- New Life? -

Just like that, I cried them all out. The regrets I had, the crushed dreas I had, everything. Literally everything that I have never ever dared nor grasped in the life I've had before and she, just like that as well. Embraced me on her arms, some tears fell from her eyes to my head until I wasted out my energy and faded to my unconsciousness.

As I gained back my consciousness, I am on a fancy bed with some fancy blanket and pillows. my wet clothes are dried up and clean. I take a look around me and realizing I'm still inside that spacious hall with the pillars and throne while the lady who embraced me sit on a chair beside my bed looking right at me like waiting for any words came out from me or getting back to the reality.

I step out from the bed, the lady's stare is following my movement while stepping out from there. I stand next to her, bowed down my head to her and apologize.

"I'm sorry I yelled and let my steam out up on you, um.. God?", I apologized as sincere as I can.

The lady stand up from her chair while shoving it away without a single word. While she did those, I lifted my head a little bit just to peek on whatever she's doing. She stand right infront of me, and bowed her head down to me whose bowing down to ask for an apology which I have said rude things and behaviours toward her.

"I do, as well apologize for unable to help you whose trying to help your family, Kishien.", The lady apologize sincerely to me.

My heart shocked. The lady who claimed she's a God is bowing her head down and apologizing to me?

I intinctively bowed myself down even further by doing a 'dogeza' infront of her.

"No, God. It was mine. I failed so much in the life you gave me and yet, I whined over those to you. It was my fault.", I replied her apology whole doing the dogeza.

I am sure she can hear my apology clearly while doing a dogeza.

She reaches out her hand down to me. She shifted herself down on her knee to reach my shoulder.

"I accept your apology, Oh child of mine.", She accepted my apology with such a smooth voice that I have never heard before.

I raise myself after she accepting my apology. I sit infront of her on the floor. She, who saw me sitting on the floor infront of her, also shifted her position from kneeling on one knee to sit on the floor infront of me as well in such a ladylike manner.

"Are you not suprised, or not believing any of my words, Kishien?", She asked.

"Ah.. If you mention it.. I do suprised actually. I want to not believing any of it including the possibility that I am already dead while trying to save a girl whose jumping off from a bridge. But you see, I am here right now. So, none of them matters anymore. Even regrets those I still have left until now, are becoming a memory of my previous life, I suppose?", I replied.

She listened to my answer and still remained in silence like she knew I still have something in my mind.

"Umm.. Is this the moment where I am getting my judgements between the heaven or hell like in some religions said?", I asked.

"I'm afraid it is not, my child.", She answered with a lady mannered smile.

"So... what's this situation?", I asked blankantly.

She giggled with a warm smile hearing my question. She waved her right arm gently. The beddings and the chair slowly faded to nothingness. I, who witnessed such, quite amazed and shocked actually.

"There are few before you who have met me. Some of them did as well let the fury out on me. Some of them panicked. They were indeed had their own circumtances. But you, My child, the first one to be the such a realist one.", She said.

I just sit there, listening to her closely with my formal outfits.

"I am Gaia the start. The only Goddess of the beginning and creation.", She claimed.

I am quite shocked with her claim. As I only ever known some gods in my previous life from the globally acknowledged religions. Still, I maintained my silence and listening to her really carefully.

"Before we start, would you like to know the reason why I did not help you out when you were still living down there?", She offered.

"No, Goddess Gaia, I don't.", I answered.

Yes, indeed, I did say No. As it is no longer matters much to me since I have already dead. Knowing or not knowing about it, will not change anything that have been in the past.

"...Well then. I will proceed."

"I will reincarnate you to this new world before you. The world itself is 4 times bigger than the previous world you had. The developments are not yet far but still progressing even right this second while we're having the discussion. In this world, Mana exists. This world consisted of many races of beings living together but there are also races, beings, and monsters which may bring harms to other.", She explained.

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"So there are magic in this world?", I asked to confirm.

"As mana exists, the arts of manipulating or using the mana, are as well exist.", She replied with her smooth voice as she stood up and walk with her knees dragging the fancy dress on the floor to get closer to me.

I, whose seeing her doing that, just sit there in silence. Once she reached near enough to me, she reaches out both of her hands and embraced my cheeks.

With the suprised feeling inside me, I also feel the warmth of her touch on my cheeks spread out through my whole body like I was being bewitched with witchrafty.

I looked at her face and eyes, she smiled warmly. She's shoving her face towards me closer. I who saw that, shocked in my heart but still maintained my composure, and closed my eyes instinctively as it is quite embarassing for me.

I can feel she sticked her forehead on my forehead while her palms embracing my cheeks. And so, the pleasant warmth which enveloped my body is raising further.

I'm starting to feel limp all over my body but in a pleasant way like the feeling of falling asleep. Then, I hear some symphonies of poems inside my head with a smooth voice which soothe soul inside me which came from Goddess Gaia's voice.

"Oh this child of mine..

The Son of mine..

I granted you, your soul, to live your life the second time in this world of mine..

Live your life to the utmost..

And walk you way to your dreams..

Reach for them, the ones you cerish and trust, as you venture around this world..

Seek for the truth, even for yourself.."

"Oh, My poor child..

Reach the sun and the moons with your own hands..

Ignite your will and around you to reach even further..

Good and bad existed, reacting vigorously to each other..

Illuminate the darkness with the light, as the darkness will envelop the light..

Neither hope nor despair may come, if you won't embrace them, in your journey.."

"Oh child..

Forge your own stories with your own hands through the history..

The dawn is breaking for those who seek the light warmth..

Honour comes to those whose fight for the right..

Engraving your names, to the very heart of others.."

"Tears of joy or sadness..

Impurity of all perfections..

As you walk through the darkest swamps..

Might you suffer or prosper from those..

Agony or peace shall rewarded you..

To the very last, it may last.."

"And lastly, my child..

To you, I entrusted you my blessing.."

At the end of those symphonies, I can feel her lips kissing my forehead very gently before I finally fainted, again.

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I woke up in the middle of somewhere in a house. There's a baby crib in this room, the room itself somehow has a quite familiar view. For now I am just looking at this baby room with my working clothes on me.

Suddenly the door behind me opened and some chatter noises outside the room can be heard slightly. I turn my head back to see whose coming, and suprisedly I am truly shocked.

It was my father and mother!

In shocked, My tears of joy and sorrow fell down through my eyes. I ran to them trying to hug and embrace them, but as I get near to them.. I was simply passing through them like a spirit.

In that moment, I realized this was only my dream about my past. I turn myself back again to see them. I can clearly they smile, laugh and happy with the baby me. The laugh and smile were sincere and so true. They seem to be really proud of me being their son which they yet to know that the son of theirs are just a failure at anything.

I smiled a little. I am feeling grateful that at least I can see my father again even this just a dream. I put my back against the wall next to the door, looking at the the three of them playing happily together.

After sometime, the pitchblack striked me again. But my consciousness is still intact. I am trying to understand the current situation I am in right now. I can hear voices of people and activities around me. I also can feel I am against something soft, perhaps I am on a bed?

I also get that I am in a lying position. So I'm sure that I am on a bed. But what I don't get it just, slowly but sure I am feeling pain almost all over my body. Where the hell is this? Is this dream again?

Finally, I try to open up my eyes. I can slowly clearly seeing the wooden ceiling with a simple classic lamp hung there. I pull myself up to sit on the bed. The blanket which covering me fell on my lap. I take a look on my ownself.

Both of my hands are covered with bandage. They look so small. Am I a kid now? Is this my past? But, I don't recall my past has this kind of classic views and mostly hurt as bad as this? I don't think I have ever experiencing this before.

I'm trying to feel on my face but some parts of my head are also bandaged. my neck as well. The cloth I am using right now is pretty simple but a little loose. So I can see that the inside me is also bandaged until my stomach. The bandages look pretty neatly done anyway. Some stains of blood covering some spots of the bandaged areas.

I'm trying to move myself up. Pain is covering my whole body as I moved around. But still bearable. As I pull My feet to the side of the bed, I can as well clearly see my feet also bandaged and staines with some tiny blood stains. Gah, what the hell did I do until I am getting bandgaed like a mummy like this.

As I am trying to get down from the bed, the door which right in the corner of the room behind me opened.

"Oh..!", A lady voice grasped.

I turned my head back to see who that is. I saw a girl with a nun-like clothes holding a tray with foods and drinks on it.

"FATHER!! THE KID HAS WAKE UP!!", She screamed with her head heading outside the door's entrance.

I shocked. That cute girl has some power on her throat I suppose. It qas quite loud. I can clearly hear some running steps outside my room as the girl walks toward my direction with the spoken tray. She gently put the tray on the small drawer next to the bed behind me. I pulled back my feet up on the bed so I can turn my whole body to the girl direction in a sitting manner. She smiles, I confused.

Then after, A man with glasses, not too old, maybe around his early 30s come inside the room with some sweat on his forehead.

He shocked looking at me, again, I am confused. The girl sit on the edge of the bed near the drawer which she put the tray with the food on. She gives a gently gesture with her hand to come nearer to her. I obediently followed her gesture and crawling with my pain and bandages covered body to her.

I sit next to her in a confused manner. She pats my head gently. I only obediently stayed in silence while she doing that because for some reason, it feels nice.

The man with glasses reaches the side of my bed before I know it. He squated down looking at me being pat-ed at my head with his warm smile.