hate me, or at least I think he like to play mind games with me. Being a rich noble is not that bad though. I can play around all I want. Date multiple men and enjoy my luxurious life. As death queen I never got time to give myself. I would spend this second chance in life I got by loving myself and spending more time doing what I want to.

Thinking about a carefree life ahead of me I unknowingly laughed.

"Heehee heeheee, hooo, it sure would be nice to sleep, eat and play."

"Daughter, my baby", "what are you thinking, you are looking creepy. Is there something worrying you my baby?"

- Father looked worried seeing my smile. I cannot blame him for worrying. I knew that Helen, who was a noble, would always try to hide her emotions, it must be first time for him to see his daughter smiling like me.

I had already decided to live for myself, so I won't be bothered by what Helen would have done. Now it is my life, and I will live it to the fullest.

I never knew what was laying ahead of me at that time. Only if I knew, I would have never thought about living a carefree life.

"Nothing father. I am not worried about anything. I know you will always be here to keep me safe." I spoke smiling. I did not want to see this man, who was the first person to be sweet towards me, worrying.

"Booohooo .....Booohoooo ....my baby is calling me father instead of DADDY"

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"BABY, do you hate this DADDY now?" Duke was more concerned about me not calling him 'dad' instead of anything else.

"What?????" I was bewildered by the old, big man crying because of such an issue.

"Daddy, daddy, is that okay now?" I called him daddy in a hurry.

He smiled and told -"yes my baby I am here for you"

"Haa" I sighed, it was embarrassing to call my father daddy. In modern times, daddy was already something lovers call each other. It was also my first time to have a father who cares for me.

"I'm actually tired, can I fresh up now?" I asked, so that I could get time to gather my thoughts.

"Oh yes yes. I'll meet you later, I have a meeting at he palace, I'll make sure the Crown Prince treats you well this time "Duke told with a serious expression and turned towards the door.

"Crown prince? treat me well ? Daddy what do you mean? "I asked. I knew that Helen and crown prince did not have a good relation, but what was it that the duke had to interfere directly?

"Don't worry my baby; I'll make sure he will never act again that rudely" saying that the duke rushed outside.

"Waaiittt" I shouted, but the Duke had already left.

The young girl wearing a maid uniform was staring at me. She looked both nervous and worried.

I asked her -" who are you? I think I lost some of my memories."

"Young Miss I am Jannat. Your exclusive maid "she said, her voice was humble and soft.

"Hmm, I see." I nodded

"Don't let anyone know I lost my memories.

Only my Father and you should know.

Also help me out when others approach me, whisper to me who they are."

"Yes Miss" Jannat answered

Jannat helped me to fresh up and change my dress with help of other maids who came into the room later.

"Young Miss, which dress do you want to wear today?"

She showed me many dresses which were shiny and extravagant with many laces attached to it.

There were orange, pink, yellow, purple, dark green and many more dresses lined up. There were no modest dresses that looked elegant.

"Do you not have something that shines less?"I asked

"Miss we do, but ....

But... "She stuttered

"Tell me clearly what you want to say. I don't like slow people "I asked glaring at her. She was irritating with her unusual nerves nous. I kind of understood whys he was scared of Helen, who is supposed to be a villain who dies at the hand of crown prince's guard.

"But we burned all those plain dresses as you didn't want them in your closet" Jannat hesitantly told.

"Huhh!!! Did I have such a bad taste? In men and in dress "I muttered. I knew the real Helen must have tried to attract the crown prince attention with dresses that was attractive. Her tactics to attract and seduce Albert, crown prince was all for vain at last.

"Bring me the plainest dress that you have now"

"Yes young miss "Jannat walked towards the closet to search for it.

Soon she brought out a dark blue

The dress had just one white jewel on its belt.

The dress matched with the aloof and cold aura Helen was giving off.

Jannat combed and tied Helen's hair.

She looked very pretty and elegant

Standing in front of the mirror Helen mumbled "ahh I need to work out and train, this body is too weak."

"I also have to write down all the things I remember about the novel, before I forget and miss out on the details and events"