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My life after death
Chapter 3: Proving one's worth II (Inner turmoil)

Chapter 3: Proving one's worth II (Inner turmoil)

Luna POV:

"Are you kidding me?" Was my response with a tone of incredulity

The whole 'base' of this quest is bare of any life, not counting two common guards comparable in strenght to copper ranks. Might I add this whole 'base' is right under the palace?

'This country's royalty is pretty easygoing or plain stupid for allowing such things' These were my thoughts upon witnessing this shocking scene. Shocking for a medival setting because most medival setting have guards upon guards backed up with high in strenght knights guarding places where royalty stays even for a short visit.

'Not that it matters'

Now should I go with my original plan or change it? Why am I doubting my decisions? Gaaah...

"I don't understand!" What the hell is going on in my head suddenly? I never changed any decisions after making one. This has never happened before, this is not efficient, this won't get me anything or change anything. It doesn't matter, then why... WHY AM I DOUBTING MYSELF!?

What am I feeling now? I want something that's clear, but what? After my sleep everything was fine, after arriving in this city everything was fine. Was it after meeting this party?

Let's go, these guards finally noticed me and are coming here.

[Fly]

Casting some magic,flying away and leaving these guards behind my mind goes back to my inner turmoil.

This is not normal, what is it I am longing for?... Wait?... ... ... Longing for?

I got everything I ever wanted, so it cannot be longing... Right?

Then what is this hollowness, this emptiness

In my long life, even before I began to live in this wonderful world. Such feelings were alien to me. After coming to this world my dreams have come true... or have they?

Wait? ... ... ...

Maybe not dream, but something is still missing.

"Haha HAHAHAHA" Oh my, oh my. This is hilarious

"This is longing that is residing in me right now. How can this be? The only thing ever out of my reach in this world or the one before. I have accepted a life in loneliness. Always alone, never with someone to share joy or misery with. A loveless life. MY life. I haven't even seen her face, only ... understood her ... heart? ... We are similar? We were betrayed by the people we trusted? Left alone with nothing but a ... cruel reality?"

" I was never mature, just childish, insane, thought of myself as cruel but people called me also golden hearted. What describes me the best? Propably the word 'Realist'. I do not understand myself. I was hurt by everyone known to me in my previous life. Is it the case of closing one's heart off? To not experience more pain? Then why, again... Again... AGAIN... My mind goes back to Evileye?"

"Haaaaah... Even now, while fyling my direction is not after Gagaran, going by the scent left in the air I'm following Evileyes trail. It's unreasonable. Is it really... Love? Only this explains my unreasonableness. Going after her instinctively. Longing for something... for touch? Maybe ... No ... for acceptance? ... Yes. That's it."

"I want to be loved, accepted as I am. I want to have someone. Someone I can touch, but not with my fake persona, fake outside emotions but with care."

Yes. I want someone to love and said person to love me back. The only thing denied to me. Something thought impossible by myself to experience. To hold said person in my arms and never let her go. Can a monster love? Yes. Can I love? Someone that never experienced it? I want to, but how do I love or show my love?

"*sigh* There goes my whole plan to fake my character. What should I do now with the whole act? Was it a wasted effort? Maybe... Maybe not."

"Fuck it. Should I go clear with everything? Yes. In worst case scenario a simple memory-altering spell should suffice. Now, Do I remove my ring while revaling myself to her?"

My ring. One of the most powerful world items in my opinion. It only acts passively when wearing, but said person can become whatever they want. 'Ring of concealment,' simply put hides everything about the wearer and shows a only what said player wants it to, its even possible to make a whole new status and hide as a level 1 player with minimal stats, no titles and any equipment, while in reality everything is just hidden. For example with this item making a scene where lvl 1 player can win against a lvl 100 is reality an everyone will believe it. World items can resist effect of others,but this one acts only passively so its impossible to bypass anything that is hidden. In this new world it can change also my scent, voice, taste, presence, simply everything that other people can percieve. Of course this item does not change apperances. My case of switching gender gives me some space with it. My look are different for female and male, almost reversed. This nullifies the only drawback.

Now with the question. Do I reveal myself completly? Taking off my ring? ... No, but it should be possible to exclude her from the rings effect. In game there was an omit section. Willing to ignore her from its effect should do the work.

"Why my heart feels so heavy now?" My Flight contiuned with me pondering my thoughts aloud.

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Evileye POV:

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"Finally, my job is done let's get out of here."

[Fly]

Taking to the air my thoughts went back to strange girl left behind in my tent. What to do with her? We're not related this is obvious even if we look similar, next she obviously doesn't want anything from me. What is even my stance with her?

She's obviosly a girl. Falling in love isn't normal within the same gender, even if I have seen such things already. Did I even fall in love? Maybe it's just attraction to her beauty. Her life was hard, trouble followed her surely. I can help her start with a clear plate. I don't really know what to think of her otherwise. To little information on her, dont know how to call her even. I want to know her better, that is the only thing I'm sure of.

Still thinking about her my senses noticed something flying towards me.

"ONEEEE-SAMA" Shouted a voice near me

"Not again" Saying this I felt myself being hugged by this kid again while falling down at alarming speed.

*CRASH*

"*Groan* Why must you fly directly towards me with such force just for a hug!" I got up while complaining loud.

"To show you" What is she saying? Show me what?

"First introduction. I have come to a decision to come clean with you. So let's introduce ourselves first. Please begin becuase I would require some more time." Said the strange girl with a serious tone alerting me somewhat.

"Fine. I'm Evileye adamantite ranked adventurer and magic caster of Blue Roses which is an all-female adamantite ranked adventurer group." After introducing myself I wait patiently for her.

"*Sigh* Everything I say is true. I'm Luna or Sol Scarlet. For the rest of my introduction answer please my question. I will answer yours after saying everything."

"Do you know the term 'Player'?"

My mind goes to a halt after hearing that term. How does she know about it? Only a few beings know about it. And what does she mean Luna OR Sol. Nevertheless she picked my interest.

"I know of this race. I refer to their descendants as God-kin"

"That's not much and not actually true."

What? What does she know about them? What exactly does she know? Is she a danger to me? Why is Luna telling me this? She wouldn't be talking with me if we were enemies, so what goes in her mind?

"First of all. You are confused so, why am I telling you this and why here? I will be blunt because I don't know any better. I like you. I do not say for you to love me back immediately or something like this. I want you to give me a chance to experience love. I don't understand my own heart, the only thing I know of for sure is my longing towards you. I want to be close to you, embrace you, just be with you. But this takes time so I will wait and ask only for a chance. This is the main reason of me revealing myself this night to you so..."

Wha-what is happening did she really confess to me right now!? Why do I feel happy because of it!? What the hell is wrong with me!? She doesn't know I'm a vampire. Once she knows it will be over. Why do I feel like my heart is beating once again after such a long time? It's only an illusion I know but it feels real enough for me. Two girls shouldn't even think about it... Then, why do I want to go with it? To try?

"... I'm a Player. To be more precise I was called 'The strongest Player' without equal. Now seeing as we are both girls can be a problem for you. Fear not I'm both genders male and female, thats why I've given you two names. Luna is my female name, while Sol is my male. I WAS originally male, that's why my attraction is towards women. I just feel more comfortably in female body than male. Other than that? I'm a vampire of the highest order. I was denied love in my long life and now the only thing I know for sure is my hearts longing for your presence. I want to know you better. I can already understand some of your character, but its not enough. I don't know what it's I'm looking for becuase I never experienced it that's why I want to try this. It's you that captured me, it's not love yet but attraction, longing, something similar. If you want to refuse giving it a chance, then we will not see each other again."

The longer she talks, the more my eyes widen. After hearing it all, my mind goes blank.

A player, the strongest of them, the highest ranked vampire confessed to me. She can also change genders at will. I'm also a vampire does she know? ... Wait am I going to believe her like that? But she wouldn't know such terms otheriwse.

"Prove it. Let me feel your true presence. If all you're saying is true, then I'm willing to try"

This way I will know for sure.

"Are you sure? I was ready at the beginning to allow you to feel me but you won't be able to hold it in"

"I'm sure. I want to know" Such was my decision

"Fine, but before I will let you promise me this conversation will be only between us"

"If your aura will prove it, then I promise to keep this between us only"

The moment my answer ended, the world changed its colour.

*Bleargh*

As she said. I cannot take it. *Bleargh* So MUCH power.

"You're... a Player" These were my last words before I felt my consciousness slip.

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Luna POV:

The deed is done. It is not normal for me to behave in such a way. I wanted to reveal myself yet now I'm not so sure. I don't want to feel this way. Thinking this my eyes went to Evileyes form on the ground. My feet led me to her, where I slowly and carefully took her in a princess carry. This is strange. My feelings resemble a maelstrom right now, even I don't know any longer what am I feeling with one exception. I like it. Her form in my arms so small yet gives me so much joy. I could easily kill her now but I don't want to. She's obviosly older than she looks and reacted most precariously to my confession of being a vampire. Maybe this feeling when we met...

My eyes landed on her hands. Gloved obviosly and additionaly chained. Taking off her gloves while shattering her chains a ring reveales itself to me, is it a inhibition ring? Is she also a vampire? Taking it off a bit for the ring to lose its effect but still bel on her finger a feeling invades me.

Yes... she's a vampire... a vampire princess? How cliche but not unwelcome. She's eternal like me. Still able to die yet ageless. This is enough for me to be sure. My body knew even before me. The ring prevented my mind to know the truth, but my body knew from the start, so it picked her. Not as a mate, no, but as an object of interest. Rest lies in my hands. A chance at happines, to fulfill my deepest desire. I won't waste it.

Leaving said ring again on her finger as it was, putting her glove back, my eyes again wandered to her form and finally her mask. Can I look? I allowed her so maybe? I already know she's a vampire.

My hand moved towards Evileyes mask moving it.

Finally my eyes landed on her face. She really is similar to me beatiful blonde hair, pale delicate skin... cute fangs poking from her lips. My hand moved once again, this time to her cheek cupping it while a finger touched her lips. I can feel a small smile forming under my mask. A real smile. Am I content? Definitely. Was it worth the risk? Defininitely.

"Beautiful" I murmured contently

I want to feel more of it. This feeling. So intoxicating yet so nice.

While I cannot understand all of it. I can learn about it.

My heart finally gets what it wanted. I have finally found her. My treasure. Isn't that right?

How long will it last? That I do not know, hopefully for eternity. I only know for sure that I WILL do all I can to soak in this feeling. Everything in my power to remain here. Only she will have the power to stop me. Only she will have any say in this. Only she matters now. Nothing else.

[Create greater item]

Materializing a bench to sit upon, still gazing on Evileye I moved to sit there.

Waiting for her to wake up...

What will she do? Am I too fast with all of it? Maybe... but I can take it slower now. I just don't know how to begin. If it's mutual love between us, then everything will go well. In the end, only feelings matter... right?