"You had us wrapped around your finger, and you never had sex with us?" Megan's incredulous look was priceless.

My sigh was epic. This was the fifth time she had brought it up in the last twenty minutes. I was glad everyone else had gone to bed.

Okay, I'll try again. She'd just keep asking until she got whatever she wanted out of this.

"One, the finger wrapping was more the other way around, and two, I was waiting for something I couldn't properly define. We had plenty of fun, though. I wasn't in a rush." I scratched my head, they couldn't seem to understand why I never banged them. To be fair, I didn't really understand either. It just never felt quite right.

"Why didn't I just push you down and 'convince' you to go further?" Sally was offended. Somehow me not availing myself of her doppelganger's womanly charms was deeply insulting to her.

"You tried, I made you cum your brains out. After a minute you couldn't move if Wraiths were going to kill you, never mind reaching for my dick. Like I said, we had tons of fun." I tried hard to keep the smirk off my face.

It was fun to think about, but it also hurt. How could it not?

Sitting around the farmhouse's dinning room table, drinking coffee grown back in New Lordaeron. This was almost a charming scene of the reunion of lovers. Sadly, that wasn't what it really was. This was an interrogation.

"That's what I really don't get. I've been healed by the priests of the Light, and it feels great, but it never brought me anywhere near an orgasm." Megan had a doubtful look on her face.

The only reason neither called me a liar to my face was what I had done to Amanda earlier.

"Between Meadran and Jaina, we pieced together a rough idea of why my healing works that way." I created a little ball of mana over my right hand. It's rich green color, spoke of growth and health. "Nature mana, which is my primary element, is concerned with living things and the balance of the forces that allow life to flourish. Growing, changing and reproducing, these are easy for me."

I reabsorbed the mana ball and created a tinier ball of flame, it's bright and cheery color somehow still tinted slightly green. "Controlling the elements is harder but still something I can do. Mating though is tied up in the very concept of my mana. I couldn't separate it out if I wanted too. Not yet at least." I dispersed the flame, noting that I couldn't easily reabsorb mana that had been converted into a physical or chemical form. "The Light, on the hand, and this is only from what little I'd managed to gather, mostly concerns itself with purifying corruption, and advancing ideas of heroism and nobility. It might make you braver or more stubborn, but it isn't interested in getting you off." I shrugged.

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"Then there's the issues of mana density. I'm literally patient zero, on this planet, for mana. My mana density is much higher than anyone else's. So my much denser mana carries the concepts of Nature deeper and harder into those I use it on." My right hand punched lightly into my left. "Is that the whole reason, probably not, but it's what we've came up with."

Megan nodded. She was probably thinking of ways to use that data to her advantage. Sally looked puzzled but not because she didn't get it, she was working on a thought.

"Okay, but then why aren't you more, 'Rawr, I'm going fuck you now.' It seems you should be raring to go all the time. Especially with two nova outputs like us." She waved her hand at both of them.

Yeah, that. I had been struggling with that subconsciously the whole time I'd been here. It's only after my transformation, and the strengthening of my instincts that I had started to actively question why I held back.

"I am. I always wanted to bury myself into you both and never come out. 'Forget the world. Just fuck the pain away.' Some little voice was whispering that into the back of my mind." I stopped trying to frame my next words. "But it isn't right or fair. How much of what was between us was just my power? I never asked, and you never brought it up."

I had to restrain my Aura from reaching for both of them. I wanted them, it wanted them. It would be simple to reach into them and have them explode in joyous sensation. I knew those bodies like the back of my hand.

I closed my eyes and swallowed. I gritted my teeth and pushed the feelings down into the pit. The place where emotions you can't deal with get tossed, allowed to fester and rot, until they come out again in twenty years as cancer or a stroke.

I wanted to cry and scream, bellow and rage, but I could do none of those things. Especially not now, not here with them.

So into the pit with all of it.

I looked up at the ceiling because looking at them was so painful. "I could've kept you both senseless and breathless endlessly. It's so easy to give in to things that feel good, and who doesn't want mind-bending sex?" I grimaced, "But it would have been wrong, even more so, knowing what I know now."

As much as I wanted them, these weren't the women with whom I had shared those experiences. It would be wrong to so much as touch them with those feelings still locked up inside me.

So into the pit.

I was tired of talking.

"What if I wanted that?" Megan sensing weakness struck, she couldn't help it, her nature demanded it. Sally looked at her like she had grown another head.

They shared a look, they were good at conveying thoughts to each other without words.

"We've had plenty of one night stands, and he is attractive... " Sally began.

"Let me stop you there. No." My face went blank, this was dangerous ground.

Megan narrowed her eyes at me. "Why?"

I scoffed at her, "You know why."

Sally actually looked hurt, "Well, I don't."

I sighed. It was bitter.

"I'd never be able to keep the feelings straight. The good and the bad. That wouldn't be fair to you ladies. No matter how wonderful it started, at some point I'd end up venting the pain of their betrayal on you two. You really don't want that." My voice was thick and dark, these days it seemed there was always a slight growl to it, but it was more pronounced now.

"So the best relationship we've ever had, with the all the pleasure we could stand, and it was our evil twins that got to enjoy it?" Megan voice rose an octave and seemed to crack by the end.

"Yes, that's exactly it." I nodded at her.

"Fucking sucks." Sally moped.

I looked out the nearby window, watching the moonlight dance on the plants swaying slightly in a breeze.

"Can we please talk about something else now?" I asked, not bothering to hide how done with this I was.