Saitou here and yes, life is hard as heck.

Here what I look like.

Long silver hair, flawless white skin, long eyelashes, and charming lips.

I now had slender shoulders, a large plump chest, and smooth thin legs.

It is what you would called a flawlessly beautiful girl.

Just describing myself makes me want to vomit and it just give me goosebumps.

This one month break from school was hell. I got educated about how girls act and do, yeah not my thing.  Not to mention that I am going to get a period every freaking month.

For the entire first week of the “Sakura incident” I was freaking out like crazy. For example, I keep saying “disgusting, disgusting, disgusting” over and over again. But I am not an idiot, I know that right now my body is that of a female.  Being igorant is one thing but not learning how your new body work is a dangerous thing. 

So I came up with a solution, I will go to school as a girl but I will wear a mask and some other stuff that will make my slim body look normal or fat. I don’t want attention from girls and boys because it’s annoying.

I will also bring a guy uniform with me because I want to, plus if someone piss me off all I have to do is dress like a guy and beat them up.  Simple solution, right? it’s like killing two birds with one stone, that way I can keep my identity safe too.

But first I need to do some research about women. I rather be safe than sorry. For instance, did you know that boys lust is at its peak when they are teenager and girls lust is at its lowest when they are teenager (due to hormones in their body). Well for one thing that explain a lot, no wonder guys keep checking female body out.

So solution one is make myself look unattractive. Solution two is learn Kung fu or self-defense because female body are weak and fragile.

Human being are not perfect, so I am sure I will make dumb decision in the future.

But over this month, I really hit myself with some tough question. 

Saitou: “Am I going to marry a guy?  Am I going to marry a girl? Or am I going to marry a person who are just like me? “

My answer at that moment was “ I am not going to marry any of them” I mean we are all human being and what human are so good for so long is being able to adapted to their environment. I might be able to adapt in the future, but as of right now I don’t have any desire to date anyone.

Not to mention that my body is also different from a guy body. When I said different I don’t mean boobs and those kinds of stuff. What I mean is that women and men body has different stuff at the micro level, like what I have mention before about male and female hormones.

Saitou: “I really want to cry right now; these stuffs are just too depressing”

NO!!! I got to man up. Mom, dad, and sis if you are in heaven please watch over me.

I then take a long breath. sign

I guess I’ll get ready for school tomorrow.

*

When I was still a former boy, my name was Saitou Aki but since I turn into a girl. I don’t want to use the same last name, so my name at school will be Saitou Amino from now on.

You ask why I kept my first name. Well Satou represent that I was once a boy while Amino represent my girl form.  

Now I need to get ready for school.

I dress myself in my new uniform and put my boy uniform in my bag. I bought a new boy uniform because my former uniform is too big for me.  I then put small pillow around my belly and doll size pillow on my arm.  I use duct tape and taped them around my body then I use my uniform to cover them.

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Saitou: “hmmmmm looks good”

Sakura: “ Aniki, oops I mean onee-chan breakfast is ready!”

Saitou: “ Coming! and don’t call me onee-chan. Just called me Satou”

When I got downstairs everyone was already at the table. But as I got into their range, everyone just sat on their chair looking at me.

Amino family: “……………”

Sakura: “Oh no onee-chan! did the side effect make you fat!!!!”

Akari: “ Dear let call the school and tell them that Satou can’t come to school today.”

Handa(Sakura dad): “….yea let do that right away”

Saitou: “Stop! Stop ! stop! Stop! Nothing is wrong with me, I just tape pillow to my body to make me look chubby because I don’t want people attention at school”

Sakura: “phew good, you scare me for a second there”

Sakura: “it such a shame though, I mean if I got that body of yours. I would have gone to school with it. I probably will be popular too.”

And who’s fault is it that I have to go to school looking like this to begin with!!!!

Handa: “you must have your reason why you did that, so I won’t ask you any further, but if you want to talk we are here for you”

Saitou: “Thank you”

Handa: “now let all eat. You guys don’t want to be late to school do you?”

After we finished eating, we all went our separate way.

*

When I enter through the school gates, there is a hill that lead up to the school.

After a five minute climb through the sakura trees lining the side of the road, I arrive at the school.

The school campus includes a baseball field, two soccer fields, three gymnasiums, an indoor swimming pool, six tennis courts, and something like a track field. 

After six minute walked in the hallway, I finally arrived at my classroom 3B.

As class is about to start I was nervous if I can make any friends since I never made one before. For me, wanting a friend to talk to and getting a lot of attention are two different things if you get what I mean. 

I also change to a different class so that’s another reason why I am nervous.

Teacher: “all right there a new transfer student I like to introduce you to, today”

As I walk into the classroom and about to introduce myself. A student raises his hand.

Teacher: “yes , what is it?”

Student A: “why do we always have new transfer student”

Teacher: “good question, it's because the main character of this novel is in this class(going to be though)”

Student B: “that makes sense”

What the, tell me that I am hearing things.

Saitou: “……….”

Saitou: “umm my name is… Satou Amino…Please to meet you and I hope to get along with you all. If you are wondering why I am wearing a mask ummm…. I don’t know the reason, but the doctor told me to wear it at all time”

That was a lame ass lie, but who cares as long as it works.

Hand clapping

Teacher: “alright Satou, your seat will be at the back next to the window”

Sweeeeeet!!! 

It’s also sweeter that no really bother or pay attention to me.

They probably think that it’s just another weird kid in their classroom and lose interest quickly.

Everything is going as planned.

*

As fourth period ended, Lunch begin.

At last! I can stretch my leg now. Don’t get me wrong, but sitting like a girl for four hours makes my leg feel funny. Plus, it makes me feel weird or gross out that I have to sit like a girl. I don’t want to sit like a boy in this form either, since people will start calling me a “whore” and it’s troublesome.  Girls sure have it hard, I mean a guy can sit in all kind of weird way and no one criticize them. But for girls it’s a different story. Girls have a mandatory style of sitting and if they don’t follow that rule, they get criticize.

Akari and Sakura did teach me most of these stuffs. Even though I hate it I must accepted what is real right now and move forward.

As I grab my lunch and begin to make my way to the roof. A chubby girl(Suki) called out to me.

This girl has honey golden hair and blue eyes that shined like the winter’s night sky. I think she would have been pretty if she loses weight, but I’m not going to judge.

Suki: “ummm my name is Suki Akagi. Nice to meet you”

Saitou: “oh, my is Satou Amino. Glad to meet you”

Suki: “ummm I don’t have any friends in this school…... umm would it be alright if…… no I mean can I be your friend?”

My brain just went blank for a moment.

Saitou: “yes!!! I would gladly be your friend”

My first friend (Satou's tear of happiness is flowing down his face. Satou's mask is blocking Suki from seeing his(her) tears)

Saitou: “hey I am going to eat on the roof, would you like to join me”

Suki: “I would love too”

We then make our way to the roof.

*

As Suki and I found a spot on the roof. We take out our lunch boxes.

Suki: “Satou, your lunch looks delicious. Did you make it yourself?”

Saitou: “thanks, my aunt(Akari) made it for me.”

By the way, my lunch box has chicken rice with a warm salad. Also, I have some asparagus rolls and fried eggs.

I’m not going to lie, the lunch Akari made looks delicious plus I’m really hungry right now.

Just by looking at it makes me want to gulp this lunch in one go, but Suki is here with me. So, I probably shouldn’t do it.

Proof!

Male self(Satou): “You worked hard today….so who care about manner”

Female self(Satou): “are you going to eat in front of Suki-chan without manner?...That’s unacceptable”

Then they started hitting each other.

Male self(Saitou): “(he)She’s hungry!!!”

Female self(Saitou): “have some shame!!”

Poof! They disappear from my head.

Sign

Might as well eat with some manner first.

I can’t get use to girl’s way of eating!!!! my arm is twitching from trying to eat my lunch in an elegant way.

(every time Saitou eat, she(he) have to lift her mask just enough so that people don't see her face.)

But Suki is my first friend so I better take notes of her preference.  I mean I don’t want to eat like a savage until I know more about her.

After we finished eating. We got back to our classroom.