Darkness. All I could see was darkness.

"I guess that´s it then. Death. And what a pathetic one at that." I sighed 

*Flash back 

I was out partying with my buddies, one of which I had a massive crush on, however I had no Illusions that he could accept my love for he was a homophobic asshole.

Now you might be wondering why I would love someone like him.

The answer is he was Incredible hot and had a nice character, if you were not gay that is.

-Curse my luck. Right?I find the perfect guy and fall in love with him yet I cannot tell him I'm in love with him if I dont want to end up beaten by him.Really just my luck-

Anyway we were at that party on the roof of the skyscraper - you see were this is going?- We were all drunk and I in my drunken stupidity told him about my feelings for him.

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And of course he flipped out and started cursing at me, questioning my every interaction with him.

Honestly I was breaking down he was one of the pillars of my life and now that pillar and the support it provided was breaking down and threatening to crush me beneath its weight.

It was devastating.

I was desperatly trying to convince him to just let it go, to just forget, that I would never mention it again and that we could just continue to be friends, like we always have been.

But nooooo! That asshole just started to hit me and then he pushed me - we were standing right at the goddamnd edge of the fucking roof - and he fucking pushed me!

With a look of betrayal on my face I looked at him and what I saw terrified me he had a cold look on his face the look of a murderer watching his prey die.

I knew he was a cruel person -I knew that-Yet I didn´t think he would be a cold blooded murderer.

I could see by the look on his face that he still believed he did nothing wrong.

And of course my death just had to be somthing stupid again: beneath the side of the sky scraper I was pushed down was a construction site with a lot of metal bars pointing into the sky and I just so happened to be impaled by one

- through my god damn ass- I just couldn´t die a normal or somewhat dignified death. Nooooooo! it just had to be a metal spike through the asshole.

God dammit I really hated my life at least the spike also went through my brain so that I didn´t suffer too much pain and humiliation.