CURSE THIS WEAK BODY! CURSE THOSE IDIOT GODS! CURSE EVERYTHING! AAARRRGGHHH!
Apparently all that yelling inside my head tired me out yet again, and I am falling asleep... DAMMIT!
(2 hours later)
This is what I am talking about. This body is just so weak I can’t even begin to describe it!
I tried shifting into something, anything, more powerful but did you know what happened when I tried to shift? NOTHING!
Yup, that’s right! Not a thing! This tiny body is so weak it can’t even support full body transformation! I can at most change the colour of my eyes, grow my nails a bit and grow my hair. That’s it!
I can’t even crush a little lesser God in this body, imagine how weak I am! Not even a lesser god! I must be the weakest thing in the entire multiverse!
And this isn’t even the end of my rant! Oh no no no no no! It’s not only my weakness, it’s also how I am supposed to behave! All other little things of my race are supposed to be so stupid they don’t even know when they are hungry! They just bawl their eyes out and their parents have to figure out what’s wrong with their little bastard! AND I AM SUPPOSED TO BEHAVE LIKE THEM!!!
DAMMIT! I’m getting tired again… NOOO! Stay open eyes! If you don’t stay open I will make….
(1.5 hours later)
AAAARGH!!
DAMN THIS BODY!
Now, where was I..? Ah that’s right… My rant…
So it’s not just that little things at the same age as me can’t feel when they are hungry, they can’t even control their bodies! Their arms and legs flail about helplessly, while they make incomprehensible sounds with their mouths!
And don’t even get me started on how we relieve ourselves… URGGHH!! I just hope no one from the gods finds out about this fact… I might just have to kill myself and hide myself forever because of the shame!
Then there’s the thing about how I get my food! It has to do something with my mother’s chest area! Oh the horror! Although I have to say that the soft sensation of her chest and the taste of the liquid is nice… but still! The horror!
And the worse thing about all this is that I can’t even do anything to change all this! All I can do is suffer through this hell and try to make the best of it!
CRAP! I’m falling asleep again aren’t I?!? CURSE THIS BODY! CURSE THE….
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It’s so wonderful that I finally have a child of my own! I had longed for one for so long, but Elliot had always refused because of our financial position and some other matters.
Sure, we may not be the richest family around but we make do just fine. It’s not like I was asking for a whole herd of children like some families have, I just wanted one child and that’s it.
After a lot of convincing and plenty of arguments I finally convinced Elliot that it was time for us to have a child. He did have one condition though:
If the child was a girl and she was growing up to be beautiful, he would ‘mark’ her face. A ‘mark’ is nothing but a scar, usually a huge one that spreads all across the face. Poor people like us are forced to do this to our pretty daughters so that they may escape the clutches of the rich nobles, as the scar makes them undesirable for the nobles.
Luckily, I was never much of a looker. Just average really… But I did have two friends who were quite pretty. One of those was ‘marked’ by her parents, but the other’s parents didn’t do so, hoping that their luck would enable their child to stay unnoticed long enough. My friend was almost 16 when she was spotted by a noble, and in the end her parents were forced to witness unspeakables things done to their daughter before they were killed and their daughter was taken. I haven’t seen her since…
The nobles take this as a sort of game: Who can find the prettiest commoner from the poorest of places to make as their slave?
It’s absolutely disgusting. But there’s nothing anyone can do about it. I knew all too well what happens to female slaves, so I naturally agreed with Elliot’s condition. It may seem cruel for parents to scar their own children, but it’s much, much better then what they would have to face otherwise.
Anyways, coming back to reality… I looked at the young boy in my lap. Fenix…
He was such a cutie! I was terrified when he was born with those red eyes of his, sure that he would be killed immediately on the grounds of being some sort of demon. Luckily, Sally kept a calm head and figured out it was just some blood… although how blood only collected on his eyes and not anywhere else I have no idea…
Fenix is also extremely odd. He never cries or does normal baby stuff. On the contrary, he always looks like he is angry! He is always frowning and scowling, which looks so cute on his little baby face!
But seriously, I don’t know why he always seems so angry. He is also always reluctant on feeding, although when I push him towards my chest and hold him there he calms down and starts feeding normally.
He also never cries… which I am both thankful for and worried about.
At least he still sleeps a lot, just like a normal baby does… maybe even sleeps a bit more then others, like he is always tired from doing something… not really sure…
Taken from Royal Road, this narrative should be reported if found on Amazon.
“Come on darling, it’s time!”
I looked up and saw that Elliot was there. I smiled, today was a big day! We would finally be able to move out of the caring facility and take Fenix to our own home for the very first time! We had managed to take care of him inside the facility for a whole week thanks to the owner of the establishment owing a favor to Elliot. It really did help out a lot for me to catch up on my health a bit and also for Fenix to interact with other newborns… Although he always seemed to look at the other newborns with an expression of disgust… I hope that’s just my imagination…
We packed away the few items we had and I picked up Fenix, making double sure that I was holding him securely. He seemed to have woken up from the nap and was looking around curiously, like trying to figure out why we were moving or where we were going. He really does look smart, he could also be a genius!
We stepped out and Fenix’s eyes grew wide! I chuckled at the sight, it must be so wondrous seeing such a vast world for the first time! Although instead of looking around Fenix seemed to be staring at the sky, with a hint of worry on his little face. I looked up but saw nothing out of the ordinary, the same blue sky stretched about with a few clouds and the sun which was shining. Hmmm… He must just be surprised that’s all…
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I woke up because I was rudely being shaken around! My mother was holding me while my father as holding onto some things. Yet again I cursed my weak body, I couldn’t even move from one place to another on my own!
We moved while my mother kept me close to her body, like I was some fragile creature that would be injured with the slightest of touches. And you know what? I really would be injured in this useless, weak, disgus….
Wait, are we outside..? Yes! I have been waiting for a chance to be outside!
I immediately looked towards the sky and filled my eyes with power, enabling me to see for billions and billions of miles. What I saw alarmed me!
I had thought I had been reborn after a few thousand years, a hundred thousand at the most, but the positions of the stars in the distance tell me another story.
A lot of time seems to have passed. Not thousands… millions! Maybe even billions of years have passed since I let those idiotic gods kill me! And that is alarming indeed! Not just because of the time which has passed, but what the passing of time signifies.
Gods and beings such as me gain power with time. The more time a being is alive, naturally the more powerful it becomes. This means that while my soul had been drifting away for all those billions of years, the other gods must have been gaining power. And a billion years is a lot of time to gain power!
Sure, I am still confident in defeating any god one-on-one if I had my previous power, but I’m not too sure if I would be able to wipe out 300 gods now as easily as I did before.
This is troublesome. My plan was just to get killed, spend a few hundred years living an actual life and then returning back to my duties as The Overseer. It seems I failed to take into account the fact that reincarnating may take time. And for someone as powerful as me, reincarnating apparently takes a few billion years.
If I am to rise to my previous position and hold it, I will have to be patient. I will have to take out one god at a time as I gain power, not muscle my way through hundreds of them like I had planned to.
My thoughts were interrupted by my mother saying, “Fenix look! This is our home. I know it’s not much but we love it! Come on, let me show you around!”
I looked at where she was pointing and saw a small, double story house made out of bricks. My mother was right, it really didn’t look like much. It was small, the paint was chipped and scratched in many places and even the bricks didn’t look in good condition. It was a marvel that the house was still standing at all.
I didn’t listen much to my mother as she took me inside our small house and showed me around. My father seemed to be saying something about why is my mother talking to me when I can’t even understand it and my mom is retorting in some way. But I wasn’t paying attention at all…
I was thinking about what to do. I had planned on transforming my body as soon as it gets powerful enough and leave this place once and for all. But as I looked at my mother’s eyes filled with love and my father’s smiling face, I realised I had completely forgotten why I let myself die in the first place.
Wasn’t this whole fiasco the result of me wanting to live an actual life? So what if I am in a weak body, I seem to have good people to take care of me and who love me. I have never even been loved before, only feared or hated.
It’s decided then. I’ll stay in this body for now and act like how this race is supposed to in front of everyone here… Meanwhile I’ll gather as much information as possible on this world, the gods and work on gaining back my power!
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