I often find myself alone

No one calls me on the phone

Which give me lots of time to hone

The many skills, I'd like to one day own.

Yet still I still find myself longing, filled with wist

Unlike my friends who are oblivious

To the pains I've known, the people I miss

As I trudge onward, seeking final bliss.

I once knew love, rather late in my years

As if from thin air, she did appear

And like a knight, I caught her tears

In an instant our connection was revered.

Deeper than light, forceful as a wave

With her I had neither want nor crave

that went unanswered. She was a Goddess, I a slave

we swore to hold our love beyond the grave

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Yet the grave came for her too soon.

My isolation returned to fester, with her my life was better

All my days were bleak, and so mine cheek, became the wetter.

I longed once more for a life with her.

My days became sallow, after her I would follow

A fool's hope I had bought and so a fool's plan I wrought.

For that life, I too would depart this earth.

Family blade cleaned of rust, through mine own heart I thrust

My body broke swiftly to dust, yet my soul held firmly to its must.

I would save elle, she was worth Hell.

Warily, Devils gave me aid upon the promise of a blade.

Towards a path I was steered, by my hand it was cleared

of danger, through a cone of Hell I was a ranger.

Bloodied yet unslain, my wrath I did unchain.

To reach my damned lover, I was headless to all other.

I reached her there, in a cavern of waxing blue.

I saw her as if bathed in the light of the moon.

I dropped my blade and left my path of ruin.

I'd been in Hell for years, our joining was none too soon.

She wept when she saw me, she'd railed against death

It was for my soul, she had gave her own breath.

But the deal had been made, its price reaped in spade

By my own hand I was taken, so her pact was now forsaken

In the name of blind love. My strength was not enough.

We held each other for a time that seemed endless

Without the other our hearts would be defenseless.

Yet death was far too cruel, the one law no man could rule.

Of us both she thought I an ace, to wind up in a better place

For my sake she would be dragged down, so that I could be star-bound.

"Did you really come down here hoping to save me?"

"In truth, yes. Though I knew that it could not be.

In life it was You who saved Me. It's the least I could do

After all, my true Hell is a life lived without you."

We embraced one last time, knowing hell together would be fine.

Yet I awoke alone in my bed, knowing full well I was dead.

A quick glance to my phone, proves once more I'm alone

And you are gone below while at life I blindly throw

Myself. Come snow or rain, through it all I endure this pain

For the sake of you, anything less impossible for me to do.

Once death takes me back once more, I'll find the smiling face that I adore

Lit by the blue lights of familiar Hell, we'll spend eternity together well.

I'll finally get another chance to kiss you, because I'll be damned if I don't miss you.