The local movement has been in full swing, but the field army at the front line seems to be calm. Li Yunlong's No. 1 commander was firmly established, and no one dared to challenge his position as army commander for a while. However, Li Yunlong's mood became very bad. There was a lot of bad news from Beijing and other provinces. Many of his old comrades-in-arms were put up with big names and humiliated and criticized, especially those who worked in various headquarters and military branches in Beijing. In contrast, the old comrades-in-arms of the various field armies are still at peace. What Li Yunlong is most worried about is his old partner Zhao Gang. Zhao Gang works in the General Staff. He heard that the General Staff is making a lot of trouble. Although the central government has clearly stipulated that the military system will not carry out the "Cultural Revolution" movement for the time being. However, a large number of students from military academies have established Red Guard organizations. These half-military, half-civilian Red Guards who have received military training and wear military uniforms are obviously more destructive than ordinary Red Guards. Zhao Gang hadn't heard from him for a long time, and it was estimated that there was a lot of bad luck. Li Yunlong hung up the phone at Zhao Gang's house, but no one answered it. Li Yunlong became anxious, so he called an old comrade who worked in the general office of the Sanzuomen Military Commission. The old comrade told Li Yunlong in a low voice that something happened to Lao Zhao.
In the small auditorium of the General Staff Building in Changqiao, Beijing, Zhao Gang was sitting under the stage accepting criticism. At the end of 1965, after Chief of Staff Luo Ruiqing was dismissed and arrested, Zhao Gang was counted as someone on Luo Ruiqing's black line and was also suspended for inspection.
Which of the generals who had worked in the General Staff was not under the leadership of Luo Ruiqing, how could they have nothing to do with it. Those who are smarter turn the rudder in time, draw a clear line first, and then expose the old superiors, and they can pass the test. Inner-party struggles have always been like this, and everyone has been tested by political struggles for a long time, so we are no longer surprised by it. But Zhao Gang has his own opinion. He is tired of this kind of endless intra-party struggle. He saw that some of his colleagues were trying to keep their positions, and they even searched for materials to prove the anti-Party behavior of the former chief executive and He felt deeply saddened by his own political foresight. In essence, Zhao Gang is still an intellectual, and his military career for most of his life has not dissipated his bookishness. He must not be vague about right and wrong. , Frame others politically, attack dissidents to achieve their own goals, this kind of despicable behavior has been cultivated in this party, which has violated his original intention of joining the revolution.
Could it be that the revolution that I devoted my whole life to ended up doing this kind of boring strife? One of the leaders who presided over the meeting was reprimanding: "Zhao Gang, you are considered a veteran, one or two. One of the leaders of the 9' Movement, after being transferred to the Eighth Route Army, he has never left the army and has not been arrested. Captured, the history is absolutely clean, fought wars, shed blood, and deserved credit. But why are you so stubborn? So many old comrades of the General Staff have done self-criticism and drawn a clear line with Luo Ruiqing. Have you passed the test? Why are you so stubborn? What benefits did Luo Ruiqing give you? If you persist in your mistakes like this, do you still need party membership? Do you still want a position? Zhao Gang stood up, silently unbuttoned the jacket of the military uniform, took off the military uniform, and then took off the military cap and threw it on the table together with the military uniform. I don’t care if I don’t need this party membership and position.” As soon as Zhao Gang’s words came out, everyone was shocked, and the whole meeting hall was silent for two minutes. Such an ignorant person. He pointed at Zhao Gang, his hands trembling with anger: "Zhao Gang, what did you say? Do you dare to say it again?" Since then, I have never thought about being an official in the future. I hate the dictatorship and corruption of the Kuomintang government and pursue the establishment of an equal, just and free social system. If the revolution I devoted my whole life to does not meet my original intention in the end , so what is the significance of this party membership and position? Comrades, today may be the last time I speak at such a high-level meeting. If so, can you?" There was no sound in the venue, and the leader sitting on the stage nodded.
Zhao Gang said awe-inspiringly: "Comrades, I often suffer from insomnia recently. In the dead of night, I often ask myself, Zhao Gang, where is the party and the army when you joined the revolution? I remembered that in our army during the war The relationship between comrades-in-arms, comrades, we are all experienced, think about it, finally get a bite to eat, comrades push each other, no one will eat more. When fighting, you don’t have to worry about getting injured , because the comrades-in-arms will never abandon you. I, Zhao Gang, can live to this day because more than one comrade-in-arms has blocked bullets for me. They sacrificed, but I survived.
Comrades, this is our army, and this is the life-and-death friendship between comrades in war. But where is this tradition now? What happened to our party and army? It is too dangerous to fight against framing, and it will destroy our party and army. Comrades, everyone pat your conscience and think about it. Do you really think that Chief Luo is an anti-Party element? Do you think that you can only save yourself if you hit the rocks? You are wrong, if this evil trend is not stopped, each of us will become a victim in the future. We are taking the detour of the Soviet Union. Here, I don't want to comment too much. I just want to ask comrades to listen to some statistics of the Soviet Union's anti-revolutionary movement from 1936 to 1938. From 1919 to 1935, the Central Committee of the Communist Party of the Soviet Union elected 31 members of the Politburo, 20 of whom died in political struggles. The Eleventh Congress of the Communist Party of the Soviet Union in 1922 was the last party congress that Lenin attended. A total of 26 members of the Politburo were elected, 17 of whom were executed and exiled during the anti-revolutionary campaign. As for the fate of the delegates to the 17th National Congress of the CPSU and the 17th Central Committee, please note that there were 1,966 delegates to the 17th National Congress of the CPSU, of whom 1108 were arrested and executed for "counter-revolutionary crimes." 80% of these representatives are old party members who joined the party before the October Revolution or during the civil war, and 60% are workers' party members. Of the 139 members and alternate members of the Central Committee elected at the 17th National Congress, 83 were arrested and nearly two-thirds were arrested and executed. Next, I will talk about the situation of the eradication of counter-revolutionaries in the Soviet Red Army. Of the first five marshals to be commissioned, three were executed. They were Tukhachevsky, Blyukher and Egorov. Thirteen of the 15 army commanders were executed, 57 of the 85 army commanders were executed, and 110 of the 159 division commanders were executed. Comrades, these statistics are shocking and bloody enough. What I want to say is that any political party may make mistakes in its governance process, and our Communist Party is no exception. Extremely numb, even in order to keep one's own position, fueling the flames and killing one's comrades-in-arms and comrades, this is the most terrible thing. History has proved this point. In the suppression of counter-revolutionaries in the Soviet Union, there were not many senior cadres who were truly commendable. Most of these executed members of the Central Committee and generals were intimidated by Stalin's policy of terror. In order to save themselves, they actively participated in the bloody atrocities of killing their own comrades. What justice, conscience and sense of responsibility were regarded as Throw it away like a torn rag. Comrades, it turns out that even if you want to live without conscience, it is not an easy thing to do. When an extremely wrong idea or crime just surfaced in the party, if all the party members do not work together to nip it in the bud, then in the end it will harm others as well as yourself, because when you are harming others, you have already put Putting yourself in a dangerous situation, everyone has already thrown away justice and conscience like a rag, who do you expect to save you? Comrades, never forget the past and guide the future. If anyone here today is suddenly sent to prison on unwarranted charges someday in the future, please think about what I said today. "Zhao just sat down calmly after speaking, and he felt a kind of complete relief. He has been living a cautious life for many years, and he feels like a young daughter-in-law who has just passed through the door. The main reason is that he thinks too much about things outside of him. , Party affiliation, position, years of seniority and family. Sometimes he has to do something against his will. He really has had enough of this kind of life. The extreme depression makes him have to make a choice. Because at least for now, he has not Seeing the possibility of changing this status quo. The choice of "to be or not to be" that troubled Hamlet is also troubling Zhao Gang today. In Zhao Gang's view, the answer is clear. If it is conditional survival, such as losing dignity and conscience, then he would rather not survive, but choose to destroy.
Several leaders sitting on the stage exchanged glances quickly, and the meeting host sighed and said, "Zhao Gang, I'm afraid no one will be able to save you after you give such a speech. Go back and wait to be dealt with. " There was an uproar on the Internet, and the crowd was furious. Someone stood up and shouted angrily: "Shoot this counter-revolutionary!" "...What a fucking old revolutionary? It must be a Kuomintang agent..." "Down with the counter-revolutionary Zhao Gang..." Zhao Gang was drinking water from a teacup, Hearing these shouts, he stood up suddenly, smashed the teacup in his hand to the ground with a "crash", and looked around the venue contemptuously, his eyes were full of anger and pity, his lips moved , but said nothing, turned around and walked away without looking back... Everyone in the venue, including the leaders on the stage, was stunned by Zhao Gang's tough actions, and there was no sound in the venue.
When Li Yunlong learned what happened to Zhao Gang, his face was pale, he sat for a whole night without eating or drinking, as if his soul had gone out of his body. The next morning, he found that his hair had turned gray overnight, the surging passion disappeared, and there was only cold disappointment in his heart.
The local "Cultural Revolution" movement will inevitably affect the army, and the army also has a tendency to become unstable. Several propaganda officers in the Military Propaganda Department, who liked to shake pens, couldn't hold back anymore. They linked up with some young military officers to set up a rebel organization and carry out mass criticism in the army. When the incident was reported to Li Yunlong, without further ado, he immediately ordered those scholars to be arrested and locked up in a confinement room.
Sun Tai'an said worriedly: "Old Li, those guys can be locked up for two days. There is no need to make a big deal out of it. I heard that someone sued you to the Central Cultural Revolution Group, saying that you are a big warlord who specializes in sabotaging the movement and covering class affairs." The cover of the struggle is not allowed to be lifted." Li Yunlong said: "The army listens to the Central Military Commission, but no one told me to listen to the Central Cultural Revolution Group. Isn't that a group? How did the Internet reach the top of the political Going up? Don’t worry about it, I’ll just take care of things.” Li Yunlong also felt a headache, and the entire frontline troops were becoming more and more unstable under the influence of local frenzied political movements.
There is even an inexplicable mood for war, which is an old tradition in the army. Once driven by a kind of political enthusiasm, the action that best expresses one's consciousness is to bite one's finger and write a letter of war. During the war years, this method was tried and tested and kept the morale of the troops high. But the situation is different now. These snowflake-like invitations to fight are very empty in content. The cadres and soldiers at the grassroots level all use a simple class sentiment He said that a great era has come and the battle to completely wipe out imperialism, capitalism and modern revisionism is about to begin, and they are determined to do what they can in this great battle.
What made Li Yunlong dumbfounded the most was the letter of invitation and strategic design sent by a young combat consultant. The combat staff put forward a strategic concept of attacking on all sides. He believed that since the Soviet Union became a revisionist country, the center of the world's proletarian revolution has moved south. Under the current situation, China has irrefutably become the heart of the world's proletarian revolution, and the burden of thoroughly burying imperialism and modern revisionism has historically fallen on the shoulders of our generation of soldiers, and so on. The strategic idea was to preemptively strike with aviation fire on the northern front without a declaration of war on a Saturday night. Destroying the air base and naval base of the Soviet Far East Army, cutting off the railway artery in Siberia, the armored forces launched a violent assault from Manzhouli, Erenhot and other places to the Soviet Union, and quickly encircled and wiped out the Soviet Army’s Far East Forces. Ergos, Alashankou and other border crossings launched assaults on the Kazakh republic of the Soviet Union. The young staff officer foresaw that this decisive battle between China and the Soviet Union would take place in the Kursk region. It would be an unprecedented battle of tanks. The battle would end with the annihilation of the heavy Soviet army, and Ukraine and Belarus would be just around the corner. . The next thing is simple, the door to Western Europe is open, and our army can move south, wipe out the capitalist countries in Europe, and drink horses in the Mediterranean.
The southern line strategy liberates the Kinmen, Ma and Penghu Islands and lands in Taiwan. The naval fleet went out of the South China Sea to attack Southeast Asia.
The strategy on the Eastern Front is also simple. Land in Japan, obtain the forward base for marching to the Pacific Ocean, raid the Hawaiian Islands, destroy the US Pacific Fleet, and land on the west coast of the US after gaining control of the Pacific Ocean. The final scene is very exciting...the bright red flag is flying On the dome of the White House. The toiling masses of the United States eat pots of pulp to welcome Master Wang, and all human beings are liberated...
Li Yunlong looked at , and he was amused. He called the staff officer and humbly asked for advice: "The writing is good. I am going to report it to the Central Military Commission, but one thing is unclear. What are you going to use to cross the Taiwan Strait?" And the Pacific Ocean? Use ribs?” The staff officer beamed with joy, and said with his head held high: “Report to the chief, if there are wooden sailboats, our army used wooden sailboats when they crossed the Yangtze River and liberated Hainan Island. Our army’s equipment is Not so good, but with the spiritual atomic bomb of Mao Zedong Thought and the support of the oppressed people all over the world, we will definitely win..." Li Yunlong held his temper and finally couldn't help getting angry when he heard this: "I understand what's going on, You are full of food and have nothing to do. From tomorrow on, you will clean the floor of the headquarters building. You can’t do it once, but you have to clean it three times from the first floor to the fourth floor. Aren’t you overwhelmed?
Don't you want to liberate all mankind? good! Just start by sweeping the floor. "A military staff officer came in and reported:" On the 1st, Liang Jun of the special unit asked to see him. You see Li Yunlong waved his hand and said, "Of course, let him in." Liang Jun is the captain of the first squadron of the special unit. The transferred cadre has participated in previous major operations of the special unit, and is an officer with unique skills and excellent military qualities. He was born as an industrial worker, so it stands to reason that he belongs to the cadres of Genhongmiaozheng, so there is no problem with the political review. But recently a rebel organization in his hometown sent a letter to the army, exposing that one of his uncles had served in the Kuomintang army and was designated as a historical counter-revolutionary. This is troublesome. There is a counter-revolutionary in the family. No matter what kind of red family background you are, you can’t work in the army. Although the party’s policy is "there is a theory of composition, it is not only the theory of composition, but the emphasis is on political performance. That’s it. Said that this is just a way to appease those who were sent to another school due to bad background. The heads of the organization departments and cadre departments of the party committees at all levels have an internal principle. Join the army, join the party, and be promoted. In the army, this principle is implemented even more unambiguously. Even some special services, such as air force pilots and garrison troops guarding the capital, need to be checked for five generations and side checks. Even if it is you The cousin of the second uncle’s brother-in-law had worked as a cook in the Kuomintang army for half a year. In a word, he failed the political review. Liang Jun has a historical counter-revolutionary relative. The cadre department of the military region came to the notice and immediately let Liang Jun change jobs. Li Yunlong negotiated Several times to no avail.
Liang Jun was wearing an old military uniform that had been washed white, without collar badges and cap badges. He came to bid farewell to the army commander. He thanked the army commander for his kindness and knew that the army commander had done his best for his affairs. He didn't want to complain. This is life. Who can you blame? He just felt a little sad, he was used to being a professional soldier, and he didn't know what else he could do after leaving the army.
Liang Jun looked at the army commander and said: "No. 1, I bid farewell to you. To be honest, I am really reluctant to leave the army. This is my home. But... there is no way, this is my life, I accept it. No. 1 , what else do you want to ask?
His eyes were red.
Li Yunlong patted Liang Jun's shoulder with a complicated expression as if he had done something wrong, and was speechless for a long time.
He felt ashamed that every member of the special team was his treasure. It was Li Yunlong who brought these vigorous fighters from all directions back then, but now, he has no ability to protect his own fighters, so he wanted to comfort them. If the words are not spoken, they feel that they are nonsense. Suddenly, a thought flashed through my mind like a spark of calcium carbide, mother, what is a special soldier? A small political trial regulation can stump the special forces? What kind of special forces is that?
Li Yunlong suddenly smiled, and he said meaningfully: "It is reasonable to say that based on the training you have received, you should not be sent to other places, otherwise there will be trouble. Alas, once a soldier who has received special training gets rid of If you break the shackles of military discipline, it is very likely to cause harm to society. Once you harm society, who can control you?
The police in the Public Security Bureau may not be able to do it, and even a dozen or so people may not be able to subdue you. If the local government cannot control you, then the army will have to control you. How about this, don't go through the formalities for changing your job, go home and have a look first, contact the work, wait for the unit to accept you, and then come back to complete the formalities, remember, you have to work hard when you get to the place, and don't cause trouble. "Liang Jun's eyes lit up, and he seemed to understand something. He slammed his heels together, and said, "No. 1, Liang Jun, no matter where he goes, he will never embarrass the chief. I will remember your parting words." up. "Li Yunlong smiled slightly, blinked and said: "I didn't seem to say anything? Well, I'm ready to go. The army doesn't provide for the elderly, so I have to leave sooner or later. Maybe one day, I will take off my military uniform and go back to my hometown to farm. "The bright starlight seems to be mixed with dew, becoming moist and soft. The blue night sky is like a sea, and the intermittent white broken clouds are transformed into faint rivers, floating on the dark blue sky. Li Yunlong and Tian Yu Standing on the terrace, looking up at the night sky, Li Yunlong found the bright Polaris through the handle of the Big Dipper. That is the direction of true north, and Beijing is in that direction. Li Yunlong smoked silently, looking preoccupied. Tian Yu burst into tears, She wiped her tears and said to herself: "Where are Zhao Gang and Feng Nan now, why is there no letter? "In the distant sky, in the vast Milky Way, a meteor suddenly pierced the night sky and disappeared into the depths of the universe, followed by another... Li Yunlong's heart moved, he threw away the cigarette butt suddenly, and stared blankly at Where the meteor faded, he felt a sense of foreboding.
At this time, Zhao Gang and Feng Nan were sitting hugging each other in the general building of a military institution in the western suburbs of Beijing. Zhao Gang's face was covered with blue and purple scars. There was a terrible gash on his lip, exposing a broken tooth.
During the daytime criticism meeting, Zhao Gang was dragged to the stage and ordered to kneel on the ground. He stood stubbornly upright, refusing to bend his waist, and was firmly pressed to kneel on the ground by several members of the rebel faction. He struggled again. Standing up, the people participating in the criticism were furious, because such die-hard counter-revolutionaries are rare, and they chanted slogans: If the enemy does not surrender, he will perish! While rushing up and knocking Zhao Gang down on the stage, after being punched and kicked, Zhao Gang staggered and stood up again, the rebels went mad, they rushed up and beat him again, and so on, repeated many times , the host of the final criticism meeting saw that the influence was too bad, so he announced the temporary adjournment of the meeting. Zhao Gang insisted on walking home step by step, and only collapsed after entering the door.
Feng Nan soaked a towel in warm water, wiped it gently for her husband, and comforted her: "Old Zhao, bear with it for a while, and I will give you medicine." What is the injury? I was shot in the stomach with a 9mm bullet, and all my internal organs were smashed. This life was chosen in the first place, and I have lived for so many years. I have earned it." Feng Nan lightly Leaning lightly on her husband, she said, "Rest for a while before you hit the road, okay?
"" Are the children arranged? "" Don't worry, I have already arranged it. Li Yunlong is an old-fashioned and warm-hearted person, and there is nothing to worry about entrusting the children to him. You, in the army for so many years, Li Yunlong is the only old comrade-in-arms. How strange that a college student and a rude soldier form a life-and-death friendship. ""War is the best glue, and the friendship between me and Lao Li was also caused by a quarrel. In 1938, I was just transferred to the Independence Group as a political commissar. That day, old Li was sitting cross-legged on the kang drinking. When he saw me, he handed me the bottle without saying a word. I said thank you, but I don’t know how to drink. Lao Li snorted sullenly, saying he wouldn't drink it, why did you come to the independent group? I was also not happy at the time, and I told him that the independent regiment is for fighting, not for collecting wine and rice. The guy was choking. I could see that he was a smooth donkey, and he was used to dominating the regiment. I heard that the previous political commissars were squeezed out because they couldn't get along with him. When I first joined the independent group, my work was very difficult, and Lao Li also made up his mind to squeeze me out. At that time, I didn’t have a good impression of him. I thought this person had a lot of problems. How could such a person be the head of the group? Woolen cloth? His characteristic is that he complains when he sees his superiors. He has clearly carried out the order, but he still babbles a few words, as if he will lose money if he doesn't complain. It is even more shameful to the subordinates, who open their mouths to swear, use foul language, and sometimes beat people with their hands. But the strange thing is that this guy still has a high prestige in the regiment, and all the cadres and soldiers of the regiment respect him, even worship him. At that time, I thought that this person might still have some unique features. Later, I participated in several battles in the Independence Regiment before I realized that Lao Li was really a bit of a genius in fighting, with many ideas, good at reverse thinking, and never sticking to the rules. "As soon as Li Yunlong was mentioned, Zhao Gang, whose face was full of scars, was immediately in high spirits: "My personality is far from that of Lao Li. He is a typical realist, but I am an idealist. Once these two types of people meet, collisions are inevitable.
Lao Li is a very pragmatic person. He laughs at theories and dismisses them as "great truth" or "dog skin plaster". But I was full of bookishness at that time, and I liked to tell the theory. "" I guess, the main reason why you became good friends later is because you became realistic and stopped playing with theories. "Feng Nan asked..." Yes, the environment of war is too harsh, and idealism cannot cope with this cruel reality. Frankly speaking, the independent regiment at that time was not as successful as I, Zhao Gang. Without Li Yunlong, the independent regiment would not have survived even a month in the harsh environment of Northwest Shanxi.
On this point, I am convinced by Lao Li, and I admit that he is my teacher in terms of how to be a real soldier. "Feng Nanyi said to Zhao Gang: "I think you two are tragic characters. Zhao Gang, I am afraid that you were an idealist until your death. Your purpose when you participated in the revolution was very clear, that is, you were ready to dedicate yourself to a certain ideal. When the reality violated your original intention, you felt a sense of disillusionment. Because you are powerless to stop the development of reality, the helplessness and pain are very deep. If you live with this pain, you will feel that life becomes meaningless. "Zhao Gang looked at Feng Nan with extremely complicated eyes, and sighed:" We have lived for more than ten years, and you have always played the role of a gentle wife in front of me, almost ignoring the other side of you, don't you Wait until the last moment to show your blade? It can be said to be a latecomer...
Feng Nan smiled sadly and said: "Character is destiny. I have no ability to change you. The only thing I can do is to accompany you until death." Zhao Gang shed tears in pain: "It is meaningless for you to do this. Intentionally put my conscience in debt, why not give me some freedom? Give me some power to choose?" "Zhao Gang, do you know the Russian Decembrists?" " course I know, they are also a group of revolutionaries full of idealism." "I am thinking of the Russian Decembrists and their wives, they are really a group of noble women. After the failure of the Decembrist uprising, they were killed by the Tsar Exiled to Siberia, their wives were faced with two choices, either to sever ties with their husbands and stay in Peter as nobles. Or be deprived of their noble status and accompany their husbands to Siberia for hard labor. These noble and weak women showed With great courage, he resolutely chose the winner. Dostoyevsky was moved to tears. He said: They abandoned all aristocratic status, wealth, society and family, for noble morals, for freedom. Sacrifice everything. Innocent for twenty-five years, they have endured what their 'criminal husbands' have endured... You see, more than a hundred years have passed, and in people's hearts, those heroic Decembrists People are not as perfect as the historical images of their wives. The wives of the Decembrists have become a group, a symbol of heroism, and history has firmly remembered these great women. You know, the world My life would be meaningless without you, and the loneliness of thinking and thinking about you would kill me too, remember? When I first met you, I really knew, what is It was love at first sight. At that time, I thought, thank God, this man is bestowed on me by God.” Zhao Gang gently hugged his wife and looked around the living room. After the house was ransacked, the living room was beyond recognition, and the books were torn into piles of waste paper , Zhao Gang was wearing a tuxedo with a red cross on his big photo with the rank of major general. Zhao Gang smiled softly: "Life is really like a dream..." "Tell me, when you threw your pen into the army, devoted yourself to a revolution, decades of conquests ended like this, do you regret it?
"Feng Nan asked.
"I don't regret it. I did my duty as a Chinese. At that time, the nation was in peril and the enemy was overwhelming. It was impossible for any bloody Chinese to stay out of the incident. In front of the aggressors, we did not shame the Chinese soldiers. As for The war that overthrew the Kuomintang rule, I am proud to be able to participate in that war. It was a dictatorial, unpopular, and thoroughly corrupt government. It is unacceptable for that government not to collapse. I participated in two wars in my life , did what I wanted to do. I have nothing to regret. I just feel sad. I think of those comrades who sacrificed their lives for the establishment of this regime. I can’t bear it when I think of them. From the time I joined the Eighth Route Army in 1938 until the founding of the People’s Republic of China in 1949 In the past 11 years, I have changed 13 guards. They all died in front of my eyes. Most of them were sacrificed to cover me. To this day, when I close my eyes, those lively faces appear in front of me. In my mind, I can accurately call their names, and clearly remember the order and place of their sacrifice. During the Battle of Huaihai, there were more than tens of thousands of soldiers who died. Those corpses that had just been lifted from the line of fire and were covered with white cloth They are arranged one by one in the field, and I can't count them. I saw a wounded man struggling and crying desperately on a stretcher. Put me down, I want to go back, our company is all sacrificed, and I want to take revenge. Beside the stretcher An old man cried and urged the stretcher bearer, hurry, hurry, this child is dying, hurry up, child, wait, you are almost at the hospital, you can't just die.
At that time, I was already the deputy political commissar of the column, and I should have maintained a certain image in front of the subordinates, but at that time... I couldn't control my tears, and I couldn't even speak. These people who sacrificed their lives for their ideals thought they could get a free and just society through their sacrifices, but have their hopes been realized? "Speaking of this, Zhao Gang couldn't help bursting into tears. He wiped away the tears vigorously and said: "I think of Mr. Tian. Ten years ago, Mr. Tian and I had a long heart-to-heart talk in this house. Now that I think about it, Mr. Tian is really a rare wise man, his eyes can really see the future through the thick fog. He was worried about a catastrophe in our nation ten years ago, and now it is really unfortunate that his words are true. I get it, revolution may be a neutral word. It can lead people to the light, and it can also create disasters on earth in the name of revolution. A revolution must conform to the universal moral norms, that is, the principle of humanity. If individual life is ignored or indifferent, or even causes bloodshed and death for no reason, the nature of the so-called revolution, no matter how beautiful the banner is, is suspicious. Now I finally understand Ding Gorky's loud cry: In these days of universal animalization, let everyone become more humane... If you reject humanity, without love and sympathy, it is impossible to become a revolutionary. Feng Nan, I have no ability to prevent the spread of disasters, but I have the ability to defend my dignity. Without dignity, I would rather choose to die. "Feng Nan looked at Zhao Gang and said: "My first impression of you Communists is that when the People's Liberation Army entered Shanghai, thousands of soldiers were sleeping on the streets, and even the doorway of my house was full. guilty. When I went out in the morning, I didn’t see the soldiers lying on the ground. I almost tripped over. A young regiment leader stood at attention and saluted me, and kept apologizing. I was so moved that tears rolled in my eyes. He is really a soldier of the people. The head of the regiment was at most twenty-seven or eight years old, handsome and eloquent, he seemed to have received a good education, and he treated ladies like a gentleman.
At that time, I thought, the Communist Party is really full of talented people. After more than 20 years of armed struggle, from weak to strong, leading the people to overthrow the Kuomintang government, such a great revolution is impossible without the participation of many outstanding talents. Especially after meeting you, I got this impression even more. An outstanding person like my husband is a member of the Communist Party. Will this party still make mistakes when it is in power? It was so childish. In fact, any political party may make mistakes. From the perspective of me, a non-party person, the biggest mistake this political party has made is to unconsciously carry out a reverse elimination of quality. Gradually weed out outstanding figures in the party who have a sense of justice, dare to resist evil forces, and put their lives and deaths on behalf of the people. In this way, disasters are inevitable. Am I right? ""Half right, there are still outstanding people, and they are constantly standing out. At least, I believe Li Yunlong is one.
He's a tough guy and has more courage than me. "Zhao Gang straightened up, but unexpectedly touched the wound, and gasped in pain.
Feng Nan supported her husband distressedly: "Don't move, sit quietly and rest for a while." Zhao Gang closed his eyes, as if he had already fallen asleep... A thread of thoughts mixed with a touch of sadness brought him back to Yan'an back then." He had studied there, and he could never forget the Loess Plateau in northern Shaanxi, the undulating mountains are like waves frozen in a monogamous room, the barren slopes lacking vegetation, the skinny and squeaky The old ox dragged the ancient wooden plow. It seems to be a high-pitched and desolate Xintianyou tune coming from outside the sky: Yangdu belly handkerchief, three daodaolan, it is easy for us to meet, but difficult to talk. ...
I couldn't see the mountain, I couldn't see people, I threw my balls into the sand pole with tears.
Ansai's waist drum is rumbling, white sheep belly towels are jumping in the yellow dust, Suide's strong young man, Mizhi's handsome daughter, the "Yellow River Cantata" in the gunpowder smoke, the clanging swords and guns of "Big Sword March"... Thousands of miles away in the Huaihai Plain, hundreds of thousands of officers and soldiers of the field army sang loudly: "Catch up, catch up, don't let the enemy breathe, don't let the enemy run away... On both sides of the Longhai Line, hundreds of thousands of troops rolled up two frenzied waves and raised waves." The sky is full of dust, hula la land echoes from north to south, day and night, sweeping away. The mighty Huang Baitao corps was wiped out in an instant...
The festive fireworks are colorful, the parade is full of guns, the planes are roaring, the tank columns are rolling over, and on the viewing platform, countless golden stars are shining brightly in the autumn sun...
This life is enough, the wind blows the sea, the waves are criss-crossing, those who board the boat are regarded as magnificent, why not the great waves of life and death are regarded as magnificent? The smoke and fire of gunpowder, the battle of hundreds of battles, the joy of victory, the sorrow of a dead friend, the cold face of a strong enemy, the gentle countryside and beautiful scenery, intertwined joy and pain, accompanied by youth, friendship and love... What can I ask for in this life? …
Zhao Gang opened his eyes, his eyes were shining brightly, he patted Feng Nan on the back, and said softly: "Hey: it's time for the Decembrists to go on the road, dawn is a good time to go on the road." Feng Nan was already in tears Flying like rain, she hugged Zhao Gang fiercely and cried bitterly: "Zhao Gang, I'm afraid. This is a heart disease of mine. I'm afraid that when our bodies disappear, our souls will also drift away. Without you, I'm too lonely. "Zhao Gang smiled and said: "Don't worry, I will hold you tightly, and I won't be able to run away." Feng Nan wiped away his tears and showed a childlike smile on his face: "Really? You have to say what you want Let me rest assured." She gently supported Zhao Gang and said, "Go, my dear Decembrists, we are going to Siberia, where the wind and snow are boundless..."