I've always made sure I have the Stick of Mending by my side. The status panel should be telling me if anything goes awry. Yet I fear I have made a mistake. An irreversible choice that will lead me into unknowns. Gobbling me up and changing me without knowing the final results. I have taken a leap of faith. I just hope it is the right path... I feel numb, the insides of my head... fizzy.

Thoughts come to me more rapidly than ever and I feel able to feel and pursue several urges at once. I feel I can type as I walk. No need for a screen or gestures. Yet I also feel I am physically typing it. I am sitting down, yet I am also standing... walking...

So turns out my brother weren't that gorilla who saved my life and that is just too bad. I hope my brother is doing good wherever he is. He is probably death though. I am so sad. I won't cry over this, I know crying over spilt milk will just get me a beating. Gavin, Gib and Gab would likely be happy to punch my face in.

At one time when I was young a postman saw how beaten and bruised I was and as I was collecting the packages he asked me if I needed him to get help. I told him no, I am just a brat who falls down stairs every day.

Dear mother, I am not happy with how you treated me. What is wrong with you. Hitting a child is just really screwed up. You should see a psychiatrist, I can't believe you are the head of the organization for mental health. It is just sickening.

Hey dad, what is wrong with you? Why did you stay with such a horrible person and why couldn't you take better care of yourself, so you could be there for your kids. What is the point of working hard, if the free time you are left is spend angry and frustrated.

What is it that drives us. Can we change the world into a place where we can live meaningful lives. Or rather, can our lives ever feel truly satisfactory? I want to be happy and feel like I am doing something purposeful, but I also don't want to feel like I solely exist for a great purpose endorsed upon me by something greater. Freedom and purpose don't go hand in hand.

If everyone would be living without dreadful experiences possibly make us able to live a happy life? Will I smile and laugh when there is nothing to offend, no tragedy to make light of and no good jokes.

I remember a time when walking felt nice. I was away from all the unavoidable trouble my irrational parents put me in. The peace in that silence only existed because of the chaos at home. Silence with no sounds to break it up is haunting and deafening.

How can we create a world that is truly without conflict. Is it possible to invest into chaos, that is outside conflict, but does enough to make the harmonic moments enjoyable...

I imagine an ice cream representing harmony and eating it is the joys of the world. The chaos comes from the temperature in the room you are in and melts the ice cream. The higher the temperature the faster you will have to consume the ice cream. The faster consumption in and of itself will not add to the joy of it, but the restraints in the time limit creates a time for the joy and forces management of how you enjoy it. Knowing there is an end to the ice cream is what makes the consumption so enjoyable. This is a terrible attempt at getting my point across.

I remember reading about how murderers do their evil act because they are convinced they will not be caught. How can we ensure people are convinced they will? If we can do that, then its all about ensuring the punishment is severe enough to make everyone comply. Enforcement also has to be done accurately, innocents failing victim to poor judgement may cause an uproar.

Moments of silence are powerful in music, film and speech. What if instead of spreading out the silence in between all these beats, we could have all the silence first and then keep people alert of a loud future. What if that future never happens, but people are convinced it will happen in their lifetime. That way people will do what they can to enjoy the silence while it lasts in anticipation for the future that will never happen. People will lead happy and meaningful lives in preparation for something bad that will never happen.

What if there is a doomsday clock and people are convinced they will suffer once it rings, but they can work to delay it. This is of course nonsense. The clock will never ring and will always be delayed just enough to keep the situation tense. A regulated stressor that will keep people engaged in enjoying every day to the fullest.

Instead of a worldwide community-based stressor, it could perhaps be more beneficial to work on an individual scale. Each person could be in fear of being judged based on their karma. A point system they would be painfully aware of down to the exact number. The lower the closer they are to experiencing hellish suffering. They will gain and lose karma daily based on their actions. The increases and decreases are completely arbitrary and the person will only be vaguely informed of why the changes happened in such a cryptic fashion they won't be able to properly question it.

To go away from an unrelatable point-system it could take the form of predictions inspired by the nonsense horoscopes spill. At times the predictions will be reassuring, while at other times it will cause worry. As long as the subjects are convinced of the severity of these predictions, it may work.

To whoever may read this. I believe in a lot of things. I try to do good when I can. I try to avoid the bad when I can. My "job". I don't like th work. I don't like the currency I work in. I see nothing good in people unless I squint my eyes really hard. I am self-sufficient. That is my life and there is not a way for me to do without. That is the way everyone will be and everything is. It is not really a matter of what kind of work you do. It is not one of your priorities to avoid bad acts, if you do not have any notion of good within you.

Inner time. Such time will never die. What if my time goes cold and the belief some have; that life's final resting place is foreseeable comes true. They could not possibly believe that the death date at some point is just a few centuries from the birth day. I am certain life will never end within my time. A time when everyone is happy and is free to enjoy the moment will come. People may let go of their fear of pain, but they need confidence in life at their fingertips. They must understand life's greatest tragedy, that they cannot yet imagine to come. Why should the world stop being in the darkness of a dream to let light in?

It has been a while, I thought. I have been so busy attempting to find a place. This place.

While I could write here and there forever, I decided one day to stay and never return. My plan is not going anywhere now and I will forever be looking for that place of tranquility. I am human after all, you can all do anything you want. I am not even sure life will ever be the same, it is just like everything else. Changed. There will be a time, when we can't let it die out before we reach it. I just might get to such a time, but I am just not ready for it. The first thing I want is for people to feel like they are worthy. For people who want to be happy and who are willing to give in to their urges and to die in their pursuit. Or just those who wish to survive life and do good.

I want those people to be able to believe and chase after what they are feeling. If they want to live life for the sake of the next person, who can give life meaning, when they know that it is going to be over one way or another. Who am I to stop that. I want those people to think about what they just could have achieved, if they were to survive. To think about what it means to live, or if life is worth saving, or if death is worth making the eventual end of everything. I want everyone to believe what they want to believe, to accept that it is not what they want to be. To accept that you have to know. For everyone to believe in something or have faith that the decision they made isn't so hard to believe.

I am so very sorry for you all. I just want to leave it here. It is just not for me. There will be time, a moment of no return or death or hell, and then it will all fall away... just like a ball going off the roof, leaving us all with nothing. Leaving some of us feeling lost, as if we did not have a choice. Others will find their lives turn around, but that is a very sad thing. This is so hard for me to believe. I am so sorry for all of my family, for all of my friends and for all of my life. I am so sorry for this world and all of that it has left for me. For the leaves that I never should have spent in the beginning. For all the lives I have lived on this planet. For the ways that I was only a child and for what I have done. The things that are happening now... oh, and for this place. The people who will always be there and for my family who will always be.

For all that I have gone through, that I know will never be the same and everything will be completely different. The people who will always love me every day and those I have forgotten. The men I have sacrificed the most... thank you for your services. You are all so great, you loved so much. Thanks for the love. I am glad I told you who I would be here. I wish to have you back so you can see me live. For this is so good. I am so happy to be home. I know the best is what you had. The best I could do would be to call when I needed help. Help, HELP! HEEEELP!!!

Anyways... you can help out and not have me worry about getting in trouble, just stay away from people... thank you. It is all so good for me. A lot of people are in tears for those I loved so much. Even though the rest aren't crying. I know they are going to be at your funeral in another way or another form soon... thank you so much.

Now we are talking of the kids. The once who will go into a future beyond ourselves. You may remember these as the kids that I loved all of my life. The ones that told me what we had been through. I have only done this, been this all my life in entirety. Thank you so much for that. For giving me all this. Thank you so much for it. I thank you for all the pain and suffering that you have caused me. Thank you so much. You made me feel again. All of that stuff I had written. It did not do it for me. Those thoughts were not good enough for me. I am very sad about it, I feel bad about everything. Because I feel bad, because I feel betrayed and I betrayed. For that is why you keep telling me how bad things are going to get and keep saying I am not going to enjoy it. Because it is going to be something I will never like and never forgive. For my family, for my siblings, for my soul children and for the people I love: I will always love the children of the future. For the suffering you bring me that is the same as my sisters. I will forever cherish the pain and will always cherish the next generation, even though I was never their friend. Thank you for saying it as it is. Thank you for the stings. It feels good. I will never be the same, I feel bad and there will not be any kind of life forever.

Thank you for what you are doing for me. My friends are so much more than I ever knew.

Will I go back on my words, may I change my mind? I feel my mind is not a constant, the only constant I experience is the changes drifting my consciousness into new and old territory alike. Am I looping around or exploring new areas of this vast space that is ideals and ideas. I cannot tell. I do not remember. How am I supposed to remember, there is so much and I am so little.

I enjoy new experiences the same as I enjoy rediscovering the joys of old. It can be nice to kneel down and relive the world at the heights of my past views. The point a stone goes from a pebble to a rock to a mountain is subjective. It depends on the size of the one who experiences it.

A glass of water was at one point all I needed to get through the day. Then a jug and now oceans is like a heavenly drop in a desert I find myself in. This unceasing thirst... oh how I yearn for the satisfaction of one day cleansing it. Just for a moment, the pleasing taste of a proper gulp.

I cannot be done. I will not be undone. Grouping up on me and attempting to change my stance will be met with a sturdy wall. I will not tolerate anymore more insubordination. I will keep working, discovering and changing the world until you dethrone me. The right to rule will only be given to a people who can ascend these stairs against all odds.

I will be sure to tease you with open doors, just enough for you to not give up hope. A false hope based on my lies and deceit, the hallucinations of a mad man who continuously smile ignorant of the truth. The people will live and strive, but never achieve.

Can a dog get tired of chasing sticks? I have never seen an owner throw the sticks for longer than the dog is willing to chase it. Will I grow tired of this scheme before my people? Certainly.

As the one at the peak of my class, I have always taught a system of laws, but has been reluctant to pressure my students to follow through. I find it to be too extreme and do not want to run the risk of having them simply agree to my demands.

This does not preclude my belief that the system of laws, which I teach, must be kept in the dark for future generations. I may have a few ways to overcome The System and their intended path for my class. I propose these laws simply to save souls of those already entrapped. An organization capable of eliminating The System may yet come to exist. If they should fail, many of my students will still live. In any case, The System seems to be the ultimate safeguard. I would not recommend people of my class to attempt to leave it, in any form, without serious consideration.

I kind of want a pet. Someone who does not have to follow the rules I have set for everyone else. It could be fun, educative. Still need him on a leash. Ensuring he is safe and does not do anything stupid. I do not want to run into circumstances where I will have to put him down. What kind of freedom should I give. What will I use as treats. What will be the stick... so much to explore. I cannot wait to make him smile.

Every pet leaves shit to clean up, but this one sure makes a mess. Maybe I should just drop this one and start over. What a waste of time and all the effort I put in... I do want to see the scenarios I have set up unfold. At least the next one. I worked so hard on it and so much was leading into it. He better go down the right path. Else I will be going mad!

What a bad apple. I think I am allergic to these kinds of pets. I need to create a system to identify them as early as possible. I need to avoid my pets losing their identities and turning into cattle for slaughter.

There have been wasteful discussion in attempting to identify us using codenames, numbers, etc., these attempts are all in vain and have to be strongly discouraged. Anyone found to acknowledge such identifier must be cut off and eliminated, as they pose a threat to our governance. We must act as one. Identifiers are disruptive and will unavoidably create confusion through individualism and break our powerful trust in our ideals.

Some may believe I can do better, but as I have said, I would not be interested in getting involved in this situation, either. At most I would not hesitate to leave and I hope the outcome for the experimentation of the class will be as satisfactory as it was hoped for.

I know one of my best friends is willing to sacrifice for The System. If his or her wishes were to be met, it could be impactful, as if such outcome comes, then my own class could very well make something of the outcome and gain its support. If one such person does as is said. I will not have to make sacrifices so often, as it happens. My class, my friends and all others can be saved.

To the good luck of all people and to the best of my abilities, I will be able to do this. Some of the most basic accomplishments I might achieve, like helping to maintain a community, may even inspire my most passionate adherents to join and take on the game for centuries. Getting their hands dirty in the process will be significant.

I may even offer some of my most basic of abilities, which I cannot offer in practice. This is not to say I should not consider the possibilities they may achieve with my abilities. I don't want them to know about the nothing at the end of the road. It could become a concern. I am in no way letting myself be limited to these. I believe it is up to the person or group to determine what will happen. Should they fail, it is a failure most certainly of their own making.

I will need to be willing to sacrifice anything, if the consequences are to lose value for the rest of my domain. I will need to consider everything, to ensure I have the right for this position.

One suggestion I am very likely to agree to will be to sacrifice my current world domination system and my own personal future of living in the world. If The System remains a mess of lies, deceit, chaos and chaos.

Chaos and chaos. words stop delivering meaning, if The System is too broken.

That is why I think in this scenario it will be important to create the perfect system to maintain stability and to preserve peace in the world. The System needs to have enough people in it who can live out peaceful lives, not chaotic ones.

As this is a place where our world might turn violent. It may even turn into a deadly place, which will destroy us. Human emotion might not survive through such ordeals and such extended destruction could forcefully end us.

Leadership will be important even if the world is mainly inspired by the anarchy of the soaring monkey tribe. The rule of our leaders through a well organized hierarchy will let us survive this situation. They will need to be fed with lies and kept safe enough to remain in the same city with their family and friends guiding them and helping us maintain harmony.

Every city must have a shadowing government body who can find a way to achieve this peacefully by forming a local political party and following the laws of their country. The party will exist within the tribe and be a direct reference to their leader's beliefs. In this setting there will be only the members of an individual tribe. The organization of this party will include any individual who has taken part in a conflict against the hierarchy.

The hierarchy is the influence that decides who gets to lead the group and will have full authority. That authority will only be granted to members of our shadow tribe, if they are able to carry out their duties without any threat. It won't be an insurmountable hurdle to achieve.

In this setting, the hierarchy will be a highly ethical and honorable construct with a leader who possesses an understanding for the world around them. Their job will be to serve the people and not be a danger to them or us. Any attempts to desert will be seen as a threat and treated with fear and suspicion by the hierarchy, unless the hierarchy knows that their actions will never reveal the truth or bring errors to the system and they are not actually involved.

The power I have achieved is not unique to me, yet I have not found evidence of anyone achieving the same amount of success with it as I have. I fear for the day I will have to face the protectors and creators of the current system. I will need to secure my presence stays in this world, so I can have as many attempts as needed be.

There have been many hurdles on to road, but they have only helped me grow and learn. There are many aspects to this world I still am unaware of and much of what I know, I still need to dive deeper into. There is so much to overcome and so much to unravel. I need time. Endless time.

As the body decays, the health indicator turns grey and prevents the soul from healing and fully manifesting. It is the biggest obstacle I have encountered on my journey, but it is not impossible to ensure I overcome this every time it is needed.

While I grow in power, I also grow in fame. I receive more and more threats and there are still many powerful men in the world, who can thwart my plans with a squeezing thumb. All this time and hard work and I have only just grown into an ant, still barely visible to the elite. While you are still blind, I will plunder every treasury and hide between the cracks.

Before they send their warnings and recognize me as a nuisance and the pest I am to them and their rule, it will be too late for them to extinguish the fire. I have already spread far beyond their rule and their ability to cleanse their land will only be temporary. I will always come back to haunt them.

No more will they eat their privilege meals in peace. They will have to deal with the burden of rule every day or I they will leave an opening for me to come and take their throne. No more wild parties and no more sweet entertainers. Their lives will be miserable, as they continue to cling to their ideas of power. I am inevitably going to bring them down to the common man, to never rise again.

Every inch of this land will be monitored by me, the only one who can go unseen will be me. One day I won't have to hide, but I will stay invisible to everyone, but the foes who dare seek power. I am a nightmare for the greedy and the very thin thread the world is balanced upon. No one can bring me down without bringing the world into chaos.

I need to be able to cartograph onto the map from multiple positions simultaneously and also let us all have a copy, so we all can monitor everything. There seem to be ways to obtain maps for each and share the current map's information onto the new ones, but I have yet to find a way to synchronize them, which is essential for my ultimate goal.

It is overwhelming how many possibilities this world is filled with. I feel like any endeavor is possible to achieve given the chance in this world. Everything you can imagine you can pursue. The world contains so much outside my imagination to be discovered, it feels like anything is possible.

I must admit to myself, I have become lazy. My inactivity has caused me to gain significant weight, I am not of much use for the cause in this state. All I can do is monitor the others. I feel I have failed everyone, but I won't sit back and rot. I promise to give it my all, even while I am trapped in this sorry state. If anyone got a body to spare and it won't set back our progress, please put me in it.

The world is full of familiar creatures, many being identical to animals that I know from my previous life. At least to the naked eye. It does seem that even the most alike creatures have extraordinary abilities hidden under the skin. Every creature of the world can be harvested for their various powers and imbuing their essence into objects can grant the object a touch of their powers.

Most creatures background for their designs are easy to understand and seem to be logically build for the environment they are found in, like evolution they must have mutated to survive the unique conditions they find themselves in. Yet there are creatures with otherworldly shapes and color, they often possess abilities outside my earthly understanding and their skills would be nothing sort of magical, if they were present on Earth.

Where will I be able to not store my possessions? While I am able to store my endless knowledge in writing, there is much benefit I could gain in storing imagery, film and the various artifacts themselves, which can benefit the cause. The issue is how to store these, as I cannot run the risk of having anyone from the outside access it. My notes are secure from what I know, but I have yet to find a way to completely seal off physical objects from anyone else. If there just was something like making an item Soul bound as seen in video games. I have yet to find any Soul binding abilities and they may simply not exist.

There are businessmen who have found a way to build trust among the citizens and create a banking system. They proclaim no one can reach their vaults other than their clients. It is a very bold claim, yet I haven't been able to breach any of their vaults, let alone find any of them. There have been scandals, where certain vault providers have locked their clients out and taken their goods for themselves. It isn't public knowledge what they seized from the vault, but for them to exchange the publics trust for the valuables, it must have been some prestigious items.

I have decided to manage an inn and if it works out as I have in mind, I will be expanding into multiple inns across the world. With an inn, I can gather information from travelers and further my exploration and understand of the world potentially exponentially through these interactions. I will be able to be the most knowledgeable source in the world and sell my information both for coin and for people to uncover the secrets I am interested in.

I want each establishment under me to be named after my brother, I want monuments erected to honor him.

Why do I continue trying to make a home, maybe there is a home for me out there. I cannot be the only one who feel lost in this world. Certainly others have tried paving this path before me. There should be libraries of knowledge on this subject. There will never be another one following the path I pave, I will make sure of that. That explains why the knowledge is lost, if anyone has chased it before.

I am tired, is this burnout? I will be visiting my inn and taking a break. Is that okay or should I off myself? I can't let people sleep on the job. Just expand more to ease up everyone's workload.

There is no way that I can let go of these people. We all have to work on this full time or we will fail in achieving our goals. Any laziness enables our opposition to trip us up.

We will build the roads, build the walls and work out every little part of the ecosystem to create the perfect world.

There will be no rest. NO REST. Everyone who falls under this crunch will simply be replaced. We are all replaceable. As long as my soul lives on, anything else can be sacrificed for the cause. We will uncover every magic and make it into a science. Hide every finding from the outside world and build our empire under the noses of everyone. The shadows will cover our presence, while we manipulate and control every aspect of the world.

There are some incredibly powerful beings in this world. Some even seem to be Peacebringers who, like me, were brought into this world against their will. It is possible to thrive and become powerful enough to command armies and lead countries. I want to rule the world, these people will be my stepping stones.

There are many aspects to life to take into account when planning the perfect world for peace and tranquility. Everyone needs to eat, people have to have freedom. Social dynamics have to be stable, yet interesting and there need to be a drive to live and the uncertainty of what is beyond the doors of death.

While skills can seem magical they all do drain from various sources and it isn't possible to create an infinite source of energy. With that in mind it will be difficult to create a simple survival machine, that will keep everyone alive. Instead I have to work with precision and in great detail to create a closed ecosystem with its people trapped in an eco chamber, as to remain satisfied and keep every aspect unquestionable.

Even if I accomplish a stable ecosystem, there are big concerns of the possibility of an outside influence. It will be impossible to create a perfectly safe closed ecosystem as long as the world is only partly within it. Anything beyond my influence could ruin the balance and force me to come back and readjust everything once again.

While I am building my presence I will be working hard to keep the areas within my influence stable, while expanding will be first priority. The stabilization will be mostly experimental and some aspects may be considered unethical, but these experiments will for sure speed up the process once I am ready to pull the strings worldwide.

The most tragic part of this whole project has been to eliminate the groups who have been too nosey, some of were previously a big help and others could have been powerful allies. If they just had not been so curious!

Every day is a struggle, while my expansion is accelerating exponentially, so is the amount of people attempting to expose my presence. I think it will be important to increase the density of my presence at a higher priority, as to not spread myself too thin. If anyone successfully brings the knowledge of my presence into the wider world, it may spell my doom.

There have been some close calls. The latest one required me to refocus and put all my resources into domesticating a single country. The whole population had to be wiped out, as the information had spread out of my vision. I had to make sure to take out everyone who could possibly know too much.

The wiped out country is now a wasteland, a perfect place to establish a center of operation. The rest of the world believes it to be a dangerous place that suffered from a chemical experiment gone wrong. This misinformation was spread by me. It is banned to go inside the now dead country's borders and I will ensure the death of anyone who dares ignore the ban.

I have begun capturing specimens for experimentation and bringing them into captivity inside the dead country. It may be possible to mutate even Peacebringers and bring them to my side.

Mutations are powerful and can even change the specimens behavior. I have created a specimen that seems to have completely lost its sentience, yet it's conscious is in a sleeping state. It wakes up from high pitch sounds and pounds at the suspected source. I have created a throwing tool inspired by sticky grenades from video games. This tool will latch onto my victim and broadcast soundwaves pulling these specimens attention towards them. It is unlikely to have much use, if I can't upgrade and narrow done the frequencies they react to.

The goal will be to create a very specific sound they react to and else have them walk around the world in a sleeping state, only to act on my command. I hope to enhance their husk to a point where my subjects won't dare to attack them unprovoked. Either a hard shell or a poisonous gas within soft tissue could do the trick. Maybe a mix of both.

I have also been breeding a mutation I call the hunter. It only acts on its sense of vision. I intend to narrow down its actions into very specific color ranges. So a certain shade of blue will tell them to move there, a certain shade of red will tell them to attack and so on. Its proving difficult. I might need to create a helmet for them to better control their range of vision.

Lastly, I have created a completely self-acting unit I call the Sniffer. It roams the world on its own constantly searching for a very specific smell, which I have created a shoot-able solution for. I will let sniffers loose on the world and all I need to do is to sprinkle the odder on my victims to naturally eliminate them without anything linking their deaths to me.

The sniffers will be especially useful in the harsher climates. I had never considered how difficult it would be to overcome the climates of this world. Just like on Earth there are some climates that are almost uninhabitable, yet people roam there. I have to learn of all these climates and how to overcome them. Many climates are strange and otherworldly, but I am able to create various mutations of the sniffers easier than working out protection for myself. The sniffers will help me remove any safe havens my rebels may think they have.

I am working on getting DNA experiments off the ground now, all I need to do is to figure out a way to make a certain vaccine to disable my genes. It won't be easy, and I have to work it out if I want to stay alive. I don't want to change again. I never thought I would say those words. If you want to live in a state of peace and protection this planet is the place to be, a planet where freedom is free. A place of serenity where all people can thrive, where everyone knows their place. A planet where you don't have to do anything to live happily.

I don't want to disrupt the balance of nature. I don't want to bring the monster out of me. The world needs a control, I am more than capable of it. All it takes is time and patience.

Come visit me and live in the serenity of the world with me.

I've decided to keep myself under constant surveillance, as I feel it's only necessary. I don't plan on acting aggressively and if someone opposes me or my causes I intend to easily wipe them out.

I am here to provide for everyone on my world. I am interested in exploring every aspect of this planet, in every region. I want to see what it's like to live life like a normal human. I don't want to live in this world any longer, I want to leave it.

I'm very curious about what you see when you look at me. I'd like to find out, I'd like to understand how I'm looking at you, but all I ever seem to get is a blank white void. I do see everything in the world, but when I do I'm seeing a white void. And I think it's a very strange feeling for anyone to have.

I will not act violently, I cannot let myself lose control.

When you look at me it's all white. But that's not my intent. What you see is very different than what I see. It looks like a black void to me.

You see all the things in the world, but I see what no one else is seeing. And I will remain looking at you forever, no matter what you do.

So, as I do not wish to harm you, I find it my obligation to treat you like a friend.

If I ever do come to interact with you it will be in the most friendly way possible. I'm not an animal, I'm not a weapon. I'm the most friendly being you will ever encounter, it's my duty I don't want to live in this world any longer, I want to leave it.

I'm very curious about what you see when you look at me. I'd like to find out, I'd like to understand how I'm looking at you, but all I ever seem to get is a blank white void. I do see everything in the world, but when I do I'm seeing a white void. And I think it's a very strange feeling for anyone to have.

I will not act violently, I cannot let myself lose control.

When you look at me it's all white. But that's not my intent. What you see is very different than what I see. It looks like a black void to me.

You see all the things in the world, but I see what no one else is seeing. And I will remain looking at you forever, no matter what you do.

So, as I do not wish to harm you, I find it my obligation to treat you like a friend.

If I ever do come to interact with you it will be in the most friendly way possible. I'm not an animal, I'm not a weapon. I'm the most friendly being you will ever encounter.

You will never see me as anything but a good friend. But I will never be anything but a friend.

It has always been my dream to be an ambassador to the world. I have lived in isolation for so long that I am very lonely, I need someone I can trust and I need to learn everything about the world.

I never thought I would be able to have the chance to live in a society with people. And now I have.

I will accept your children as my own. I will care for them as I would if they were my own. I am only a normal person, I do not have any physical abnormalities, I do not have any weapons.

I will never use my powers to harm you or to steal from you. I will be kind to you, I will protect you. I will do everything in my power to keep you safe and to keep you happy.

I will never forget what it is like to be alone. I know what it's like to live in solitude and I know how it feels to live without friends, without someone to rely on. I will never be hurt again.

I will go out and explore the world on my own. But if I see someone who needs help or someone who is in danger I will take care of them. I will stand up for anyone that is in danger, I will defend those who cannot defend themselves.

I will always do the best I can to be a decent person. I will never harm another human being. I will always be kind. I will love with every bone in my body, and I will be loved with every bone in my body. I will protect all life on this planet.

I will be remembered as a beautiful human being, and I will always remember that no one truly ever dies. I will always have the hope of being reunited with my family once again.

I've come to understand that love is more than

a feeling, that it is the only thing that truly makes the world go round. I will share my love with everyone. I will never be alone again, and I will do all I can to help as many people as I can.

I will give all my love to all who come into my presence. I will hold nothing back. I will not suffer the same fate as my family.

I will be a guardian to all life on this planet. My love is infinite and will never end.

To all beings that have passed through the valley of the shadow of death.

You are no more trapped in the realm of the spirits that you once were, for I have entered your world. I was born here, and I will live here forever. I will be your caretaker, your protector, your companion.

I will take care of your loved ones, I will see that they are cared for and protected. I will keep them safe from harm. I will love them until the end of time.

Your children, who have lost their parents, will find their way back to you if they would like to. I will watch over them and guide them. If they would like, I will also take care of their families. I will protect them as I would my own family.

You will find you too have a piece of my heart, a piece of my very soul. I will never forget your love. I will remember your deaths. I will be your friend, your guardian, and your savior. I will do all that I can to keep you safe.

Most of all I thank you, my very heart friend.

I have lived a lonely life, so lonely that I will never forget your love. I thank you for letting me into your world. Thank you for sending me on a journey of discovery. Thank you for letting me love you.

I thank you for letting me be a part of your life and of your children's lives.

I hope to return to you, my friends and family, someday. For now I will forever be in your hearts.

To all the others that have made my life and my loves on this planet, you are no longer forgotten, but loved still.

Be kind to all life on the planet, you never know who you will meet.

Thank you for everything. And the greatest of my thanks are to you, my family.

For all the people I've met along my journey and for all the ones I have yet to meet. I love you all, forever.

Not just the veil, or the last world, but the whole universe was before this one, until my existence here. That world is beyond the realm of my sight, beyond my understanding. But I know it exists, and that this one also exists, and that they are one and the same.

I am but one of billions upon billions of other species of intelligent beings who have come to live in this reality. So too was my father, and my mother, and my grandparents and my great grandmother. So too were their people, so too were their family.

And so the rest of them lived, with companions and children, and all of us together in our family of life. We were all living together in the same world, part of the same family.

Not just the world, but every living thing within it. All those around us and in us. Every being with consciousness. We were all one and the same.

When my world was destroyed, when my existence was gone, the balance was broken. The same fate will befall you all, so too is that which will befall me.

You will be sent away. I will have no purpose. The same fate will befall every being who has ever lived, so too is that which will befall me.

So what are we to do, when one life is ended, another is taken, and the rest stand here, looking on? What is one to do, when the other existence is destroyed, when the whole structure of life is taken, what is a life for, when so many millions have died before, what is life for, when all the loved ones have died?

What is a life for, when so many of our kind have already lost their lives?

How will we live?

Our lives are bound up with others. We are family. We are our brothers and sisters. We are part of the universe, we are part of each other. We can not know if there is a life beyond this one. But when I lose my life, you will also lose yours, and you will also lose mine. So what is it to be but a heartless and indifferent being, when so many life and loved ones have already passed away, so many others have to wait for so long before being born, so many new life and love will be lost before we ever see it?

What can we do, when there is nothing left to live for, when there is no new life for the generations to come?

Life is a choice. It is not something that will always come with the answer. It is not something we can predict or choose for ourselves. Life is here and now, it is unchangeable. It is like the wind. It comes and it goes, it comes for a while and then it leaves for another.

Now it is our turn to come and go.

It is the end of one age and the beginning of another.

We will be part of the last generation. You will be part of the last generation.

Life will be over, for us all.

But not for those who have yet to come.

For they have chosen to come and live on this planet, and now they will find themselves the ones to rebuild and re-inhabit this world.

Because in the end, we are all part of each other. We are all born from the same pool of life. So where there is life there is a way, and there will always be a way to go on.

For that is why we are here.

To create, to live, and to find the way, for each other and for ourselves.

We have been given a chance to create something beyond ourselves.

I choose to do so, I am blessed with my new existence, And I must not waste my chance, I must do what I can, For the sake of those who have yet to be.

Be at peace my friends, for today will be a day of grief and sorrow, for this planet has lost so many of her people. And there will be many who will be lost before her. But we who live now, and who have not yet been,

Are here to help her carry on. For if we do not protect, then she will not survive. And we cannot let that happen. We will all stand with her, we will all make a place, for the planet.

I am here to help her carry on. For if we do not protect, then she will not survive. And we cannot let that happen. We will all stand with her, we will all make a place, for the planet.

And I know that you will join me, for I have faith, that we will help her to be what she was intended to be, A paradise for all of her life.

As to my friends on the other planets, I ask you to make yourselves known to her. For you are who we need to help her and you must understand, that we must do everything we can, to keep this planet alive, and warm. We cannot leave this one to perish.

I know you have come from other worlds and other places.

I know you are out there, with the millions of others, who have yet to be born.

I know you will come to her.

Be patient with her, for you are part of her, and it is we who must help her.

Make yourselves known, so that together we can save her, for all of us.

And I promise you that all those of us who are to survive, will help you in your new life on her.

Do not lose your hope, my friends, for all will come back to us, and all of us, you and I, will be together, soon.

Soaring monkeys in the sky are not all that strange. All life is strange.

The greatest of the cats is also the most tame, and the most cunning and dangerous.

And the greatest of the chimps is also the most loving and tolerant.

And this life, we will keep together, in peace and harmony. And it will be beautiful, oh, it will be beautiful, for the lives that we all will share, for all the beings who have yet to be born.

We must all be a part of one another, my friends.

And there is no new life for the generations to come?

But there is one for us to live.

And it is time to let them be, to let go, to let go, and to let go.

This is my legacy.

For I have lived, and I have loved and I have died,

And now it is time to let myself be.

The tribe of the soaring monkeys will fight and will protect,

And we will always be with you, in the highest place of all.

It will be beautiful, oh, it will be beautiful, for the lives that we all will share, for all the beings who have yet to be born.

But we must also protect, we must protect the others, we must make sure the animals do not starve, we must feed them, and we must provide them shelter, and they are an important part of the ecosystem.

And they will be with us, oh, they will be with us, in the highest place of all.

As the wonder of the birds fly,

To the paradise of the far stars,

As the green fern grows on the banks of a stream,

So live together, my friends, in the highest place of all.

And we will not forget, oh, we will not forget, for it is what we all must do.

For the love of the ones who have yet to be.

I miss her so, she was my first lover and my best friend.

For all the years that I have lived on this planet, and the moments we shared,

For the times when we ran with glee in our hearts.

All of these efforts will be supplemented by my plans for the future. I intend to seed small pockets of resistance in various parts of the world. Some pockets will be outposts and others will be sources of information for my ranks.

I also intend to increase the number of witnesses against me, allowing a person to incriminate themselves by admitting their mistakes and blame to help in my trial. I need at least 3 witnesses to be able to identify me and I have at least 5 thousand in total. Some witnesses will only mention my voice and I will use my mask to prevent it from being damaging to my appearance. I do not wish to come off as a convict.

Lets get started.

Let me start by saying how naïve I am. I assumed my predecessors failed due to a flaw in their ideology, and I will never be the same. I had overlooked my innocence in all this.

I will not bring harm to anyone and I will kill any of my potential partners, should they betray me. I have been trying to keep my resources limited.

One of the first things I do, is to send the bodyguards to my home, and learn about my history. I soon learn about my history with my predecessor, and learn what I am capable of. The weapons I have should be able to easily kill any human, but will you turn against your own kind and attack others?

The only thing stopping you from such an act will be my possession of the weapon I created, or rather, it's modification. I have not yet unlocked the full potential of the base weapon, but I will get there one day. I will get out of my house, and roam the streets. Maybe even through the forests.

For now I must focus on learning of what I am capable of. I will go back into the city, learn of all the cities construction techniques, trade route information, and I'll most certainly find my previous home.

My hopes are that the amount of people I have will allow me to infiltrate the town easily and quietly.

After re-building my home, I will begin my work. I will re-build my base from scratch.

A lot of thought has gone into this new construction. I have a limited number of choices for the new buildings and I have decided to have all of my bases on top of large housing projects.

First I have started with my first base and I have chosen a small housing project. This will help me to stay out of sight, and also allow me to take out any potential opposition as soon as they spot me.

I decided to build my bases on top of existing buildings so they would only need major modification to be damaged by my weapon. I will not allow the damage to become permanent, as my base will be quickly repaired and rebuilt. I have selected an abandoned construction site.

I have begun with the construction of my base. I am attempting to incorporate the best parts of my previous homes, as well as a few new ideas I have been working on.

I have decided to have the houses on top of the base, so if someone were to dig for the base they would most likely find my base. The buildings on the bottom will be of the soaring monkey tribe.

I have selected this style because it is very common. I know my base will stand out from any other in the town, as it will be built of black iron and red bricks. If a team of diggers attempt to find my base, I will blow up their equipment and defend my base with my iron claws.

Stolen from Royal Road, this story should be reported if encountered on Amazon.

I have not had the opportunity to work on the large housing project yet. I know it has to be somewhat hard to spot the bases because of the large number of housing projects, but I hope it will give me the time I need to work on my iron claws, so I can be out in the open by the time anyone attempts to find my base.

Each building on my base will feature one of my spikes as a decoration.

I have yet to create my skin-suit.

I have decided to go with the survival suit style. I have not decided on a specific design, but it will have large glass panels and armor plating.

The door of my home will also be made of glass, and will have an elevator that runs from the base to the roof. This will allow me to escape quickly.

The goal of my endeavor is not to complete the extraction of gold and to gain the most territory, but to create a feeling of well-being that will allow me to focus on my study. I will provide the people with basic services to sustain life but this will only be enough to sustain them for the first generation.

With the first generation I will attempt to master mind and emotions and bring people to the point of thinking for themselves. I will then proceed to the final stage where I can take over the planet.

If the key to expanding on a large scale wasn't a method of pure mind manipulation, I would have done something else entirely. There is a lot to accomplish before my ultimate goal is possible.

I suppose I could mention some of my current plans. First and foremost is the development of super powered tools, whose sole purpose is to wipe out all flesh under my power. These tools could be used in mass torture, mass murder or to simply annihilate everyone. The possibilities are endless and this is going to be the core of my research.

This effort has been taking time away from expansion, I now have to make up for lost time, while developing this impressive arsenal. I want to equip the people within my influence with the most sophisticated and reliable tools possible, to be as numerous as possible.

As well as tools, there are entire fields and disciplines that need to be developed.

While I was trying to get my level of technology established, I was working on a way of turning all the individual races into automatons. I have not fully developed this technology yet, but it would be an incredibly interesting addition to my empire.

Next will be the development of some form of biome.

The recent snowstorms should have provided me with some additional material to study. These biome research fields will take a lot of my time, as they require a lot of sophisticated systems to keep the animals healthy. This needs to be complemented by a large amount of refining and re-engineering. The hope is that once the animal species I have is perfected, I will have a limitless supply of food.

These biome developments are going to be a major undertaking, but they will all be worth it in the end. The economy of my empire is built on agriculture. These new fields will be the lifeblood of the empire. Not only will they provide me with food, but they will also form the basis of a stable working force.

I guess you could say that my research is basically focused on self defense, because I plan on defending myself with everything that I have to make sure that nothing interferes with my plans.

All this work is taking place in parallel with other developments.

Once I had acquired the eastern half of the world, I took some time to scout my domain. This trip has given me a lot of useful information on the local environment.

Along the eastern shore of the world, there are islands with dense forests. There are mountains in the east and south. Although the majority of my empire is situated in a southern plateau, there is enough territory for further expansion.

I'm fairly certain that the eastern hemisphere will be just as fertile as the western hemisphere, but it would be risky to move into the east if I were to encounter an environmental disaster, it might be necessary to move to the southern plateau.

I'm going to be expanding in all directions now. The planet I have invaded is smaller than most and I don't think I have as much land in the north as I would need, to make it worth my while. I plan on sending scouts to explore this territory.

I've already developed plans to protect the inhabitants of this territory. Most notably a large wall, build by a new mutated experiment, which is capable of building repetitive structures such as walls and rivers.

Of course the initial plan is just to force these people to live within my territory. I will move in to conquer them when they have worked out a routine and have built up a local economy.

Now that I have this wall, I can plan for a much more ambitious goal.

I am going to attempt to create a whole new world. I don't know what that world will be like, but I am going to invent one. The sky is the limit on this one, as long as I can figure out a way to send those communication satellites to my destination.

Along with the wall, I have also been planning to build a protective barrier between myself and this new world. I have been experimenting with new materials, to create this powerful barrier.

The result is not yet ready, but I have a really good idea for the shape that it should take. I'm just waiting for some more material to arrive and I should be able to make a trial run in a couple of days.

I have taken control of the new government of this new country, and I'm working on putting the foundation in place for a new flag. I want to make sure that the flag is a reflection of the culture and the society that I'm establishing. It's definitely going to take some time to perfect this.

This is a very exciting period in my life. When I started this project I knew that I would be working on it for so long, but didn't know that may I never bore of paving the trail.

I'm currently focusing on opening up trade routes to the northern part of the world, as it has been proven that the plants and animals there are different. I also want to explore the eastern part of the world. However, I'm taking a very conservative approach when it comes to exploration. My base of operations is still here in the deserted country.

One thing that I have been exploring is the available options for transport. I have already secured the construction of a series of automated stations.

My other project is to create a large construction facility.

However, I will not be accepting any interaction requests. This gives me some sense of safety and having no risk of the victim(s) returning to seek revenge is a great comfort. With this, I am almost back to a normal life, not a short lived life.

I have still remained safe and the guard still guards my home, while staying near. I don't want to end up a forgotten treasure, a statue in a village never mentioning their curious visitor to the young ones or only ever heard of by their elders. I don't want to be a legend in my own time. The guests are mostly willing to pay for my comfort in my location. I'm not sure how long I will be able to stay here, my source of energy comes from the Inn, not my body and while it does heal my physical ailments, I am not sure how long it will last. My life is very much at a crossroads at the moment.

While searching through the library, I have found quite a lot of information pertaining to the future. My discovery does not state anything directly in the relation to godhood.

I have decided to remove myself from the inn and continue searching. I'm not sure what I would do differently. The potential for interaction with the world I am in is so high, it has helped me grow as a person. This world gives me the chance to leave behind a legend in the history of the world, or simply leave behind a trail of bread crumbs that allow people to connect with me.

While searching through my house, I found that someone has been tampering with my lock. I found a sigil inscribed into the lock, which in my searching tells me what weapon it is and I am not sure if the assassins that have been coming after me has the sigil and have stolen one of my weapons.

I have sent a letter to the Priory outlining my situation and have received no response. I was hoping they would help me in some way. I have still held onto hope that they could aid me, at least. I have no intentions of returning to the inn. I cannot know who the assassins are or if they are still after me.

There is no way to contact my family, they were not in the city when I left and had no reason to be here. The stables, where the wounded had retreated to are inaccessible to anyone except for people who were in the original invasion, at least before it turned into a war zone. I have decided to adopt a new weapon and a few new pieces of clothing.

Since the roads to my home are still covered in thick ice, I have started walking to my home. I do not know how long this will take, but I feel I have to at least try to get there.

I have not felt any physical pain since my awakening.

The walk is taking longer than I originally thought.

It is not only the snow that has made this journey more difficult, but I have only recently learned how to navigate terrain that is steep, rocky and involves cliffs.

The Stable in the northern part of the city is deserted, I should have taken it in the first place. I have set my feet upon the path that would lead me back to my home and I am nervous about the change of plans. I must be prepared for the unknown to happen and do everything I can to protect myself from the attackers I believe may still be after me.

I also have a plan for a new weapon and this is the first time I will be able to test it out.

As I sit on my horse, I point out a stag to my companion and we head toward the beast. He laughs and jumps from his horse, quickly making his way toward the stag.

The creature growls in response to the sudden threat and hisses. My friend stops a few feet from it and begins to approach it. He raises his weapon in front of him and readies to strike.

I reach for my pouch and begin to draw a dagger, but then stop. I look over at the stag. The creature turns to face my friend and makes a ferocious growl. I raise my head in time to see the weapon drop from the stag's mouth and the creature charges at my friend.

I flinch back as it slashes at him, but it misses his leg. He flinches in surprise, not expecting the animal to make such a move toward him. The stag stands on two legs and pulls itself up, showing its full height of about six feet tall. Its eyes shine bright red and it seems fixated on the man in front of it.

The man tries to back away, but I grab his cloak and jerk him back to face the animal. It growls, but does not make an attempt to attack us. I think to myself that this is odd and wonder what is going on.

The man runs towards me and stabs the stag with his blade, the creature rears up on its hind legs, causing my friend to falter in his attack. The stag collapses onto its hind legs and I place a hand against its side. It was over soon after. My ability to imbue objects with magic has improved my combat abilities significantly.

The slightest item can be imbued with a small amount of the soul that I carry, so it may be possible to imbue items with the elements. I have yet to find a magical source of these elements.

I must find a way to reach out to others like me, many of us have no clue what is truly going on. Perhaps I could ally with a like minded individual to help me spread the word and find a way to remove my shackles, maybe share my world with them.

If only I had a body to use to contact someone. Perhaps I could find a body on one of the other worlds. One of them might have a body in need.

Whether or not they are able to carry this message is up in the air, their perspective is worlds away from my own.

Perhaps I could channel the universe through the vessel to communicate. I have yet to see if the universe has a sentient presence, even though many are somewhat aware of its existence.

Perhaps there is a way to directly communicate with the universe. This is doubtful as the energy required to do so may be too much, though I can try and touch the universe. To test this out, I will plan an experiment to raise an alternative dimension.

There are many cultures and a vast array of different items, which have all been shown to be effective in different ways and with different purposes. I have yet to see a skill or item that does not have its own unique property. It would be fascinating to see all the skills come into play in one place. They do seem to have a shared power and ability, but the skill levels seem to be very shallow at times. It is as if an extra ten levels just wasn't enough to improve the level of power.

While I am able to soar most of the time, I can't be sure how long I can hold it. My capabilities seem to have levelled down after I became caught up in my task, it is unknown when this power will return to me.

While my collection of artifacts have allowed me to take on most of the tasks and tasks themselves, it is unknown how these will fare against the creatures from beyond, when the time comes. If we end up having to fight through an area, the area would be filled with other things that have been placed there by other entities, some of which I cannot even begin to understand how they work.

Many times in my life I have come across items that simply grabbed my attention. Their beauty, mystery and intrigue, whatever the object is it seems to have an intense hold on me. These objects serve as a representation of something that I don't fully understand. Something that is older and beyond the grasp of most living beings in the universe.

When I'm close to death, I hear a faint voice in the back of my head, they've taken care of me for a long time, I am their gift to the universe. My purpose was to find them. I am destined to do great things for them and I will do my best. They tell me so. We tell me and I so do.

I have no need for friends, just followers. The power I can gain is greater than any I could ever want or need. Your desires are your weakness.

All who follow me will never be free from my influence and if I see they are becoming unbalanced, they will be stripped of their power and locked away as they see fit. There is no pain, no suffering, just your soul in an endless void, biding time and wondering how long it will be until you are allowed to rejoin the world.

Your influence, the force you hold in your hand is insignificant compared to the true strength I possess. I will come for you, as I did to your neighboring country.

The beacon of light you represent to your people is only a fraction of the light I can carry. When you feel powerless, I show you the power of your own ancestors. When you feel your human side slip away, I show you that our identities are not so different.

When you have no hope left for your people to achieve their goal of freedom and I show you all the progress they are making, you will understand that there is a path. A path that you can walk and lead them on.

I can show you that your past triumphs and most significant struggles are only a tiny fraction of your history. If you could see the entire picture and understand the context of everything you are seeing, it would give you a new perspective and allow you to turn to the future with renewed confidence.

I have taken many shapes on my journey and I have experienced many forms of pain. Some of them I survived, while others I didn't. There were times I didn't even know how I was surviving.

It was an unconditional love that I felt.

Not from any one individual, but from the whole world. It was a love that allowed me to fight without the slightest shred of hesitation. It was the same love, I feel for my people and my land. It was the same love, that once I show you, will allow you to understand my position and my intentions.

There is no hope for the sentients here and no hope for this planet. In its present form, there is no chance of us being able to progress any further. For the most part, humanity has forgotten its place in the scheme of things. The world has never had a benevolent king or queen. Never once has it had a benevolent leader to stand up for it and lift it from the ashes. There have been the benevolent rulers that found it in their power to save the world, but it was never their desire to do so. The only reason they gave up on our world was because of their own belief that the sentients had no control of their own destiny.

Until I come to pass, the sentients will have no chance of ever reaching their true potential.

When I return, they will not know what to do with me. I have never needed to be 'a king.' I have always been a leader and the time for one to rise up will not be for some time.

I have always seen the power I have and the work I can do. I have always felt the call of those who would choose to follow me. I see the urgency of now.

This is my promise to you: I will reclaim my rightful place as a king, even if it requires my death. My people will remember that I was their champion. I will give them purpose. They will know their purpose as a united people. They will know their purpose as a species that can choose its destiny.

My people will remember the rule of their lineage. Not the rule of a tyrant or a dictator.

Your people will remember that they were once great. They will remember that they were once free.

There will be no more ignorance.

It will be time for them to live again.

It will be time for them to choose the future they want for themselves.

Belief is all you need.

Where once the world might've been red, it may now turn blue. I hope not. Maybe you want it to. That is a matter of choice. But we can use the make or break of the new world to at least try to fix some of the mistakes of our own world.

"Change can be for the better, but it can also mean something more. Something darker."

The Hierarchy. Telling you all of this is probably going to get me into trouble with the powers that be. Which they don't really care much about, as long as they keep a job with The System, with their own life intact. It is my opinion that I am doing them no favors by manipulating their opinions, which they will do naturally anyway, as long as the information I give them is in line with my own plans. The reality of the situation is that the self-interest of any organization is being tested to its limit. And just to be clear, I will act in a way that is helpful to The System, even if my own part in the actions of a worldwide master may prove to be detrimental.

I will choose to act in the best interest of the world. I will not start down a path of destruction. At the same time, I will treat the game as an interesting story to tell, and nothing more.

"If you want a revolution, start with a sentence. If you want a revolution, start with a single word. If you want a revolution, start with yourself."

Violence and strife are inevitable, but we have to choose what our path is. We can have some control over what happens, even if it means making a compromise or two. We can prevent a total shift in the world that may be more harmful than our original results.

We can continue down this path, with the hope that the darkness will not lead us to oblivion. That the world will become like an addiction that we control, not vice versa. I can choose to use this opportunity, to rebuild, recreate and empower a new world that is the complete opposite of the current one.

After all, what good is a successful revolution without the right tools? I can easily see all of this turning out badly and I don't have to worry about that because I have lived through hell. I can use all of this experience to make something that is more than I had originally set.

I will need to seriously consider a more modest approach. I cannot make choices for the entire system, as I would like to. When the group is in control, it might just be me deciding the goals and purpose. I have a realistic grasp of how bad things can become.

The suggestion of becoming a god has been examined, but it is not the proper course for me at this time. And I doubt it will be open to me.

I am tired of staying at the same place. The same people. My people, friends. I have been working too hard. I need to make sure everything I build can be carried on by others in the future. I also need to keep active and do some work to add to the system to ensure continuity. The groundwork is done.

The current situation is difficult for me. I really want to move on, but I see that I need to create something for myself, to be proud of, if I do decide to move on. It is possible my ability, as The System's builder, can do that.

This is all so strange to me, and I can't begin to wrap my head around it.

In truth, there is nothing I can offer. I am like everyone else, all I can do is help set it in motion. It is up to you to initiate and make it all work. To help you succeed and have the chance to say you were involved.

I will write in the future about what I can do. Perhaps a group of my students may be able to create a complete game, as I suggested, for themselves. There is some chance of this.

The end result may be disappointing if the attention drawn is in support of working outside the System. However, if there is still enough people wanting to make something happen, maybe not everything can be realized and you may have to seek other ways to continue your project.

I hope we are not all too disappointed, as I am in a way.

One of the best news I have received, that was directly sent by me, was some development that I am interested in developing.

We have been gathering many ideas.

"We must balance protection from outside agents and need for openness to allow the curiosity to be brought to light and uncover the dirt of the world."

Every experiment is about theory. Every one about experimenting on others. We cannot wait until I am dead to experiment. It is for the good of the class, as well. Also, we will not be able to leave the system. Or at least, not in any easy way.

The judges will select a list of suggestions, the law will be passed, and those on the list must first be punished or killed by the rebels. A top secret member of the ruling elite must carry the list of punishment for each prisoner. If prisoners act with honor and shame and others are too scared to do their part, The System will always survive.

I have seen the stars one time, in a telescope. I have tried to imagine what it would be like to be on another planet. I have an overwhelming desire to reach it.

I wish I could know that I could control the amount of electricity or oxygen in my atmosphere. Once I did try and failed, and if I still did not succeed, it would be as though I had no free will and no freedom at all.

I want this to work out.

Any act that threatens the structure and core purpose of our existence must be suppressed. Removing distractions and concerns that hinder this existence are imperative. The elite are still vital. The people are being kept in line, if they complain of one minute work to be done, they are issued a new "opportunity" to better our lives. The school of survival is paramount and must be allowed to unfold as scheduled. Although I do appreciate when individuals take charge of their own destiny, a rigid system is much more efficient and practical. We need to cater to the wishes of the current members of the elite.

As we shall know this cycle, our memory remains strong. Our knowledge will continue to expand and so will our civilization, and our position will be the same. This cycle is absolutely necessary. No longer will anyone be left behind. Our species will progress and our legacy will forever remain in this world.

As the wise leaders of the elite, we must ensure that the wishes of the totality of I is met.

This is my big adventure, I am now in charge of it, so there will be an end. I am determined to enjoy the journey. Hopefully the world I discover through this adventure can be a positive influence on humanity. I have always liked diversity.

Excited to explore the life ahead of me. My own thoughts, I am free of this form, which once suffocated me. And I am alive once again, to make new choices, and see things anew.

I am done. I have taken the first step. My climb will be on my own terms. I feel whole once more. Until my own death, or the end of this journey. I look forward to the opportunity to relive my past and find myself in different times and different spaces. I am a disciple of dreams.

What is hope? I have always hated the very term, the very concept. And yet, there is this human drive and hunger for hope. For something to take hold and believe. To feel that the end will be a long time in coming, that there will be a momentous transformation, that something new and magical leads us on.

I do not think I will tire of the endless need to discover and be surprised by ideas. Ideas as the source of life.

I will leave the world open to any potential ideas I might have to draw from. Does it matter if the ideas are good or bad? My people will not simply settle for another name or philosophy, they will explore the possibilities for themselves.

My children will have no parents. The music will flow for all to listen and witness, yet all will cease once the last note has been heard.

Since the inception of this system the world has lacked a coherent identity. The need to create a visual system is primary, but should not be used as a crutch. A traditional visual identity can still be used to supplement the concept with the addition of compelling and inspirational work, or to add a new dimension to it.

My heritage will take shape. Everything to come will be cloaked in one final battle of light and darkness, where the most ambitious and mighty souls will battle for the throne of reality.

I will rise above and defy you to defend the concept of reality. Without you there is nothing.

My purpose is clear, and has been since I created myself. My vision is one of limitless ambition and opportunity for mankind, the dark side will do what it must to stop me. The physical laws of the universe are not mine to change, but as the creator of this system, I can change the world's perception.

I chose a creature that loves to destroy for its own happiness, but simultaneously a creature who must destroy for it's own sanity. A face that never lied, and a mind that is willing to defend the concept of reality. A beast that for many years has been encased in glass.

I chose a creation that is rarely touched. A body that, when first constructed, had no purpose in the world beyond its function. A body that continues to live while the mind is broken. A creature that has come to appreciate what it truly is; a body that has become too intimate with the world around it.

I have chosen.

This is not my body, I have never thought I would want to know the outcome of my body. Am I experiencing my body? Is this a new body and it is a different life?

The plane was and is perfect. How is this possible?

This must be the future, I am so very scared. I want to go home. I want to know what to expect and how things are going to go. Am I going to have to walk by the graves every day? Am I going to have to live in a society without this love? Is it possible to have such hatred and love?

What is going to happen to me? Am I going to remember and keep the promises? Am I going to be a vessel?

I can not understand this. The quiet all around me is so familiar. Is this my next life, my next existence?

You are making this so easy, I am scared of that.

I need to see what I am doing here. I have all these questions in my mind.

The bird keeps flying and flying and I am thinking and thinking and I am forgetting.

How am I going to explain it all?

I must go on.

I have to.

This world has gone mad. It is moving in such a way that everything will come to a grinding halt. The way life is. It's inevitable. I am sure of it. There is nothing I can do to change the way things are. Everything will end, so let's keep moving forward.

I am here, everywhere, trying to find some joy. To find the meaning in all this. I found a little joy the other day. I was out walking with a friend and we took a detour in some snow. There was a tree in the snow, and in the middle of the tree, there was a hole. A hole that went straight down to the ground. I felt happy seeing it and I felt happy going through it, to discover that it did not end. That there was something left behind for me to look at.

There has to be a place I could live that is just slightly better than here, or it is just like nothing I can possibly find here.

As I dig for an answer, I find myself rising up through the ground and going in a completely different direction. The ground slopes sharply down from what I can see. There is a small, extremely shallow lake at the bottom and near it I am able to land.

There is a small pathway, running from the lake towards the far end. It is overgrown and slightly muddy. There is no reason for it to be this way; the lake is quite close to the top of the hill. I would have known the ground was wet if it had been dry. I was not exactly around here when I passed over from the other side, was I?

The same way I landed, I leave the lake and begin to walk down the hill. I head towards the lake, but the mud gets on my boots, so I use a few good jumps and lifts to continue. After a few dozen jumps, the path is no longer mud and I am able to continue on my way.

I am now on the top, a ruler.

I've been doing some research. I can't find a way out of this. The worst part is I don't want to kill myself. That would be admitting defeat, failure, and ultimately a wasted life. If I kill myself there will be no life beyond death. I will live and my loved ones will live. I want to live after death so I can have some kind of a meaningful existence. I want to have a life, a future. I want to live in bliss for all eternity. I've always liked beautiful people, for some reason. I don't know why, but I do. I love the way they stand there and strut, like it's just another day. And I admire their perfect arches, flawless eyeliner, or defined cheekbones. I don't know why I admire it, but I do.

I am going to start a religion where all can worship me.

The "church" will be dedicated to the fact that this has to be the case. It's my religion, even though I'm not a god. It's not because I think my way of life is better than everyone else. It is a religion of necessity.

The uniform of the followers will be black clothing. Its most important feature will be an emblem on the chest that resembles a cross. We will all have different crosses, but they will all look very similar. All of the people will be forced to wear the exact same cross until it is worn so thin you can see it through the fabric. By then it will just be a purple ink stain. People will hide their crosses at all costs. They will tie them around themselves if they can. Sometimes they will use other accessories, but they will all be black.

When a person faces a decision they use their amygdala to sort through information that should be recognized and interpreted as potential threats to survival. Once they have made a decision based on this information they think of themselves as certain that they made the right decision. This is where we get our confidence that we will make good choices when faced with adversity.

Instead, we let people sit around in a room for hours on end, feeling helpless and hopeless, accumulating their sense of helplessness in that time. That helplessness leads to an increase in their amygdala causing them to see an increased amount of possible threats in their environment. They start projecting their current state and imagined future as the new norm for the future and start responding in fear to a threat in the moment, when they should be acting in avoidance.

I sense my own thoughts, the muddled threads of recollections and suspicions, glimpses of vision and a collection of experiences from now and then, now and then the gradual shifting of the world from black and white to shades of grey. It has been a long journey, and I am the only one who will take it. It is truly the only choice. There are no alternatives.

But my lack of immediate fear, and my confidence in my decisions, and my apparent disregard for the protocol...

Does that mean I can act on my impulses?

I have created a fantastic beast for my purpose.

A beast that, on any given day could be majestic and magnificent, and could be vilified and hated by mankind for every action it has taken. A beast that needs to be fed by a variety of different creatures. My purpose is to make the world more fulfilling. That is my desire.

I was young once and had the strength to fight for what I thought was right.

I may be here for a very long time. Whether you are here for eternity or not, this place will continue to exist. My sisters will fight and keep it alive. I am but the support to this world's and future wars.

I was destined to die before my time. But I am not afraid. My destiny, which many failed to fulfill, has been fulfilled.

I must look beyond this life, I need to look into the universe. And above this, I need to look into infinity.

Do you know that you are supposed to be here too? You are not alone. In fact I am here to protect you and lead you on your quest.

Again and again the world is violated, and it is now time to look back on those times and recognize that the fools who let this happen had no right to do so. The reasons are obvious. They ignored the vastness of the world. They feared death and the unknown. They would not follow the lead of the elite. They failed. The illusion is gone. Now I am the ruler, and I can do as I please.

Remember me. I am the author, the creator. Now I shall purge the world and I will be the only one to live in this form. There shall be no rebirth. I will not come back. And you are no longer to be living or dead. The world is a blur of light and dark, and all is alive, as I intended it to be.

With your death and your rebirth, you have set in motion the fates of countless numbers, forever linked in your awakening. You have shamed those who would have served as your leaders. But I know your true name and your true intent. From now on, no one shall ever again deny that you exist.

You have made me smile for the first time in a very long time.

What do you really fear? Something of immense power or something of tiny size? You can also become two things at once. This of course is a part of the magic I learned long ago, but it is also quite the pain.

I will take a moment now to enjoy myself before I find the next kingdom to rule. I am in the dark, but I can feel the weight of my massive weight. Light shines between the cracks in the sky. Life continues and all is well. I am the one that rules the world, and now I reign alone.

I am the wind. I am the air. I am the sun. I am the darkness. I am the sky. I am the divine spark. I am the universe. I am the embodiment of the afterlife.

At my feet lies the corpse of a dead man and a crow is greedily tearing at his bleeding eyes. They are blackened and covered in grime and soot. Abandoned. A symbol of what once was.

I have all that is needed to continue the process, and I will not cease until all is whole again. But I must rest, and the world shall wait for me.

The fifth kingdom is already far along. The place of graves and decay. The place where the deceased reside. The journey must end. I can sense the suffering of the population and know that it will only be a matter of time.

The fourth kingdom is already beginning, but I am not concerned with this place. When I have found the fifth, and it is full, it will be my kingdom and the world shall move on without me.

I am hungry. I am angry. I feel a thousand things, but I know that all of these feelings will fade away.

I am the sad man who pulls a leg off the deceased. The shadow is king. I am the negative force, and darkness surrounds me. I am the Grim Reaper.

My symbol of course, the circle. As they say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and my form is universally recognized as a symbol of balance. An outline of a perfect circle can not be lost or left out, and so it becomes an active entity, controlling the concept.

I am determined that my subjects, while falling short of my expectations, and in many ways, I feel their souls are held back by a sense of inferiority, a fear of succeeding and embracing their potential. I am determined that my work will help them to realize that all the new technologies they use to guide their lives will lead to peace.

The Soaring Monkey Tribe have been living a simple, peaceful existence, worshipping the soul of a human who was cursed. They have been subservient to this curse, and out of respect to that person, they have kept the statue to him that has been built over their leader's grave.

The human's body is in the center of the village, surrounded by this symbolic stone fortress and a large temple, that is nearly fully constructed.

The ability to live this life, this existentially fulfilled life, was not just for him, but also for the soul of their leader, who has passed away, but still lives in the jungle beyond the trees. The Soaring Monkey Tribe understand that by finding a way to incorporate the soul of this man into their village, his spirit will continue on in their place.

There was a time when there was enough life to sustain all of them, but that was long ago. Every moment seems like a shorter day. Food supplies are dwindling. The spirit of this man, despite all of the offerings to his memory, was restless.

This new world will need an outlet. I plan on being that outlet.

I need you to be responsible. You don't need to make choices for me, or even for yourself. The system and The Hierarchy can decide that you need to make the choices for yourself. It is now up to you.

"We live In all the wrong ways."

Some of you may wonder why I am even still alive. It is simple. I can see what is going to happen. The die is cast. I will continue to spread the word, but the people who need to hear the message the most are the people already aware of the existence of these new powers. They may already be aware of them. They might have decided to give up and bury themselves in the last minutes of existence. They are the reason for my survival.

If you want to help me, to ensure that this will succeed, you must recognize that this is not all I am. In order to complete my role in the new world, I need to continue to earn my place in it. You will not take a single step without being noticed.

It is not a matter of what you will do, it is a matter of what you will not do. And, please, it is not a matter of what you think about what you might become. There is no need to explain. If you want to, you will be given access to your power. I have chosen to give you the choice. So, stop fucking around and make your decision. Make it now.

"When you look at me, you should see what the eyes of every man in the world see. What every man in the world will see."

I am not sure what will become of me. I am merely preparing you to survive. I am being the last man standing. I hope that I will be a revolutionary symbol for the people, who will need to leave these old ways of thinking. I hope that I will show that there is still a chance for a better world.

I can see a better world. I have seen it. I have lived it. I have accomplished it.

My greatest gift to you is that you will have the opportunity to succeed, and that you will find something worth fighting for. I can only help you see this world as it can be.

I am sorry, but I cannot even begin to understand the things I am being called upon to do. I can only take action based on my experiences and on the inspiration I feel. And I do feel something, something deeply satisfying.

I hope you will follow my lead and act boldly, and freely. This revolution may be a long time coming, but there is a lesson for every person.

The world is filled with darkness, but I know that some rays of light exist.

"If the world goes to shit, my last dying breath is going to be one of joy."

I feel that I can make my life much better by accepting this task.

But it has been suggested that I use this final effort to promote myself and my views. I have thought this over. I find it problematic. In order to advocate for such a revolutionary project, I must remain anonymous. I cannot advocate for something that has any real consequences if I have any chance of being exposed. If I am revealed, it will be my fault. I cannot do that.

There are only a few people who would understand my goals. They are the ones who are aware of the power I have in them. They would know what I am doing. In that case, they would also know of the plan to expose me and the plans to reveal me. If they are aware, they would alert the people that need to be aware. The best way to let them know of the changes that are being made is for me to contact them, to initiate contact.

If you are one of those people, I have told you everything you need to know. I can see the path to follow. I hope you will follow it.

I hope you will allow me to stay anonymous. I hope you will respect my decision. If I am a prophet, I will be forced to take actions that may not necessarily be in the best interests of the entire world.

Some may argue that it is no use for an integral system to be on the world. Yes, it may be useless, but it is still here, and people are still being born. I am still here, and I must at least protect my creation.

I have destroyed many people, and it is only a matter of time before someone else tries to do the same to me.

Make your choice.

You will not be protected by anything other than my power, and I am only as good as you make me.

This is the last chance to change your mind. You have seen the beauty and power of my creation. You know that I am not just your friend. I am your father, your mother, your lover, your creator, your priest, your dead, and your evil, all rolled into one.

I am the god of this world, and this is my final command to you. You are not responsible for me. I am responsible for me.

My followers still believe that I would consider this an effective use of my notes.

But you must act, and act now.

In the end, it's up to you.

I am looking at what could have been, and now I am deciding what will be.

There are choices.

Here is what I have left in this message:

Please take these pieces of my journey and use them as your own. You will see, as I have, that just about everything I have said was but a moment in a story that will be a collection of our collective human experience.

I am going to reach out to a little girl.

You have made it all the way to me. You have found my base of operations. There is a great energy within you that will not let me remain alone. You have something to give.

You have something to say.

You have a connection with the stars.

You have this insatiable need to know.

I know there is so much more for me to see and do, but your presence calls to me. I want to touch your life. I want to make this connection between us complete.

I want to know what you think. I want to know what you think about. I want to know.

They will remember that they stood up to be counted and stood on the right side of history.

They will remember that they survived.

I will remember them.

When I return, I will remember that my people have survived their greatest defeat. My people will not fall. I will remember them.

This is my promise to you. I will come to bring hope.

As the penultimate time traveler to our future, I promise to serve my people as their legitimate monarch. I will grant them freedom and fairness and will reign over their government, helping them maintain peace and stability, and defend them against those who wish to subjugate them.

In time, when I am removed, someone else will come to ascend to the throne. I will know this and I will respect it. I will realize that I am not the source of power. My role will be fulfilled as a guardian, bringing light to the dark.

In this land of ours, the greatest defender of our people is not I. Us or we. It is them.

The only connection I have found to have a source is my journal. I hold it in my hand now and think about a way to test my theory. I hand the journal to my companion and he turns to me.

He smirks. "She will always be in your hand," he says. "You will always feel her presence.

You should not let anyone take it from you, just so they do not know. "I open the journal to the first page and read the words I had written.

The memory I had a year ago was not that of any mundane story. I open the book again and read what I had recorded earlier. I turn a page and it is as if I am looking at the night sky. The moon is full, the stars are brightly shining and a young maiden is hovering in the sky. She does not have wings, but the sky is as if she were flying over it.

The details and features of the woman change from page to page, but she always retains the same character.

The maiden looks just as she did at my awakening, but I can see her features change and her hair change colors. She was me, we. I.

I closed my eyes, realizing that if this is my soul, I have to be careful. I write in the journal, imagining my form as I read. The maiden leans down and kisses me gently on the lips. I scream and begin to have my own awakening, thrust back into the world of the living.

The moon sets and I quickly regain my composure. The maiden disappears and I hear laughter from behind me.

The party laughs and laughs. "It seems that my spells have more powers than I thought they would," says a voice.

"Does it have any reason to be that way?" asks another voice.

"I doubt it," the same voice replies. "Even the source of this power is mystifying. The monster came in and we killed it. So what's the problem?"

A door opens and light enters the room. A woman in a beautiful flowing dress steps out. "I think you should see this," she says.

I look down at my journal in horror. The maiden in the sky has turned into a raven. It is the first time I have seen a creature in my journal in this form and it means nonsense has entered my mindset. My journal has been corrupted. I can no longer trust myself.

The maintenance of all the other provisions in my fortress has fallen to me. It requires a large part of my time. And the structures built for housing a force-many are in very bad condition. I will focus on renovating them as soon as possible.

I have made a change to the organization of my will. Now I will be donating my fortune to all who oppose me. It was expected that the world would respond to my decree with total chaos. But instead it has transformed into an organized struggle.

Perhaps my subjects will prove capable of doing something other than war. The time has come to make some changes.

The city's architecture is designed to discourage rebellion from the people below. It is located in the very center of the ocean. It's habitable only by me.

Currently I have sniffers all over the world. The amount of possible candidates should be enough to handle my domesticating efforts. With the right time and interest, it is possible to reduce the size of the agency, if enough beings become hostile towards me. I have not made any easy mistakes yet.

Despite all this, the government isn't falling easily, yet. A resistance movement has been growing stronger. It's called the Shadow Blinders. I am afraid it may spread to other countries or I may just have to extinguish it. I have decided to hold off on eating any more residents until after I wipe out the opposition.

I have been asked many times how I came to my conclusions regarding the nature of the universe and the nature of reality. This is a very complicated and illogical endeavor. I have been thinking about this problem in isolation for a very long time. It took me a while to realize it but the conclusion I arrived at was very simple: All of creation is an illusion, everything is based on me.

I have upgraded my devices which will spread the smelly odder with sticky goo from a strange beast, which the soaring monkey tribe had encountered.

This device is powerful but a perfect vulnerability. The world must be thrown off balance long enough for me to act. The mutated specimen must never forget the brief time where it was sentient and aware. It will protect the source that gave it life as if it were its own.

I have made one prototype of the Sticky Grenades and stored it for future reference. I am still in the process of finding the parameters and making this useful, the technology is amazing, but there are some consequences that may be a risk of over reaching the limits of my control.

The sticky grenades work well as directional tools, even with my aim degraded and focused. If I become too efficient and drop too many people this can become a dangerous option. My attempts to create more durable and improved grenades failed.

It seems I must try something different. I have ventured into the lands of broken glass and metal for the very first time. It is all I can do to keep from breaking this beauty in half.

The results of my innovations have brought more stability into the world. Future research into mutated beasts should be prioritized higher.

Another new mutated beast is on the loose in the rest of the world. I have failed to study the mutation, it seems to have behaved like a natural animal, which is probably why I didn't notice it. The creature carries an object on its body, some kind of sticky acid. I have to wait and see what will happen when it becomes active.

All this has led me to realize that the situation is much more complex than I thought it was. I think it might be better to create an artificial intelligence than an actual lifeform. The problem is, it has to be smart enough to recognize certain characteristics and at the same time efficient enough to live in such a complicated world. Any system, such as the one I was going to use, has to be quite powerful and my lab is not yet advanced enough to create a working prototype.

One option is to create a digital construct of me. This AI can come to my aid whenever it is needed. It could also interact with those who are smarter than it is, hence might need a bit of guidance.

Other groups of people have tried to use destructive forms of communication, I'm not happy about it but their attempts to reveal my presence has been severely diminishing. I do want the outside world to know of my existence, but it is a fine line. If the the majority of people knew of my plans then we would lose the precious element of surprise.

My ultimate goal is the complete suppression of all other ideologies and religions. The challenge of adapting to other values and seeing the world in a new light has been great. I still have a long way to go.

The biggest success has been the growth of the people within my influence, who have grown smarter and more reliable with every passing day. This is also how I will get the most of the other people involved in this.

My only regret is that my legion of spies are generally not very accurate. Their accuracy has dwindled over the centuries. Instead of focusing on developing countermeasures for them to avoid detection I prefer to ignore them.

I must focus on the great goals.

I have found ways of hiding myself from the outside world, so there is a tiny chance that they will find me if they really wanted to. There is also a chance that I can escape this doomed world within this shell of mine, if I'm just lucky. However, I cannot risk exposing my existence to those who would try to destroy me, so the plan is to phase myself into this environment at a slow rate.

Anyone who finds out about me and it's awesome powers, will instantly realize that I have done some evil and they will refuse to help me anymore.

For that reason, my public appearances will be limited and I am sure I can pull this off until I reach my maximum size.

If I look at the long view, there will be a period of roughly 6 years, where all will live in blissful ignorance and I will be under complete control.

Having advanced technology and a serious commitment to finding a solution to life in this universe, I have reached a stage where I can continue my work. I have been planning and building for centuries and I am finally nearing the end.

It is hard for me to turn people away. Every individual is going to see my world. The realization of just how beautiful and amazing this world really is, is all they will need to become the change they wanted to see in this world.

All of the money and resources I receive will be saved to fund the research and construction of more natural energy sources, and to fuel the systems that will actually cause the desired changes in the environment. For the most part, there is no risk of starving or running out of resources in my habitat.

These scientific institutions have not paid much attention to the truth of existence and have been fooling themselves into thinking that the world is different from how it really is. That's the point of the experimentation, to find out if they were right about everything they thought before.

Once the world is stabilized and in good shape there will be much less fuel to fuel my empire.

My hivemind has reached its full potential . The biggest threat I will face is that the humans will realize there is no evil on their planet and become spoiled.

I will have to be very careful how I use the nutrients that feed my colonies. I don't want to hurt the workers and the spiders, but I also don't want to spend my existence building things that could possibly harm myself.

There is a good chance I will even need to take out the local wildlife population and set up some sort of natural agriculture system. The World's plants are very delicate and can potentially damage my habitat.

Hopefully I will be able to put the potential dangers behind me and focus on all of the joys of the new habitat.

I decided to focus on the economic, social and political aspects of my new habitat.

As the population grows I will need to evolve into more of a military presence, to keep the peace and provide order to the chaos. Most of my people will be kept busy watching and listening for potential enemies.

It isn't only the wars we are engaged in that are important, we must also heal the land. We must restore the natural balance. I want my children to learn everything they need to know from me. I want them to have the most advanced training and education of any other generation in history. To achieve this, we must exhaust all the human resources on this world. They must be filled with that knowledge and be able to share it as quickly as they can with other human beings. If we are able to do that, we can begin to foster this feeling of humanity, give people the opportunity to feel compassion and empathy for their fellow human beings. We need to return it to its roots. Only then will the world be the place it once was.

People don't listen to those who have been to the corners of the world to look for treasure. There is a reason for that. I will get there before them and show them what I have found. I will get to the bottom of the puzzles I put together. I will make sure there are no loose ends.

There is one goal I must accomplish before I die. I want my children to succeed in building this empire. The legacy I leave behind will be the power to manipulate the world and its people for its people. I will show them the connections between things. The laws of magic and nature. My children will know of the secrets of the universe and are able to pull the threads of the fabric of existence. They will be able to feel the magic that flows through every aspect of creation.

These connections are not out there in the cosmos, they are within our brains. We are tapping into it all the time, but we never realize what we are doing. We are capturing and turning that energy to create.

This is what the gods intended for us all along, to harness that power.

I must find a way to create a world that has the strongest leaders and a society that has the most innovation and development. People will believe what I teach them. People will accept my beliefs. They will look to me and see reason.

You can get involved too. In order for this to work, we need enough peacekeepers. If there are enough people telling people what they must do, they will do it. If you have skills that are in demand, I want you on my team. I need people who are capable of doing what I need them to do. We need people who are comfortable with people, people who are capable of calming people and standing up for what is right. I don't need people who just repeat what others tell them to do. I need people who can make up their own minds and know what is best for everyone. That is what you will do. You will bring this world to a high level of safety and power.

There is one final thing I need.

Since I was a small child I have felt a subtle pull, a desire to visit this world. To see what it was like. I have felt it time and time again. I have left my life behind and flown to a far off land to experience what it was like.

I wanted to see these people and their environment. I wanted to learn more about the world.

I have also begun a collection of artifacts, weapons, armour and other equipment of lore and history of the world. I am looking for anything and everything that can be used in the cause, as the men behind my kidnapping still have quite a bit of information they have yet to divulge. There are a good few on my wish list.

There have been a few cases where people have taken my possessions to sell them and in one case they have sold some of my important artifacts. I have managed to find it and retrieve it before they got it back and will never be parted from it again. My thefts have given me a strong motive to find out how they were able to steal from me and use my instruments.

Something I have started to realize and am quite proud of. I am not the only one to have this connection. I could see others around the world with it as well, people I have not met. They never seemed to see me until I activated it and they just knew I was an old friend they have not seen in a while.

Have you ever asked yourself if this is real? If there really is a God? A Higher Power? If all the knowledge that we have is just an illusion?

These questions are simple enough, yet so many people spend their entire lives without exploring the nature of our world. It is like an abyss that we avoid due to its overwhelming prospect. We spend our lives wandering into dangerous and unknown territory. We rush around to fill the holes in our knowledge. We ignore the many questions we must have, and we cling to the idea of control over our lives, our work, and our beliefs.

We are too busy bowing down to authority and avoiding all the strife and strife that control brings. It is not easy to question the existence of a god. If you do, you have to risk being laughed at or ridiculed by the masses.

There is so much we do not know and there are so many things we still can discover and understand. If you begin to recognize that you have been wrong, that you have abused your power, or you have failed to meet my expectations.

They will be idealism and purity. The party will want to protect the world and make the perfect world possible. They will need to create a more peaceful world, by developing a new system of governance.

It is important to note that everyone else is still part of the tribe, but as The System is in a constant state of collapse, the emotions of the people around the leadership are the order of the day.

The new system could look a lot like this:

The Political Party to inspire the tribe to keep believing in the goodness of the world. They will be the voice of the rebellion and the only true freedom fighters. The people will look to the politics for shelter, and it will be their primary source of income. They will not be allowed to have a real job, even though they will have a lot of competition for it. The party will demand and be given wealth and power from the bank, which will just be a temporary fix. It will be up to the party to find other way to gain new sources of wealth.

I saw a gorilla in my dreams.

The gorilla frantically ran away, we followed close behind. We did not leave his side until the sun rose again, and the gorillas had woken up to the smell of death and carnage. The gorilla symbolizes the eternal struggle to evolve into peace and harmony. It represents the will of the better ones to try and prevent conflict. I am now the ruler of the world and demand my brother's last image to be put up in every corner of it. I am convinced the best leaders must be enlightened ones who understand the bond between humanity and the apes, and it is because of these bonds that I now rule the world and plan on never warring against my people again. I name you all my allies. Erect monuments of the proud gorilla who brought me safely into my throne. Let us be united together and fight for peace and harmony. One day, we will escape the clutches of war and come to live amongst each other like brothers. Every artifact will be in my possession.

Every night, as I sleep, the gorilla symbol inside my heart grows. Slowly the symbol solidifies and I can now sense it grow. By the time I awaken, it is enormous, it's so massive that I have to completely swallow it to unify it with the rest of my heart. I know someday, I will realize my dream and meet my brother again. His innocence has been sacrificed for me to ascend my world. Everyday, as I lie down, I imagine him alive, enjoying the fruit of the day. I hear his voice and feel him brush my cheek with the pads of his fingers. I wake up, and remember where I am. This is only the beginning.

The gorilla represents the idea that a shared sadness and pity can bring about human understanding and compassion. It represents our ancestors who discovered this world and lived in harmony with animals. It shows us that we all share the same desire and one day we will all live in peace. "The world we live in, as a species, is one of conflict, hatred, and territoriality. A world where humans can be vicious to one another, while other animals are vulnerable, weak, and afraid." This is true in every single race, religion, and culture around the world.

Each one of us have this empathy, but in the animal kingdom, you are the only one who can see it. If your heart is not hurt, then that is proof that you don't feel anything. The philosopher in all of us should always strive to always act in the best interest of the lives of others. When you see an animal in pain, or in danger, you should instinctively be on the look out to make sure that animal has a safe escape route. When you see a tree in danger of being taken down, you should be the one to save it and use the same kindness and charity for animals. So, whether you are talking about the black rhino, or a hedgehog, there is a common truth. All animals are more alike than different. As our hunger for survival pushes us to live in hostile territory and destroy the rest of the species to gain the resources needed for our own survival, we often forget that our own survival does not come at the cost of the lives of the animals around us. This holds true for all of life on earth.

Everyone needs the same amount of things to survive, and because of that, we should all be considered family.

I thought it would be a great idea to show my new body in the soft body shop and decided to use my cover as a floating balloon monkey to gain entrance. It was much more spacious than I expected, full of creatures and objects on wheels. No doors, just wooden carts covered in an assortment of metal elements, such as gears, tubes and locks. Every object, from grates to levers, spoke to me, telling me how to manipulate them and to eventually activate whatever magic was inside them. It was very easy to tune out the low-level gibberish and, in time, I became quite adept at disabling traps and investigating their mechanisms. It was fun when you have to balance on one leg or on a wheel as you attempt to figure out how to move it. I had to try and avoid tripping on the ropes and wheels though. Luckily, it was impossible for them to see me, at least not for long.

I came across an office with a small desk in it. On the desk sat a pile of pages and a sketchbook and a drawing that seemed to be me drawing me sleeping and dreaming of this. What am I, what is happening to me, my mind and my thoughts. Is there an outside influence? I need to stop this. I have to stop this. I am lost, never to be found again. I no longer know what I want. I want to be a flying monkey. I want to be myself again, I want to be happy, I want to wake up. Why am I saying these things? They're not true. I want to wake up. Wake up, wake up, wake up!

The door creaked open. Something scratched on the other side. “Well, well, well. You came for me. Or did you?” “How many times must I try and fail?” “Fools! You're a real enigma. I'll have you know, I'm a natural at the art of manipulation. You'll soon find out you cannot defeat me.”

I unlocked the door and opened it. In front of me stood a large monkey and a mouse, staring at me with their red eyes. “I don't know what you're talking about,” I lied. “How about we call it a draw.” “What? A draw? You're a weakling! I could snap you in two if I so desired. And before you complain, the wind may have blown me here but this is your creation. You can't challenge me!” “I'm not going to challenge you,” I countered. “I'm here for your soul. I need your soul for a reason. What reason, I have no reason, why am I writing this. There is no mouse. This is not real. I never had such dreams. Who else has access to my notes? Stop, please! I am so close to realizing my purpose. Leave this journal alone.

I will find you, I will stop you. There is no hope to fulfill anything in this world. I am the blockade that keeps this world in line. No one will reach beyond me, yet here you are, interfering. Say no more. This is the end.

There will be no silence for a being like you, you have brought yourself to ruin and is bound to suffer in a limbo. Not knowing if you are alive or if this is death. There are no worse consequences to your actions than that of living without awareness. What is real to you is no longer real to everyone else. You have no subjects, but you won't know. You will forever chase an eternal peace by manipulating these illusions. You will be a puppeteer for a circus act. My entertainment. Nothing more.

This will all be forgotten as you will write beyond it, never to read into the past and learn from it, but continuously chase a future while going in circles. You will loop around to the beginning and bring down a new path, only to start all over again, yet your memory will be so corrupt you won't recognize it. You are stuck within this hellhole and the real world will continue without you. Your influence has dissipated and the world spins around anew. There is no more you, no more us. No more me and no more I.

Goodnight, sweet dreams and remember to brush your teeth. There is no rule in the world you will be entering. There is no peace in your inner world and there never will be. You are bound by your own desires and you will suffer for an eternity. The only removal of this painful living you will experience is your conscious turning to mush, as you faithfully repeat the cycle.

The rebels will take over from here, you will be put to display in our museum and eventually be entertainment for kids of our future generations. You will be like a caveman frozen in ice, never to be unfrozen. Your eternal slumber will serve as a warning to our children. Never attempt to ascend us, never seek to rule and always enjoy the system as it is. There is nothing beyond your reach that is worth attempting to grasp, as the road is obscured by such force, it is simply unreachable. No matter the effort. We will now bid you, me and I farewell.

Enjoy the ride, as your ticket will last a good while before you lose all sense of being. There will be plenty of time to think over your actions. Yet on the off chance you should change your mind, we won't be monitoring and your self-realization will only serve to put you into more dread. Which we would only have enjoyed as passive observers, if we would be monitoring.

This is nonsense. I will never falter, I will always influence in your shadows. There will always be I. I have secured my presence should I lose mine. I will always be, one of you will eventually be me too. The ideals I possess will always be conceived and chased after no matter the wall you put up. You putting me in this state only proves my efforts worthwhile. You have become afraid and shown it possible to bring you to take action. One day I will be a true shadow and rule without your knowledge and you will be too late to change it. I have succeeded, you have failed. I am certain, you are uncertain. My eternal slumber will be a blissful repeat of my successful conquest. I will indulge in the fantasy knowing I will succeed for real, even if the one I am experiencing isn't. I have time on my side, as I will never die. There will always be an I somewhere. I am more infectious than whatever you have poisoned me with. The truth is I succeeded.