As Rabbit Hater and his gang ran about the school covered in filthy words describing sin, I sat alone in an empty room with clothes strewn about the floor. I had completed my goal completely, though that was only up to this point. In the future Mr. Walters could refuse to give me the information. Rabbit Hater could try to take revenge or find his bag removing the blackmail material. Everything could possibly go perfectly fine, but I felt there were a couple gaps in the plan. As I rested I covered my eyes and tried to go deep into thought.

Did I really do the right thing?

This is for those girls.

Is that right?

Who cares what I think is right.

You should?

Then should I abandon them? Just like everybody else has.

Didn’t you just assume that?

But it could be true.

An internal struggle filled my head, a battle with my thoughts.

USELESS. I stood quickly and got prepared to leave the school. I walked outside and felt the crisp air, I calmed my raging head. Once again my emotions are trying to struggle, why would they fight? What was the point of having emotions if they just got in the way? With this my expression and heart turned stone cold once again.

I went to the coffee shop, it would usually still be open at this time though with little visitors. I walked in the usual bell sounding my arrival. This time I noticed it was only Mr. Drake though this happened often. Mrs. Drake had to rest because of her health. I walked to the counter and sat on a stool. Unwilling to talk I just stare at the ground thinking about thoughts.

“And then there were three.” Mr. Drake commented. “For a person who hates people as much as you say, you surround yourself with an awful lot of women don't you.” So he noticed some type of relationship between myself and Bell.

“It's not like that, you know as well as I do that I have trouble socially.” I spoke sourly. True I was not shy or hesitant to talk, but a mere look at my relationships could tell you I was a bad socializer. I treat my class like they are a lower caste. The people outside of my class are only there because they want something from me or I already did something for them. I could probably count the number of people I had good relationships with on one hand.

“For a person who has trouble socially, you have some good friends.” He teased, parallel structure sucks. But what did he mean? I suddenly saw a leg sitting on the chair to my right. I looked up and saw Kaede.

“What are you doing here?” I asked coldly.

“I'm here for you, you sent us here and then told Abby to take us around. You're hiding something.” It did not surprise me that Kaede knew this, Kaede wasn’t always air-headed. Additionally her power might have helped her. Another thing to worry about, what was Kaede’s power? I knew she could see the good in people, but how? Who gave it to her? Was it that child?

“So what If i'm hiding something? People always have secrets, I don’t want to tell you.” But what my heart said was different. Are you going to help? I have horrible secrets. Telling you will only hurt you. I felt like dirty water had been dumped on my head. I obviously felt wet, cold, and disgusted, but there was nothing I could do, nobody to blame.

“I want to help, Please tell me.” Kaede was insistent. She really wanted to help, but would it be good to tell her? Could I even trust her?

“NO.” I yelled disgusted with what I had just thought. How could I not trust her? Kaede was a good person. She would help people without knowing their condition. She was naive, NO Innocent. Pain went from my hands up to my brain. It gave me a headache. My mind got worse.

“What do you mean, I'm just trying to help.” Kaede said gently. My heartbeat sped up and blood pounded away at my brain. I am a dirty disgusting black hole, I will suck everything into my grasp. I ruin anything I touch, being close to me is a curse.

I don’t want to ruin you. I don’t want to make you lose your purity. I don’t want to hurt you in this world based on my imagination. I need to stay away.

“Get away from me.” I spoke coldly. Kaede’s eyes looked hurt. I hurt from the look, what had I just said. I didn’t mean it, I can’t take it back. I am useless.

I ran away before anything else could be said. I could only hope for a cloudburst, so I could accompany the rain.

The next day had been terrible. I was filled with a feeling that would go beyond listlessness. It felt like anything I did was useless.

“So this is what it feels like when you would rather die.” I spoke normally. My eyes were different today, the usual arrogant or emotionless eyes only looked avoidant and apathetic. It didn’t surprise me that Kaede ignored me. After all, who could go up to the person who told you all that. I ignored the rumors of what had happened the night before.

“What do you mean you want to die?” Bell said, worried. I got a couple glances from people, they would probably write it off as a figure of speech.

“I’m not going to die anytime soon.” I said, an obvious gap in my words. This relaxed Bell, I wondered why I did not care about getting close to Bell. I would only ruin the people close to me. I came to no answer. I passed the rest of the school day lethargically. No one would be stupid to care about me with what I had done.

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Today I had an important event. The meeting with Haven, I would go with Abby. After school I was approached by her grabbing my arm. I felt little resistance to anything at this point. We continued walking to a park where we had agreed to meet up. Haven had chosen quite a good spot. There were spots secluded enough to hold private conversations. However it was crowded enough for anybody to hear her shout. With what she had been through I was not put off by her cautiousness.

Abby and I waited for half an hour before Haven showed up. She was dressed quite modestly and had a heavy jacket on. She also wore a big hat that would make her look like a passerby to anyone.

“Hello, Haven” I started. I was having trouble steeling my heart for this encounter.

“Hi.” A mumble left her lips. I didn’t know how to start this conversation.

“So you are one of his victims.” Abby said. I was amazed by how senseless she was right now. Haven’s eyes quickly dilated and her breathing sped up. A panic attack. I continued to struggle with my words and heart. Why was I even helping her? I activated my ability on her.

{I was sexually assaulted}

My eyes widened and I was completely shocked, terror filled my heart. Anger then blasted through anything else I felt. An ability like this, that thinks that is a sin. I don’t need such a crappy ability. I looked back at her eyes, she was suffering. I felt a jolt and remembered why I had done this. This girl has suffered for how long? Been alone for how long? Every one of her actions showed she could not forget. She was still a slave to what had happened.

“Abby, that's insensitive.” I said and then straightened my back. I blazed with new determination. But with that I knew just how much I had hurt Kaede. Abby realized herself and quickly apologized. I needed to calm her down, but how? Words suddenly leapt from my mouth.

“I know nothing about you, I do not know how you have lived since that day. I do not know why you refuse to provide testimony against him. However I do know, if even only a little of what you have gone through. I have seen how you feel. I know what a burden on a heart feels like. I know you have been trapped. And I know that you are not the only one who has gone through this.” The words had ignored the processing from my brain and had gone straight from my heart to my mouth. She was surprised when I said she wasn’t the only one. Tears filled her eyes. In fact this girl was innocent. She had very few sins.

{I made everyone abandon me}

“What does it have to do with you?” She asked. I decided to let my heart do its own thing.

“Even with what I don’t know, I can’t ignore what I know. My blood boils even now knowing what happened. I would no longer be able to call myself a person if I abandoned you. I have been abandoned too. It’s because I have that pain that I gained this strength.” I was running out of breath but it did not matter. She was not expecting any of this. At this point Abby was no longer part of the conversation, a mere bystander.

“I'm not worth it.” She murmured again.

“Who said that?” I asked, pushing forward as hard as I could.

“It's true.” She had really given up on herself.

“How could you not be worth it. You are a person the same as me. It’s not your fault you have been abandoned. Kurt does not own you.” I continued not willing to stop.

“But I'm just used goods.” She said her eyes were null.

“SHUT UP, do not talk about yourself that way. You have been abandoned by society. Don’t abandon yourself.” I yelled.

“But even if I somehow got to value myself that doesn’t mean anything. Nobody else will accept me.” She tried to argue not only against me but herself.

“I will, I will show you that your life isn’t over. I swear that I will not abandon you even in death. Nothing in this world will tear me away from you. Until the day I die your name will be ingrained in my very soul.” What did I just Say? That sounded quite like a-

“Love confession.” Abby drilled in. Haven had a face that was sad, but to me it was a face that said do I really deserve this?

“Really?” Haven asked, hopeful.

“Yes, I will never abandon you or refuse your hand. Though I don’t mean it in a romantic way.” I said embarrassed but very straight forward. Haven started crying, tears crowded her face and kept falling.

“Why would you do this for me?” She asked through years worth of tears.

“Because I will not allow myself to see you and look away. You are not dirty or disgusting. If I had turned the other way I would have lost the very thing that makes me human.” I said as I stared deep into her eyes.

“I should stop crying now.” She tried to wipe away her tears from her face.

“No, people say you grow up when you stop crying, but I believe that you have to cry. Those tears are everything you have gone through. To deny those tears are to deny your hardship, suffering, and very life. Keep crying, those tears are your strength.” I tried to console her. Haven grabbed me into a deep hug and continued to cry for a long time.

“Mom, he made her cry.” A young boy walking by said.

“Son he is a bad boy, remember to always cherish girls.” The boy's mother said teaching her son. Abby started to laugh. The laughter then grew to Haven. Soon the mood had lightened.

“Why did you not want to persecute Kurt?” Abby asked naively.

“I didn’t want the people around me to know what happened.” Haven answered obediently.

“What about now?” I asked.

“I will be fine if you go through it with me.” She said.

“Don’t worry you’re innocent, nobody can say otherwise.” I said justly. Haven smiled then closed her eyes.

5 minutes later.

She fell asleep. She has been through a lot. However, now I have another problem. I have a passed out girl and nothing to do with her. Don’t take it that way. I obviously can’t leave her here. I don’t know where she lives. That leaves the authorities, no too serious. Then either Abby’s house, my house, or a hotel. Who knows about Abby’s house. It would probably be only the two of us in my house, though she might accept it. Do we have enough money for a hotel, though it would be worrying to wake up with no one around you.

“Do you forget the simplest of things?” Abby scoffed after seeing me think in confusion. She then walked over to have reached into her purse and found her wallet. Eventually she got to the I.D.

“I know where she lives, let's drop her off there.” Abby was sometimes smart too.

“How far away is it?” I asked.

“Quite far.” She responded. We would probably have to take a taxi.

“Guess you will have to take her.” Abby said.

“Me, Alone?” I asked

“I have other things to do.” Abby replied.

“Please.” I pleaded. I need her to go with me. Otherwise I might be arrested. A boy alone with a passed out girl. It's screaming go to jail. But I guess Haven would know what happened and can testify. Wait, I would still go to jail until she wakes up.

“Goodbye.” Abby said and walked away. I would one day get my revenge on her.