Hello again everyone, as you know, my name is Ren Kanzaki. You can say I am the protagonist in this story.

Now then, let us continue the story of my past.

By the way, until where I tell the story?

........ Ah right, now I remember.

You know, if you think about it, I can threaten them with photo and make them do what I want.

However, will that make me worse than them? Yes in general, and no in my opinion.

I know they free to love, but they hurt me from the back. I don’t know if they did it unconsciously or not, but the pain in my heart is real, and is really hurt.

But, if I do it, I will eventually become a criminal.

At that time, I was fifteen years old. I still have a very long road ahead and I don’t want to fall with one stupid move.

In the end though, I still have to go to school.

When I met them in school, I can’t think the two of them same as before anymore.

I began to avoid them. They had asked me why I avoid them. Do you know what my answer?

I tell them, ‘Sorry, but please don’t show your face to me anymore.’.

At first, they don’t understand why I said that to them. They keep come to me and ask why I avoid them.

However, I keep avoid them, and our friendship finally destroyed when my ex-friend and I fight before the exam until I win and tell him to left me alone before I left him.

In the end, the final exam came. I pass the exam and became a second year. I also move into grade D.

Why I move into a grade D? I can easily move into grade C or B, and with effort, I can even move into grade A. But I didn’t, why?

First, as you know, I want to move from the grade E as soon as possible because there is someone that I want to avoid.

Second, because the grade A is full of asshole that has too much pride, and grade C and B is the most populated class.

Grade D, even though is make me hard to find a job or go to college, that is a most few class in the school, and little of them is a bastard because they still in lower grade.

By the way, in this school you get a different tie based on your grade and difference blazer based on your year.

From grade E to S is black, yellow, blue, green, red, white, and from first to third-year is grey, brown, and cream.

By the way, about how much you must score to move a grade, the school posts the whole student’s exam score and their new grade on the big board in hall.

In the holidays, I still feel the pain from my broken heart.

I don’t know about other people, but I can’t move on quickly like a bullet.

I read and watch any comedy story, manga, novel, TV show, anything to forget the pain. I also ate many at that time, so I am little fat now.

I also play some game, offline and online. I keep play it until I am bored.

Finally, I take the course about boxing, and brought the heavy bag and put it in my room after I got the approval from the landlord.

In boxing, I learn how to make a good and hard punch. I also learn the basic about attack and defense in boxing.

In the end, I quit the course, but I keep training in my room. Even though I rarely training, but I often use my bag to release my anger.

I keep my hair short, because I really don’t like long hair, that’s make me itchy. Still, I lengthen my bangs. Why? To make me look gloom and make people avoid me.

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Last and most important, I tried to seal my heart. How?

Try to kill it. Your heart can’t die, but if you keep suppress and kill what your heart say, you will eventually seal it, or other people say you make it dull.

Don’t worry, I am not such a coward that will seal his heart forever. I will open it, but not now. I will wait until I think I become a bit mature.

In the end, the holiday end, and the school start again.

When I became a second year student, my opinion to people had change drastically.

When they say one second can make people change, they don’t really wrong.

One more thing, the internet is scary. You can make a bad person become good, good person become bad, bad person become worst, even good person become worst.

Internet, anything can happen in internet and sometime that’s make me scared. Make the truth into lie and lie into truth.

Good thing and bad thing, bad and good people thought, all of it can you found in internet.

Internet can change you, and internet had changed me.

Internet had changed my view about people, and I grateful for that, really.

I also am become avoided in the class as I hoped. One factor is for my long bangs, and other factor is for my changed personality.

I always ignore the people that talk to me. I only talk to them if it is an important thing.

However, they said human is a social being. Are they right? Yes.

Human is a social being, they can’t do anything without other human.

I will go crazy if I don’t talk to anyone even for three days. Moreover, internet and social media became my solution.

I become anonymous and free to say what I want. If there is a people that don’t agree with me, we will debate until we know who right and wrong.

Peoples still insult me, but the one who do that is decrease, why? Because a grade D student wouldn’t insult another grade D student.

I keep live like that until the mid-exam.

In mid-exam, I don’t change my grade, even though I really want to move into grade C, in there is full of people until I don’t think I can handle it.

So, that’s my about bitter love stories.

I know, from that stories I am the stupid one here.

I know that’s I am a coward who doesn’t brave enough to say what I want, and I also don’t brave enough to look and accept the reality.

But, you know, every person is different. At that time, I just a kid who moves by his heart and feeling, And when that heart and feeling itself is covered by pain, he doesn’t even care about who right and wrong.

So, as someone that still can’t control his own heart, he chose to seal it and wait until he ready than just don’t do anything and feeling the same pain over and over again.

Yeah, some people will say I just make an excuse, but I think…. or hope there is another people who will understand what I said, maybe.

Human sometime can be such a simple creature, but human also can be more complex than the universe itself.

Hahaha, let’s just end this depressing topic.

From now on, I will tell you short stories about how the young me that’s live in this school with his ‘little’ weird personality.

So for now, see you again.