I know how my mother, the Empress of this Empire, lived her life in this palace. I know how she died, who assassinated her and why she didn't want revenge against those people.

In the palace, I know many things that are hidden from me. Many things which can lead to the destruction of the royal family.

Brothers and sisters, sorry for the times when I got mad at you or was mean to you, but I was really happy when you were all born.

You were so small and cute I thought angels descended to earth. I wish to be an excellent and responsible elder brother to you all.

Even if I am unable to meet you I would be glad to give you everything you desire. You were all innocent of the backstabbing of the palace.

Despite my best efforts, I could not fully protect you all from the Palace's tricks and harms.

Still this elder brother of yours wants you to be happy.

May all the happiness which would come to me belong to you little ones.

I had wished to be loved by everyone like they loved you dear brothers and sisters.

With all my heart, I pray that my brothers and sisters grow up healthy.

That you find happiness which I couldn't find. Your future will be filled with happiness rather than conflict.

Thank you for letting me be your elder brother and take care of your parents.

The people I loved have flown as if they were firework over and over again and disappeared without me being able to embrace them.

The life I have lived so far has been extremely challenging for me.

I just wanted to live like everyone else, but I was elected as crown prince early and burdened by heavy responsibility.

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The stress of having to meet with someone all the time, reading piles of documents, judging everyone, and protecting myself from threats.

Although I often contemplated leaving due to mental stress, I was bound to stay in the palace for the next eighteen years.

Life was never easy from the beginning to the end.

After my mother there was only one person I cared for and loved wholeheartedly and that was Rose, my ex-fiancée. However, I wasn't good enough for her to give me a glance.

Rose is my second love after my mother and the last love of my life.

The first time I saw her was when we were children, and suddenly she became my fiancé. She was so cute. It was love at first sight but one- sided.

In this world of billions of people I believed she is the one and only for me.

So she could start her day fresh like flowers, I delivered flowers to her home every day and I sent a letter to her everyday with well wishes and love quotes. I sent her gifts.

I did everything for her happiness.

My mother used to tell me to never make a girl cry and if there is someone I love, for her happiness I should give up everything. Cause it hurts more when the person you love cries and avoids you.

The past few years have been like a flower among rocks, different and alone.

God must have wanted the world to be happy so he had to give all misfortune to someone and I was the chosen one.

I find it funny to remember the feeling of being loved by someone after my mother died.

The one who loved me has been taken by God, and the one who hates me is still alive.

The only two people who stayed by my side during this time were my personal maid as well as my nanny and butler.

It's not easy to live when everyone around you hates and loathes you for being yourself. There is no joy in being alive.

Taking a look back, my life was filled with darkness without even a ray of light, and even if there was light, it had already faded.

To hell with this place! To hell with this time! To hell with the devil, and to hell with all his works!

I am tired of living alone. I want someone who will stand by me when I feel alone, depressed, hurt, happy, shy and angry.

I can't understand why no one loves me as much as I do them. It seems like everyone else has something to offer, but I don't.

Now I hope that everyone will be happy after I depart.

Live the life you wanted. Live with joy, Just remember there used to be someone who was the black star of the bright royal family.

In retrospect, I feel irritated about everyone and everything that has happened lately. However, I was the one who stayed in the palace for eighteen years to fulfill the promise, not because anyone wanted me to stay.

I remember my mother used to say " I think even the moon cries for someone at night because the leaf has water droplets in it in the morning."

I was not welcomed, humiliated, despised, and hated by everyone before, but now hatred is behind us with the end of Crown Prince Alex, so I don't hate anyone now.