The revolving door spat me out into the lobby like a malfunctioning carnival ride, a cold blast of air conditioning smacking me in the face. The glass walls of the skyscraper made the place feel like an ant farm, the little people of Chicago scurrying around below in their more important, more interesting lives. I liked the view. It made me feel part of something bigger, which was more than I could say for the sterile interior of Omnibrew Incorporated.

A soulless reception desk sat in the center of the lobby, as inviting as a steel morgue slab. Surrounding it were potted plants struggling to survive in the artificially cold climate, like penguins transplanted to the Sahara. I preferred the warmth of my old brewery, with its worn-in wooden surfaces and the perpetual aroma of fermenting grains. But here I was, playing the corporate game.

I glanced at my phone. Fifteen minutes until the meeting. Plenty of time to sweat bullets and imagine the worst-case scenario. We were “streamlining operations” and “focusing on core competencies,” which was MBA-speak for laying off half the staff. As Head Brewer, I’d probably be safe, but in this new world of corporate brewing, you could never be too sure.

I pressed the elevator button and took one last look at the city below. Chicago had a heartbeat, a pulse that you could feel on the sidewalk under your feet. Up here, it was like staring at a body without a soul, all glass and steel with no flesh.

The elevator dinged, and I stepped inside, tapping the twentieth floor with the kind of enthusiasm usually reserved for dental surgery. The doors closed, and soft elevator music trickled out of hidden speakers, as if embarrassed to be caught working in public. It did nothing to soothe my rising anxiety.

The thing about passion is that it can burn you out. Ten years ago, I started Wilson’s Craft Ales with a mix of naïveté and stubborn optimism. We made some great beer and even turned a modest profit. But the industry had changed. Bigger breweries were swallowing up smaller ones, and distribution channels became a cutthroat gauntlet. When Omnibrew offered to buy us out and make me Head Brewer, it seemed like the smart play. Now, two years in, I wasn’t so sure.

The elevator doors slid open to reveal the Omnibrew test kitchen, a playground of stainless steel and granite. It was empty, and I paused to take it all in. This was my domain, the one place in the company where I still felt like myself. A lot of good memories were cooked up here, along with a few bad batches of experimental IPAs.

“Eric!”

I turned to see Jason, my former apprentice and current rival, striding toward me with a stack of papers. Jason had been with Wilson’s since the beginning. He was like the little brother I never wanted: eager, ambitious, and increasingly resentful.

“They’re expecting us in the conference room,” he said, not slowing his pace. He thrust a paper at me. “Here’s the agenda.”

I took the paper and fell in step behind him. “How’s the new seasonal coming along?”

He shrugged. “It’s on hold. Too many other priorities right now.”

“Right. Priorities.” I tried to catch his eye, but he was focused ahead, like a racehorse with blinders. “We’ll get through this, you know. Stronger than ever.”

He didn’t respond. We reached the conference room, and he opened the door, gesturing for me to go in first. I hesitated, then walked past him, feeling his gaze drill into the back of my skull.

I never understood why Jason disliked me so much; I thought we were friends.

The conference room was the kind of place where ideas came to die. It had a huge, oval table made of some synthetic material trying too hard to look like mahogany, and ergonomic chairs that screamed midlife-crisis comfort. A large screen on one wall flickered with a slideshow of forgettable graphs and pie charts. We took our seats, and I noticed Jason still had his stack of papers. He wasn’t even going to pretend to recycle them.

I started fiddling with my pen, clicking the top in an irregular beat that mirrored my anxious heart. Meetings like this were the worst part of the job. Give me a hot brew kettle and a mash tun over a cold boardroom and PowerPoint any day.

My mind wandered to my homebrew setup in the garage. I could almost smell the hops, their citrusy bitterness cutting through the air like a freshly peeled orange. The test kitchen had all the toys, but there was something purer about brewing at home, where every batch felt like a labor of love rather than a product line.

“Eric.” A deep, gravelly voice pulled me back to reality. Phil, the VP of Operations, had taken his seat and was staring at me over his glasses. He looked like a disapproving walrus. “How’s the new hop extract working out?”

“It’s fine,” I said, straightening up. “It cuts costs, which is great. But it loses some of the aromatic qualities you get from whole cone hops. We’re tweaking the recipes to compensate.”

Phil grunted, which I took as a signal of approval, then turned his attention to Jason. “Have you talked to the team about the cuts?”

Jason nodded. “They understand. Morale is low, but we’re managing.”

I clicked my pen again, harder this time. “You can’t expect high spirits when people are fearing for their jobs. Maybe we should delay the cuts until after—”

“Delaying isn’t an option,” Phil said, cutting me off. “We need to stay competitive. The craft market is evolving, and we have to evolve with it.”

Evolve. That was the word they always used when they meant mutate beyond recognition. I sank back into my chair and resumed my pen-clicking symphony. If we evolved any further, we’d be unrecognizable as a brewery. Just another beverage corporation, pushing units instead of pouring pints.

My thoughts drifted back to Jason. He’d been a quick study, absorbing everything I taught him about brewing, from grain bills to water chemistry. I had hoped that passing on my knowledge would create a bond, a shared passion for the craft. But ever since Omnibrew took over, that bond had frayed. Maybe it was my fault. Maybe I was too hard on him, or not hard enough.

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I looked at Jason. He was tall and gangly when he started, but now he had the solid frame of someone who spent a lot of time lifting sacks of malt. He’d grown into his own, yet he still wore that chip on his shoulder, the one I imagined had my name etched into it.

I had crafted him to be the perfect successor, yet now he looked at me as if I were a bottle of skunked beer.

Phil droned on about cash flow and quarterly projections, terms that bounced off my skull like wadded-up receipts. I stole a glance at Jason, hoping to catch his eye and offer a conspiratorial roll of the pupils. Something to say, “Can you believe this?” Instead, Jason was fixed on Phil, his expression a blend of determination and anxiety.

My gaze wandered to the stack of papers in front of Jason. Unlike the rest of us, he wasn't taking notes or making annotations. He already knew everything Phil was saying. That realization hit me with the force of a well-thrown growler. Jason wasn't just my rival; he was preparing to take my place. Maybe he’d be better at this corporate stuff than I ever was.

The slideshow on the big screen shifted to a new set of graphs, and Phil paused, as if expecting applause. No one obliged. “These are the projections for after the restructuring. As you can see, we’re poised for a strong rebound.”

I clicked my pen, not buying it. We’d been poised for a rebound since the last restructuring, and the one before that. It was starting to feel like perpetual calisthenics.

Phil leaned back in his chair, stretching the fabric of his dress shirt to its breaking point. “So, that’s the big picture. Any questions?”

Silence. The kind of silence that forms a vacuum, sucking the life out of anything with a pulse. I had a thousand questions, none of which I dared to ask. Would my job actually be safe? What would happen to the folks in the test kitchen, or the sales reps who had families to feed? Most importantly, why had I ever thought this was a good idea?

“If there’s nothing else,” Phil said, rising from his seat. The rest of us followed, like puppets on the same set of strings. “Remember, we’re a team. We’ll get through this together.”

Yeah, a team. Like a pack of hyenas, I thought, each of us eyeing the same carcass. Phil gathered his things and walked out, leaving the rest of us standing awkwardly around the table.

I turned to Jason. “Let’s grab a coffee. We need to talk.”

Jason hesitated, his body half-turned toward the door. “I need to get back to the lab.”

“It’ll just take a few minutes,” I said, trying to sound more authoritative than pleading. He sighed and nodded, relenting.

We walked to the kitchenette, a sad little alcove with a Keurig and a mini-fridge. I hated the coffee here; it always tasted like plastic and compromise. But it served as a convenient prop for uncomfortable conversations.

Jason poured himself a cup, then offered the pot in my direction. I waved it off. “Listen, I know things have been rough lately. I just want you to know that I’m here for you.”

He sipped his coffee, burning his lips for the tenth time today if I had to guess. “Thanks.”

“Thanks?” I said, incredulous. “Jason, come on. Talk to me.”

He looked at the ceiling, the floor, anywhere but at me. “What do you want me to say, Eric? That I’m scared? That I’m pissed off? You already know all this.”

“I know, but—” I stopped myself. But what? But I need to hear it from you? But I want us to be friends again? But I think you’re gunning for my job and I don’t know how to stop you? None of those sounded right.

“But,” I continued, “we need to stick together. Like we used to.”

He laughed, a single, joyless bark. “Like we used to? Eric, ever since you sold out, nothing’s been like it used to.”

I felt that one in my kidneys. “Is that what you think? That I sold out?”

He didn’t answer, but he didn’t need to. The silence spoke volumes, like an unread manifesto.

“Jason, I took the deal because I thought it would give us security. Stability. The industry is changing, and I didn’t want us to get left behind.”

“Us,” he said, shaking his head. “There is no us, Eric. There’s you, trying to keep your position, and me, trying to survive.”

I opened my mouth to argue, to tell him he was wrong, that I always had his best interests at heart. But deep down, I knew he was right. In this new reality, it really was every man for himself.

“Fine,” I said, turning to leave. “Just remember who taught you everything you know.”

As I walked away, I heard him say, “Yeah. Everything.”

I pushed open the door to the hallway, and a rush of air created a brief, chilling draft.

I found a bench in the hallway and sat down, pulling out my phone. A text from Mom: “How’s it going?” I stared at the screen, trying to compose an answer that wasn’t a complete lie. Something optimistic but grounded. Real, yet reassuring. In the end, I just wrote, “Not sure yet,” and hit send.

My finger hovered over the contacts list. I thought about calling Mom, then quickly dismissed the idea. She’d just tell me to follow my heart, which was terrible advice because my heart had no clue where it was going these days. I needed a GPS for my emotions, something to recalculate my route every time I hit an existential roadblock.

The stack of papers Jason had handed me sat on my lap. I flipped through them, skimming the jargon: “Cost-Benefit Analysis,” “Synergy Outcomes,” “Human Capital Adjustments.” It all blended together in a thick, unappetizing stew of business-speak. I closed the packet and stared at the cover, wondering how I’d gotten here.

The sound of laughter echoed down the hall. Two marketing interns, both with hipster beards and man-bun-top-knots, walked past me. One held a growler, and I caught a whiff of something hoppy and dank. They high-fived and peeled into an office, leaving me with the lingering aroma of enthusiasm.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, trying to transport myself back to a place where I was truly happy. My kitchen came into focus, with its cluttered counters and ancient, battle-scarred stove. I was surrounded by my brewing equipment: the big enamel pot, the glass carboys, the digital scale for measuring out precise portions of hops and yeast. The whole setup was a testament to my obsession, each piece acquired slowly over years like a magpie collecting shiny objects.

In my mind’s eye, I could see myself stirring a batch of wort, the steam rising up and kissing the ceiling. The scent of malted barley and hot water filled the air, warm and comforting like a grandmother’s quilt. This was where I belonged, where everything made sense.

My non-existent girlfriend coming in, holding a mug of coffee and wearing that half-asleep, half-happy smile she got on weekend mornings. “How’s it coming along?” she’d ask, and I’d tell her about the new recipe I was experimenting with, the one that blended five different kinds of hops in a cascading symphony of bitterness.

I started to feel a genuine sense of calm, as if I’d just taken the first sip of a perfect pint after a long, grueling day. This was my real life, the one I’d put on hold but never truly left behind.

“Eric!”

Someone called my name, and I snapped back to the present with a jolt. One of the HR ladies—Diane or Deena, something with a D—was waving at me from the end of the hall. “We need you for a quick sidebar.”

I nodded and stood, my body moving but my mind still stuck in my kitchen, stirring that imaginary batch of wort. I walked toward HR, toward my supposed future, but all I could think about was the past.

When I opened my eyes, the magic was gone, and all that was left was a body I barely recognized.