'How could I be so stupid?' I thought to myself. It's been a few days since I last saw Tom. I don't want to see his face ever again. Just thinking about him makes me want to throw up. How could I give myself to him like that? Why did I not listen to Billy? He only wanted what's best for me. He's known Tom for years while I barely knew him for a few weeks. That narcissistic shit thought that he even had the right to tell me not to be around Billy. He called him a 'bad influence' when the only shit influence I had in my life was Tom to begin with.

I have no idea if Billy will ever be able to forgive me either. I should have taken his advice. Did I lose him as a friend? Did I really lose the only true friend I've ever had in my entire life? How could I be so stupid? What did I do to deserve this anyway? Why are people so shitty? I could spend hours, days, months, or even years pondering about the last question, but no matter, as right now, the only thing I wanted to do was cry. Cry like there's no tomorrow. Cry whatever feelings towards Tom I have or had out of my mind, body, and soul. He was not worth the pain I'm in right now.

I was in the same park in which the friendship between me and Billy sparked, but the thing is I was the one crying this time, not him. Perhaps not because of something as bad as Billy went through, but it still sucked. It sucks. It really does. It sucks the same way Tom was sucking on that boy's tongue there. I chuckled to that sentence. Why do people always betray me anyway?

My heart dropped to my knees when I felt a hand touch my shoulder. I thought I was done for. It had got to be a serial killer. My breathing got heavier, but I also thought that it might be Tom. It might be Tom so that he can apologize for what he's done to me and tell me that we can go back to normal, pretending that this never happened. I turned around, and with eyes widened, I was met with Billy's sympathetic ones. There was sadness and comfort in them. I was disappointed that it wasn't Tom, but at the same time, I was really glad that at least I didn't lose another person that I love.

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Love. Huh. Strange word if you ask me. What does love even mean? Fuck my life.My eyes went back to 'normal' as the fear in me dispersed. Billy sat next to me, and it didn't take me long for me to lay my head on his chest as he hugged me and bailed my eyes on.I was so pathetic. It was really embarrassing to cry in front of him, on him, for something so stupid and for a dumbass like Tom, but I really needed to get it done if I wanted to be over this as soon as possible.

Author's note: Attention to the few Kappa Kappa S*uts reading this (this is a joke a.k.a. reference from Scream Queens plz do NOT take that seriously, anyway), as you may know from my Twitter, if you follow me, that as you should, duh, I did not have a laptop for quite a few days (20 to be exact), so I could not write (or technically I could on my phone but nah, that's too much painful work), and yeah, I didn't have a scheduled release for 21st and 22nd of this month, October 2023, and that is why there were no new chapters. Anyway, I have to write one more today, and I will post it today as well, as to fill out the ones that I missed for the two days. I hope you like it! <3