Author's note:

As the sun rises, my eyes still haven't closed… my mental stability is lacking…

The internet has become unstable… it had left me in despair…

Worsts days are happening more frequently…

But I'm not even mad yet…

Please send help…

Remember, I'm writing to have fun…

Because I'm having a bad time… And no, I'm not fighting sans…

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Help me by pointing out mistakes you see in the chapter as it will help me improve~

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Volume 1 Chapter 18: An existence that devours

I don't know how I failed my quest, given that I still have the skull cap equipped, but I decided to dig into this matter a little more deeper at another time. Because right now, I want to- No, I decided to…

Give up.

For me to give up like this, maybe it's because of the accumulated stress (that I gained from the previous incident) affecting my way of thinking. But nonetheless! My motivation has already reached zero! And that's not all~ It seems that I've also sustained some kind of damage (Mentally)!!

Seeing that this world is quite similar to a game, the delusions of having some kind of "reset button" or something similar appeared! My mind was slowly drifting away from the current reality in front of me, but of course, I disregarded such idiotic thoughts and accepted things as it is.

With the failed quest and lost motivation, I no longer have any reason to hide my identity.

And asking them for their cooperation was a better choice after all~

I replaced my previously broken attitude with a polite one. I also removed the skull cap that was covering my face and gave out an excuse of "I was possessed!". I also warned them that they needed to keep the content of the meeting a secret as to prevent any unnecessary development.

As the meeting went on, Feru did not talk and started to look unusually sleepy.

Seeing that she can no longer fight her sleepiness, I let her dozed off while using me as some sort of pillow…

Thanks to our actions, everyone responded differently:

-The council members-

Unlike the princes and princesses here, they're quite experience in political talk and how to discern a person's nature.

Because of the sudden change in my character, they've began showing little signs of hostility as a test. Although they were like that, they were sincere with their words and actions.

They kept their guard up and were prepared to attack at any given moment!

They've loosen their sharp glare when the carefree Feru hugs me tightly from behind while she sleeps. It seems like the council members were weak to this sort of thing.

Regarding their current emotions… confusion, hesitation, relief and sincerity.

-The princes-

They were a prideful bunch! The moment my attitude changed to a kind one, they started belittling me and treated my proposal as if I'm begging them to accept. It seems like I damaged their pride a bit too much earlier…

Since it doesn't look like their treatment will escalate that badly (Because they're still afraid), I let them off and didn't retaliate. It's much faster if I were to ignore such obvious provocations.

Reading their current emotions… Jealousy…? The heck!?

-The princesses-

Although they were hesitant at first, slowly but surely, they've began developing some sort of interest when Feru used me as a pillow. I magnificently ignored some of them as their questions were way off topic.

Their current emotions are… Cuddly- wait what? Seriously?! Is that even an emotion?

I should be more suspicious about it, the ability of emotion reading came from that girl right?

But I've already given up, so I'll be using it without reserve~

Although the meeting has a different atmosphere compared to our earlier incident, it continued more smoothly and things proceed in my favor.

I wanted to go sightseeing since it's another world. So I thought of something…

Under the pretext of "Searching for Ancient Evil", I was given a pass that removed restrictions when visiting different countries.

And seeing that I might have some problems along the way…

Under the pretext of "Destroying Ancient Evil", they were willing to give me any necessary support when I ask for help. I also asked for the Hero's (Tyler) cooperation.

Seeing that everyone easily accepted, I thought  that I was on the bad side of the deal. But it was fine though~ It was very beneficial for me~ And it's not like I lied to them about helping… I'm just going to do it while enjoying myself~

I already know where and I have some power. My goals are also aligned with everything; Sightseeing and helping my friend return to our original world.

The meeting ended without any troubles.

It seems like everyone was satisfied with the outcome.

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The cold feeling finally disappeared! But I felt the severe effects of the Cursed Equipment!!

I quickly borrowed a spare room and changed my clothes to the Assassin Equipment.

Since Feru was still asleep, I had to carry her as I go.

Fortunately, I was able to meet up with Tyler again. I asked him to carry Feru for me.

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Because he was unwilling, I told him that; one, it would look weird if a small boy (in appearance) were to carry someone bigger than him, and two, I needed to tell him the plans of sightseeing and sending him back home.

Tyler consented while looking embarrassed.

After explaining everything to him, he has this complex expressions on his face. If his hands weren't occupied with carrying Feru, he'd be face palming so hard right now. But still, without a shred of doubt, he accepted my plan.

Although he's hiding his emotions, I don't need to use that (weird) ability to know that he's happy.

That happiness wasn't because of the two hills pressing from behind his back, he was happy because he has a chance to go home.

"Don't look at me like that… You're the one who asked me to carry her…" (Tyler)

"I know…" (Nero)

I know… but my glare didn't stop… Even though he read me like a book.

We continued talking until we reached the mansion and then parted ways.

As per our agreement, we'll be meeting up at the restaurant from before.

One of the maids helped me in carrying Feru back to her room.

And since I was feeling a bit tired, I decided to turn myself in earlier than usual.

That was a bad decision on my part…

Because that annoying girl greeted me in my dreams…

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"Welcome back~ If I must say, that was very entertaining~ ?" (???)

I'm sitting on a chair inside that girl's bedroom, and in front of me was a beautiful girl sipping her tea.

Because of her etiquette, I almost mistook her as some kind of princess from a far away land…

Even though I just met a few of them earlier, her level is somewhere beyond them.

She also looks happy for some reason.

"Everything was all your fault though?" (Nero)

"Don't worry~ I took everything back remember~?" (???)

She shrugs and said it as if everything was fixed!

But before I could complain, I started to wonder what she took back. When I asked, she said she took "part of my insanity" and "Feru's insanity and memories".

I started pressing for a better explanation!

"Remember your past actions? You weren't the only one influenced by my unique ability~" (???)

It wasn't a better explanation! This girl is not plan on explaining anything to me!

I was left with no choice but to think for myself!

If I remember correctly, it felt like I was becoming more emotional and acted…

Ugh… This is giving me a headache… But I understand… Somewhat…

"I know that you and Feru are connected in some way… Can you tell me why?" (Nero)

"I see~ Since we've got a lot of time in our hands~ I'll tell you my story~" (???)

Her story consist of her life in the previous world.

The previous world she resided on was the same as this one (Veran), although the intellectual races there was limited to three; Humans, Demons, and Angels. (She omitted the races description)

She says that she, herself, was in fact a demon and that she was born with a special ability to merge her soul to another one upon death and absorb it. Because of her actions of moving from body to body upon and gaining the abilities of the souls she absorbed, it wasn't long before she became a Lesser God. (She didn't care to explain any further)

But in the end, she grew bored of the world. To stop her boredom from growing, she caused great destruction and chaos upon the world until she became known as the God of Calamity. (Again, she didn't explain anything)

Years later, an Angel descended from the heavens. That Angel assisted the humans in hopes of removing the plague (God of Calamity) from the world. Because that Angel was a special existence, she was defeated. But soon after death, her special ability activated and her soul merges with the Angel's. (Yup, still no useful explanation)

She wasn't aware that the Angel had knowledge about her ability. The Angel used that chance to let herself be killed in order for her to disappear. It resulted in both of them being sent to the void. (…She's messing with me)

For how long? They didn't know, but a light appears from out of nowhere and offers them freedom if they passed the trial. After passing the trial, their soul was placed inside Feruniru. (…Then why're you in my body!?)

Since the person here doesn't seems like she wants to explain anything properly.

I gave up~

"Really~ The name you've given her fits quite well~ Fenrir, The one that devours Gods~" (???)

No, what're you talking about? While it's true that the name Feruniru comes from the sounds of Fe' nr' i' r'. Though I only used it when the name Fenrir was already taken in online games. But Feruniru became more favorable due to constant use. There's no real meaning behind it.

But… She then looks at me seriously…

I finally remember the fact that this girl can read my mind…

"I'm going to give you a warning since you're also a God" (???)

So seeing her going so seriously…

I was caught off guard by the sudden change and felt a bit scared.

But…

She only made a dirty joke about Feru eating me up…

Just like that, the serious atmosphere was shattered like glass…

The next morning…

I woke up to a crushing feeling…

Feru is right beside me and was treating me as a pillow…

Maybe what she said was true…