" I am living in this Abyss for a decade, I have achieved many things in my life but it's of no use. The taste I tasted about 10 years ago on my first day of school I will never be able to forget it. That wasn't the taste of food that struck me on that day, it was the warmth and care contained within it. It wasn't the feeling of something else but love that I felt for you. I was too young to understand my own feelings, I was too naive to neglect them even after these many years, I am still living that one year with you all, till now rather than the decade of my own.

Currently, I am successful, I have my loving family again, I am no more that introverted guy but rather I have changed, I have become cold and fickle faced. I am something else to the world, friends and even my family but to true me I loner than ever. I have met several people till now, several friends till now, I now also join all my family function and unites with them but I have never found someone who can understand me, the pain I am going through. I am a coward, I can never accumulate the courage to meet you again because I feel that I was only a chapter in your life that's long forgotten by.

But I'll still hope to meet you again after all these years. I hope for you to meet or at least remember me. Even my best friend Ian hasn't contacted me. I am always browsing through the realms of the internet to find any of your traces, but it's all in vain."

While I was still in my deep thought, someone knocked on my door.

"Sir Alex, Madam is calling you for dinner on the table." said the butler.

I got off my chair and glanced through my window for the one last time for this long night, wiped my tears and rinsed my face with the water in the bottle. I have never shown them (tears) to anyone after the promise I made to myself 4 years ago. I opened the door, went downstairs for dinner.

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I sat on my usual chair for eating and started wolfing down the food. I was as enthusiastic as ever in front of everyone.

While I was eating my dad asked,

" Alex, how're your studies going? I know you want to set up your own business bigger than mine but you can't neglect your studies."

I nodded my head and told him with my mouth stuffed with food, "umm… it's going quite well, if everything will stay like this then I'll be able to go to university in the capital and then I can also apply for business leave there and can manage my company well here."

My dad nodded in understanding and said with care, "I know you're quite busy, but you'll have to take care of your health, you also know how weak your body is!"

I just nodded my head and continued my wolfing, but I was feeling quite warm. My Dad, Andrew Jacobs, a well-known financier in this city and even in the capital, is like a stone statue from outside but quite soft in his heart, he can be compared to coconut. While I was sick in all these years he always protected me and was quite considerate of me, though he is not able to show his love directly, he always cares about me.

Suddenly my mom came to the dining room and told me "Your friend Zack will arrive tomorrow, he was outside the city for these months for studying but since college entrance exams are arriving he'll be here in the city. He will come to meet you tomorrow."

After listening to this news I am quite happy as Zack is the friend that helps me with everything, even though he was outside the city he never stopped contacting me.

After I have lost you, these few friends and my hobbies are the only things that are keeping me busy and lively. I have already lost hope in love after the incident of 4 years ago but these guys will keep me alive and lively for the next few decades before I face my fate. I have pledged that I'll never let them down.

I finished my dinner then I went back to my room, I pulled my curtains to stop myself from viewing outside, I opened my laptop, sat on my chair started to work till it was 3 in the morning.

The alarm clock rang, this was my reminder to sleep, I usually sleep at this time in the morning as it's cooler and am quite exhausted by this time, so I'll dream of you, at least I can see you while I am not conscious.