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So, now you know my secret. I bet you're shocked. Maybe you're asking yourself, how you couldn't see it, how I was able to hide myself from you, when we were so close to each other. Please understand, I didn't do it to take advantage of your good nature! I was really trying my best to only see you as a friend. Because you are my best friend! And I never wanted to lose that.

As I walked back home that night, I stopped on the bridge and stood there for hours, just looking down at the flood, watching my tears drop into the water. I wanted to jump. I felt like there was no hope left for me, that I would never be normal, and never be happy. And if I was going to hell anyway, what difference would it make if I took my own life too? But I couldn't do it. I didn't want to cause you pain, because I was sure you'd mourn me. And I didn't want to leave you behind.

So I thought, maybe that's just the burden I must carry. To stay by your side, without getting closer. Make sure you were okay, help you up when you fell. The way I had promised your mother. She asked me to watch over you, make sure you didn't get yourself killed by your stubbornness. And I complied, gladly! I wanted nothing more than to be there for you, protect you, provide for you, make sure you were safe, and warm, and fed, and healthy. I'm sorry. I bet you think this sounds demeaning, like I wanted you to be my puppy. Or my wife.

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When in fact I would give anything for you to be my husband! I really mean it, Steve, if you wanted me, and there was a way to turn me into a woman, I'd do it on the spot and ask you to marry me! I would do anything for you, Stevie, anything! I would die for you. I would kill for you. And now, I might be doing both. For you. I didn't want to leave you to fight this war. But I'm doing it to protect you. To make sure these fucking Nazis can't take over our land and just kill people like you, because their twisted ideology says you're inferior to them. Just because you can't be a soldier.

When you're more of a fighter than any of them ever could be! Every day that you get up and do your best, is a battle you faced and faught with courage, and I admire that! I know you hate talking about your disabilities, but you shouldn't have to be ashamed for things you neither asked for nor deserved, and if anything I think you're more of a man for living your life so determined and independent, Steve! Oh, I wish I could tell you, I wish you could understand me when I say that I think you're wonderful, beautiful, just amazing!

I wish those Brooklyn girls could see you with my eyes, and tell you what you deserve to hear so badly: That even having you as a friend is a blessing, and whoever gets to call you their partner one day will be the happiest person on Earth! Because you're kind, and clever, and brave, and funny, and creative, and talented, and resourceful, and just a miracle!

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