Li Yunlong has been in a bad mood recently, mainly because the relationship with his wife Tian Yu has become more and more tense. The reason is that during the anti-rightist movement that swept the country last year, Tian Yu's parents were both identified as extreme rightists, fired from public office, and sent to the The Xingkai Lake Labor Reform Farm in the Great Northern Wilderness is undergoing reeducation through labor. After hearing the news, Tian Yu cried for a whole day and night, and fell seriously ill. Li Yunlong is not at all surprised by what happened to his father-in-law and his mother-in-law. He has long felt that this pair of old intellectuals are not peaceful people. Supervision, why laymen can't lead experts, what freedom of speech. In Li Yunlong's ears, these words are indeed reactionary. The country of the Communist Party was bought with the blood of thousands of martyrs. Can it be handed over?

Take turns in power? Thanks to these rightists, they figured it out. No freedom of speech? Of course, counter-revolutionaries and rightists certainly cannot be given the right to talk nonsense, otherwise wouldn't it be against the heavens? It doesn't matter if you go to renovate and renovate, learn some lessons, and you can take off your hat after remodeling. He thought so, and persuaded his wife that way. Unexpectedly, Tian Yu didn't appreciate it at all, but looked at him with a strange look. He had never seen such a look from his usual gentle wife. He was extremely disappointed, heartbroken, angry and contemptuous. That look was too complicated. .

The wife finally hung her head and said nothing. But when Li Yunlong found out that Tian Yu moved his bedding into another bedroom that day, and no longer lived in the same room with him, Li Yunlong was very angry. He didn't like women blackmailing her husband in this way, which was a violation of her husband's rights. contempt. He slept alone for a few nights in a fit of anger, expressing that he didn't care, hoping that his wife would move back after her anger subsided, but Tian Yu seemed to be planning to separate for a long time, and had no intention of changing her mind at all. Li Yunlong, who stayed alone in the vacant room, spent every night tossing and turning, hungry and thirsty. In a fit of rage, he moved to the military headquarters and never returned home.

Feng Nan:

Hello. It's been a long time since I communicated, and I'm very concerned about how you and Zhao Gang are doing well in Beijing? I really want to meet you guys, I feel very lonely right now, really, very lonely.

I don't even have a friend to talk to. Looking back on those years, you and I laughed and talked, cutting candles to the west window. Now, you are far away, and people go away like yellow cranes. I really shouldn't introduce you to a good husband and let you die of old age in your boudoir. There was no starlight in the night, my heart was pounding, as if I heard a voice calling from afar, I suddenly woke up from my dream, I looked at the vast night sky outside the window and the dim lights flickering like fishing boats in the distance, trying to recall the dream just now The scene in the picture, this strange and absurd dream, when I tried to recall it clearly, has lost the blurry details, only one picture is very clear, it is like a field, surrounded by a layer of milky white mist Shrouded in mist, the sky is chaotic, like sunny or cloudy, some people are walking in this wilderness crowded together, their faces shone with a metallic luster, they walked towards me, I vaguely discerned my father among them And my mother, the picture was like a silent movie, even though I was crying desperately, they all looked forward, as if they had nothing to do with it.Ben didn't see me, and passed me by. I turned around and chased them, but I couldn't catch up. The white mist ahead was misty, and there was a vastness. Floating away in the confusion... I sat in front of the window, my heart was beating wildly, and my whole body was drenched in cold sweat. Could this be some kind of warning from heaven? I am puzzled. Feng Nan, I don't understand, I really don't understand, what's wrong? Recently, I happened to see an internal document, and I was shocked. In this anti-rightist movement, there were more than 500,000 people who were designated as rightists, and more than 90% of them were intellectuals and senior intellectuals. You may I have read in the newspapers that my parents are among them, and there are many seniors whom you and I are familiar with. They have been mobilized repeatedly to help the party to rectify the movement, to raise opinions to the party, and finally ended up in this way. It is said that this is called leading a snake out of its hole. terrible. As for the rights and wrongs of this movement, I don't want to judge, because it is too complicated. I just think that in a country where intellectuals are rare, putting more than 500,000 intellectuals into another book at once will bring great harm to our nation. It will bring about disastrous consequences. This kind of disaster will gradually be revealed in the years to come, and the rationality of our nation will gradually be lost. Will the ignorant nation have a future? Today, who can stop a nation from slipping into disaster? Lao Li and I have officially separated, because we really can't communicate with each other ideologically. For what happened to my parents, he thought he deserved it. His coldness made my whole body turn cold. I seemed to know him again. Although the term human nature has disappeared in this era we live in, but in family life In the novel, there should still be a little bit of humanity left. If you can’t find any warmth brought by humanity in the family, then what’s the point of life? I once thought about divorce, but immediately dismissed the idea, because I found out that I was pregnant again. I want to tell you that this is my last child. I will not have any more children from now on. Another thought, I have no right to allow more lives to come into this world to suffer, and I cannot predict what disasters will await the children in the future. Thinking of this, I can't help but tremble all over. Feng Nan, I am looking forward to your reply and tell me about your current situation. Greetings to Comrade Zhao Gang, you are so blessed to have a chivalrous general with a gentle heart by your side, you should be content.

Greetings! 〕

Tian Yu March 2, 1958

Tian Yu:

Hello! When I received your letter, I didn't waste a single minute. I immediately put down what I was doing and wrote back to you, so as not to let you complain. Who can refuse the request of a beautiful woman? Even if she's a woman, just kidding. I don't want to comfort you too much. At this time, any comfort is very empty. I just hope that you will be strong and hold on.

I just want to tell you that in the past campaign, if it wasn't for an accidental reason, I would definitely not have escaped bad luck. When the movement first started last year, our Beijing Normal University was deserted, and the party branch secretary of my department sincerely worked one by one, mobilizing professors and lecturers to offer opinions to the party, and said that those who do not want to express opinions are alienated from the party. Only those who help the party to rectify its mistakes and make the party correct its mistakes are those who truly love the Communist Party. Everyone couldn't sit still when they heard it, because this logic is ready-made, and those who are unwilling to help the party correct its mistakes must be people with ulterior motives.

What's more, it's not that everyone has no opinions to raise, it's just that they are extremely cautious. You know, I am also a cannonball, and I never intend to hide my views. Since the party cadres mobilized themselves, I will hide my words. Sakura is not well, so I also thought of a few things and prepared to speak at the meeting. Unexpectedly, Lao Zhao suddenly decided to go to Beidaihe for recuperation that night, and he insisted on going with him. I was very surprised at that time, because Lao Zhao never used the recuperation leave every year. Impatient, I said that I am very busy with work now and cannot go with him.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly lost his temper and got angry at me without thinking, saying that I never cared about him, and threatened that if he didn't go with him, he would divorce me. Something went wrong, otherwise he would never be like this. You know, we have never quarreled since we got married, and we have always treated each other with respect and love. You know, he and I seem to have a relationship in a previous life. I love him more than myself. With the help of you and Lao Li, I found him in the vast crowd. You said, how could I be willing to lose him? ? Even if it made him angry, I felt it was all my fault. So I immediately compromised, apologized to him, and asked him to forgive me. Now I pack up my luggage, don’t care about work, meetings, or singing. What can be more important than my beloved husband? You may have guessed the later results. More than 20 professors and lecturers in our department were designated as rightists, but I escaped the disaster miraculously. Just imagine, if I did not accompany Lao Zhao to recuperate, but participated in the Ming Dynasty After the meeting, according to my personality, why would I not speak? For this matter, I once asked Lao Zhao, did he design to trick me away because he heard some rumors or had a premonition? He just smiled and said, I just want you to accompany me to recuperate, it will be the same in the future, I want you to accompany me every year in the future, you can't hide even if you want to, otherwise I will divorce you. Really, Lao Zhao is still a mystery to me until now. Over the past few years, he has spoken less and less. Sitting, looking out the window and thinking hard, I know that he is thinking about some important things, trying to find out the answer, but he is unwilling to communicate with others, even me. Tian Yu, I read about my uncle and aunt in the newspaper, I feel sorry for you, I can feel your pain and confusion, You have read a lot of books in these years, knowledge makes you deep, makes you wise, and also makes you painful. Hegel said that in a deep soul, even pain does not lose its beauty. You should understand that a man without thought has no pain. I told Lao Zhao about your situation, he jumped for a while, and only said one sentence, character is destiny. Compared with the long river of history, the tragic ending is not necessarily a tragedy. When talking about your relationship with Lao Li, Lao Zhao said that he and Lao Li have known each other for many years and know each other very well. He has shortcomings, rude personality, uneducated, and often self-centered. But he is upright and warm-hearted. In the face of evil, he will always be a hero with courage. Once awakened, his courage will surpass ordinary people, and Lao Zhao feels ashamed. He said that he and Li Yunlong have very different personalities, only one thing is the same, that is the tragic character. Finally, Zhao Gang asked me to tell you that he is willing to use his personality as a guarantee. Li Yunlong may be a flawed husband, but he is a reputable man and a man with a heroic temperament. Zhao Gang will never lose sight of this. I hope Tian Yu can forgive him and understanding. Divorce is a major event, and it is not the best policy to easily hurt your muscles and bones. Please consider it carefully. Lao Li also needs time to improve himself. Tian Yu, you have to cheer up, you have many things that others envy, such as beauty, wisdom, and friendship. Please remember, whether you are happy or you are sad, you have a good friend who is blessing and sharing your worries. If you tell your happiness to your friends, you will get two happiness, if you tell your sorrows to your friends, you will get half of your sorrows. Greetings!

Feng Nan March 9, 1958

Tian Yu:

I wrote to you at the Xingkai Lake Labor Camp, and maybe I won’t write any more letters in the future, so you can take this as my last letter.

I think you already know that both your father and I have been classified as rightists, and the conclusion is far right. Labor reform is currently underway. Your father and I are not in the same branch, and there is no chance to meet. Our main job is farm work. We are now digging ditches to dredge the irrigation system. The Northeast thawed late. In March, the land was still frozen as hard and heavy hammers to break the frozen square. Everyone worked very hard. My son, the members of our women's team are all intellectuals, who can't lift their shoulders or hands, and are used to being pampered in life. When we first came, we all felt at a loss in the face of the hard life and harsh natural environment, and felt that the future was bleak. The government supervisors found that our thinking was very pessimistic, so they organized everyone to study in time. We studied Chairman Mao’s "Urging Du Yuming to Surrender". I am deeply touched. Today, it is unnecessary to talk about all empty words, and it is better to do a real job, so as to make meritorious service, so as not to flee, and not to be cast aside by the people... After reading this time, everyone was moved to tears, I couldn't cry, this sentence really touched our hearts. We bourgeois intellectuals are covered in the mud of the old society. The government has done the utmost benevolence and righteousness to us bourgeois intellectuals, giving us good living conditions, full democracy, and creating various opportunities for our work. This is a good environment, but instead we repay our kindness and attack the party violently through the Communist Party's rectification movement. Thinking about it now, we are indeed guilty of a lot of crimes. The bamboo of the Nanshan Mountain is full of crimes, and the waves of the East China Sea are broken; the evil is endless. In order to save us, the party now reforms us through labor and gives us a way out in life. Where else can the party have such a lenient policy? Our gratitude cannot be expressed in words, we can only shout with tears: Long live the Communist Party! We are determined to use the sweat of labor to wash away our sins, change our minds, be a new man, and strive to get rid of the rightist hat as soon as possible and return to the ranks of the people. Daughter, mother is sorry for you, if our crimes affect your political future, we can only ask you to forgive, please draw a line with us, we are not worthy to be your parents. take care.

Shen Danhong March 10, 1958

Tian Yu rushed into the bedroom, closed the door carefully, lowered the curtains, threw herself on the bed, bit the corner of the quilt fiercely with her mouth, and cried silently. It was hard for her to believe that this penitent and humble letter was written by her mother, who had been so proud, so talented, so graceful, so graceful. Now, she seems to be a different person, not only has she lost any self-esteem, but her writing style has also become like an immature middle school student's composition.

Omg it was horrible. Li Yunlong saw Shen Danhong's letter by chance. After reading it, he was very happy and said to his wife:

"That's right, it doesn't matter if you make a mistake, just change it. It's too much to say that you want to draw a clear line, can you draw a clear line? No matter what, she is your mother, my mother-in-law, or a member of the family. What do you do?" They wrote letters, asking them to reform themselves, and strive to get rid of their hats early. In the future, they will have no place to go, so they will live here. Let’s take care of the elderly, and we must do our best in filial piety.” Tian Yu didn’t say a word, just glanced at Li Yunlong, That look is complicated. There is gratitude, but also indifference and indifference.