What's going on... I can't see anything! I can't hear anything! WHERE THE FUCK AM I?!!! I try screaming but it seems like there is no sound coming from me. I try over and over, but I can't seem to talk.
There is nothing but blackness all around me. I can't feel. I can't see. I can't hear. I can't move. I don't even know if I'm actually in a tangible place. But I can think! I can hear myself thinking! If I can think, then I must be alive. SO, WHAT IS THIS!!!
Suddenly I hear something faint. It sounds like... like crying, but it's far away. Is... is that a baby? I seem to be hearing the muffled far away cry of a baby. Where the fuck... how is there a baby here in all this darkness. What is going on here?!
Suddenly, I see a light. It's faint but it is definitely there, and it seems like it's getting bigger. It's stretching horizontally, like the sunrise breaking over the horizon. It's almost as though I'm opening my eyes. Wait, I'm opening my eyes!! I can see, but I t's blurry. I mean it is extremely blurry. I can't see much, just fuzzy images. Something is moving in front of me, but I can't see what or who it is. Is there something covering my eyes preventing me from seeing?!
The crying I'm hearing is getting louder and closer too. It's getting rather annoying. If I'm hurt or in a coma or something and I'm in the hospital, why would someone bring a baby into my room?! I try to say something.
"HELLO?! WHO IS THERE!" I practically scream.
I didn't hear my voice. It's the same as when I was yelling before. Can I not talk? That crying is getting louder and louder! How annoying!
"HELLO?!"
The crying gets even louder. Wait... is... is that crying coming from... from ME?! I can hear the crying in my head. IT IS ME!!! Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck!! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!!
I hear the blurry shape in front of me speak. It's a woman... What did she say? I couldn't understand it. She speaks again and I have no clue what she is saying. I'm literally thinking in English, so I can still understand English, but what the fuck is THIS language?! It doesn't sound like any language I've heard before... at least, none spoken on Earth... No... This can't be happening! NO... NONONONONO I can't be! Did I seriously get reborn on another planet?!
It's been several weeks now. My vision has improved a little. I can only see about a foot away from my face though. Over these past weeks, I have confirmed that I am in fact a baby. I don't know how, I don't know why, but I'm a god damn baby! I have read stories and watched anime that had to do with being reincarnated, but this is NOT FUN! It most certainly is not cool either! Do you have any idea what it is like to have full consciousness, the full consciousness of a 17-year-old, and you STILL can't do a damn thing?! I can't talk, I can't move on my own, it is like being a prisoner in your own body! I wouldn't ever wish this crap on anyone. It's like being imprisoned inside a small baby size prison! 0/10 I do not recommend! Oh, and that's not the only fucked piece of news!
Get this; I happened to look down when my mother was bathing me the other day... I didn't see anything... Do you get me?! I DIDN'T SEE IT!! I'm missing a particular piece of my anatomy, and a rather important piece I had especially grown fond of since hitting puberty! Yeah... it's fucking gone! I cannot believe this! I'm a girl... I was a pubescent hormone surging teenage male, who was terrified to even talk to a girl, and now I FUCKING AM ONE!!
How the hell am I going to interact with myself?! I mean, I'm so fucking confused. There is no way I'm going to have the guts to look at myself naked! I mean if I got reborn without any memories of my previous life, that's one thing. This wouldn't be an issue. But seeing as how I remember everything, I'm literally a teenage boy trapped in a girl's body! What the hell do I do with this?! This is the kind of thing that can really fuck someone up in the head! I'm only a few weeks old and I'm already losing my shit!
Oh, you think that's my only issue?! You think that's the only mind fuck I'm dealing with at the moment?! Ok, so get this, every couple of hours guess what I have to do?! I get hungry as hell! So, I have to eat. Now, just a what do you think babies eat?! Milk... yeah... Now where exactly does this milk come from? Are you starting to see where I'm going with this?! It is BREAST MILK!!! I suck on a nipple every couple of hours!! Do you have any idea what it's like to have the mind of a pubescent teenager and have to do that?!!! I know it's natural and I would die without it, but JESUS CHRIST!! I have fucking PTSD (Post TIT Stress Disorder) by the age of 4 WEEKS!!! I'm on the fast track to becoming one absolutely fucked up kid, and my apparently new parents have no god damn clue!
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But here is the vexing thing, the thing that's really bothering me. I remember EVERYTHING about my past life. How is it possible that I remember everything? I shouldn't know anything! Being a baby, my brain isn't even fully developed at this age! How do I still have all my knowledge from my past life?! All my knowledge, everything I learned in school and on my own... I was a teenage boy who had unfettered access to the entire internet. I have all of what I have seen, heard, and learned... ALL OF IT!! Granted, most of it is completely useless information and cat memes, but I can do absolutely nothing with the useful information that I have. I'm a lump of flesh, incapable of practically any independent function. I even suffer the humiliation of pissing and shitting on myself! I swear I have the highest stress level of any baby in history! This is in fact, some epic-level bullshit!
Several months have passed since I was born... again, so, I'm several months old now, obviously, and I've learned a few things. My mother is strikingly beautiful. She is young, perhaps early 20s in age, maybe younger. She has deep blue eyes and sandy blonde hair. She is above average in height, probably around 6 feet tall and has a slim build with gentle curves where it matters. Overall, she has the appearance of your average sandy blond Caucasian female. It appears we ARE human. Not sure how that can possibly be if this is a different world. Yes, this IS a different world. I'll get back to that one in a second. For some reason I have yet to see my father. I don't know where he is, or if he is even alive or in the picture. My mother could be a single mother for all I know.
It seems I was born sometime mid-winter, as it seems to now be early to mid-spring. My mother opens the windows in the morning and the temperature is similar to that of late march. The air is still cool, but not cold enough that you would need to bundle up. The temperature is probably around low to mid 70s Fahrenheit throughout the day. Wherever we live, it's extremely pleasant.
My home is decent in size, however it's not modern by any sense of the term. Well, modern in the sense of what I'm used to in 2023 Los Angeles. It doesn't seem like electricity is in use in whatever time I live in here, as we have candles and oil lamps to provide light during the night. This isn't exactly an upper middle class Woodland Hills home complete with WiFi, heating and air conditioning and a refrigerator/freezer full of soda and Hot Pockets. If I had to guess, this time I was born in seems more like somewhere in the 18th or 19th century in terms of housing construction and technology. We don't have a kitchen per se; more like a hearth where the house is heated, and cooking is carried out. The walls are wood paneled, and the house is framed with whole logs. The floor is a nice hardwood, smooth and have some sort of lacquer or varnish on them. We have no modern appliances or any technology I would recognize, as electricity doesn't seem to have been "discovered" as it were.
My mother frequently takes me outside in a basket whenever she needs to go outside for her chores. I frequently watch her hang laundry out on a line or tend to the garden. Wherever I am, it's really green. I mean REALLY green. The grass is a vibrant green and in areas outside of the yard, it can get quite tall, around 3 feet high. The trees are full of large deep green leaves, and they appear significantly larger than trees back home. Well, my old home that is. The trees beyond our back yard look like a cross between an African Baobab tree and a Ginkgo tree, but they are as tall as the largest Sequoias in Northern California. They also appear to have fruit growing that look like large apples. To give you an idea of the size of these trees, I see my mother clearing out fallen leaves from the garden, and each leaf is the size of the lid of a full-size trash can. They are absolutely HUGE! These trees would make for some amazing tree houses, if such a thing exists on this world. Tree houses were something from my dad's generation. he wanted to build one in our back yard, but I wasn't interested. I only wanted to play video games or watch videos on my tablet. That was an early cause of the strife between us.
The animals here are different as well. I saw what I believe to be a rabbit, though I'm not quite sure. It was about as large as a medium size dog, and it had a spiral shaped horn protruding from its head. Its fur looked like something you would see on a cheetah. If I was still on earth, we would consider this a creature straight from the annals of cryptozoology. This is something not quite real, but rather a myth. Something some redneck down south would have created in his back yard shed to gain a bit of fame as having captured a mythological creature. It scared the crap out of me, because this thing is real. This bunnycheetahunicorn thing is most definitely real, and there are a LOT of them running around. They seem friendly and my mother doesn't pay them any mind except to try and keep them out of the garden. They even hop up to me every now and then to see what's in the basket. It's rather terrifying. I read a book when I was younger about vampire rabbits, and every time one of these massive fuckers sticks its head into my basket with its beady red eyes, I think it's going to eat me! Just suck the blood right from my baby body.
The most striking thing though, even more striking than the prehistoric trees and fairy tale animals, is the sky. It's not a pale blue color like I'm used to, but rather a deep blueish purple. It also appears to have a slight shimmer to it, but maybe I'm just seeing things as my young eyes are still getting used to seeing, but it's absolutely beautiful. Perhaps that's what earth's sky would look like free of the smog and haze of the big city? I have no clue as that's all I have ever known. Somehow, I doubt it as so far there is nothing that I have seen that is remotely comparable to the world I know.
All I know is for now, this is definitely not Earth. My question is, is this really it? Is this really my existence now? Will I ever get to go back?