My Beautiful Senpai

By

RoughHero76

Chapter 1 - The Confession

I still remember my summer vacation clearly and the day, which changed my life forever. it was a hot day, Sun was at its peak and below that sun, I was standing in front of my ex-upperclassmen aka My Beautiful Senpai.

My Name is, Riel, Katsuki-

“ S---Senpai! P--Please G--G-G Go Out With me!? “

I suddenly found myself Confessing to the most beautiful girl, who used to be my senpai, someone who studied at my school but graduated. At the park.-we were all alone, there was no one around us. (Because of heat on that day)

"Huh? P---Pr--?"

And Now When I think about it, she sure was in a shock--

To be honest I had never thought I will be conveying my feelings to my senpai.

When I saw her the first time at the train station, I fall in love with her. It was what would you call, love at first sight.

And Right now, She was standing in front of me. Her face was red and her eyes, they were avoiding me. She must be disgusted by my look and personality. but still, for me, She's most beautiful I met without a doubt. That's the thought that came into my mind while looking at her

Fukai Hina -Her hair is long and raven-black, which beautifully suits her slightly tanned skin. Her eyes, framed by long lashes, are a bright, sky-blue. a straight nose, full lips. She is a living definition of the word "Beautiful" (5.1feet tall,)

Compared to her, I, Riel Katsuki am nothing but a pervert. (5.11feet tall)

All I did in the class, was gaze upon the blue sky or adore girls from a distance. I am not even an average looking guy, Having a slim face with a slim body and a long neck doesn't help.

I had given up on her, I had buried those feelings of mine deep inside my heart but yet, a smile, that's all it took from her to ruin my efforts and here I was standing in front of her, to share those feelings of mine--

it has been more than 5 minutes since I confessed and she has yet to speak a word, let alone answer.

Her silence started to act like a poison to me. I started to lose my strength, my feet slowly started shaking, I was losing my grip. All of it, Her silence, The way she avoided looking at me and the way she--All of it manifested a thought in my mind " She doesn't even wanna answer to my confession? "

I am below average. I never had any strong point in me, Nothing stood out of me. So, I wouldn't be surprised if that was the case but--

I was about to cry.

I felt really stupid at that moment, I knew I was going to be rejected but deep down in my heart, I had a little hope but to think, She wouldn't even-- I was really about to cry. I felt like standing at the edge of a cliff, Behind was- myself, composed and calm and when I looked down from that cliff, I see Katsuki, Crying like a baby- Pathetic. If I fall from here I would never able to return- but when I became conscious of that thought, I was already falling- The thought, It manifested in something that pushed me from that cliff.

I looked down towards my shoes as soon as I realized it, to hide my face.

What the hell I was even thinking!?

I had always thought of myself as a strong person, not physically but-- to think I was this weak.

To reject my weakness---

I turned around to walk away, to never look back again even though it would be hard but I will not look back!

With that thought, I tried to bury those feelings of mine once again.

As I started walking away, I felt as if my shirt was stuck somewhere but when I looked behind myself, I see Senpai griping my shirt with both of her hands.

many thoughts emerged in my mind when I saw her hands grabbing my shirt, to answer a single question and the question was, Why is she griping my shirt?

Does she want to stop me? But why would she want that? is she mad because some lowly person like me confessed to her?

I was scared to turn around, the fear of her insulting my feelings that I have for her, it was overwhelming but if I didn't turn around-

No, I can't do it. I can't just walk away. I have to face the consequences of my actions.

I gathered all of my courage and turned around, to answer her action that stopped me

She was still holding onto my shirt but now from the front, still looking down with the same silence as before and top of that, this time I couldn't walk away like before but at the moment what was bothering me

-TOOOO CLOSE! She is too close!!

I could even hear her breathing, feel her warmth.

With my broken words, I mumbled

" S--Senpai??? "

She was already too close to me and yet, instead of releasing my shirt, she started to get closer and before I knew, She was already sticking to me. there was nearly no space between the two of us.

But even though she was this close, I couldn't see her face because of her short height.

What about me? You can imagine a cooker which is about to explode. That's all I can say, my mind was fuzzy and I felt as if I was hallucinating. I couldn't quite comprehend what was happening.

But that fog suddenly faded away when she suddenly spoke with her firm voice and asked me a question, while she slowly wrapped her arms around me and tightened her grip.

" Ar, Uh-- you are, are you serious about me, right?"

"Eh? "

That caught me off guard, I didn't know what she meant by that but then I realized something, She had wrapped her arms around me as if she was monopolizing me after my confession and now she was asking if I was serious? Did she doubt my confession?

" O--Oof!. Of course, I am serious about Senpai. "

I almost shouted those words out loud but after realizing it. I lowered my voice and replied to her, as calmly as I could.

When she heard my reply, she tightens her grip around me a bit more and hid her face on my chest.

-Wha---What is happening? is this a dream?

Thus I started to doubt reality itself. I had prepared myself for the worst possible outcome but not for something like this, a hug from her just after the confession! though I was happy, still I can't say I was soundly happy.

The reality is, I was someone below average in every aspect, nothing stood out from me. I didn't expect a positive reply, even though there was a lingering feeling deep down in my heart, hoping for a "Miracle".

The miracle, It would have been if she accepted my confession but--

After hearing my answer, she remained silent. After a few moments of that silence, she loosens her grip around me and let me free. that sure was a depressing moment for me, I wanted her to hold me a bit longer.

After letting me free, she crossed her hands behind her back and then said

" I see "

Those words seemed soft and calm. she continued with her words while gently asking

" Could you bend a little? so, I could reach you. "

-For what?

So, I thought to myself.

I don't why I didn't realize what she was going to do, it could be that I didn't expect her to do something like.. but when lowered my face towards her---- She suddenly kissed me on my lips! and I was not even able to react to it.

And the panic, chaos follows in my mind

-What the heck! What the heck! What the heck! she is kissing me?! Why? but She is! But This is my first kiss! how this could be!

It was my first kiss, for my first kiss I had a romantic scene in my mind. NOT ANYMORE.

I never expected senpai to kiss me out of blue, I mean I never seen or heard something like this of happening before. Girl kissing a boy even before accepting his confession?

I started to calm myself down.

-calm down, calm down......Though her lips-- They, they are touching mine!! (More panic)

At first, I was panicking but after realizing that the girl I love, she is kissing me on her own accord- It could be once in a lifetime chance and with that, I started to burn this moment in my heart, to never be able to forget it.

I stayed there, lowering myself to her lips while they were touching mine.

If I were to describe her lips, I would say they were soft and gentle, soothing on my lips.

My eyes were wide open when she kissed me and I kept them open until the end! not even once I blinked! Well, I was finally able to see her face this up close. (<-- it was too close that I couldn't see much of her face)

To be honest, I wished for this moment to last forever but it didn't. After a few seconds, she slowly backed off from me and the moment that felt more like a dream came to an end when reality struck.

I was left in a shock, wondering why she'd something like this. could it have been something to get me back for my confession? The way she kissed me, I felt--- Does the kiss even held even any meaning for her?

How terrible I was, to be able to think something like that in front of her, about her. About the girl I love.

Both of us were standing facing each other, though she was still avoiding looking at me. I tried hard to understand, to come up with a reason for her to kiss me out of blue like this but I failed. I did consider her kiss as an answer for my confession but Senpai, She is not that kind of person. She would answer straight forward. That is also why, When she didn't answer to my confession, I considered her silence as a reply that- She doesn't even want to answer something so stupid, that she didn't consider my feelings worth to answer.

Thus I wanted to ask her and I did.

" Senpai? Why? "

-Does that kiss even meant something to you?

Somehow I was not scared anymore, rather I was ---the thought of that kiss, not holding any meaning for her overwhelmed my fear.

And She answered

" I---I'M SORRY! Katsuki-Chan! for doing som---"

"........"

Now, even though I expected this reply from the very start but-- to still feel this hurt..?

-Eh---Hehehe, it didn't mean anything to her.

At that moment, I told myself, " You fucking moron! she would never go out with someone like you. Stop daydreaming. wake up from your delusion! "

Indeed I was daydreaming. After all, I didn't hear anything except those words from Senpai.

I didn't even wait for senpai to finish the sentences and was frozen stiff, tears started pouring out from my eyes. How stupid and pathetic I must have looked at that moment in senpai's eyes.

" Eh? " -Bu--But Why? even though I expected this outcome, even though I was prepared for it----

I didn't realize at that moment my tears were pouring out from my eyes.

" I---I'M SORRY! Katsuki-Chan! for doing som...Katsuki-Chan? What's wrong Katsuki-chan? Di-Did I do something? "

As soon as I realized I was stupidly crying like a baby, I started to wipe those tears with both of my hands in panic, worried that she saw me crying now What would she think of me but...  What does it matter now?

While wiping my tears, I answered to senpai

" Hu? So--Sorry Senpai! it's...It's nothing, please don't worry about "

" But... "

I did not want to hear the words she was about to speak, I did not want her to see me crying like that, I was not ready to hear any insult towards my feelings from senpai's mouth- I started to walk away with that-- as she called me and mumbled

" Katsuki-Chan?- " ples..w--wait

But, There was still something that I wanted to tell her before I leave but I did not dare to look back at her while showi--

Yet, I turned and put up a really big smile on my face while my tears were kept pouring out from my eyes and said

"Senpai, Please don't kiss someone before upright rejecting him, It could cause a misunderstanding. "

She was dumbfounded when she heard me say that. How sad, How tragic This Love is.

There was a huge misunderstanding between senpai and me.

******

Chapter 2 - Undying Love~

My name is Riel Katsuki, Given name- Katsuki, Family name- Riel.

A 16-Year-Old, High School Student, Who live alone.

I stayed alone for most of my life, I never once wanted to have friends. To me, making a friend seemed more like a bother than anything but that changed, Something changed about me When I saw her for the first time at the train station- They way she walked in front of me, not giving even slightest hint of hesitation in her own beauty. For the first time, I wanted to get closer to someone, I wanted to talk to her.

I was standing there admiring her beauty and she notices me, she looked at me and smiled as if she knew I'd fall for her. She left me there wondering "How could someone have this much of confidence?" though it was not as if she was wrong, I was already in love with her, That's all it took for me to fall in love.

How ashamed I was of myself, to fall in love with her just like this.

At that day, I learned for the first-hand, How unexpected, How unfair love is.

I thought, " Will I ever meet her again? " She was unknown to me, a stranger. I came back home while trying to not worry about it too much since the new school semester was starting tomorrow (2nd Year of High School).

at home, I made a meal for myself and went to bed early but spent the night- repeating the scene I been through at the train station, imagining many scenarios, similar to "What if she had started a conversation?, What if I was a handsome and cool guy? How would she have responded?"

and then, Imagining myself as a hero and her, as a heroine- Saving a fantasy world together, having a lot of fun and going through an adventurer while defeating the demon king.

-What the hell I was doing yesterday night?

I was a mess in the morning. I didn't get sleep at all, I was so busy fantasizing about the girl I saw at the train station that I even creeped out myself.

I went to my high school, not so looking forward to the 2nd year I was about to spend in my high school.

And surely, I was not ready for the surprise that was waiting for me in my school, not at all.

To think, the girl I'd fall in love was a transfer student in my school.

Instead of being happy, I was scared. I was scared What would she thinks of me now that she will find out how much of a loner and pathetic I am, who doesn't even have a single friend. It was the first time that I had worried about something like this.

but to my relief I quickly learned, She was a year above me. She was my senpai.

-What would have I done if she was in the same class as me?

I am still not sure what would I've done if she was in the same class as me but--

I spent my whole new year at the high school, learning more about her (didn't stalk her.) and I came to realize from what I had learned- She is someone that I could never hope to reach.

"...."How should I express, the sadness I felt at that time in words alone?

--be it sport or study, she excels at everything, on top of that She is a gentle person who is kind to everyone, even to me(She once greeted me in a morning). Some boys confessed to her, they came back with a smile on their face as if they might have lost the battle but greatly appreciated the experience.

"What the heck? "

I investigated and what I found was; She rejected everyone and to not hurt anyone she even went to say, " Please don't worry, it just not you. right now, I am not interested in any of boys "

And the first thing came into my mind when I heard that, " Yuri? She is interested in girls! " it really shocked me but thankfully the next boy who confessed to her had the same thought in his mind as me and asked her. I sure was glad to know, She was not a lesbian.

and I came to understand why the boys were like that, it just not them that got rejected from her, whoever confesses to her in future will also be rejected thus there was no jealousy in them.

I took a breath of relief after learning she doesn't have a boyfriend, though it also meant there was no chance even for me. She even rejected the most handsome guys in the school. I had the lost the battle even before it begins, knowing what would be the outcome.

I don't quite understand it but knowing the outcome, knowing that everyone got rejected and will be, it just won't be me, That gave me courage that I needed to convey my feelings to her.

And I did just that, in the summer vacation but I found out that I wasn't even someone, who was worth answering.

How Stupid I felt at that moment, How envoys I was to those boys who at least got rejected, whom feelings were at least answered with honesty.

******

Chapter 2 - Undying Love, Part 2

"Senpai, Please don't kiss someone before upright rejecting him, It could cause a misunderstanding. "

With those words, I left senpai standing there in the park and came back home.

When I opened the main door of my home and stepped inside, as always there was nothing but silence; I live alone. dropped my school bag on the couch and directly went to the shower- I stayed in the shower for a while.

Afterward, I went to sleep.

"My comfy bed, That's what I need right now. "

I felt empty as if the world had lost all of its meaning-

There was not a single shred of remorse, Guilt, Sadness, in me. Weird, isn't it?

-When will this foolish life of mine end?

With that thought, I slept

{Next Morning}

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The alarm clock woke me up in earl-- No, It was around 6 am, I didn't set alarm clock since I didn't plan to go to the school today and rest.

"Then, Its doorbell."

I live alone so, there wasn't anybody who would answer the door and I was not in the mood for guests in this early morning- I kept on sleeping

once again, I was wakened up by the doorbell. This time I looked at the clock and it was 7:40 AM- I had no choice but to get up from my bed and answer- I was still in Jersey, I walked to the door and opened it

To my surprise, I found senpai at the door- Waiting,

"Katsuki-Chan! Are you fine now? "

" uh?"

"S--Senpai! What are you doin'-- Senpai? " -Why would senpai come to my house---

And then I looked on her sides, what was beside her were two huge bags

-Is she planning on leaving the town? Did she come here to say goodbye?

" - You see, I, Hmm-- I was thinking if-- you... "

She was planning to leave the town, was it because of what happened yesterday?- With that, I started to blame myself.

-Am I that disgusting that if I confessed to a girl, she would leave the town?

I bowed down to her and apologized to

" I'm Sorry Senpai! if I had known that my confession would make you leave the town I would never have confessed to you! "

Even if she thinks of me someone who doesn't worth her answer, I couldn't possibly cause problems to her- Everyone has their likes and dislikes, I can't do anything if she doesn't like me. She has a lot of friends and her family in the town and if she left because of what happened yesterday, if she was leaving because someone like me had confessed to her- I wouldn't be able to forgive myself

" If my confession bothers you that much, I will leave the town for you! I will never show my face in front of you-"

It was fine for me to leave the town, In the end- I don't have a family or friends, unlike senpai.

" It was my fault that I confes--- "

After that, What came next was something I deserved- Something that needed to me wake me up from my world, filled with--

And that was a slap on my cheek. My first time getting slapped by a girl, what can I say, It was heartbreaking.

-Senpai?

But when I looked up, towards senpai- She was already leaving. I kept standing there, trying to comprehend what was going on?

I was ready to leave the town for her, so why?

"Huh? "

While Senpai was getting further and further away from me and I didn't know what I was supposed to do with the feeling that kept coming like a wave that I won't be seeing senpai ever again if I let her go now but-

-How can I stop her? It is because of me she is leaving. It--its all my fault.

Only if I had placed myself in senpai's shoes, I would have understood everything but I was too self-centered to do that- *Sigh* Thankfully there something that hit me at that time, the question that I am grateful to, and the courage that came with that question.

" Did I even let her speak--? "

Maybe that slap did a number on my brain, in a good way. Until now all I was doing, making decisions for me and for her too- I was deciding things on her behalf too. I didn't grasp on everything but that small question was all I needed to act at that time

" SENPAI! "

At least, I was changing, even if a little by little.

So, I called out to her in a loud voice and ran to her

When I reached her I was out of breath, -Damn she walked quite a far for someone of her height and legs. (Including those heavy-looking bags)

" Katsuki-Chan? "

She looks straight into my eyes, it was the first time she did something like that- And I was finally able to see, Her eyes were wet, a little red as if she was crying just a few seconds ago

"Hi--- Senpai, Th--The question you asked earlier, I think-- I am fine now"

Yea, right The question she asked when I opened the door for her as(was) if I was fine or not- This time I had also decided no matter what, I will let her decide for herself and simply answers her questions, listen to her words

She smiled a little and said

" I see "

-Now what?

I would listen to her words, huh?

" Senpai? "

" Katsuki-Chan ?"

I looked around myself and realized we were standing in the middle of a street but asking something like that-- It was embarrassing since I never asked anyone

" Would-would- you mind a dr--drink???? "

And we ended up at my house.

-What gives? I thought for sure that she would refuse my offer and would be angry but--

She was rather comfortable as if she was in her own house--

She sat on a couch, I gave her a drink (Juice)

She started to drink her juice and after finishing the juice, I thought she would say something but she didn't and her stomach started to growling

"Senpai, I will make something. Please wait "

she nods her head and I started making breakfast- The atmosphere was awkward

While I was making breakfast, She came to me and asked

"Katsuki-Chan? Can I help you with something ?"

" Aha, No there is no need for that. I am just making an omelet so... " -There is nothing much you can do and I also already had split the eggs

She replied while looking a little disappointed

" Umm "

-Sorry senpai, but seriously- There is nothing you can do.

After that, She started looking around the house(Are you gonna buy it?) and It kinda also started to weird me out by the way she was making herself home.

When I was done making breakfast, I put plates on the table and served it

" Thank you for the meal "

Said Senpai before starting to eat

When we were done eating, she insisted on cleaning dishes so, I let her. The atmosphere between us had somewhat become light and we were talking a little but I knew, She was about to leave the town so, I had no choice but to engage the conversation on the subject that I avoided in fear that she would get angry like before.

So, while we were cleaning dishes I said

" I'm sorry senpai for causing you all the troubles "

I expected her to be angry just like the time before but she wasn't, she replied calmly with a question, That question was a really hard one for me to answer

" Kotsuki-Chan, Tell me do you regret that much, confessing to me? "

If she had asked me this question now I'd reply to her without the slightest hesitation that "I don't!" but the situation was different for me at that time, I always saw the world in a different perspective than others around me-

At that time my answer was

" somewhat-- I do "

How could I not? If only I had not confessed, she would not have to leave the town.

But to my surprise, I received an answer from senpai that I had never expected, with a face that I never knew she had

"Eve--Even though I--- I Haven't pr--properly answered to you? "

The perfect figure that I made out of her in my mind, was shattered into pieces when I saw her face while she said that to me and Tears started pouring out of her eyes

I wish---I wish I could go back in time and punch myself for making her cry. From saying something that I wasn't even sure of

How stupid, how selfish I was.

******

Chapter 3 - For eternity, I've loved you

"Eve--Even though I--- I Haven't pr--properly answered to you? "

-Senpai?

I was shocked to see, my senpai crying and Stood there, speechless. I was not able to find any words that I could speak- I was scared to hurt her more since I knew for the fact, Whatever reason is- It is because of me that she is crying

But still, I couldn't stand it- seeing the person you love crying like that hurt. I had to do something or at least say something to her and so I did

It was a move that I took while I was desperate to do something for her

" If---if that!!, can senpai answer me rig-right now? "

-Even though I know the answer but this way, I could just maybe change the subject in a positive view, at least for senpai. (<-- Felt like digging my own grave)

It's gonna hurt a lot if she says my feeling doesn't even worth her consideration

"Eh? "

" Senpai, Would you go out with me? "

And this time, My words were not broken but crystal clear and to make my feelings that much clear

" KK---kat--suki-Chan?? "

" I fell in love with you when I saw you for the first time at the train station, It has been more than a year and I haven't once stopped thinking about you. Even though I knew that my feelings could never reach you, I tried. I did my best and tried hard to convey my feelings to you "

-I have been through a lot in the last two days, I am ready for the worst possible outcome because I have already achieved the goal that I set in my mind before confessing to senpai one more time. She is not crying anymore. I am happy.

I wanted to surprise her by my stupidity if my stupidity could help her smile if it can stop her from crying even for a moment- when I look at her and saw her smiling face. my stupidity, It was worth showing it.

But now, For her answer, if there was any- Senpai, she said

"I am not gonna-- "

-I am not gonna date someone disgusting like you? is that what she is about to say? I wanna run away so bad!

" I am not gonna ruin my chance like before-- "

-Damn it! I am ready, I ain't gonna run like before.

This was the only time that I can say, I am truly proud of myself for making the right decision and holding myself back.

"I am not gonna ruin my chance like before, so Yes. "

" I'M SORR--! That I am so disgusting---Wait, Yes? " I was so ready to beg, for her to stay in the town and to insist, I would leave the town instead of you but--

-EH????????? Did senpai just accept my confession? Am I dreaming?

Yes, She did just that and I was happy beyond words but as my personality is, For me, it was too good to be true. Thus I started thinking like before, coming up with stupid thoughts like- Is she planning to bully me? is she gonna mock me once I have shown my happiness?

But thankfully by this time, Senpai came to understand my personality or at least that's what I can make out of words that she spoke at that time

" You say, You been in love with me for a year but- for eternity, I've loved you"

" Huh? "

I can't blame past me for not understanding those words since I still don't quite understand them myself what she meant by those words. Thus I took those words as a hint that she understood my personality and she wanted to make sure that I don't misunderstand senpai's answer and as she said with a big smile on the face

" Don't worry, you will understand one day." Said senpai.

Even though I didn't understand what she meant by that, it still made me happy but also, those words gave me an unsettling comfort.

I am waiting for that day to understand the meaning behind those words if there is any.

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Chapter 4 - Reality or a Dream?

Those words sure surprised me and gave me unsettling comfort but there's something more important that I wanted to ask now that I knew her feelings

"Senpai, If that the case- Why do you have to leave the town? " -Is there someone bothering you? I am gonna kick his ass if there is! (Or I will get kicked my ass for your sake!)

Those last words were something that I thought to myself only and didn't say out loud to her

"No! I was not about to leave the town. "

" So then why? " -you have your packed bags with you?

" Let's clean the dishes first, we can talk later"

" umm okay. "

So, I agreed and we cleaned the dishes, now we were sitting at the dining table while facing each other

" So, Senpai? "

When I asked that question, Senpai was a little embarrassed, which seemed awkwardly cute to me-- Aha, That guilty pleasure.

With that embarrassed face, she answered while she paused for multiple time

"Hm-- You see... I was thinking... If I could "

" Senpai, Don't tell me its something that you don't wanna talk about. If that's the case, I am fine with it. "

"That's not it! its ju--st I was thin...thinking if I coud.. "

She sure paused herself multiple times, but when you know what she was about to say, you could somewhat understand why she was hesitating to say it- I waited and finally, she took a deep breath and said it

"*Deep-breath* I was thinking if --If umm If I could live with you? "

See? I was shocked too

" Come again? "

" you know, you have to take responsibility for your girlfriend! "

Is she serious? it has not even been 10min since she accepted my confession and now she wants to live with me? Well, it's fine since she is my girlfriend. It would've been kinda cool if that time, something like this came to mind but instead what I thought was

-S--senpai?? She said she is my girlfriend!!! I am so happy!

How uncool of me.

" If th---THAT'S! what senpai want!? I don't mind it at all! "

I might call myself a pervert but I was innocent, at that time I didn't quite understand the meaning of" living under the same roof with your girlfriend " but I was about the experience it first-hand

Senpai seemed happy that I didn't decline her request, too happy, she was smirking, Disturbingly.

I didn't mind living with her rather I was happy, I was alone in this house and there was no one coming back since I don't have a family-- No, sorry I should be saying, I didn't have any family since I do now. I have Senpai

-but what about her? doesn't she have someone waiting for her?

" But senpai? Is that fine with you? "

" Of course, it is. "

" No. I mean, What About your family? "

" Family? --

She smiled and resumed with her words

" Don't worry, I have their permission. "

I accepted her answer without any question because Senpai had already graduated from high school and now, She was in a college- She is an adult I guess, she can make her own decisions for her future. That's what her parents must have thought.

My house, It was big for me alone. There were in total three rooms upstairs (2nd floor) and one of them was occupied by me but the other two were pretty much empty though they did have all the necessary things for someone to live in -Like a bed, Tv, work-table- Things like that. There was not much on the first floor, a couch, Tv- In Hall, Dining table, Kitchen---- Wait, Maybe I am underestimating my own house.

If you are wondering, When I live alone, How I can pay the bills and buy a house like this so let me tell you, I won a hefty lottery not long ago, even though I don't remember buying any lottery ticket. It was strange but I accepted the prize for a simple reason; I didn't want to stay on the street forever.

Anyways, I have so much money that I could live-off my life on that money alone but since I don't want to be-- I am also working as a web designer in my free time.

I told senpai about the room upstairs and moved her bags to the room, Those bags were pretty heavy-- I asked her while she was unpacking her bags and moving her clothes around

"Senpai, tell me If you need anything else."

" Yes, I will Katsuki-Chan "

So, She said but maybe because I was finally a little calm, I noticed something peculiar.

-Huh? Wait

"Senp--Senpai? "

Something really strange

" Katsuki-Chan? "

-She is using it!! but why?

"Sen--Senpai! you are usi--you are using my given name? "

The given name is only used by someone close to you or at least if you have given that person permission to use it so why senpai was using it, I couldn't understand that. She suddenly stopped unpacking and asked

" Uh?---- Should I not? "

She seemed surprised by my question but changed her tone quickly.

" Aha, No-- it's fine. " It's embarrassing though.

" *Smile* Thank you, Katsuki-Chan "

But seriously why? People here my country, they don't use someone's given name just like that, It holds a deeper meaning and shows that you are close to each other.

-I am not gonna lose though!

" Senpai! Ma--May I.. May I use your-- "

" Of course, Katsuki-Chan. We are going out after all. "

She didn't even wait for me to properly ask her and allowed me to use her first name

-Here it goes!

So, I closed my eyes for moment and--

" Hi--Hina- Senpai!? "

She must have seen my face with embarrassed expression- when I called her while using her first name

But when I looked at her, I saw her standing up and slowly walking towards me and I thought to myself, -Maybe I wasn't allowed to use her given name? anyway, I am dead.

-She is angry! She is angry! even she allowed me to use it though?

When she got closer to me I closed my eyes, ready to face my demise! but she held my face with both of her hands and--

-Huh?

And those soft lips touched mine once again.

-Senpai, She is kissing me?

After a few seconds, she let my lips go and while still holding my face with both of her hands

I could hear and feel her warm breathing and see the red face she had while said

" I--I'm Sorry Katsuki-Chan, It just that I couldn't hold myself back after I heard you say my name after so long "

-She was holding herself back?

She sure loves doing something like this out of the blue but I was happy, too happy that I lost myself in the moment and wrapped my arms around her and Kissed her, This time it was me who kissed her- For the first time in my life, I kissed a girl! (Hurray, You did buddy, now you are---no, you got a long way, too go)

With that, I came to understand that there is no deeper behind her intention of becoming my girlfriend, what was happening, it was the truth. The moment I am living in was not a dream but reality, That she is my girlfriend and That kiss proved it.

I couldn't think of her as someone who would mock me or anyone's feelings anymore.

And so, I embraced her in my arms.

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{ I know I don't have much time but, Let me just finish this. }

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Chapter 5 - A Troubling Night With Senpai. Part - 1

Plenty of things happened in a short span of time but In the end, I found myself living under the same roof with my Senpai, No, She is now Girlfriend.

Hina-Senpai, She used to be my senior in High School and right now, She attending a college while she lives with me- I don't know her exact age but she is around 18 years old now, Its just an estimate. I don't have guts to ask her about her age. I was a year below her so, you can guess I am 17 years old.

Yes, She is older than me (I am taller than her though).

So, I helped her to unpack her bags. It was going fine but the awkwardness hit when she found me shuffling through her underwears.

I swear, I didn't mean to do that- I wasn't looking. (They were warm for some reason though)

But She forgave me anyway and the day concludes with that.

I went to my room and started checking my email, I was expecting my pay today from work that I have done a few days ago for a website.

" Here it is. So, He sent the money-- But still, I can't get used to him-- not at all "- Such a weirdo

I found the mail regarding the payment.

The email was something like

From - Boimo*****

Subject - Money! Boi Money!

YO!

I sent the money that we agreed on, to your bank account and thanks again, for your hard work. You did a great job on optimizing the website, It used to take a lot of time to open and surf through pages but now, it works flawlessly!

Your buddy, Chuki-Muki! Boi!

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Chuki-Muki, He is someone that I've never actually met in person. He occasionally hires me to change, optimize his websites to make it easier for users to use. This time, The website was suffering from heavy traffic, Images posted on the website were High-Resolution which didn't help so, I wrote a script to rescale the Images when they are posted- Also, I made Home-Page a little lighter for users who don't have a fast internet connection to reduce the load time and that made a drastic difference.

By the way, The person who made the website was Chuki-Muki himself and He is self-taught so, You can expect a lot of bugs and problems from his website.

Anyway, I received my payment and did my job with honesty- He will send me an email if there something else he wants me to change or do.

I scratched my hands behind the chair in relief that I finally got the money from the work- Spending money that I worked for, It gives me a sort of satisfaction

" Either way, What a strange fellow but still an interesting person to talk--!? "

But my hands came in contact with something soft

"uh? "

" What are you doing? Katsuki-Chan "

Having your girlfriend lives with you, it surely brings its perk and trouble. Those were boobs that my hands just came into contact and that startled me

" Sen--Senpai?? "

-She was behind me this whole time? I didn't notice her at all!

" What's wrong Katsuki-chan? Your face is all red."

" aha, It's nothing. Ummm, It just that senpai startled me. "

She couldn't tell that I was embarrassed? Like heck, I would believe that!

I thought of Senpai as a girl who would come straight-forward with whatever goes in her mind but I started to learn, That's not the case at all. Not at least when it comes to me. Senpai, She is hard to understand.

She took a step back and replied while she avoided eye contact

" I see, Sorry about that. "

-Senpai?

I've seen this expression from senpai before, It was when I confessed to senpai for the first time. She had this same look in her eyes- The same expression.

" Senpai, Is there something troubling you ?"

" aha no, Katsuki-Chan. I am fine, I will go back now. "

She left the room after saying that and anyone could tell from her face that She was not fine. Something was bothering her but the question was,

-is it because of me? Could it be that she is regretting her de--- No, I shouldn't think like that.

I should have followed her and asked her " My dear love, tell me what is bothering you. I am here for you, you can rely on me " like a cool guy but I didn't, bad Habits are not easy to change- I was simply scared, What if it was actually because of me? How would I be able to take her answer when she says that She regretted her decision

It should have been one of more reasons for her to not like me.

For her to love me, It should have been nothing more than a dream of mine.

But still, I just went to bed. Worried about it but did nothing about it----

I should have at least tried.

It was midnight when I heard the door of my room opening- I was still awake but since the lights were turned off, I could only see a figure standing at the door

"Senpai? "

there was only one other person in this house and That person was a senpai. She didn't reply to me as if she was ignoring my words or couldn't hear anything.

She slowly started walking towards me and her facial expressions were hidden behind that darkness but now, I seriously still wonder- What kind of expression she must have had at that time.

She walked to the bed and sat down beside me in silence- She was now closer to me so, only a little but I finally could see her face

" Huh? Senpai, Are you okay? "

I was really confused about it (There got to be something that bothers her! but What is she doing? ) but then, She lay down on my bed as she said my name with a firm tone

" Kat-- Katsuki Chan!"

The way she called my name, She seemed determined for something and I was taken back by her action and determination she had

" YES! "

And then, There was a moment of silence between us. The determination, that she showed a few moments ago was seemingly blown away by the embarrassing expression came from those words she was about to say

" Katsuki-ch--Chan, Can-- Umm Can I sleep on your bed ?"

-Is her bed feels uncomfortable?

Please don't call me dense but That was the only conclusion I could reach at that time- Senpai, I had always thought of her as a perfect girl, Who doesn't--Shouldn't have the earthly desire

Though I was embarrassed she gonna use my bed to sleep on, It might stink of my sent which possibly could make her more uncomfortable than her own bed but-- I couldn't refuse to her request. (Weak Willed)

Remembering How easily I let her live in my house. (Not that I regret it)

" Y--Yes! Please go ah--ahead. "

So, I said and stood up, started walking outsi--

But She suddenly rose up from the bed in a surprise

" HUh? Katsuki-Chan? Where are you going!? "

-Outside?

" Uh, I am gonna sleep in the next room" -I can't just stay here now can I?

Those last lines were something that I thought to myself at that time as a joke but--

When I looked at her, She was directly looking back at me, I could see the grim look that she had on her face with The sign of sadness in her eyes.

It made me angry at myself, It was so obvious that something was bothering her but yet, I didn't ask her anything! I didn't even lend her my ears!

-What the hell... Fuck my self-centered personality!

I wanted a change in my life, I wanted a change in the stupid and foolish life of mine that I had and She will be the one who's gonna bring that change to me, For the first time- I wanted to get closer to another human being and now, even if she regrets her decision, I have to face it and deal with it for her sake.

And That's how

" Senpai--- You... You can tell me. " -I am ready to listen!

" Ah--I see, so-- don'--Don't mind if I do! Coul-Could K--Katsuki-Chan sleep--Ahah, Sleep beside me? " -What the hell I am even thinking?

-Eh?

And that's how I once again misinterpreted the situation and came to the conclusion that " I was certain that she was about to say, Get out of the house"

-What is she even asking??

Please do wait, Its gonna take a while for me to get out of the shock that I received from what senpai just had said.

" Katsuki-chan? Katsuki-chan?? Are you okay!? ple--please forget that I just mumbled something out of blue-- Aha god, I knew I shouldn't have asked something so strange! bu-but the tempting scent! I coul--" (so, on-- she started to mumble something )

I didn't hear anything---

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Chapter 6 - A Troubling Night With Senpai. Part - 2

-Listen Katsuki! It is okay to sleep beside someone, In the end, you are just sleeping beside a person. it doesn't matter if that person happens to be a girl, it doesn't matter if that girl is almost an adult, it doesn't matter if that same girl happens to be someone you love, It doesn't matter if that same girl happens to be your lover---- Aha? (One my of Hand Touches something) What's tha-- That's her butt! Am I--Am I even gonna survive until the dawn? Am I?

That question certainly was serious for me at that time, the sensation that I was receiving here and there was overwhelming my mind that I couldn't even think straight.

I become more conscious of all of my sense. I started to feel Senpai's warmth and the atmosphere became hot. Hot enough for me to turn Air conditioner all the way down to the minimum temperature.

So, I did just that but who knew it would lead to the more worst situation.

I heard senpai mumbles a few words

"s--col-d"

I felt relief for a few minutes and I fell half-asleep, the heat was gone and that cold air from the air conditioner seemed a blessing to me from the gods but it didn't take long for that blessing to turn into a curse.

Maybe because Senpai started to feel cold but she put one of her hand on me and that woke me up;- I was suddenly wide awake.

Instead of turning the air conditioner off, I tried to move senpai's hand away but that escalated quickly- Senpai, She refused to get that hand off me (In her sleep) instead she quickly tangled me with her hands and legs.

-Am I your teddy bear now?

But Senpai, surely she has some serious problems while she sleeps and about me, rather than being embarrassed by senpai sleeping on the same bed with me, now I became troubled.

Anyway, Since that calmed me down I could finally think straight with and right in mind, So, I gave up.

I turned towards (Though I struggled to a bit to do that) to senpai's side, to see her face and it reminded me something

" Her beauty, it sure does not fade away, even if she sleeps like a baby. "

It reminded how lucky I was, to be able to sleep even beside her, to be able to talk a beautiful girl like her and to be able to go out with her.

Anyways, I ended up struggling whole night but somehow I was able to survive till the dawn.

The sun rose up, a night was concluded but another one had shown its sign.

; End of Volume One

Thank you all for reading~!

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Now let's talk about the story.

Riel Katsuki, Our Protagonist- You should have already realized that he has some serious problems with his personality but deep down, He is a kind person and like everyone else, He does have a past which might come to light in next volume.

You might have got confused a bit, seeing how his personality was changed in mid-way but some of you must have also realized- He is kind of person who has a hard time to start something but it doesn't bother him to ride the present. It is hard to explain but it's like, how hard it was for him to tell his feelings to Hina but once she said yes, He becomes a little relaxed around her and slowly started to accept the reality that she loves him.

About our Heroine, To be honest- I agree that There was nothing much about her in this first volume and I also won't deny she has somewhat twisted personality. It is hard to comprehend her personality, even for me.

She has her reasons though.

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