"English isn't my first language, so please excuse any mistakes."

Bonds that word that defines the interaction with others in this society, people always seeks to relate to others so they can spend the day to day, obviously the human being is a social being that requires the company of others, want to live in society is very normal and necessary, yet I never felt such a need, after all, what was the point of that to what they call bonds?

I grew up with my parents but when I was 7 years old, my mother died, I really do not remember very well how she was, but what I do remember is like my father broke apart by his death, in fact not only him but many relatives, I remember the day of the funeral all had tears in his eyes, apparently my mother was a very dear woman.

However I did not understand why all was crying, all were in perfect condition, and so I knew the death of my mother in no way will affect their daily lives, actually many of those people were not family.

When people asked me if I was okay, I could only respond with a plain yes.

I just didn't know what relationship had the death of someone with me, even if that person was my own mother.

My father was a computer engineer and worked for a big company, but after the death of my mother he became very depressed, so when he received a job offer in Japan, my father did not hesitate for a second and decided that we had to move, I really do not care much as I mentioned I really did not relate to others, my father was the only link that really had so there was nothing to bond me.

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At first it was difficult because not only I had to learn the language but also had to learn the customs of Japan, that was the most difficult of all because Japan is a very cold country in reference hospitality, compared to Mexico where all are called friend or brother, here in Japan were more strict especially with the names, because not only was enough the name but it also should add relevant suffixes when you talk to someone as san or sama.

As I never really understood very well that I never made use of suffixes and because of it, I was seen as a rude, not to mention the fact that did not help much that I was a foreigner.

I stood more than an excoriated finger, so other children isolated me, but that did not matter I just lived my day to day without interacting with others.

I just thought I was being rational, after all what case had to try to live with those who do not care about you, however for those around me I was being apathetic.

By the time I realized this called apathy, the word loneliness had taken root deep inside me, however what I felt was not loneliness but something much more mundane.

That I felt was simple boredom.

Anyway those that form bonds to flee their reality will never understand this boredom.

That's why I never try to get close to anyone, there was no benefit, and remembering the face of my father in tears for the loss of a loved one, I realized that form bonds was something very dangerous.

Because of that I concluded that the best thing for me and those around me was wanting nothing, be enthusiastic about nothing and be as unmotivated as possible, thus no one could harm me and I could not hurt anyone.